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The house was empty. Aya told me, that the old hag had left, but honestly I didn't want to believe her. Though staring at this empty house, made it even more true. The part of me that hoped she was still here died. Even Aki was gone. No trace of them left.
"Tadaima." I whispered softly. I don't even know why I hoped for a reply.
Why does it hurt? I shouldn't be hurt. I should be used to this by now...but I'm not. You would think years of killing, watching people die, having the ones I care about leave me would harden me. It didn't. It should have but it didn't. Kaimi-sama knows why it didn't, I just wish I knew too.
I trudged up the stairs before going to my room. The door was closed. I gulped slightly before opening the door. It was the exact same way I had left it. My hand fell from the handle as I saw the small dust that collected on my drawer and desk. Had any of them came in when the Vindice had taken me?
A soft sigh escaped my lips and I turned away from my room. I walked down the stairs and out of the house, placing the key in its respective hiding place. It was a bit too depressing staying here by myself. Maybe I could ask Aya if it was alright that I could stay one night with her.
I glanced up and my jaw went slack. There she stood in all her glory, with a dango hanging out of her mouth and groceries in her arms; Annerie Alba. She ate the rest of her dango, staring at me with an emotionless expression.
"You're back." She commented before walking past me. "Did you lock the door?"
"E-Eh?"
"Ah you did. Smart move, but you need to find a better place to put your key." She set the groceries down.
"What the hell are you doing?" I asked still trying to comprehend the situation.
"Ah well Momoko-sama and Aki decided to go to Kyoto for some odd reason from what I know, at least a month ago from what I've been told. Ai is out on a date." She deadpanned like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
"That still doesn't explain why you're here at my house."
"I'm living here. Didn't think you were coming back Scaredy."
"Scaredy?"
"Yeah you disappeared on me during our fight. You were gone for like two days."
"The house doesn't even look like someone's been living in it." I started to cough into my hand. When I stopped, I stared at the blood. I clenched my hands.
"I know that's why I went to go get some food. Did ya fix everything you needed to?"
"Huh?"
"Between you and Sawada-sama. I mean you love him right? Rumors from down under, is that you two are lovers or something like that. I can see where they got the idea. I mean the Lady Kaichou suddenly switching sides to join the side of next boss of the Vongola, very scandalous if you ask me."
"I-I do not love him! And we're not lovers!"
"The blush says it all. Can you cook? Because I suck and I'm hungry."
A vein appeared on my hand as my eye twitched slightly. Though inside, I felt the exact opposite. Even if it was her, I didn't mind. It's nice to know that she'll be here. A sigh escaped my lips and I shook my head slightly.
"I. Really. Don't. "
"Feelings mutual. Didn't answer my question though."
I glared at her feeling a bit annoyed. How this current Annerie formed into the future one, I'll never know.
"Not that well. Is Ai here?"
"Yeah and she sucks as well. Damn it, I'm going to starve from now on."
I rolled my eyes and turned away, before walking off. Annerie didn't notice or didn't care as she made no acknowledgement about it, I'm going with the latter. My eyes stayed glue the ground, letting my feet lead me to wherever I was heading too.
What is wrong with me? So what if I'm going to leave everyone after we get rid of Byakuran? It's not like they're going to miss me. Besides it's not like this is going to be the worst decision in my life, right? Right?
"ARGH!" My fist flew into the wall by me. My eyes narrowed slightly and a large crater formed on the wall. My shoulders slumped. What the hell is wrong with me? Ever since I came here, my emotions have been out of control and confusing me. Tsuna's just my friend. So I like him more than a friend big deal. I'll get over it...maybe. ARGHH! All this lo-liking stuff is just so damn complicated. For the sake of my sanity it's best that I do leave.
My fingers ran through my hair as a soft sigh escaped my mouth. I'm going insane over a boy...great. My head tilted back, and my eyes stared at the blue sky.
Mom why aren't you here when I need you? Why couldn't you be the one that saved me from the Vindice? I still don't know the reason why left me. From what I know, you left me to save some other girl. Can you at least tell me how she is more important that your own daughter. If you never left me or we never left Namimori then none of this would've happened to me! I wouldn't have to deal with Orphan! I wouldn't have blood on my hands! Damn it mom, I'm losing my mind here and your not even here to help.
"YUKI-CHAN!" I stumbled back slightly, wrapping my arms around Ai.
"C-C-Can't breathe." I gasped out through her tight embrace. She let go of me, her eyes watery. I opened my mouth to say something, but the next thing I know my eyes are staring at the wall to my left side. My cheek began to sting lightly as I looked back at her in surprise.
"That's for just leaving without telling us!" She narrowed her eyes, crossing her arms. Distantly I could hear Annerie's snicker. "Do you know how worried I've been? I almost killed Tsuna-san because he wouldn't tell me where you were! That's pretty cold of him don't you think? Just because you guys are good friends doesn't me he only has to know where you are! Not even Yamamoto-san and Gokudera-san would tell me. I wanted to visit you and Momoko-san said Tsuna-san knew where you were. I bet you that he wanted to visit you just himself!"
My eyes widen slightly at the girl who was breathing harshly in front of me. She said all that in one breath. What. The. Fuck. This was not was what I was expecting when I came back from my walk.
"You're really dense. If this baka could see it, why couldn't you?" Annerie commented popping a piece of chocolate in her mouth. Ai turned around and glared at her before snatching my arm.
"I'm not that oblivious! Let's go Yuki-chan."
I let her drag me up the stairs a sigh escaping my lips. Was it that obvious? I mean common, it can't be that obvious. Maybe they're just really perceptive about things like this. Yep that is mostly definitely it...I can't be that dense, right? 8 years, and I didn't notice it until now. I am dense.
