'Didn't think I would see you again' Chapter 22
A/N: Hello um I am so sooooorrrry for the wait and the worst part is I don't even have an excuse for you =( except for tumblr, I found it and then promptly lost my life (url: fallingthroughwonderland) I also worked out how to draw people on macromedia fireworks and I started doing that, then of course glee came back and it was too awesome and everything is happy and this fic is kind of angsty or at least this chapter is and I couldn't bring my fluff filled heart to write it =(
To quote Chris Colfer "I don't have writer's block in the sense that I know what the story is, I know who the characters are, I know what they look like, I know what's going to happen. Just putting it to words is a problem that I have. Screenwriting and novel writing are so completely different — and I never assumed that they wouldn't be — but I noticed writing a novel, it's like right before you take a trip, and then you get there and it looks completely different than how you imagined and then it's the same. That's how writing is. I've always seen things visually but describing it is the hard part." Nuff said.
I have been a little sick again, mainly just Asthma and Hayfever planned world domination starting with me, nothing serious =P
I'm just gonna say it before anyone else does, this chapter is a filler and I'm kind of really nervous about it.
Also I told my mum I was getting everyone Shirley Temples and she looked at me and said 'Sweetie you know that they have no alcohol in them right' I was heart broken honestly but everyone can have one anyway because I bet they're delicious =D
Also its my birthday tomorrow and then I go away to Melbourne to visit my awesome best friend for 10 days but have no fear I should get a lot of writing done and then when I am back I can post chapters like they're going out of fashion =P
Also I started one of those prompty ficcy things for Kurt and Blaine, I posted a chapter called 'Choc Chips' so if you are in a big need for some fluffyness after this chapter please check it out and send me some prompts, I will do anything =D (basically I need some more stuff to work on when I am on the 9 hour bus to my friends place)
Also I forgot, Thank you all so much for the reviews they were freaking amazing =D they really make me feel awesome when I read them.
Well enjoy this installment
Disclaimer: I still don't own Glee or any movies, musicals, songs, events, products, clothing, labels, schools, names or anything else you can think of I own nothing except my imagination.
This is an eventual Kurt/Blaine fic, so if you don't like boy x boy then there is a little 'x' button in the right hand corner of this page feel free to click it in times of closed mindedness.
NOW:
Blaine kissed the sleeping Kurt on the cheek as he left to go to school, Kurt stirred slightly and Blaine smiled to think that this was the same Kurt who argued with him an hour earlier about the ethics of attendance records.
Kurt looked so peaceful, his long eyelashes that brushed lightly across his cheeks, his freckles that were normally hidden under beauty products peppered across his nose but Blaine thought everything about Kurt was cute, especially when Kurt slept.
Blaine brushed a little hair off of Kurt's forehead and turned to walk away, he got as far as the edge of the steps before Kurt began to thrash lightly in his sleep "No-don't" he mumbled and Blaine felt his feet carry him back to the bed.
"No" Kurt moaned as he thrashed more "no-don't-don't touch me!" Kurt cried before waking with a jolt, a sheet of sweat across his brow, he was breathing heavily as he looked around for someone, his eyes landed on Blaine and he burst into tears.
Blaine climbed back into the bed and Kurt gripped onto him as he cried harder than Blaine had ever seen him cry, Blaine wrapped his arms around the boy and ran his fingers through his hair.
"Shh…I've got you, no one can hurt you here" Blaine soothed and Kurt kept crying, his body wracked with heavy sobs, Blaine gripped him tightly, his own tears escaping.
"Blaine" Kurt sobbed "I thought-I thought" he stammered and Blaine hushed him.
"He can't touch you here, you're safe with me"
"It felt s-s-so real" Kurt sobbed.
"I know baby, I know"
"Blaine, I remember-my ankle, he grabbed it, when I-I tried-" Kurt took a shuddering breath "-I tried to get away"
"You did get away, you're okay" Blaine said as he lightly rocked Kurt.
"It's my fault, It's all my fault" Kurt said in a way that reminded Blaine of a mantra.
"No, sweet heart, it's not"
"But I wanted it" Kurt wept, his tears saturating Blaine's shirt, Blaine ran his fingers through Kurt's hair.
"No you didn't, the drug did, it changes the way you think, Kurt, the way you feel, what you want"
Kurt cried until there was nothing left in him, he cried for the pain in his body, he cried for the scars no one could see, he cried for his memory and he cried for the hopelessness of crying
He fell asleep after the longest time, curled up with Blaine.
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"Blaine" Kurt said as he tried to wake the sleeping Blaine.
"Hmm?" the now half awake boy responded lifting his head slightly in his daze.
"You fell asleep"
"Mmm" Blaine acknowledged before dropping his head back onto the pillow.
