I really wanted to know who Fenris parents were. The possibility of him being related to Eren Yaeger made my heart pound faster. "You look just like Eren young man" someone said. I recognized his voice, but without a face I didn't knew who was speaking. I had let go of Fenris, and he begun to crawl out from the space under the desk when a dark haired man approached him. It was the man who found me together with Erwin. I crawled out and got up from the ground. "Sir, thank you for saving me" I said. I focused on the grpound and blushed. "I remember you. The girl who survived inside that titan and crawled out of it after I slayed it. I'm happy you're still sane" he said. His voice sounded very sarcastic and I didn't knew how to react. He was a bit taller than me and helf Fenris hand. I looked up and met his gaze. His eyes seemed softer than I remembered them. "Come on litte Eren. Your older self is waiting in the basement" he said to Fenris and picked him up. "Will you acompany me? I really want Eren to meet this young boy. What did you said was his name?" the dark haired man asked. "Fenris. I'm Shura Fenriz-Kupin. And you are?" I told him our names. "Levi Ackermann. Squad Leader. The Cadets call me Captain Levi" he introduced himself. "I'm here to meet Erwin" I explained. "Yeah?" he asked and left the cafeteria. I followed him, because I didn't want to leave Fenris with a stranger. "Yes. Do you know where he is?" I asked him. Levi chuckled and poked Fenris in the somache. Fenris giggled. "Just come with me" Levi said. He started tickling the boy and Fenris started to laugh. I followed the captain down into the basement, where only a few rooms existed. They were used for ressources, and food was stored inside the rooms. Only one small room wasn't locked. The door was opened just a small gap and light fell into the corridor. "Captain" I said, not wanting to speak. This man stole all my authority over Fenris and acted like I was dumb. "That's Erens room" he simply answered and knocked on the door. "Come in" Erwin answered. I gasped for air. Erwin was with Eren? What was Eren doing in the basement anyways? Levi openend the door and stepped inside. I stared into the void. this can't be real. Why was my best friend locked up like a criminal? And why was Levi acting so weird towards me? "If you could come in? I won't hold that bloody door any longer" Levi spat out. I quickly stepped inside and tried to adjust my eyes to the sudden brigth light. "Here, take that boy" Levi said and gave Fenris back to me. Hi sudden harsh tone surprised me. "So you like kids, captain?" Erwin asked and pat Levis shoulder. The smaller man tried not to move under the heavy impact of Erwins hands. Still he shook a bit. "Shura, it's nice to have you with us" erwin greeted me and shook my hand. I nodded. My view fell on the bed in the corner. Eren sat on it, numb and depressed. "Eren? Are you okay?" I screamed out in fear. I've never seen him that way. "Shura? Haven't seen you in a long time" Eren chuckled. I shove Levi aside and pushed Fenris into Erwins armes. "God, I missed you" I cried and crawled onto the bed next to Eren. He pulled me into a bone crashing hug and whispered, only audible for me "Your son looks just like me. Am I the father?" I tried to push him away. "There's no way Fenris is my son! You know what happened to me. I saved him in Trost and he stayed with me. I don't even know if his father is still alive. his mother died rigth in front of my eyes" I explained and burst out in laugther. "She's that girl I told you about, Eren" Erwin mentioned. The dull look on Erens face lighted up. "I didn't expected you to be that brave and strong. You showed some serious surviving will. That's nothing like you three years ago" he said and took my hand. "I'm glad you finally opened up a bit. Keep it that way and you'll be pretty strong one day" he said supporting. "You didn't tell Erwin or Levi about my past, right?" I asked in fear. My past should be something I was telling my finacée. "No! Why should I? There were things far more important to discuss..." Eren trailed off. "Will you tell me?" I asked and slipped nearer. "I will set him down, Shura. He doeasn't seem happy with me" Erwin interrupted. "You're doing it wrong. You need to entertain him" Levi helped. "You like childer? that's surprising captain", Eren