Chapter 17

The next morning, I was at school early, I don't know why I began walking so early. Quinn had offered to drive me this morning but I politely decline saying I needed the walk to clear my head. Walking down the hallway towards my locker, which was near the choir room and I could hear music. Intrigued I look into the choir room and saw Rachel standing in the middle, getting ready to sing a song I knew but I didn't understand why she was singing this song. Quietly as possible I opened the door and entered the choir room; I made my way towards the seats and sat to watch Rachel in her moment.

Rachel: "I heard that you're settled down, that you found a girl and you're married now. I heard that your dreams come true, guess she gave things I didn't give you. Old friend, why are you so shy? Aint like you told hold back or hide from the light," as I watched Rachel singing there was this really rawness to her voice that I hadn't heard yet.

Rachel: "I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, but I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it. I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over."

Rachel: "Never mind, I'll find some like you. I wish nothing but the best for you too, don't forget me, I beg. I'll remember you said, sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, sometime it lasts in love but sometimes it hurt instead." There was something in this that Rachel was trying to get out or express but I couldn't pick what it was.

Rachel: "You know how the time files; only yesterday was the time of our lives. We were born and raised in a summer haze, bound by the surprise of our glory days."

Rachel: "I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited but I couldn't stay away, I could fight it. I'd hope you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over." When Rachel opened her eyes for the first time, she sees me sitting there watching and is surprised at first but continues with the song.

Rachel: "Never mind, I'll find some like you; I wish nothing but the best for you too. Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said, sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead. Nothing compares no worries or cares. Regrets and mistakes, they are memories made. Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?" Looking deeply into Rachel's eyes, I searched for the hidden message and when I found it, it hit me hard.

Rachel: "Never mind, I'll find someone like you; I wish nothing but the best for you. Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said, sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead. Never mind, I'll find someone like you, I wish nothing but the best for you. Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you sad, sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead. Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead." Rachel sang the last part of the song beautifully as always, she had given her all and I wasn't surprised when she collapsed to the ground exhausted emotionally.

Taking a deep breath, I stood up and move to crouch in front of Rachel; I asked my one question "How long have you loved her?"

"Since I met her, since forever," Rachel said sitting up to look at me with tears rolling down her cheek.

"I can't believe I didn't see it before now, it was so obvious."

"I'm good at hiding."

"Have you told Finn?"

"After everything you said in glee club yesterday, I thought about it and I was going to his place. However, he was on my front door step, he apologized for pressuring me into having sex. I realised it was unfair of me to keep this wonderful guy, when he wasn't what I wanted."

"Do you want her?" I asked nervous about her answer.

"While I love her and a part of me will always love her, I meant what I said yesterday. I want Quinn to be happy, she's happy with you. Bring my feelings into the picture would only cause her pain and I don't want that."

"What did you tell him?"

"He doesn't know about my feelings for Quinn, he just knows that I'm gay. That I've always been gay, I've always known but I am only facing up to it now."

"Was last night the first time you said, you were gay out loud?"

"Yeah, it's quite a powerful moment. Saying those words out loud, for everyone to hear. I mean it was only Finn but still, saying them; it's like nothing else I've experienced."

"I remember that feeling, it's like you can run a million miles or swim a million laps but at the same time you want to throw up."

"Who did you first tell you were gay?"

"Alison, she already knew. She had known for a long time but she allowed me the chance to come out to her."

I then asked, "Have you told your Dads?"

"They wanted to know why Finn and I broke up, we've had a pretty open relationship and so I told them. They still accept and love me, they are always going to be my Dads and will always be there, if I need them."

"That's amazing Rachel, it really is."

"Yeah, I don't think Finn thinks that way."

"How did he react?"

"He was very calm, calmer than I've ever seen before. I don't know if it's sunken in," I nod my head going over in my head what to say if I was approached by him.

I asked, "Are you going to tell the glee club?"

"I don't know. Part of me wants to tell them and another part wants to wait. Just soak in what it felt like to tell my ex-boyfriend and Dads."

