Chapter Eleven ~ The Truth Comes Out

Levi's prov.

I woke up very early the next morning, feeling cold. I opened my eyes and stared up at the ceiling, I've never woken up to feeling cold before. And it wasn't just a normal sort of cold. My chest lanced in pain as if an ice shard had been shoved through my chest. Something felt wrong. My eyes scanned the dark enveloped room, hm... must be really damn early. I am never up at this time. I sighed and rolled over to see her. (F/N)'s back was facing me, her (H/C) hair fanning out across her pillow, her skin glistening in the low glow of the moonlight. Carefully I sat up and moved the bed sheets back, desperately needing a glass of water to quench my thirst. I padded across the cool wooden floor, tripping over one of the boots that laid carelessly on the floor, bashing my bare hip on (F/N)'s desk, "Oh for fuck sake!" I grunted quietly, kicking the leather aside. I stood still for a moment as the desk jostled and banged loudly against the wall, glancing back at (F/N)'s sleeping form as she shifted and rolled over in her sleep. I waited for a moment before I breathed out a sigh and glanced at the desk.

The drawers had fallen open. One of them containing a sizeable stack of papers. My curiosity peaked but I left them alone until I stood on a sheet of paper that must have fallen out of the desk. Even in the dim light I could just about make out the first sentence, Behaviour report #1 ~ Subject: Levi Ackerman. I sat on the edge of the bed, my eyes widening, Wait... A behaviour report...on me?

Day #1

It's been only a day since apprehending the criminal but I can already tell he is of a sadistic nature. He doesn't seem to care much about others feelings. If I had to guess, he takes enjoyment out of insulting others. However I would give him the benefit of the doubt and say that he doesn't seem to give much away, whether it be his thoughts or emotions. It will be harder to get any information out of him than what I previously thought. It seems he has trust issues so I will have to work my way around that in order to get him to tell me what I want.

My mouth popped open as I abruptly stood and made my way over to the desk. Even though I was stark naked, I sat down on her cool wooden chair and flicked through the notes, a shiver running through my body.

Day #4

Seems Levi has a strong bond with his subordinates, Furlan and Isabel, however I have come to the conclusion that they are more than likely, just pawns than friends. To support this theory, Levi treats them as petulant children than the adults they actually are. And more often than not, he is always scolding them, punishing them if he has to. He doesn't seem to care if he leaves bruises, as long as they learn their lesson then he is happy...

Day #7

Levi still insists of cleaning the barracks every day. I think there is some sort of deep set fear of living in a dirty environment. But then again, if he had been born into the filth that was the Underground then surely I can be sympathetic in him wanting to clean every surface. But still, resorting to physical punishment if there is a spec of dust on the floor begs the question if he was made to do this when he was younger and whether he would get punished as well. Is he projecting his childhood onto us via this punishment?

Day #15

Training went well with Levi although he was rather disrespectful to his superior officers and didn't pay any attention to orders. Seems that he is incapable of following orders but his own. However he doesn't seem to slack off in hand-to-hand combat since he managed to put me on my backside. However I think I have come to the assumption that Levi is manipulative and will take advantage of any situation if he had reason to do so. This is why I believe he took advantage over me...

Day #17

Hanje has reported to me that Levi was searching for me, not long after the incident at the training grounds. I don't want to see him, but it does beg the question of what he wants. Surely he knows how he managed to hurt me, and would just leave me alone. But according to Hanje, he looks for me every day and expresses with Furlan and Isabel how he wants to talk with me, to make sure I am alright and I am not hurt. What exactly is going through his mind?

Day #26

Levi seems to show dominance and control over women and often uses himself to get what he wants. However he does seem haunted by the ever present thought of going back to the Underground. I have come to the conclusion that something bad must have happened there, granted it was a disgusting place, but why would he want to avoid it so much. He also seems remorseful over the happenings of the training sessions a few weeks prior. He felt rather guilty over bruises he had left, which from earlier assessments, he wouldn't have cared before hand. But today he seemed rather attentive in wanting to make sure that they were not causing pain or any other discomfort. I believe this man may just be a small boy at heart, concerned with his actions...