I'm in love with him. I'm leaving him. I wish I could just go back in time and take back those words I said. But, I was just so angry with everything that the older him did. I mean wouldn't he have considered my feelings on what I thought about bringing innocent people into this horrifying world? Unless, I wasn't there. Unless, he just didn't care about me.
A bitter laugh escaped my lips, barely recognizing myself in one of the guest rooms. The walls were tinted a light green, with a small twin bed in the corner. A white drawer with a mirror was opposite of it. The room was messy, with clothes strewed every where, and crumpled paper piling up.
"Forgive the mess, I just have been really inspired but what I draw hasn't really met up to what I expect." Ai says with an embarrassed face. I wave it off as she sat down on the floor that was clean. She patted the floor in front of her, a smile on her face. I sat down, sitting Indian-style, staring down at my lap.
"It's useless." I muttered softly. There was no way he would ever like me back that way. He was in love with Kyoko and I can't blame him. She was everything I'm not. She also doesn't have a hideous scar adorning her face nor a violent past like mine. It would be a miracle if he even cared about me in that way. There's not point in hoping that he would. I don't deserve someone as sweet as him.
"What's useless?" Ai asked confused. A dejected sigh escaped my lips and my shoulders slumped. Maybe it was best that I was leaving. I doubt that he would really want me to stay anyways.
"Everything."
"Oooh. it's that isn't it." She drawled out with a knowing smile. I stared at her, brushing my middle bang out of my eye. Her eyes began to sparkle slightly and the next moment our nose are barely grabs my face, the other hand holding my bang to the side, and turns it slightly. A small giggle escaped her lips as she let go of my face and shoots up. She practically flew to her drawer and back.
"Let's see." She mumbled grabbing my head again. The bang that had fell back across my nose was roughly pulled to the side again. She smiled brightly and held out a light blue barrette. Then she placed the blue barrette on before pulling back.
"Kawaii~"
"Eh?"
"If you leave your hair like this, you look so cute!" She chimed happily. My eyebrow arched up before a small laugh escaped my lips. How the heck did she get to that?
"But," She grabbed my hands, her eyes showing determination. "You owe me, so go on a double date with me."
I fell back, my eyes twitching slightly. That's what that was about? I thought she was going to say something really cool too. I sat up shaking my head.
"Please, I need you to go now that you're back!" She exclaimed. She held out her hands in front of her like she was praying. "Daisuke won't go back out with me, because his friend keeps taking him everywhere looking for some girl he met a while back! We didn't even get to enjoy our date today."
"If that's it then, what makes you think he'll come if he's searching for that girl?" I mused watching tears fall down her face. She straightened up immediately, pushing up her glasses.
"That's easy, we're going to say you're her. He's too much a sweet guy to turn away after he said he'll do it."
"That's cold."
"I know, but hey I really like Daisuke. Wouldn't you want me to do the same, with Tsuna-san?"
I felt my face heat up. Was it really that obvious? How come everyone else noticed but didn't bother saying anything?
"I-I don't-him, no-like that." I stumbled twisting my words around. She stared at me with disbelief. A groan escaped my mouth. I was an idiot.
"You know just because he has a crush on Kyoko doesn't mean anything. If he anything, I think he likes you more." She said softly, patting my knee encouragingly. It was my turn to stare at her in disbelief.
"I'm serious. When you transferred, it was like a part of him died. He moped around for a while, and when ever someone would ask about you his spirits would go down. Seriously, your name was like taboo in that class. He really missed you."
He didn't miss me. He was just guilty about what had happened. It wasn't his fault, but knowing him he would take the blame for it. But why is it that I really hope that it wasn't that and what Ai said? Do I really want to believe her that much, that my own heart is in war with my mind? Damn this love stuff is more complicated. This must be what the future Annerie meant by it wasn't that simple.
"He makes me feel so many things." I whispered. "One moment I'm happy then next I'm furious or sad. My emotions are a mess because of him. I thought this would be simple to deal with."
"Don't we all?" She mused with a soft chuckle. "Yuki-chan, go on the date, just to get your mind off of him. Who knows someone might tell him and it'll make him jealous. But don't worry about it! Tsuna will realize that you guys belong together!"
I smiled at her. Even though I wasn't used to dealing with things like this, it was nice to have someone to talk about it with. Annerie will just rub it in my face about being right about me liking him. The old hag isn't here and kami-sama knows where my mom is or if she is still alive. But, it's really nice to have someone to talk about this. Someone has to keep me sane.
"Arigatou."
"That's what friends do! Now about that date?"
"Fine, but what's his name?"
"Takamara Heiji. His dad just recently opened up a business in jewelry. It was shame that their shop had closed down you know?"
Jewelry? Heiji? Why does that sound so familiar?
"What about the girl he was looking for?"
"Something about how she helped them, when they needed it. He really likes her. Didn't catch her name though."
I nodded my name still wondering how it seemed so familiar. Man, my head must be really messed up about everything if I can't even remember that. I usually have good memory, but I just can't figure why that name seems so familiar.
A sigh escaped my lips. No point in worrying about it now. What I really need to focus is if I'm going to do what Akane had told me or not.
"You were gone for years. You saved your mother from another famiglia. You fell in love with someone else. But something happened, and you came back. Don't you want a normal life? Choose the path that your future-self chose. Leave this world, and become oblivious to everything else but yourself. Become the one thing you always wanted."
It's something I could do. Just leave this world and become normal. I even told Tsuna I was going to leave the family. But I don't know anymore. I want to be by his side. I want to be there for him and everyone else. but what had happened in the future, that my future-self left and didn't return? What had happened that made her return back if she already fell in love with someone else?
"Love makes you do crazy things."
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