"That's understandable. I didn't tell my parents for a while after I told my closest friends, the ones I could trust at the time."

"How did they react?"

"They weren't thrilled; I am a military brat after all. There was yelling, lots of staying at my friend's houses."

"That must've been terrible, I feel so lucky to have the Dads I have."

"Lucky, I have two friends in Rosewood who have just been kicked out for being gay. Their Mums actually blamed them being gay on me."

"Now that's rough, I'm going to hug my Dads when I get home."

"I haven't heard from them since leaving but they aren't living on the streets."

Well that's something, I guess," Rachel said nodding her head.

I then asked, "So are you okay?"

"I'm still trying to take everything in, but you don't have to worry. I'm not going to tell Quinn or anyone for that matter."

"Rachel, I don't mind if you tell Quinn or anyone. To say if Quinn would want to be with you instead, I wouldn't stand in her way. Her happiness is the most important thing to me as well, I'm not going to stand in the way of that."

"You really are one of the kindest people I have ever met, I don't think anyone could say that."

"Look you should tell Quinn, she really likes honesty. If things go well for you then I won't stand in the way and if it doesn't go well for you, then I know the great getting over someone cure."

"Okay now you're just going for saint of the year."

"I am definitely no saint, definitely not a saint."

Rachel asked, "Do you think that's because of Lyndon?"

"How can I be called a saint or a hero after what I did to him? He was a living, breathing person and I took that away. He is dead because of what I did. I didn't even try helping him, I was so scared that I didn't try to stop him from bleeding out."

"Emily, he was going to continue bleeding out and there wasn't much you could do to save him. You didn't do anything wrong, you were protecting yourself from him. He would've done the same to you in a heartbeat and you could've been the one dead."

"I'll never be able to forget what I did."

"Which is understandable but you have to forgive yourself, you need to forgive yourself Emily."

"That's a lot harder than it sounds."

"I know, you just need to try."

"I can try," I say nodding my head.

Rachel then said "My Dads are going away in a few weekend times and they don't want me staying home alone, they just worry. I was thinking about asking the glee girls and Kurt over to sleepover that weekend, but with you knowing about my feelings for Quinn, I'd understand if you'd rather me not ask her."

"Rachel ask her to the sleepover, she'll love it and I will to."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, we should probably get ready for classes."

"I've got everything I need for my morning classes."

Nodding my head, I say "I would offer to walk you to your first class but I need to go to my locker and get some books."

"Well then I can I walk you to your locker?"

"Sounds good," I push myself to my feet and offer a hand to help Rachel stand up as well.

Walking into the choir room at lunch time, I was very shock when I felt a fist connect to my face and from shock I fell backwards. Looking up while holding my eye, I see Finn standing there and he didn't look very happy. I had received a message from Finn saying our group was having a meeting at lunch in the choir room, I assumed everyone got one and I now realise it was a set up.

"What the hell?" I asked pissed off.

Finn begins to rant "I thought you were doing me a good thing but I should've known it was for personal gain."

"What are you talking about? Personal gain."

"Rachel, I saw you this morning. You two being all close, it makes me sick."

"Okay, can you catch me up here Finn?"

"You want Rachel; you want to be with Rachel. Everything you said yesterday was just a ploy to get her to your side. There is no way Rachel was gay until you came here, she was perfectly happy with me. I was so stupid to think what you were saying yesterday was true; you just wanted me thinking about something else. Things were just fine before you came here, you know what why don't you go back to wherever the hell it is you came from," I was in complete shock when a cold liquid tipped over my head.

Wiping the slushy from my eyes, I look in time to see Finn walking out of the choir room with a football player. I was very confused as to what had just happened, how Finn got it into his mind that I wanted to be with Rachel. Standing up slowly from the ground, I walk out into the hallway and try to work out what I was going to do. Walking down the hallway, I entered the closet bathroom to the choir room and was surprised to find Mercedes and Tina inside.

"Oh my, Emily are you okay?" Tina asked as they both swarmed over me.

