I woke up in pitch black darkness. I was alone. Again. "Anush?" I asked into the darkness. "Henry?" I asked again. There was no answer. "Is there anyone? Where am I?" I cried out. "You're in the secret dungeon of Anush Kupin" a voice answered. I hear the sound of clothes shuffling. "My name's Ramsay Fenriz. I once worked for Anush. But then I fell in love with his wife. Teresa was very nice to me and we grew closer. When Anush found out about it, he got angry. He catched me and tortured me. I told Teresa to run away but she stayed with me. I think he didn't talk to her or interacted or saw her for a year. He tortured me every day. The only thing that kept me sane for that time was Teresa. She wasn't able to visit me but a maid brought me messages from her. Teresa was pregnant and it was mine. My child. After the kid was born he told Teresa I died. And then he trew me into this dungeon to keep me. And torture me whenever he liked. I haven't seen Teresa in years. And I've never seen my child alive... I hope he didn't kill the kid" the man told me. He stunk. He sat near me. I heard it and I smelled it. "My name's Shura Roxanna Anushka Fenriz-Kupin. I'm Anush Kupin's daughter" I told him. "Really? Do you have a sister? Or brother?" he asked. "No. I'm an only child. Why do I have the same last name like you?" I asked. my heart beat faster. Was Anush not my father? Could it be that my real father sat in the darkness next to me? Why didn't I knew about it? Why did Teresa never tell me about him? "You're probaby my child. I wished Teresa could confirm it. It's so sad that she died so young" he sighed. "Maybe Anush can tell us more" I suggested. "He rarely visits" Ramsay spat out. "Are you blind?" I asked. "Not yet. Lisa visits every evening and brings a light and a book. Then I'm reading until the candle burned down. She brings also food" he said. then he started laughing hystericallly. "My god. I thought I would die alone in darkness. But now I'm dying side by side with the only person I thought I'd never see again" he giggled. I crawled away. "Stay where you are. There are corpses and bones in the background. That's why it's smelling like that" he said and grabbed my foot. His hands were soft and warm. "In three days I should be rescued" I whispered. "By who?" he asked, coming closer. "The Military Police and the Survey Corps. My friends of the Survey Corps want to save me. There's this man I fell in love with... He will do anything for me" I said. "You've a boyfriend?" he asked in disbelief. "Yeah..." I answered shy. I heard steps and a door bang. Then there was suddelny so much light that I couldn't see anything. "Shura. Stand up and come with me" Anush growled. I stood up and stubled towards him. "Ramsay, you're still alive? So Lisa's feeding you well? I'll get you later" he said. Then he dragged me upstairs into a different room, where he tied me to wall. "I have to tell you a story, my dear" he said and smiled. Then he removed the dress I was wearing and put a knife to my skin. "No. don't hurt me..." I pleased weak. "I won't my dear. At least not now" he smiled and turned away. Then he left the room. I cursed and tried to move. This was new. He never did somehing like that to me. Everything told me that there was no love left in him. He didn't wanted me or anything. He was just a cold hearted asshole. "I'm back my princess" he really came back. And he dragged Ramsay behind him. "Look who I've got" he tied him to the wall opposite from me. "I'm so sorry Mister Fenriz" I said. The man had long, dark brown hair. It looked kind of clean. His beard rested on his chest. His eyes were dark brown and lifeless. "Shit, you look just like her" he said and smiled. "Ramsay, you know, that's not funny" Anush told him. "Only her hair... What did you do to her hair?" Ramsay asked confused. "I've done nothing. Go, tell him Shura" Anush told me. He took the knife again and went to Ramsay, where he tore his shirt off. scars streched over his chest, showed how much he's been tortured by Anush. "Stop it!" I screamed. "I'll tell it. I ran away. After the incident in Trost, where the Titan breached the wall and the hole has been plucked again I returned home for the first time in a few years. Anush had a marriage with Erwin Smith arranged, he's the commander of the Survey Squad. I decided to visit them together with Fenris, he's a little boy I adopted after his parents died in Trost. I met my friends of my days in Trost and Commander Erwin. we talked a lot, his Corporal was with him alot and I got to know him. Well, then I told them about Anush and what he did to me, so they said they would save me. They picked me up at night and I ran away with them. In their headquarters I was introduced as Trainee Sunniva. I bleached my hair and learned how to move with the 3D Maneuver Gear and how to slay titans. But then Anush men found me while everyone was off on a mission outside the walls and I took my two horses and fenris and rode into the forest. they captured me but Fenris never appeared here. All I can think of is Fenris, I hope he's not dead" I explained everything. I was worried sick about Fenris, but he was found by the Survey Squad, so I didn't have to worry about him. Anush still didn't know it, so I had to act like he was still missing. "Ah, there's something I wanted to show you. If you could look to me, princess" Anush said. He crossed the room and stood next to a desk, where something lied on. it looked just like the figure of a small, very dead human. "...you did not..." I said. tears dwelled up in my eyes. He removed the cloth covering the boy. There was nothing to be recognised left. "This is your dear Fenris. He screamed like a bitch but said nothing exept Mama, Papa, Levi and Shura" he said with a big grin painted on his lips. "You're a monster" I spat out. Anger filled my stomach like hot soup. He tortured and killed an innocent boy just to show his corpse to me. "Well, he won't stay the only one. I planned on bringing your little family together on that desk. Grandmother, the son, the grandfather, the father and you" he explained. "Teresa's long gone" I said. "No. She's back there. Behind this curtain. I think she's awake. But she won't move or talk unless I allow it to her. Come to me, little bird" he