said and smiled. "Shut up scum" Levi spat and glared at Eren. The boy next to me went silent. "It's better if you don't tell anyone about it" I whispered and grinned. Eren nodded in agreement. "So what do you have to tell me?" I asked him. "I'm a shape shifting titan. And in my titan from, I liftet that boulder and closed the hole with it" Eren said. I froze. That's impossible! That can't be true! I looked to Erwin, and by his looks I knew, it was true. Tears dwelled up in my eyes. Fenris crwaled up on the bed and hugged me. I closed him into my arms and turned my back at Eren. "You won't attack us, rigth?" I was suspicious around Eren. I dind't want to loose Fenris. Erwin sat besides me and layed his hand on my knee. "Don't worry. He's under full controll. Well at the moment" he said and smiled. his smile was honest and warm, welcoming. I bend towards him and huggend him. Fenris got sqeezed in between us. Erwin didn't react when I closed my arms around him, but then he drew me closer to him and rested his hands on my upper and lower back. "What are you doing there Erwin?" Levi asked confused. he stared at him in disbelief, his controlled self dissapeared. The darkness in his eyes turned to blunt surprise. Levi never got into this kind of situation. Ever since he knew Erwin, he didn't seemed to love a woman, or getting colse to the other gender. And now he was cuddling a young girl! "Ah, I didn't tell you. She's my fiancée" Erwin sighed and let me go. "Yeah, you didn't. But since you're an adult, it shouldn't surprise me that you fell in love. And that child could also be yours" Levi said and pulled a hand over his face. "I guess, I'm just tired" he said and sat on the ground. "Captain, that ground you're sitting on is dirty. And I don't think it's wise to sit on dirt with white trousers" I suggested. "I didn't expect her to have that much character" Levi said and glared angry at me. "What do you mean?" Eren asked. He sat upright, ready to jump up and punch Levi in his face. "It's just, I already know her a bit. We talked on our way down here and I saw her in Trost. My first impression her was that of a girl who never developed an own character. She's just following orders. Her relationship with Fenris forces her to be mature, but she never got mature. I think she never was a child so she never became an adult. And Fenris is just the sad excuse of her trying to escape the grip of her family. Nothing of her attitude or character is her own. Don't you see how forced she acts?" Levi pointed out. Erwin stared at me in surprise. "No one wonders about that! It's because she was…. Ow! Shura!" before Eren could finish his sentence I punched him. "I already told you" I said and blushed. "I think this is the perfect opportunity to tell me" Erwin suggested. I swallowed hard. "My father is raping me since I'm eight or nine years old. Since my family always was rich and in the spotlight of aristocracy I had to accept the rules my father made and follow his orders" I explained. I looked straight at the bedsheets, blushing. "I shouldn't have told you. If ny father finds out, he'll punish me" I realised. Tears filled my eyes. There's no way Erwin wouldn't tell his parents. And then they would annule the marriage. If that happens, my father would kill me. Or worse, he would marry me, since he married his own sister. And Fenris had to go. "Please, Commander Erwin, don't tell anyone! I don't want to loose Fenris. I don't want to let you go…" I begged him. "It's not that easy Shura. You're not even able to decide. What he had done to you… I'm surprised your brain wasn't damaged and you're still sane" Erwin whispered. "Captain Levi. We need to talk about it, right now. Send Mikasa and Armin down here. They wanted to see Eren. Petra and Mike should guard Eren. And Shura, you can go wherever you want. But please, don't get lost" Erwin said. He rushed out of the room and Levi followed him. The look he gave me told me, he was very sorry for me and worried about my condition. The tears streamed down my face when I catched Levis view. To have someone I didn't even knew worry about me touched my heart. In the last years only Granny worried about me. Then Eren, Armin and Mikasa, but they left far too soon. "Mikasa and Armin will be happy to see you alive" Eren said and comforted me by rubbing my back. Fenris got