I replied with "It's just slushy believe me chlorine in the eyes hurts a lot more than this."

"Really?" Mercedes asked surprised.

"Yeah, when I first started swimming people thought I was on some form of drug because my eyes were bloodshot red," I say as I began wiping at my neck with paper towel.

Tina asked, "Who did this?"

"I don't really know, apparently I deserve it," I shrug not wanting them to know it was Finn; especially since I wasn't sure if they'd believe me or not

"Do you have any spare clothing?" Mercedes then asked.

I answered with "No, I don't but if the person wants me to be covered in slushy then that's what I'll do for the rest of the day. Of course, Quinn's going to be piss, crap we share the next lesson together."

Tina asked "Are you sure you want to continue wearing slushy covered clothes? It gets sticky."

"Again this is nothing, my Coach back at Rosewood. Once made me spend two whole school days wearing water soaked clothes, she had me jumped into the pool wearing proper clothes and then had me stay in them for the rest of the day."

"She sounds worse than Sue," Tina spoke.

I replied with a smile "It was kind of fun, different and I deserved it. It was my punishment for missing a week of practice through suspension."

Mercedes spoke "Yeah we have very different ideas on what is fun," I laughed at Mercedes words thinking that was probably true. Raising my shirt up to reveal my flat stomach, looking through the mirror I can see it's purple and not liking the liquid coming through my shirt.

"That looks painful," Mercedes commented.

"It is but it was worth it," I shrug as I begin to lightly dub at my stomach with paper towel. Feeling my phone vibrating in my pocket, I stop everything I was doing to pull out my phone to see Quinn was calling me.

"Hey," I say trying to act as normal as possible.

"Hey, where are you? I'm with Maya and Brittany, they don't know anything about a practice for your group."

"Yeah it was a setup of sorts."

"What are you talking about?"

"It'll be easier explaining it in person, I'm in the girls bathroom closet to the choir room."

"Okay, be there soon," Quinn said quickly before hanging up the phone.

Tina said "You look to have things cover here, we'll leave you to it."

"Thanks for the help guys," I say appreciative and they both walk out of the bathroom.

Five minutes later I heard Quinn's voice ask behind the close door "Emily, are you in here?" Walking quickly over to the door I pull it open and allow Quinn inside. Once inside I lock the door and turn around to face Quinn.

"What happened to your shirt?"

"I was slushed."

"By who?"

"Finn."

"Why would Finn slushy you?"

"Wait you believe me?" I asked surprised at someone believing me that it was Finn.

"Of course I do Emily, why wouldn't I?"

"Sorry, I just didn't think anyone would believe me."

"That's understandable but I'm not anyone. Anyway, why did he slushy you?"

"He also punched me in the face," I point to the slightly more swollen eye.

"I don't get why Finn would do this."

"Finn and Rachel, they broke up last night."

"What why?"

"I can't tell you why, I know why because she told me but she has to be the one to tell you and in her own time."

"Okay, I trust you."

"So until you know that, I can't really explain his reasoning but in his mind it makes perfect sense."

"What can I do then? I have a spare shirt, it might be tight on you but it might be better than a sticky shirt."

"No, it's okay. I don't mind wearing a sticky shirt but do you know what I'd love to wear one day soon?" I asked stepping up closer to Quinn

"What's that sweetie?"

Wrapping my arms around Quinn's body and I whisper "My extremely hot, sexy girlfriends letterman jacket. You know the one she gets for being on the cheerleading squad."

"I think that can be arranged."

"Yeah."

"Definitely."

"I wondered what I'd look like in nothing but your lettermen jacket and what you'd look like in nothing but my shark's jacket." I watched as Quinn's eyes widen and she released a deep breath, her cheeks went all red and she had to blink serval times.

Stepping back nervous that Quinn hadn't said anything, I say "Sorry was that too much too soon?"

"No definitely not. I just got caught up with the idea of what those images would look for."

"Right, but we're not ready for that are we?"

"No Emily, I'm not ready but there's no reason why we can't fantasise with each other and talk about it."