"It's Eight thirty, you need to be at school" Kurt cooed as he poked Blaine gently summoning him to open his eyes and look at him, they stared for the longest time and a secret conversation passed between them and Blaine knew that they wouldn't mention earlier that morning.
"Buuttt" Blaine whined as he tried to bring some normalcy to the situation.
"No buts" Kurt said sternly.
"I can stay, please let me stay"
"Nope we both can't be bums, go to school" Kurt said and Blaine looked at him with a curious gaze "-Blaine please go, the sooner you go the sooner you can come back"
"I have to go to dinner with my brother tonight"
"I can con dad into cooking food here"
Blaine smiled "Would you? For me?"
"I want to meet your brother so I'm really just selfish"
"You wear it well" Blaine said leaning forward to peck Kurt on the nose.
"Blaine, go to school"
"Fine" Blaine said begrudgingly as he climbed out of the bed.
"Don't pout, you look like a puppy" Kurt commented with a smile and Blaine turned to him with a shocked expression and Kurt just rose his eyebrow "-It's true"
Blaine laughed "Bye Kurt, I will be back soon"
"Bye Blaine"
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Blaine didn't reach Dalton until lunch time, he got caught in severe traffic, so because of that he was now walking into the school, really late.
Blaine walked pass Trent, a guy in his Sociology class, Trent tapped his ass and Blaine looked at him with shocked wide eyes "I think you're sexy Blaine" Trent said before winking and walking off.
Blaine shook his head and began to walk further down the corridor, a few boys were laughing, others were humming and Blaine couldn't catch the tune.
Michael from his Math class touched him on the shoulder and Blaine looked at him curiously, Michael blushed then walked briskly away.
Wes and David walked up to him "Have fun last night?" Wes asked with a smile.
"Yeah actually I did" Blaine nodded with a smile.
"Rod Stewart though?"
"Wait what?"
"I loved the frock" David said.
"What?"
"Aww Blainey-boo doesn't know" Wes said mockingly and Blaine glared at him
"Check facebook" Wes said before he and David walked off, Blaine basically ran to his dorm room to pull out his laptop, he logged into facebook quickly.
He looked at his notifications, eighty one! He'd only checked it the night before, it didn't take him long to find the cause, Tina had put the video up "Oh that explains the weird behavior" Blaine said to himself as he pressed play on the video, he giggled at his own antics and then began to read the comments, most were from Wes and David.
Blaine began to go through Tina's videos, there were many with all of New Directions but there were the selective few he was looking for.
'Kurt sings 'Le Jazz Hot'
Blaine clicked on the link and smiled as he watched Kurt sing, he hadn't heard Kurt belt it out since they were seven…
Blaine watched as the seven year old Kurt was standing on the little stage as he belted out 'Hey Jude' for his audition for 'The Little Mermaid'.
Blaine had never heard the song before, much to Kurt's astonishment, but he doubted he would like the original even a little bit after hearing Kurt sing it so beautifully.
Kurt had told him that 'Hey Jude' was one of his mums favorite Beatles song and he wanted to sing it for his Mum even if she wouldn't be in the auditioning room that Blaine was seated in now.
'And anytime you feel the pain' Kurt sang, his voice as clear as transparency, Blaine smiled when Kurt waved at him '-Hey Jude, Refrain' Blaine wasn't sure what the word 'refrain' meant but Kurt sounded awfully nice.
The assistant principal that was watching the performance looked at Blaine "Is that your friend?" He asked and Blaine smiled, not once taking his eyes of Kurt, "Yeah, He's my best friend" The Assistant Principal smiled "He's spectacular"
Blaine wasn't sure what that word meant but he liked the sound of it "Spectacular" he said and he decided that was a great word to describe Kurt.
A hand rested on his shoulder and he followed the chipped multi colored nailpolish on the hands of a mother all the way up the hand, noticing the ring and the friendship bracelet she was wearing, Blaine knew already who she was.
Elizabeth Hummel smiled at her son, he was a really great singer, she smiled even more when she noticed Blaine standing close by the stage so she made her way over to say hi.
She rested her hand on his shoulder and watched as he realized who she was from the tell tale signs of Kurt's brilliant handy work.
She knelt down "Hi Blaine" Blaine smiled but still didn't take his eyes off Kurt again "Hi miss Lizzie"
Kurt noticed Lizzie in the audience area and he smiled wide but didn't stop singing because he didn't want to ruin one of his mums favorite songs, Lizzie waved.
Blaine watched the interaction between Mother and Son and he wished that his Mummy would talk to him even if it was just to clean his room.
Kurt finished the song not long after and everyone in the room clapped, Blaine knew that Kurt had gotten the part, he was much to good to not get it.