Day #28

Levi has completely withdrawn from himself. The loss of Furlan and Isabel has definitely affected him deeply. It seems I was wrong on my earlier assessment in that they were only his subordinates, they were clearly family to him. He has suffered a great deal, and definitely is scarred by what happened. From my understanding, he took down the titan responsible, however he didn't just strike the vital region. According to Section Commander Erwin Smith and Section Commander Mike Zacharius, the titan corpse had literally been hacked to pieces. Levi clearly took out any pent up rage against them, making me believe this is rage inside him, is far from over...

Day #35

Levi seems to be more troubled than I initially thought. The reason for his nonchalant, stoic attitude seems to stem from abandonment issues from losing his mother at an early age. Only to be taken in by a man who knew her, who again, abandoned him when he was ready to survive on his own. It would appear that the pain of losing two vital people in his upbringing scarred him and he therefore refuses to get close to people. Not wanting to go through the same hurt as before. It also shows that he is capable of loving someone to great lengths, but he is very childish in trying to get the same affection back. He also has a strong connection with his possessions. In the sense that anything he deems as his, he has had to work extremely hard for and will go to any means in keeping that possession safe, like gripping the rim of his tea cup instead of the handles. He has a fear of breaking the cup, which stems from an incident in his childhood. I am glad that Levi seems more willing to open up to me, willing to show his emotions so I believe I have made a break through...

My eyes widened as I threw the notes back onto the desk, my breathing coming in shuddering gasps as I replayed everything she had written about me. Why would she do this? Why would she keep such documentation where I could easily find it? All sorts of questions ran through my mind as I tried to gather up coherent thoughts. Did she really feel that way about me? I glanced up at the sleeping woman, her features so innocent. But I couldn't look at her for long. Anger bubbling up inside me, my limbs quivering as the sting of betrayal lanced through my heart.

I stood up and grabbed my clothes, throwing them on in the darkness, my mind reeling. As much as I hated that she had written about my personal life, I couldn't get one thought out of my head, Erwin put her up to this! He must of asked her for behaviour reports on me. I rubbed my hand over my face, tears spilling out of the corners as I tried to wrangle my emotions. How could she do this to me? Maybe if I told her not to tell anyone... no... fucking hell! I wanted to shake her awake right now and ask her what the hell she was thinking, but I couldn't. I couldn't even bring myself to look at her.

I sat on the corner of the bed and pulled on my boots, before trudging over to her desk. Grabbing a sheet of paper, I wrote her a small note and left it on the pile of papers. I quietly walked over to the bed, studying her sleeping features. It pained me that I would be hurting her by leaving, but I needed space. Some place to think about what I was going to do. I placed a gentle kiss on her forehead before leaving her room and welcomed the cold dark night's embrace.

Reader's prov.

I ran down the corridor, not caring about how much noise my loud footfalls were making. All I cared about was getting to Levi before he does something stupid. Not that he would intentionally hurt himself, but who knows. He probably feels so unloved and I have to make that right. I have to give him his trust back. He needs to know the truth about those behaviour reports.

Shit! Why didn't I just burn them? There was no reason for holding copies of them. If I had gotten rid of the notes then this wouldn't be happening. I wouldn't be running down this corridor in the dead of night to explain my foolish actions to the man I love.

I burst through his door, almost knocking it off its hinges as it banged against the wall. Levi was curled up on his bed in the foetal position, his arms banding around his knees. His boots strewn across the floor, his belts left hanging off his chair. He glanced up, sighing heavily, "I thought I asked for fucking space brat!" He growled, his voice thick with emotion, and even in the dim light I could see the glistening trails falling down his cheeks. Seeing him look so vulnerable, it took every ounce of strength not to walk over and cuddle him, let him know that everything was going to be alright.