"You'd be okay with that?"

"Yes Emily," Quinn spoke nodding her head intensely.

"Cool," a smirk comes to my face and Quinn smiles back at me. Just as I was about kiss Quinn the school bell rung making us both sigh in annoyance.

"Can I walk you to your class?"

"Emily, we have the same class."

"Okay then can I walk you to our class?"

"Yes you can."

"Awesome," I say while taking Quinn's hand and leading her out of the bathroom.

Walking into the choir room for a third time that day, I was flanked by Quinn, Brittany, Santana and Maya. Mr Schue had text us all during our second to last lesson of the day that glee club members all had to meet in the choir this afternoon. Mercedes, Kurt and Blaine were already in the choir room by the time we walked in, I was surprised not to see Rachel; she's always here early.

The five of us took some seats up the back; we all discussed what was going on confused as to why we were all here. Sam, Puck, Artie, Tina and Mike all entered the room five minutes after we had, apologizing to us saying their teacher held them back for a bit. When I saw, Rachel enter the room, she looked conflicted us to where to sit.

I yell "Rachel, over here," I usher her over to us and she takes the seat in front of me.

"Good classes?" I asked.

"Pretty average," Rachel said to which I nod my head. The teaching in Lima was nothing compared to Rosewood but there were a lot of things different about both places. Soon Mr Schue and Finn walked into the room together, I saw Rachel tense a little up at seeing him and I reach down to place a comforting hand upon her shoulder. When Rachel looks back up at me, she smiles her thanks and we both receive glares from Finn.

Kurt then asked, "Mr Schue, what are we all doing here?"

"Yeah, why aren't we in our groups rehearsing?" Mercedes added on.

Mr Schue brought a chair into the middle of us and looked up at us with apologise eyes, he goes onto say "Guys, we are going to forgo this competition."

"What!? Why!?" Is shouted, it's hard to pinpoint who said it first.

Mr Schue said, "I know you guys are disappointed but I've been met with some complaints about it, while I could switch people around it wouldn't be fair to the groups," looking across at Finn who was still glaring at me. Smirking to myself, I shake my head and lean back in my chair. Wrapping my arm around Quinn, who lays her head upon my shoulder and I kiss the top of Quinn's head. This only intensive Finn's glare and my smirk grow even bigger.

Mr Schue then said "However, I've come up with a way to solve the problem. Instead of groups, it's pairs; which will be chosen from the magical hat. Prize is still the same, it's just the duet solos instead of the group number," there are a few more complaints and some agreeing comments.

"Okay, Sam come on down," Mr Schue said holding the hat out. Collectively we move our feet to make a drum roll sound.

Sam pulls a name out and said "Mike," they both nod their head and move to sit next to each other.

"Blaine," Mr Schue ushered.

We continued the foot drum roll sound, which was very fun and Blaine reads his piece of paper out "Brittany," I watch as Brittany clings onto Santana. Blaine picks his bag up and move to take the seat next to Brittany.

"Maya," as Maya stands up she flicks my ear jokingly and lovingly.

Maya pulls out her piece of paper and reads out "Mercedes," I see they share a collective nod. Maya moves to sit with Mercedes, they automatically have a whispered conversation.

"Puck," Mr Schue calls.

Puck struts down to him and pulls out a piece of paper out, he said "Alright bros forever, I got Artie," they both high-fived happy about getting paired up together.

"Finn," Mr Schue said offering the hat to Finn's outstretched arm.

Finn then reads out "Mr Schue," I silently laugh in my head but I notice Rachel shoulders relax instantly at not having to work with him.

"Emily, you're up," Mr Schue said.

I disconnect myself from Quinn, placing a small kiss upon her head and whispering "I love you," before moving down to Mr Schue. Pulling the piece of paper out, I unfold it and I am disappointed not to see Quinn's name upon this piece of paper.

"Rachel," I read out slightly upset but glad it's someone I get along with. Walking back up to my chair, I kiss Quinn's lips before squeezing Rachel's shoulder lightly.