Kurt climbed of the stage and flung himself into his mothers arms, Blaine missed Lizzie's hand on his shoulder until she and Kurt pulled her into the hug and Blaine felt like he was a part of a family instead of a business.
Blaine smiled at the memory and then at Kurt's out fit, he watched intently "I can't sit still when there's that rhythm near me" Blaine's mouth went dry, that move had to be illegal, surely, it was just too sexy.
Blaine felt himself becoming a little envious of all the people he could hear cheering, he made a silent wish to never miss Kurt looking like that.
Blaine continued watching all the videos that seemed to contain Kurt, he came across one in particular that caught attention in more ways than one.
'Cheerio's Kurt and Mercedes sing Four Minutes'
Of course he was curious, he did know what a cheerio was and the thought of Kurt being one was almost too much by itself, he clicked on the link and waited patiently as it downloaded before pressing play.
Blaine honestly thought he'd died and this really was heaven, the video was most definitely the best recording but it didn't need to be, Blaine could hear his voice and that was plenty.
Kurt was basically growling out some of the song and Blaine decided that he really, really liked that sound he also loved the outfit.
The video paused as it hadn't finished downloading, problem was that Tina must of planned to murder him with this as it had pause on a close up of Kurt's crotch.
There was a knock on his door and he jumped, the action made him realize the awkward ache in his pants "Crap buckets! Not another awkward erection" he muttered to himself.
There was another knock on the door, there was nothing in his room he could cover it with. He tried thinking of women but then he thought teenage girl which lead to cheerleaders which lead him all the way back to now ex- Cheerleader Kurt. "Coming" he cried at the person who was knocking.
Blaine took a couple of deep breaths and opened the door, standing there was a freshman that had tried out for the warblers. "Hi, James wasn't it?"
The boys eyes looked like they were smuggling stars as he nodded "You remembered my name"
Blaine nodded "What can I do you for?"
James looked up at him before he thrusted a red rose at him Blaine smiled "You've been on Facebook" James nodded and Blaine just looked at him "-You know I was in drag right?"
James looked confused "What are you talking about?" Blaine went white "-What else is on there?"
"Um perhaps you should check Facebook again, the warblers page"
Blaine nodded and James just stood there now staring at Blaine's crotch with obvious desire "Goodbye James" James stood there awkwardly for a moment before leaning forward and kissing Blaine on the cheek and running off.
"This place just keeps getting weirder" Blaine said before closing his door and making his way back to his computer to press play, Kurt was grinding down on something imaginary and Blaine honestly started to think of all the other 'situations' where Kurt would be in that 'position'. Blaine felt slightly guilty at the thoughts he was having, Kurt's lying in his bed broken and I'm thinking sexy thoughts, I shouldn't even have the right to call myself human.
Blaine's internal reprimand wasn't enough to stop him from trolling for more videos though, he had to fee his inner sex kitten something right?; he couldn't help but laugh at the performance of 'Bad Romance' Kurt did love his gaga.
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Kurt looked up at the ceiling "Why me?-" he asked quietly, he didn't have to be quiet, he could yell or scream and no one would hear him down here, even if they could Kurt doubted they would want to listen to his over emotional ramblings. He wished that he wasn't alone, when he was alone he had to much time to think, his dad had gone to the grocery store to get the fortnightly big shop out of the way, he'd offered for Kurt to go but Kurt knew that it would be a struggle for his father to get his chair up the stairs and then carry him after, no Kurt Hummel would much prefer to sit in this lonely hell then cause his dad anymore trouble.
"-What did I do to deserve this?" he questioned the silent abyss, he didn't explain his question, he had no need to do so, he knew what he meant and after all he was talking to himself. He wanted Blaine, as pitiful and weak as that sounded, he wanted nothing more than for his boyf- his best friend to wrap him up in his arms and tell him that he was safe and that yeah it's okay to cry, Kurt wanted that feeling where he knew he could talk but he wasn't pressured.
Dammit! His mind cried, he felt weak, he always hated to rely on someone and lately it felt like he was relying on Blaine to breath, because that's what Blaine felt like, Oxygen, like Kurt would always need him even when he didn't realize it.
He looked down at his hands and stared at them for the longest time, he'd been doing that a lot lately, it felt like for some reason that hands, not necessarily his own, played a big key in what happened. He laid his head back on the cushion as he closed his eyes, he could see himself going up steps in a once attractive house, he could feel that he wanted to go up the stairs, he followed his memory as it got to a door and he went into the room.
He remembered being pushed onto the bed, shirtless, but he felt that deep down he liked being controlled, his memory looked down at the sheets and felt how scratchy they were, he watched the bed dip. 'You're gonna make me feel real good' he could hear a gruff voice that was laced with deep arousal say, he felt the man push him down on the bed- That's where his memory locked him out.