curious about Eren and crawled towards him. "He looks just like me" Eren pointed out and rested a hand on Fenris head. The smaller boy pouted and tried to shake off Erens hand. "He shares some characteristics with you too" I said and smiled. This angel made me happy again. "Do you think he's a Yaeger?" he asked me. I nodded. "I hope he is" I said. With Erwin and Eren gone I regained control over me again. We sat in silence, enjoying each others presence until the door opened. Mikasa stormed in and pulled Eren in a tight hug. Armin followed her and hugged Eren after Mikasa let him go. "Hey guys" I greeted them shily. "Shura! You're alive. I'm happy to see you" Armin smiled and hugged me. "Good to see you" Mikasa said monotonous. Armin chuckled and shook his head. We all knew Mikasa was pretty emotionless around others. Only Eren was her exception. Armin suggested once that she's in love with him. Mikasa said nothing but Eren protested loudly. Armin used to tease Eren with it. Now, he did nothing, not even pointing it out. The mood in the room got depressed, and not even Fenris laugh could lift the mood. "What happened?" I asked. I feared I could cause tears or an anger attack. "We joined the Survey Corps. We're bound to die. Those titans… I don't think I can fight them" Armin said. Insanity was building in his eyes. I stood up and punched him. "Don't you dare turn insane on me. There's nothing to worry about" I tried to cheer him up. "She survived inside a titan by sticking a knife in its throat. And I already told you, you didn't need to join the Survey Corps" Eren said. "Impressive. I wouldn't be able to do something like that. That was brave Shura" Armin said depressed. I hugged him and let go of him. "You won't die" I said and hoped I said the truth. "So, what are you doing here?" Armin asked. "I'm visiting my friends, since I'm staying close. I'm in Turgon again, living with my father" I explained. Armin seemed shocked. "You see, there are things far worse than titans. The tyranny of humans" Eren said. "You're right. I wish we could help you" Armin sighed. "When are you allowed to leave this room?" Mikasa asked Eren. "Soon. Hanji, Erwin and Levi want to train my titan skills. Levi's squad will join us. They'll prove their security. I think they mean to kill me if I lose control of my titan form" Eren said. He seemed depressed. "I'll kill them if they hurt you!" Mikasa shouted. "Don't worry. They won't kill me. My power is too important. Don't you remember, I'm supposed to shut the hole in Wall Maria" Eren said and laughed. "That's not funny Eren. Take the situation serious" Armin admonished him. The boy on the bed shrugged his shoulders. "Look at Fenris. Don't you think he looks just like me?" Eren changed the subject. "Yeah. He even smiles the same way and he's as curious as you are" Mikasa said. Fenris stood on her side, pulling on her boots. He tried to take off her boots and look inside them. "Fenris, stop it. Mikasa needs her boots" I said and picked him up. "Guys, I need to leave. Fenris needs fresh air. We'll meet again" I said goodbye. "Maybe we'll join you later. We have training anyways" Armin said. "You know, that's just theories. There won't be any practice" Mikasa mentioned. "Oh no, that's boring. I want to act and not sit around" Eren complained. "Anyways. I'm off" I said and left the room. On the yard I met three waiting cadets. "Hey, Shura" Jean Kirschstein greeted me. He was one of the cadets. "That's the girl I told you about " he told his friends. I sat Fenris to the ground and he played with a flower. "You're right. She is scarily skinny" a small cadet with very short hair said. "You're skinny too. Don't offend the lady" the girl said. "Thanks" I said and bowed. "I'm Sasha Braus. That boy is Connie Leonhard. Do you have something to eat? Maybe potatoes… " she introduced her and the boy with the short hair. She smiled creepy when she mentioned potatoes. Her dark red ponytail bounced. "Sorry, I've got nothing to eat" I answered. "Lunch nearly passed. Do you want to join us in the cafeteria?" Jean asked. He ruffled his dark blonde hair and smiled to me. "Sure. Fenris needs something to eat" I agreed. "Yas! I hope there are potatoes" Sasha said dreamily. Connie rumbled but followed us. The meal was mashed potatoes and beans. Fenris ate a lot and flirted with Sasha. The