Writer's Note-Okay, so first off, I just wanna' say I'm sorry. I must have been reeeeaaalllly tired when I was editing the last chapter because their are so many typos in it and I'm sorry. Hopefully, none of them were so bad that you didn't understand something. Also...another mistake I ALWAYS make...I didn't out the title of the song. The song in the last chapter was "Happy Birthday" By: Flypside. I know, I suck I feel so bad. But, still getting amazing feedback and I love it, thank you.

After her awkward moment outside with Quinn, Rachel did the most un-like Rachel Berry thing she could possibly do. She stormed back inside the building. She headed straight for the back office. She closed the door behind her, and started screaming into her hands. Seconds later Jade hurried in, and shut the door.

"Hey...hey, what's the matter, relax", she said, trying to hug Rachel, but the smaller girl just shoved her away.

"Don't."

Jade just stood there, unsure what to do.

"Who the Hell does she think she is? She can't be doing this...not her, not now. Not ever", she cried.

"What happened", asked Jade, clearly confused.

"She kissed me."

"Who?"

"Quinn! Quinn fucking kissed me! She stomped on my cigarette and then tried to make out with me!"

"Okay, can you please sit down?"

"Jade, just leave me alone, please."

"I will as soon as you just sit down, and listen to something for me", said Jade, calmly. Rachel hesitated for a few moments before rolling her eyes, and taking a seat on the couch. Jade sat down next to her, and pulled out her phone. She played around with it for a minute before handing it to Rachel."Just listen."

"I'd tell her...that I...I'm sorry for treating her like crap for so long. That...I only did it because...I cared too much about what people thought. I'd admit that the only reason I picked on her all the time was because she seemed like a loser to me...but really I knew she wasn't a loser. I just got mad at her because she...wasn't just like me, and my friends"

Rachel closed her eyes, and handed the phone back to Jade."She's a liar."

"No, Rach she meant that. I know she did, and I understand why you're hating her so much, trust me I do. But...I think you should give her a chance."

"I can't. I won't...ever! You know I slapped her for kissing me, I slapped her as hard as I could, but it was nothing compared to the slap she gave me Prom night of Junior year. Getting her back felt amazing...but I'm still not satisfied. I want her to suffer...I don't care how sorry she is, or if she wants to be my friend or not, it's never going to happen! I fucking hate her", cried Rachel.

"Rachel! She's not Jesse", yelled Jade. She didn't mean to yell. It was a pretty rare thing, but she never felt right about doing it. Rachel just stared at her in disbelief.

"I'm sorry", said Jade, quietly.

"It's okay", she answered, looking away. A second later, she felt Jade grab her hand.

"I wasn't sure until now, but I just figured it out", said Jade. Rachel just looked at her."The only other time you sound as broken as you do, is when you talk about...him. Quinn's not Jesse, and I think the only reason you're being like this to her, is because you can't get near him to take it out on him. You don't hate her...I know you don't. Please, please please...give her chance?"

Rachel just sighed and berried her face into Jade's shoulder.

Outside, Quinn was pacing around, trying to calm herself down.

You only kiss a person like that when you have romantic feelings towards them. What the Hell is the matter with me? I don't have those feelings for her. I don't. I just want to be there for her as a friend, that's all. I don't have those feelings. I can't have those feelings.

She turned on her heels once more to be met with the face of Mercedes.

"Oh my God", she said, in shock.

"Quinn, what are you doin' here, girl?"

Without any hesitation what so ever, Quinn leaned forward and wrapped Mercedes in probably one of the tightest hugs she had ever given anybody.

"Don't tell me your sorry, okay Quinn? Because it was our problem. One that we didn't handle right. I am lovin' this hug, but for real...please don't tell me you're sorry."

"Okay, I won't", said Quinn, pushing back."It's really good to see you."

"So, what are you doin' here?"

"NYU, I start Monday."

"Oh, that's cool, what's your major?"

"Photography."

"Nice. Well, I'm sorry if I seem rude, especially since I haven't seen you in like a year. But, I need to get the Hell out of here. Some people in there were giving me and Jonah shit."

"Really", asked Quinn, sympathetically.

"Yeah, but it's okay, Puck threw their asses out", said Mercedes, laughing a little.