"Santana," Mr Schue calls. I watch laughingly as Santana tires to disconnect herself from a clinging Brittany, in the end they both walk up to the front together.

Santana reaches into the hat, pulls a piece of paper out and reads "Quinn," I feel Quinn nod her head happy she's working with a friend but still sad we don't get to work together.

Mr Schue spoke "That just leaves Tina and Kurt, please move to sit properly with your pairs," I see him look directly at Brittany. Standing up from my seat, I move to sit down next to Rachel but on the floor which allows me to hold onto Quinn's feet once she's moved up a bit.

"Perfect," Mr Schue said happy once we'd all moved.

Mr Schue continued on with "Okay, everyone needs to be ready to go by Friday. However to fit everyone in will have to have a lesson first thing Friday and then again in the afternoon. Alright, you can choose to work or go home," he dismissed us and move to the drum set where Finn was sitting.

Looking up to see what the others were going to do, Quinn spoke "We have cheerios this afternoon," I nod my head remembering it was Tuesday afternoon. Quinn kissed my lips quickly before leaving with Santana and Brittany for cheerios practices. Mike, Artie, Sam, Finn and Puck all left afterwards for football practice; though the team did suck.

Mercedes then asked "Do you guys want to go to The Lima Bean, hang out and maybe do some homework?"

"Yes, I'm in desperate need for a fix," Kurt said diva like but I found it funny.

Blaine spoke "I go where Kurt goes," he shrugged which was extremely adorable.

"Sounds good, I'll need a lift though," Tina said to which Kurt quickly said "I've got room in my car."

Maya spoke "Count me in," everyone then turns to look at Rachel and I.

"I'm in, Rachel what about you?" I say.

Rachel replied with "Thanks for the invite but I've got some homework to do."

Mercedes said "We are going there to do homework," we all give her a look that said yeah right.

I say "Come on Rachel, I'll buy you a herbal tea or whatever tea it is you drink."

Rachel said back "How can one refuse that offer," she stood up walking away from me.

"Worked on the girls back in Rosewood but come on, it'll be fun," I stand up to follow her.

Rachel asked "You're not going to quit until I say yes, are you?"

"You would be correct, I could always do my final trick which gets everyone to go."

"And what's that?" Rachel asked curious.

"Stupid question," I heard Maya shout as I bent down and lift Rachel up onto my shoulder.

"Emily, Emily!" Rachel screech while laughing. When I safely had her in my arms and knew I wouldn't lose my grip, I begin spinning around in circle which only makes her scream.

Rachel then screamed "Okay, okay, I'll go! Just stop spinning," I slow my spinning down and stop us to be facing the group.

"Always works," I say with a shrug and still holding onto Rachel.

Maya said "Never ask Emily that question, I don't know how many times she's done that to me."

Looking up at Rachel, I asked "Do you need a lift to the Lima Bean?"

"Yes please, my cars in the shop," Rachel said still catching her breath.

"Maya," I said looking at her and she's already nodding her head.

"Let's go," Mercedes spoke clapping her hands. I placed Rachel carefully back onto her feet, I didn't let go until I knew she could stand on her own. We all grab our bags and collectively leave for the parking lot.

At the Lima Bean, we all placed our drink orders, which we collected before going to find a table, big enough. We took a table with the fabric sofas, Blaine and Kurt shared a seat, Mercedes and Tina shared a seat, Rachel took a seat by herself, Maya and I shared a seat together. We had table in between the four chairs which gave us enough space to do homework. When I went to ask Maya what she is studying, I wasn't surprise to find her nose buried in her phone and not suspecting of anything. Always liking the chance to mess with her, I am quick to snatch the phone out of her hand and hold it at a length where she can't reach.

"Emily give it back," Maya whined.

"No," I say typing a message on her phone to Paige.

"What are you writing?" Maya asked.

"Oh you know, how I'm the better swimmer and that you agree," I smiled and laughed when Paige started ringing.

"Oh cute photo of you two," I say before answering with "Hey McCullers."