"Just please fuck off," Levi asked, laying his head back down on his pillow and balling himself even tighter. I didn't pay him any attention, I just tentatively stepped over to him, sitting down on the bed in front of him. Childishly he turned over so his back was facing me, however I refused to say a word to him while I collected my thoughts, How can I make him see how sorry I actually was?

"Oh I get it. You came here to hurl more insults and assessments my way," Levi growled, throwing himself up so he sat up next to me, his eyes glacial and filled with pure rage, "Well get on with it! What am I now? Childish because I ran away, hm... maybe that indicates that I am so fucked up in the head that I cannot handle tough situations...Or maybe its because you assume my mother did horrible things to me and that has deeply scarred me... You don't even care that I lost my entire family, and yet I am still here, trying to fight for what I want... So come on get it over with, insult me further so I can go to fucking sleep and forget about all this crap!"

His harsh words cut into me like a knife, causing me to flinch at his acidic tone. I opened my mouth to speak but I couldn't get the words out.

Levi scowled at me, his eyes deadly as his mouth curled up into a sneer, "Well here is an assessment for you. What I see in front of me is a scared little bitch who doesn't like being alone. She manipulates people, seduces men and then when she is done with them and has all the information she wants out of them, she composes the biggest steaming pile of shit she can come up with before submitting it to her superiors. Just so she can rise up through the ranks, never once caring about who she might be hurting," He spat, his voice dripping with venom, his hair falling over his eyes as he continued, "I deduce that this was caused by Daddy issues, hm... I wonder, maybe he manipulated you into doing things you didn't want to while Mummy wasn't around. Maybe you retained these behaviours because even though he wasn't around anymore, you still felt he could hurt you. Maybe that bastard deserved to die!"

I turned my face to him, gaping at the broken man before me. Before I knew it, my hand connected with his cheek so hard, my hand began to sting. Levi grumbled as he held his cheek, a red handprint evident on his skin. So much so I could actually make out my fingers.

"Enough!" I shouted, lowering my hand, not even looking at the man as he sat there, stunned, "What you are saying isn't how you actually feel. You are only saying it to get me to leave, well hurting my feelings won't work. I came here to explain so let me do that." I huffed, surprised that my eyes were still dry. I would have normally broke down if someone insulted my father in such ways, but I refused to let Levi know how much he actually hurt me.

He was silent for a while, his breathing returning to normal from his verbal attack as he carefully sat next to me. Not touching me in any way, his head bowed so I couldn't see his face, "I'm sorry, I... I didn't mean any of that."

"I know."

He lifted his head slightly, tears glistening in his eyes once more, "Do you really think all of that shit about me?" He asked, scrubbing his hand over his face and turning enough that I could see him clearly out of the corner of my eye.

"No I don't. Because none of that is my writing," I whispered, crawling into his lap and nuzzling up into his chest, listening to the fluttering of his heart. He froze at my action, but I didn't give a shit. I wrapped my arms around him, he needed to know how much I actually cared whether he liked it or not.

"What do you mean?" He asked, resting his chin on my head, sighing lightly.

"If you actually looked, the only document that I had written was the first," I explained, "When we first arrived with you here, I was asked by Erwin to write up reports on you and the other two regarding Lovof. But I also had to include a behaviour report about you. I wrote the first one and it felt so wrong. Judging a man who I didn't know based solely on your nature to give to the Section Commander. So I asked Hanje to make notes on your behaviour and mannerisms. That way I found it easier to write about because they were not my thoughts or conclusions. I found it easier after a while to write about you after the roof top, because I was able to understand how caring and kind you actually where. But I still had Hanje collect all she could, because I didn't want to give Erwin the impression that he was reading some lovesick teenage diary. I had to include things that I didn't feel to give him a more realistic report," I paused, collecting my thoughts as I stared up at the stoic man. He didn't move or make any snide comments, he just listened intently. His features marred with sorrow.

"As for the things you told me in confidence, I never indulged into what happened as it would have been disrespectful to you to divulge in such matters. Especially when they have absolutely nothing to do with how you are now. Granted they may have shaped you, but I didn't need the Section Commander to know such personal information. All Erwin would know is that you lost your mother and the man who taught you to survive. I didn't explain how she died, or how you spent months with her corpse.