"Well, abortion brings out the fire in some people. Listen, don't beat yourself up over this, okay? Because it's something every girl probably thinks about."

"Did you think about it?"

"I did."

"What stopped you?"

"A lot of things. But, Mercedes it's like that song says. If you ever have another baby in the future...it will only be your other child coming back to you", said Quinn, smiling warmly. Mercedes held back her tears, and nodded. She hugged Quinn again."If you ever need to talk, now that I'm here, you can call me whenever you want, Mercedes."

"Thank you, I'll take you up on that. You know...I'm glad you had Beth. I'll be honest, you were so much nicer when you were pregnant, and for a while after that too. Not that being around us in Glee didn't have nothin' to do with it, but I think havin' her changed you. In a good way, though. But...you do this yo-yo thing all the time, so what mode you stuck on now?"

"Mode?"

"Yeah, you back to being Prom Bitch Barbie, or you bein' sweet now", laughed Mercedes. Quinn smiled.

"I'm not really sure, but no worries. Being away from Lima has already started to effect me in one of the best ways possible."

"Good to know, girl. I'm out...I'll grab your number from Jade later on."

"Take care Mercedes, and remember, I'm here anytime", said Quinn. Mercedes nodded, and walked away slowly. Quinn on the other hand was about to go back to her state of panic, but when she went to walk back inside, Rachel stepped out, and looked right at her.

"Rachel...I'm sor-"

"It's fine."

"What?"

"It's fine, I actually...came out here to tell you that I was sorry. I shouldn't have slapped you."

"We're even now."

"No, that doesn't matter. I was never angry that you hit me at prom...it just...took me by surprise that's all." Quinn nodded, and then came the silence. The ridiculously, long, uncomfortable awkward silence. Quinn was even more confused than she had been just a few minutes prior. She was thinking how much harder she was going to have to work at getting Rachel to trust her, after the kiss. Now, Rachel was being just a little bit nicer, and it was messing with Quinn's head.

Is she serious?

Rachel on the other hand was still pissed. She was angry she wanted to cry, but she didn't. Instead she decided to deal with the night's obnoxiously emotional events in a different way.

"Come on...I need a drink, and I can only assume you do too."

"Yeah...I really do...but Rachel...don't tell anyone I kissed you. Please? It's not that...I...well I mean I'm not sure why...I mean I just...don't tell. Please?

"Why did you kiss me", the smaller girl asked, shyly.

"I don't know...but don't tell anyone."

Rachel was hurt. She didn't really hate that Quinn had kissed her, and she didn't really know how she was supposed to react, or feel about it. But, the fact that Quinn seemed to be so embarrassed by it, hurt her. It hurt her more than she thought it would.

"I told Jade...but, you don't have to worry about anything with her. She won't tell anyone, and she won't try to use it against you to make you look bad."

"It's not that I think it will make me look bad, Rach."

"Yes it is. I mean...I know that isn't the only reason, but I can tell that it's part of the reason. I get it, and it's alright", said Rachel.

"Did you...like me kissing you?"

"No", answered Rachel, a little too quickly.

"Oh."

"Quinn, can we please just...go get a drink?"

Quinn sighed and nodded. They both headed back inside, and found Puck at the bar with Santana.

"There you are, where the Hell have you been", asked Santana.

"Outside. I just needed some air."

"Oh, okay. Hey Rachel...how's it going", asked Santana, when she noticed Rachel was kind of glaring at her. The shorter girl didn't say a word. She simply sat down, and started talking to one of the bartenders.

"Okay then. Q, I got you this, come on, sit down." She handed Quinn a drink, and then got up from her stool to let her sit down.

"I have a big ass headache right now, it's so annoying", groaned Puck."This has been the longest night ever, and I'm just done. I think I'm going home."

"Don't leave, come on", whined Rachel.

"I'm sorry Fun Size, but there is just too much shit going on, I don't wanna' be here. Jade left too, she took her brother home like five minutes. Said she wasn't coming back."

"Who leaves their own bar", laughed Santana.

"She does it all the time, but she's not the only one in charge, so it's cool. Listen, why don't we both go home, Rachel...Quinn and San can just come hang out with us."

"Really", asked Quinn.

"Yeah, if you want to", said Puck.

"We do have alcohol at home...so I suppose we should just go", said Rachel, tiredly.