Paige said "I knew you had her phone as soon as I received that text."

"You did not, you were ringing to defend yourself but we both know I'm the better swimmer."

"I hate you so much."

"Such a sweet thing to say McCullers," I say laughing at Maya's attempts to reach for the phone.

Paige then asked "Why did you stealing her phone?"

"Just want to mess with her, she is so easy to winded up but you should know better than I."

"Can you please put her on the phone?"

"Sure thing," I say handing Maya her phone back.

"Hey baby," Maya spoke while standing up and walking outside.

Tina then asked "Why'd you do that to her?"

I replied with "Because it's fun, but don't worry I get as good as I give. I just mess with her more often than she does to me, I'm her annoying little sister and she wouldn't have me any other way."

Wanting to turn the focus, I asked "What was with Mr Schue changing his mind about the groups? He seemed so for it yesterday."

"Who knows what goes through that man's brain," Mercedes said shaking her head.

Kurt spoke "I don't get it either but pairs should be fun."

Blaine asked "Does anyone have any song ideas?"

I looked across at Rachel and asked "Any ideas Rach?"

"A few," Rachel shrugged.

Mercedes spoke "Watch out Emily, you'll be singing show tunes before you know it."

I replied with "There's nothing wrong with show tunes, it's not my type of music but I can't stop anyone from liking the music. Plus, I've seen half a dozen musicals; which you can thank Alison for."

Tina asked, "Who's Alison?"

"You haven't told them about Alison yet, that's a long story," Maya said walking back over to join our group.

Kurt said, "Does perfect Emily have some secrets?"

I replied with "I'm not perfect but it's nothing like that, Alison is just my ex-girlfriend of sorts."

"Of sorts?" Mercedes questioned.

"Alison and I have been friends for years, we thought it'd made sense to start dating and while we didn't fight or anything bad like that. It was just weird going from being friends to more than friends, we ended it before anything happened and remained good friends."

"That's the simple version of their relationship," Maya states.

I replied with "Shut up."

When Maya gives me a look I say, "Okay, Alison was my first girlfriend and we happened to be freakishly linked. I just happened to know a lot about her, but again I know a lot about people. Alison and I went through a lot together, it binds you together and that's what happened to Alison and I."

"What kind of stuff?" Mercedes asked curious. Looking between Rachel and Maya, I see their concerned looks up at me and they both take a sip of their drinks.

I replied with "Just normal things teenagers go through."

Kurt then said "Damm, I thought you were going to spill the beans there."

"Right," Mercedes added.

Tina asked "How can one person be so perfect?"

Maya spoke "Emily's aint perfect, she definitely aint pretty in the morning," I smiled my thanks at Maya because I knew what she was trying to do.

Before they ask anything else, I asked Maya "How's McCullers?"

"Paige is good, she's got a met this week."

"Anchoring?"

"Yeah, but she told me not to tell you."

"That's just stupid, I'm happy that she gets to be anchor. She wants Yale or Danby, way more than I ever wanted it," I say quickly before my phone starts to ring. When I see it's Hanna, I almost don't answer, I wanted to know how Ali and Spencer were going; so, I decided to answer.

"Thank god, how long does it take you to answer a phone," Hanna said sounding relieved but angry.

"Hanna calm down, what's going on?"

"Ali, she's lock herself in the bathroom. She's crying, I don't know what's going on in there."

"Hanna you need to get in there, just knock the door down. I'll pay for the door to be fixed, just get in there and hand Ali your phone."

"Em, I can't knock down this locked door."

"Yes you can Hanna. We did it once before this is no different, you can do it."

"I hate to point this out to you but Emily you were the one who knocked that door down last time."

"We go on three."

"Emily, no! I can't do this."

"We go on three," I say more intense.

"Fine, we go on three."

"One, two, three!" We say together Hanna was louder than I. Through the phone, I hear the door snapping in half and Hanna bursting through the door.

"Oh my god," I heard Hanna say.

"What is it Hanna?"

"Emily there's blood."