"After the expedition, Erwin asked me if I could continue with the behaviour reports and I refused. There was no need. I told him if he hasn't got a general idea of who you are then he needed to find someone else to write the reports for him. I never meant to hurt you with what I said..." I trailed off, buring my face into his chest, "I am so sorry."

Levi sighed deeply, sniffing and banding his arms around me, pulling me tightly against his chest.

"I know you promised you wouldn't leave me, but I understand if you want to take a break from me..."

Levi lifted his head and pulled my chin up with his index finger so I was forced to look into his stormy anguished eyes, "No, I can't ever take a break from you, so don't even suggest it brat!"

He pressed a gentle kiss onto my lips, his smooth skin ghosting mine. When he pulled away he had a frown marring his features, "So everything I read was actually Shitty Glasses' notes."

I nodded against his chest, "Yes they were."

He sighed again and a low growl rumbled from his chest. His eyes filled with sorrow as he glanced down at me, placing a kiss in my hair, "I am so sorry about what I said, I was..."

I grimaced, shuddering slightly. He pulled his arms around me, rubbing me with his warm hands, "I know you are sorry. I know that you were angry and you needed to vent. But please, if you are going to vent, leave my father out of this."

He nodded once and placed his chin back onto my head. His warmth transferring to me as I slowly warmed up. Suddenly, an idea popped into my head. A fantastic idea. It wouldn't fix this, but it sure as hell may help.

"Come with me," I whispered, a smile spreading across my face as I crawled out of his lap and offered him my hands.

"Where are we going?" he asked, quirking his eyebrows, a smirk tugging at the corners of his mouth.

"I know for a fact Erwin hasn't opened any of those behaviour reports yet. He just shoved them into his filing cabinet."

Levi smirked properly as I pulled him up, his eyes lowered to mine, "What are you suggesting?"

"That we steak them and burn them. Along with the notes in my room. It won't make up for what I did..." I whispered, lowering my head, feeling ashamed. My eyes trailing down to our joined hands. Mine fitting perfectly in his large palms.

"No but it's a start," Levi smiled and brought his lips to mine once more, "Seems I've had quite the influence on you brat!"

I smiled up at him, peaking at him through my eyelashes, "Yep, goodie two shoes now turned thief. You should be so proud."

"Wouldn't have it any other way brat!" He said mischievously.

The corridor leading to Erwin's office was clear. I tried to keep very quiet as Levi scoped out the corridor and the rest of the hall way. I've never done anything like this especially during the dead of night, so to say I was nervous would be an understatement. The corridor was very dark and ominous, it usually is but with no torches alight, it seemed to make things that much more frightening. The darkness was definitely playing tricks on my mind as I whipped my head around, the feeling of dread seeping through my veins as I felt like someone was watching me. I shivered and turned back as a dark shadow jogged up to me, touching me lightly on the hand before speaking in a hushed whisper, "All clear, come on."

"I think someone is watching us," I said in a concerned voice, glancing back over my shoulder, hearing a light chuckle, "Are you laughing at me?"

Levi turned his head, his features confused, or at least from what I could tell, "What are you talking about? There is no one here. Come on lets go."

He entwined his fingers with mine and dragged me over to Erwin's door. The massive wooden door squeaked a little on its hinges but it wouldn't have been loud enough for anyone but myself and Levi to hear. I tiptoed into the office, very aware that the blonde Section Commander was asleep in the next room. I gestured to Levi, showing him where the filing cabinet was, just under his desk. He carefully eased it open, pausing every few seconds so he could hear Erwin's loud, deep snores before continuing. Once the draw was open enough, I struck a match and lit one of the candles on the desk and brought it lower so I could rifle through the files of paperwork. Levi glanced down at me, giving me a questioning look as I rummaged through until I found the behaviour reports in a rather fat looking file. I handed it over to Levi and closed the drawer quietly.