two got along very well. I liked her too. She seemed like a honest girl you could rely on. Jean was quiet and a little shy, but he smiled a lot and asked me minor things. "What's your favourite animal?" he asked. "Cats and Dogs" I answered. He asked for my favourite color, which is dark red, black and blue. Othet things were my favourite books, I told him I liked the Warrior Princess Chronicles and the Titan Slayer. He also got to know that I didn't believe the walls were made by God's will and he punishes us with the titans. I relaxed and laughed a lot. After an hour of chatting and playing with Fenris, Erwin entered the cafeteria, followed by Levi. "Cadets. Don't you have work to do?" Levi shouted harsh. "Yes captain" the cadets answered and excused themselves. They cleared the table and left the room. Levi closed the door behind them. I followed him with my view and tried to guess what he's been thinking. "Shura" Erwin said. I winced and turned my head to him. He sat across me and reached for my hand. I didn't pull back, even though it would have been my first reaction. "I'm not sure what to say. I thought you were strong and mature. But now I see, you're hurt and broken. And worse, your father keeps you captured. I can't let you live that way. Even though I oppose the marriage, I can't leave you with a life like that" he explained and stroke my hand with his thumb. "What the commander tries to say is, that he wants to find a solution for your situation without having to marry you" captain Levi wided Erwin's statement. "Well then. Let's think" I agreed. Erwins soft touches distracted me. Levi sat down next to me and raised Fenris of the ground and sat him in front of him on the desk. Levi sat too close. His right arm brushed mine and his hips and thigh pressed against mine. I tried to slip a few inches away from him but ended up even closer to him. "Maybe he'll let you go if you tell him that Fenris is your illegitimate child" Levi suggested and fed Fenris a cookie. The boy babbled happy. "I can't. What should I do if Fenris father appears? And Ansuh is cruel. He'll keep me and hurt me" I sighed. "Well then, you'll run away and take another name. We'll color your hair and cut it. Then you'll join the Survey Corps at my side. Levi will teach you how to use the 3D maneuver gear" Erwin said, a grim look on his face. Levi and I stared at him in surprise. "It'll work" I whispered. "No way I can teach her" Levi insisted and slipped further away from me. My heart hurt, like it was pierced with a dagger. I already missed the heat radiating off his body. Confused by myself I shook my head. I shouldn't think that way. "Remember how it felt when Anush touched your thigh" I told myself. But then I could hit myself. Why was I doing that to myself? I could live a better life if I just forgot that father. "Let's think about something else" Levi said. He stroke Fenris head. "Maybe there's someone else who wants to marry you. Someone we know. You marry, but there won't be anything you have to do, like fulfill your job as wife and mother" Erwin said. I looked at him in surprise. He sure has some good ideas. "And who could that be?" Levi asked ironically. Erwin sighed. "There's no one in the Survey Corps" he realised. "I don't want to marry" I said. "There's no other way. I can't think about anything else. Erwin suggested the best way" Levi resumed. "Anush will search for me, when I'm disappearing and Fenris can't live with the Survey Corps. Who will look after him when we're out? And my father will look here for me" I got pessimistic. "Fenris will stay with the sick and ill Cadets, if there are any. And if everyone is okay, he'll stay with my parents. I'll tell everyone I adopted him, since he liked me. And you have to hide when he comes" Erwin planned out. "We'll bleach your hair and you have to braid it everyday. You don't have to cut it. Stay in the sun, so your skin tone changes. And your speaking style has to change. I'll teach you how to speak like a minor and how to kill titans with the 3D maneuver gear" Levi said. He gave Fenris another cookie. Erwin laughed. "Now you're very enthusiastic about it" he said. "okay" I nodded in agreement "let's do it as soon as possible" Levi hugged Fenris and said with a scary dark voice "In two days. You have to go at night. I'll be there to carry Fenris"