"What? Where?"

"Her wrist, she cut them."

"Okay Hanna, listen carefully. I need you to give Alison your phone, and then you need to go call 911, your Mum and Spencer. After that you need to get some towels and place them upon Alison's arms."

"Hello," I heard Alison whisper through the phone.

"Thank god," I whisper letting out my own deep breath at hearing Alison's voice.

"Em."

"Hey, what happened? You promised this wouldn't happen again."

"I'm sorry Emily."

"It's okay, it's okay. Just tell me why?"

"They don't care about me Em, they never did. I just wanted them to care."

"Who Ali, who?"

"My parents."

"Did you see them again?"

"No, sort of. Dad came around early this morning, to drop everything from my old room to here; he also gave Ashley legal papers. They've signed custody of me over to Ashley, they don't want me and if they don't want me then who else would want me."

"It's there lost Ali and a lot of people want you. There's me for starters, you've been my best friend. I was the new kid that no one wanted to know and you were the crazy kid, together we stood up to them. Then there's Spencer, she loves you, which she might not be ready to say but she does love you. What about Aria and Hanna, they certainly don't want you to go away. There's also Ashley, Ella, Byron, Jason, Melissa, Quinn, Santana, Brittany, Maya and Paige."

"But what about my parents?"

"Who needs parents, it's a little overrated."

"I just want everything to stop, I want to stop hurting."

"I know you do Ali but this isn't the way. I know and understand why you chose this, you just can't because one day it might be too late and I can't lose you Ali."

"Em, I should go."

"What? Why?"

"The paramedics are here.

"Okay, tell Hanna to keep me informed. I love you Ali."

"I love you to Em," Ali said before the dial tone went dead. Placing my phone on the table, I sit back and let out a frustrated breath.

Maya asked "Em, what's going on?"

"My friend just tried to kill herself again," I say before standing up and moving away from the group.

"Hey stranger," I heard a voice say and when I turned around I found Quinn standing there. Back at the table, I saw Brittany and Santana.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"Practice finished, Mercedes told me you were here and might need us. What's going on? You don't look good."

"Can we go for a walk?"

"Sure," Quinn said supportively.

Walking back to the table, I look at Rachel and asked, "Does the choir room again tomorrow morning suit you?" Rachel nods her head; I pick my phone up off the table and lead Quinn to the exit; where we begin our walk.

It had been a long night last night, I spent majority of it on the phone; either to Quinn or Hanna/Alison/Spencer/Aria. I was too worried about Alison to get any sleep; luckily the girls and Quinn felt the same way. However, when it got to 3:00am, I told Quinn to go to bed knowing she needed the sleep before school. I sat waiting in the choir room for Rachel, I was a little early but that was only because I had been bored at home. Ashley had just called to tell me, Alison was going into seventy-two hours of watch and would be assessed during that time. I didn't know what they were going to determine, Alison definitely needs a lot more help but what could anyone really do.

"Hey, I'm surprised to see you here," Rachel said walking into the choir room.

I replied with "I wanted to go back to Rosewood, Maya even offered to drive me there but it's one of those times where they need to start dealing with things without me being there."

"That kind of makes sense."

"Yeah, besides if I go you might have to solo with Finn and we can't have that," I smiled across at Rachel why smiles back but shakes her head.

"About that, you got any ideas on what we should sing?"

"No clue, I'd hoped you'd know a song."

"A song came to mind yesterday when you were talking with Alison, it might be emotional."

"While I love my dancing, I guess I can slow things down."

"Great, let's get started Fields," I smiled at Rachel's reference to my last name. Spencer, Paige and Coach are the only ones who really call me that and it was nice to hear it here.

"Alright Berry," I say as she hands me my lyrics sheet with her parts and my parts clearly indicated.

A/N: Hey, sorry it's a day late. I hope you enjoyed this chapter and are liking the story thus far.

Song Reference List:

Someone Like You by Adele

I hope you guys are having a good weekend and then keep on having a good week. I'll see you next week ~KJ99