Once the four of them reached the apartment, Rachel walked inside first. Followed by Puck, then their two guests.

"I need to go change into something more comfortable. Like, Pajamas or something...I'll be right back", said the tiny diva. She hurried off to her bedroom, and shut the door.

"Who all lives here", asked Santana, looking around.

"Me, Rachel, Jade and Jonah. I don't pay rent though...", said Puck, as he took his shirt off.

"Really Puck", laughed Quinn.

"Leave me alone Baby Mama, I need to be comfy too", he said, smiling.

At that moment, Jade came walking from the bathroom, heading into the kitchen. She was wrapped in nothing but a black towel, and singing softly to herself. She had ear phones in, and was holding her iPod in her hand. Puck started laughing hysterically.

"Jade...", said Quinn.

"Don't bother, she doesn't even realize we're standing here. This is like a nightly thing", laughed Puck. They watched as the darker girl strolled into the kitchen, and opened the freezer door. She continued singing to herself, as she pulled out a bottle of vodka.

"See, I knew there was a real reason for coming here", laughed Santana.

Jade got some soda from the fridge, and opened it as she sang along to whatever was playing in her ears. She ten took a shot from the from bottle, and chased it with the soda. She turned towards the sink, and started to to rinse off some of the dishes that were in it. Puck, Quinn, and Santana just giggled to themselves, and watched her.

"Okay this is priceless. Hang on...watch this", said Santana. She snuck over into the kitchen, and crept up behind Jade. When the girl finally turned around, she let out a loud scream, and fell to the ground. Which resulted in her roommate, and two friends laughing even harder.

"Oh my god", she breathed, as she took her head phones from her ears."What the crap, when did you guys get here?"

"Just now.", laughed Puck.

"Well good Christ! Are you trying to send me into cardiac arrest", asked Jade, half laughing. Rachel, and Jonah both sprang from their bedrooms.

"What happened...oh...never mind", said Jonah, as he went back into his room.

"See? It happens all the damn time", said Puck. Santana reached down, and Jade grabbed her hand."Nice towel", said Santana, as she pulled the girl up."Fuck", mumbled Jade, and she hurried towards the bathroom.

"Well now that you've succeeded in scaring the crap out of Jade...who wants what to drink", asked Rachel, as she walked into the kitchen.

"Don't even worry about me, I'm just gonna' grab a beer in a minute. I need to go talk to Jonah quick", said Puck, and he hurried away.

"What are you drinking, Rachel", asked Quinn.

"Whatever Jade makes for me", said Rachel, casually. She grabbed a bunch of different bottles from the freezer, and other random things from the fridge."She makes the drinks...and she make them very well, do I don't ask questions."

"Really? You don't ask questions? That's new", said Santana.

"You know what Santana, if you're gonna' be like that, you can fucking leave", snapped Rachel. The Latina, and Quinn just stared, mouths open at the girl."We aren't in Lima, we aren't at school, so just cut it out already! I'm not your damn insult cushion anymore!"

"Okay I was kidding, Man ha-...I mean Rachel. I'm sorry."

"Are you just sorry for that? Or are you sorry for all the shit you gave me? Because I think I'd be more inclined to have you as company if you admitted that the way you treated me was totally uncalled for. I never did anything to you, either of you", Rachel ranted, looking back and forth from Santana to Quinn."All I ever wanted was to find somewhere to fit in that God forsaken place, but I guess it was too much to ask for. Just like anything in my life...way too much to ask for."

"Rachel, relax", said Jade, as she came from the bathroom. Dressed in what seemed to be her PJ's.

"No, I'm not going to relax! I'm trying to be nice...I really am, but two of the biggest bitches from Lima are standing in my apartment right now, and it's making me fucking sick!"

"Rachel Barbara Berry, you need to take a breath, and calm down...now", said Jade, in such a motherly tone, it further shocked Santana and Quinn. Rachel glared at Jade, and breathed heavily."Okay stop, there is absolutely no reason for you to be giving me that nasty effing look. I want you to calm down, please." Santana and Quinn watched in amazement as Jade and Rachel just stared each other down. Rachel's eyes were angry, she was very clearly confused and frustrated. Then, there was Jade. Her eyes were soft, warm, and it was obvious that she had done this with Rachel many times before. To the girls surprise, Rachel slowly started to calm down.

