Monday morning. A morning Jade Price had been dreading for a few days. She rolled onto her back, and rubbed the sleep from her eyes. She laid there, hating the silence. It took a few minutes but she managed to tune into the city noise from outside, and she smiled to herself.

Music to my ears.

She grabbed her cellphone from under one of her pillows, and scanned through it. There were messages, but none from who she was really wishing to hear from. She put her headphones in her ears, pressed play on her iPod and started her morning routine. An hour later she was showered, dressed, and her make up was done. She had her hand on the door knob, to leave the apartment, when she stopped.

Wait a second. Jonah's working, Rachel's working, and Puck is still sleeping. I could totally blow off my check up and go work at the bar.

She smiled to herself, turned around ,and headed back towards her bedroom to retrieve her laptop. Halfway down the hallway, she heard the door open, and turned around to see Rachel. She stood there with her arms folded in front of her, with a rather angry mother type expression masking her face.

"Jade Price...", she warned.

"Crap", breathed Jade, and she ran into her bedroom.

"Don't you even think about it", yelled Rachel, as she took off after her. By the time she got inside Jade's room, she was about to climb out onto the fire escape.

"Jade Price, I don't care what I have to do, but you are going to see Doctor Andrews if it kills me", said Rachel, as she sailed through the air, and tackled Jade onto the ground. She sat on top of her, and held her shoulders down. To Jade's surprise, she was having trouble breaking free from the smaller girl.

"What the crap, this is physically impossible! You are the size of a Lego, how are you this strong", said Jade, out of breath, and half laughing.

"That is so not important right now. Now let's go. Boy, am I happy my boss let me come back home, I knew you would try this. I just knew it" ,said Rachel getting up. Jade grabbed her bag, and stood up. Rachel was already out of her room. Jade smiled, and took a few steps towards her window again.

"Jade!"

"Coming...", she whined.

On the subway, Jade sat and listened as Rachel lectured her on the importance of going to her appointments faithfully. Jade listened to every word, however she couldn't help but let her mind wander just a bit. She couldn't stop thinking about how her parents had never acted like this. Not even when it came to important things like doctor visits. She loved that she had a friend like Rachel, who paid attention to things like that. Somewhere in the middle of Rachel talking, she had reached over and grabbed her hand. She had to smile, because even after the gesture, the girl just kept on talking.

Meanwhile, Quinn and Santana were sitting on campus having coffee together before they parted ways for their classes.

"So, what's your day look like", asked Santana.

"I only have two classes, which is fine. It's just kind of annoying because, one is this morning, and the other is later tonight. That means I'll have to go home, and come all the way back again later", answered Quinn, as she took a sip of her coffee.

"Why don't you just stay here for the day?"

"Yeah right, I'd be here for like seven hours."

"Just a thought."

"What about you?"

"Three classes. One of them is fucking three hours long with a fifteen minute break in between. I wanna' be a lawyer, I really do, but my God", breathed the Latina.

"That does seem like a lot, but I mean...it's law. There's a lot of things to learn when it comes to something like that", laughed Quinn.

"I already know half of it though. Know why? From watching TV, I'm not even joking", said Santana.

Quinn just laughed and shook her head. Santana's phone made a noise from the table, and she glanced down to look at it.

Hey, what R U doing 2day? We should meet up since I didn't get to see you yesterday.- B

Santana just stared for a moment before picking her phone up, and placing it in her pocket.

"That was Brit, wasn't it", asked Quinn, as she studied her friend's reaction.

"Maybe...".

"You can't keep doing this. You haven't spoken to her, or Jade in a day. Ignoring both of them isn't going to help how you feel at all", lectured Quinn.

"Oh, you're one to talk. I know for a fact that you haven't talked to loud mouth tiny since Saturday", scoffed Santana.

"That is a totally different situation, thank you very much", said Quinn, with just a little more attitude than Santana cared for.

"Oh my God! How", she asked.

"We had a fight, and silently agreed to just take some time."

"Silently agreed? Okay, now you're just making shit up."

"I am not, S."

"If you say so. Regardless, I already know I being unfair about Jade and Brit, so just drop it."