chirped. the curtain moved and my mother stepped next to him. She wore a long, white dress, her black hair flowed over her shoulders. She seemed like she didn't even realised that she was awake. "Sit down. And look at her" he commanded. Teresa sat down and stared at me. Then, there was a movement in her eyes. She looked at me, not just through me. "Shura. My girl. What are you doing here? You're still not married? Ansuh, explain this" she said. her voice was silent and absent. "She ran away from me and returned. When I wanted to marry her to a good man, she rejected him and ran away. She's in love with some other man, he has an old family but he's an underground criminal" Ansuh said. "He's not! He's a good and nice man" I shouted. Levi wasn't bad. Not anymore. "She's lying Anush. My dear, save ger. Het some sense into her" she whispered. Anush stood up. "Shit, Teresa. Don't you remember me?" Ramsay screamed. Her eyes flackered but she turned her head at Anush. "Get him silent" he said simply. She tied a piece of cloth around his mouth. Ramsay stared at her. The pain in his eyes pushed tears into mine. But then stood Anush in front of me and blocked my view. teresa joined his side. "You know that Levi Ackermann is a searched criminal", he growled. "He's not" I insisted. Teresa hit me in the face. "Fuck, he's not a criminal. He's the best man ever, together with Eren and Erwin and Armin" I said. Anush hit me stomach. "I won't say it. Hurt me as much as you want. Levi will stay the best one" I whispered and closed my eyes. Several hits and cuts followed. Probably helped Teresa him. "She's stubborn" Teresa said finally. "There's something that will make her weak", Anush said angry. I remembered this voice. "Do it. I want you to do it" Teresa pleased. I opened my eyes to see how my father kissed Teresa with passion. Then he turned to me and unzipped his pants. "Now, it's your turn" his voice was deep again.
The worst part about it was my mother watching him. Us. She didn't say a word, but it hurt. I know she wasn't the best mother of all, but still I loved her. I really did. But when she died, I closed that chapter. Why was she even still alive? "It's enough. You don't want her to get pregnant" she interrupted my father. Anush stepped away from me. "She's not ready Tamara. There's su much more to do before she breaks" he said. Then he turned around and pushed Tamara aside. Then he untied the cloth in Ramsays mouth. "Tell her the truth Tamara" he said and glared at Ramsay. "Before I got normal, Ramsay and I, we were a couple. I was a bad wife. I got pregnant by Ramsay. But Anush saved me and turned me normal. My feelings for Ramsay were wrong and I was sick because of it. Now I'm the good wife I had to be" she spoke monotonous. "You're such a sicko" I screamed and spat out. This was so wrong. Tamara was out of her mind. "don't you speak like that with your mother! I gave birth to you. I was in so much pain for you" Tamara screamed back. "You both are sick. Mad. Insane. Get me out of here. Bloody hell what happened to you?" I screamed. My screaming turned into crying. "I think she's ready for stage two" Anush said and hold out his hands. Tamara gave him a knife. He took it. "now scream, little prince" he whispered. Then he made the first cut across Ramsays chest. The man focused on Anush face and glared at him. "I won't scream for you sicko" he growled. "You will" Anush said. Then he went over to a cupboard and took a bottle. "This is called Cryworm. You'll see why" he took the Cryworm out of the bottle and placed it on Ramsays chest. then the worm begun to eat and dissapeared into his flesh. Ramsays screamed were inhuman and full of pain. I cried, and cried and cried. "Stop it!" I shouted. "I can't stop that worm" Anush smiled. "Tamara, come with me. We will leave them alone" he said. Then the two madmen left the room. I could only watch Ramsay. he was in so much pain. The worm ate of him. "I'm so sorry" I said. "Don't" Ramsay screamed. "I didn't knew of all this. It's so surreal. I don't understand why they act like this. I know, they're siblings. I'm sure that their parents were siblings too. I'm surprised I don't have a brother to marry. Maybe Anush was unable to fuck Tamara after he knew of both of you. that could be the reason why he started abusing me. He planned to marry me... and to continue the family tradition. He always told me those stories about his plans when I had to share his bed. How we would start a family. we would have a daugther and a son, they would love each other and play together and step on the heir of the Kupin family" i talked. All I could do was talk to him. Ramsay stopped screaming. Still the pain was visible on his face, but he didn't made a sound. "I'm not insane because Anush is not my biological father. I'm very glad that you're my father Ramsay. You would've been a good father. But Anush took everything from us. Now he's taking your life. Well, technically he's leaving you to die. in his eyes you're not even worth to be killed by him personally. I think you should close your eyes and die already. Just leave. That will be better for you. leave this life behind. You suffered so much, there will be another life after this. You'll be reborn into a better life. Without pain" I said. Ramsay smiled weak and closed his eyes. His body streched in pain but suddenly he tensed up and relaxed again. Then he was dead. I stared at the corpse of my father. What will now be waiting for me? "Asshole" I whispered. "How could you? Anush, he was a good man. I know he took your wife, but you had no rigth to torture him" I shouted. There was no use in all of this. I relaxed. Anush won't come back so soon. I finally had time to think. I just found my real father. I just lost the very same man. I was locked up and chained to a wall somewhere below my father's mansion. My mother was still alive but a brainless shell of the woman she used to be. Levi had no chance in finding me where I was now. I wanted to escape this prison, but in doing so I had to play along and obey Anush and his commands. I had to become like Tamara. "That's not fair" I sighed. I waited for Anush to return to me. But eventually no one showed up. They left me alone for hours and I fell asleep. I didn't even noticed Tamara returned.