"Good girl", said Jade, as she slowly moved forward."Breath it out."

"Rachel...I am sorry for how I acted towards you. Even if you don't believe me...or Quinn. It's not like we followed you here just to torture you", said Santana, calmly.

"Do you want us to leave", asked Quinn.

"No", said Rachel, as she nestled herself into Jade."I want you to stay, if Santana really means what she just said."

"I do mean it, I promise", said Santana.

"Okay. Fine, you guys can stay."

"Nice. That's the good news I guess, but the bad news is I have to go to the store before we can hang out", said Jade.

"For what", asked Rachel.

"Just...stuff. I'll be back in like twenty minutes, don't worry."

"You can't go alone, it's late", said Quinn.

"I'll be fine", said Jade.

"Screw that, I'm going with you. Come on", said Santana. Jade couldn't help but smile a little. A few minutes later, the two of them were gone, and Rachel and Quinn were left alone in the living room. Yet again, sitting in awkward silence. Rachel was sitting on the couch, legs curled underneath her, just staring down at the floor. Quinn studied her for what seemed like the hundredth time that night. She looked tired, but so pretty.

"Where do you go...", wondered Quinn, out loud.

"What", asked Rachel.

"When you get that look in your eyes, I just know it's because your lost in your own world...".

Rachel smiled warmly, and stood up."Come on", she said extending her hand. Quinn grabbed it, and stood.

"Where are we going?"

"You'll see."

Five minutes later they were on the rooftop of the building. Rachel led Quinn as close to the edge as they could be, safely.

"Wow...", whispered Quinn. She was staring at lights. Thousands upon thousands of bright, shiny lights. From cars, billboards, buildings, everywhere. Every color, some dim, some brighter than the rest.

"When I was back home, I thought about how much happier I'd be once I was here. I'd be on stage all the time. Singing my heart out to whoever would listen. I didn't think anyone could ever touch me, could ever stop me from doing what I came here to do. But...I was wrong. I'm stuck at the very bottom, and believe it or not...it's even lower than I was back in Lima."

"You were low."

"Yes, I was", argued Rachel.

"No. I watched you...all the time I watched you. Every insult thrown at you just bounced back off. Sometimes, you'd get down but Rachel...you always picked yourself right back up. Whenever you got slushied you'd clean yourself up, and be walking down the hallway with a smile on your face, as if it never happened. Do you have any idea how much that used to pissed me off?" Rachel laughed a little."I'm serious...it was like...no matter what happened you were always gonna' bounce back. I was jealous of that."

"Quinn, I am nothing to be jealous over. Al I ever did was rub my talent in everyone's face...and look where I am right now. You should have saved your jealously for somebody that mattered."

"You do matter."

"To who?"

"To me", answered Quinn, a little too quickly.

Rachel didn't say anything, she just looked out to the city view. Quinn watched as a few tears rolled down the smaller girls cheeks. She leaned down, and wiped them away. She then lightly grabbed Rachel's chin, and brought her gaze to her line of vision."I'm sure you matter to lots of people...but...just so you know...you do matter to me."

"He told me the same thing", whispered Rachel.

"Who...Jesse?" Rachel just nodded, and her whole body started to tremble slightly. Quinn noticed, and immediately wrapped her arms around her. "Rachel...".

"I wish I were dead", she cried.

"Oh my God...no...no, please don't say that", begged Quinn, who was starting to cry a little herself.

"I do, Quinn. I wish he just would have killed me."

"Stop it...please."

Rachel's crying got louder, as she sank to the ground. Quinn went right down wither, and held her tight.

"Rach...I want you to tell me what he did to you."

"I can't."

"Yes you can, you can trust me...please."

"Why do you want to know so bad?"

"Because he broke you", cried Quinn."You're broken, and I need to know why."

There was nothing else said for a few minutes, they just cried together. By the time they had both calmed down, Rachel was pretty much sitting in Quinn's lap, cuddled close to her. How she had ended up there, she didn't care, regardless of how weird it felt. It also felt right. She felt safe, and warm surrounded by Quinn's scent.

"Quinn?"

"Yes?"

"When I'm lost in my own world...this is where my mind takes me."