As we were about to make our escape, Erwin stirred in the next room, coughing loudly, the bed sheets rustling. Levi grabbed my hand and bolted out the door and down the hallway were we slipped into a small office, shutting the wooden door quietly before pressing our ears to the cool smooth wood. I could faintly hear Erwin muttering to himself, as his heavy footfalls paced his office. I could only imagine what he must look like. His blonde hair sleep mussed and all over his face, his eyes droopy, his mouth held agape in a silent yawn, groggy and trying to figure out if he had shut his door before going to bed. The thought made me smile a little. Poor Erwin.

Once we heard the door click shut, Levi carefully and quietly stepped out, his black hair flicking to the sides as he checked if the coast was clear, "We're good," He murmured, grabbing my hand once more and started jogging back to my room. I giggled as I loaded all the unwanted paperwork into my drawer and tugged it out of place. Levi placed the heavy file on top, a small smile appearing on the corner of his mouth as he took the drawer from me. I leant under my desk and pulled out a bottle of alcohol, one of the bottles Furlan had managed to steal from the kitchen store, and some matches.

We then proceeded to leave the comforts of my room and head out the back of HQ where the fires had been only a few weeks prior. The wooden cages that held the fires were charred but they would hold for what we needed them for. Levi threw the drawer onto the pile and I doused it in the alcohol, making sure that it had seeped through to every single piece of paper. Striking a match, Levi threw it onto the pile. The papers exploded into flames, dancing and licking up toward the sky.

"I meant it, I am sorry for the pain I caused you, Levi," I mumbled, leaning my tired weary head onto his shoulder as we watched the flames swallow up the documents.

"It's okay, I forgive you brat," he replied softly, kissing my forehead.

We stayed until the papers had been completely devoured, nothing remained apart from a pile of smouldering ash. Levi and I turned to leave, my head still resting on his shoulder. Oh how I could stay here forever and just fall asleep on him, just like this. Our footfalls quiet as we stepped back into the building and climbed up the steps, through the dark corridor back to my room.

"I think you will like your punishment."

I lifted my head, confusion spreading across my features as I looked up at the smug looking ravenette, "Oh really? What do you mean by that?"

Levi smirked, opening my door and stripping down to his boxers in one fell swoop, "I will have you clean my new office for me tomorrow, top to bottom."

I gaped at him, drinking him in. He truly was a magnificent sight, his abdominals rippling as he bent over, picking up his trousers and folding them neatly onto the chair.

"You get an office?" I grumbled, pouting and crossing my arms over my chest.

"So do you. Yours just so happens to be next door to mine. But that is not what we were discussing," Levi paused, placing his hands on my shoulders as he stripped me of my nightshirt, "You will clean the office until I see it is clean enough."

"And how clean is clean enough?" I whispered seductively, stepping closer to him, my cool wrapping around his shoulders.

"Oh how did you put it a few hours ago?" He smirked, placing a finger on his chin as he dragged me over to the bed, "Ah yes, so shiny that I could see my face." He straddled me, a small smile on his lips as I continued to gape at the man. How could he make cleaning sound so erotic?

"Is that alright Lieutenant?"

"Perfectly Captain," I purred, turning my face so I could kiss his lips, fire igniting through my veins. I pulled away before it could become too heated, I could tell by how he stiffened against my thighs, "But I will need my beauty sleep first."

"Oh screw sleep," Levi groaned, flopping down on the other side of me, landing on his back, the bed jostling with the movement.

I sighed and straddled him, pressing my body down into his, "Oh alright Captain, if I service you quickly, will you let me sleep?" I asked, a cheeky grin spreading across my face.

"I am sure I can take your sleeping into consideration, but it depends highly on how well I am serviced," Levi mumbled, mischief laced into his voice. His warm steel blue eyes glinting in the dim light.

"Oh my dear, dear Captain. You'll be lucky to walk out of this room to view your potential candidates for your new squad, when I am done with you."

Lets just say, I barely got any sleep that night. But hey, it was for a very, very good cause.