He groaned in frustration "Fuck!" Kurt Hummel didn't swear very often but the profanity made him feel freer in a strange way,
Kurt was livid, he was sick of feeling like there was a part of him missing, even if he knew that part would be horrible to have, he still hated the unknown and the worse part was that it had only been a few days and he already felt this way.
Not thinking Kurt did exactly what he always did when he was angry, he tried pulling his hair but due to the damage on his collar bone the action hurt more than it was worth.
Kurt cried out in pain, he dropped his hands gently down, he now had a rather painful throb in his shoulders and it hurt like hell, a few tears ran down Kurt's face, he turned his head to the side and noticed the drink bottle and container of morphine tablets his father had left there from earlier that morning.
Kurt looked at the small white bottle and the painless serenity they would give him, Kurt reached for them and just got the tablets, he reached further and got the water, he couldn't be bothered to read the label before he popped three pills instead of the recommended half tablet.
Kurt closed his eyes again and was happy to be granted with absolutely nothing, he smiled dopily as the morphine started to work. Kurt still wished he hadn't sent Blaine to school even if he did know how important Blaine's education was, he still could really do with a Blaine hug but he knew the boy would be busy with school work.
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Blaine's mouth was hanging open, he remembered Kurt saying that he went a whole week of acting straight but he didn't know he meant like that!
Blaine couldn't hold it in any longer, he started laughing, it was a little funny even if he knew that Kurt sounded incredibly hot but that wasn't the point, Kurt looked like he was a little boy again playing dress ups in a bachelor pad.
The giggling soon subsided and he wiped the tears from his eyes, he kind of wished he was watching these videos with Kurt himself but he knew he could still pay Kurt out for this.
He looked at the side bar of videos and another video caught his eye; Blaine watched the video performance of 'Confessions/ It's my life' with a sort of stunned silence, they all looked like they were on something, they were all bouncy especially Kurt, he looked like someone had told him he would be receiving every item of Alexander Mcqueen's final set in his size.
The New Directions (A/N: I had accidently written 'Nude Erections' by accident :/ good thing I noticed.) had really great vocals and Blaine wasn't sure if The Warblers would be able to beat them at then remembered what James had said "The Warblers page" Blaine found his way there and the picture of him half naked was there with a small caption underneath 'The Naked Warbler' well that explains James, he wasn't surprised that the photo was there he knew that it would find it's way online eventually. He laughed and began reading the comments, most were from the warblers mainly pointing out his nakedness.
Wes 'Gavel' Montgomery: 'You Andersons don't know how to keep your clothes on do you?'
David Thompson, James Tullamine and 3 others like this.
David Thompson: OMN!
Jess Sterling: ?
David Thompson: OH MY NAKEDNESS!
Jeff Sterling: You're rightBlaine should be naked more often
Nick Duval: Jeff? =(
Jeff Sterling: Sorry babe xx
Wes 'Gavel' Montgomery: You killed the comments with your love
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David Thompson: ^^^ Neff said.
Blaine rolled his eyes, and began to read the rest of the comments, some were from random students that he didn't even know, a lot of them were quite vulgar, a lot of the more sexual ones though came from Santana who seemed to comment more than Wes and David combined which Blaine thought was a freaking good effort.
Blaine was enjoying himself until his phone started ringing.
'Burt Hummel calling'
Blaine's brow furrowed in confusion, why is Burt calling me? Blaine answered after a moment.
"Hello good Sir, what can I do for you?"
"Blaine, I need your help…" Burt's voice was gruff and Blaine knew he was tired, he listened closely and heard a childish giggle in the background, Blaine was even more confused where is he?
"-It's about Kurt" Burt said and Blaine swallowed, his fun for the day was over he thought but Blaine couldn't be more wrong.
A/N: I know I give you cliff hangers all the time but really for the next chapter I am going to have to watch my best friend for inspiration =D
So as I said, I am super nervous about this chapter and I honestly think its because the erection jokes are getting kind of lame but when I tried to take it out my friend nearly killed me so sorry my life is more valuable than any real humor =P
Also I would love it if you followed me on tumblr (Url: fallingthroughwonderland ) because then I'm not really talking to myself anymore =P
Also again could you please take a look at my other stories, they're drowning without your love =P
So its by birthday tomorrow…review? I would love it more than anything else (Even a kiss from my super hot maybe-not-my-ex-anymore)
Love Shae xo
PS: Music credit is as follows:
'Hey Jude' by The Beatles
'Le Jazz Hot' by Julie Andrews (Victor Victoria)
'Four Minutes' by Madonna and Justin Timberlake
'Bad Romance' by Lady Gaga
'It's my life/Confessions' by the glee cast as a mash-up of Usher's 'Confessions' and Bon Jovi's 'It's My Life'
Oh and reference to 'Pink Houses' by John Mellancamp