"You're going to have to figure it out eventually."

"Look Brit is not the only thing distracting me from Jade. I'm slightly overwhelmed by her whole family situation. Don't get me wrong, Jonah is a sweetheart, but he's her fucking brother. I don't care how fucked the rest of the family is, he needs to step up and protect her like he knows he should be."

"He tries, remember? But, she hides things from him", defended Quinn.

"Boy needs to try harder."

"I hope she didn't skip her check up today", said Quinn."I bet you wish you could have gone with her."

Santana just nodded a little.

"You could of asked that Doctor to give her some sort of a rape exam, or something."

"No, they can't give her an exam like that without her consent", said Santana.

"Really? Did you learn that in one of your classes?"

"Nope. That one I learned from watching TV", said Santana, smiling a little bit.

At the hospital, after Jade was escorted away, Rachel got as comfortable as she could in the waiting room. She put her headphones in to block out the noise, and started playing around with her phone. She started looking through some of her photos, and came across one of her and Quinn. They were laying in Quinn's bed together, wrapped in each others arms. Quinn was kissing her on the cheek. For the first time in a long time, Rachel studied herself. In the photo, she was smiling, but it wasn't just her expression. It was her eyes. She knew in her heart that since Quinn had been back in her life, she had been happier. Not completely, but it didn't matter, it was happiness.

How do you you always make me feel the way I do...

She missed the blond so much it hurt. She was starting to wonder how she had survived all that time without her. She imagined that without Jade, Puck and Jonah holding her together, she'd fall apart all over again. Now, it seemed worse. Even though they hadn't really broken up, Rachel couldn't help but be sad. Just the thought of loosing Quinn made her heart ache. She decided to text her. She didn't even care if she got response she just wanted to let Quinn know how much she missed her.

I feel empty today...I miss you so much. - R

As Quinn sat in class, listening to her professor drone on about light sensitivity, and sunlight, she felt her phone vibrate. She dug into her pocket, and pulled it out. She smiled sadly, and started typing a response.

I miss you too. I wish I was there to fill up the empty- Q

Are you in class? - R

I am, are you at work?- Q

No, I took the morning off to be with Jade. She tried to skip her appointment but I caught her. She's in with the Doctor now.- R

Good, I kind of figured she would try to skip it. - Q

Quinn...I don't think I can do this. - R

Do what, sweetie? - Q

Be without you... -R

Quinn's heart broke a little. Not only was that one of the saddest things she had ever heard from Rachel, but she had no idea how to respond. She wasn't going to answer, but then she remembered, she had made a promise to Rachel. One that she intended on keeping.

You won't be without me. I promised I'd always be there to catch you when you fall, and I will not break that promise. I love you Rachel...- Q

I love you too Quinn - R

After about an hour of sitting in the waiting room, a nurse approached Rachel.

"Excuse me, are you Rachel Berry?"

"I am."

"Good to know, would you mind following me please? Doctor Andrews would like to speak with you", said the nurse. Rachel nodded politely, got up and followed the nurse through some doors, and a bunch of random hallways. Once she was seated in the Doctor's personal office, she started to think she was going to receive some bad news. After a few minutes, Doctor Andrews came in, and took a seat behind her desk.

"Hello, Rachel. Sorry to keep you waiting, it's a busy morning for me. How are you", she asked, cheerfully. Rachel likes the women, she was a very friendly person. In the past, it seemed any doctor she ever had to speak with was bitter, and discomforting. Doctor Andrews was a nice change.

"I'm fine, thank you, and you?"

"Well, honey I'm not going to lie to you, I'm deeply concerned for your friend. So, I just wanted to speak with you about some things, because she absolutely adores you, and it kind of seems like you take care of her."

"I try. She's my best friend, I owe her a lot", said Rachel.

"The way she talks about you, is how I talk to people about my twin sister. So, I know for a fact that the two of you have a very special friendship."

"Doctor Andrews...".

"Please, call me Mindy", she said, as she winked.

"Mindy...is Jade gonna' die", asked Rachel. She had even surprised herself with the question. Mindy gave her a very sympathetic look.

"Why would you think that?"

"Sorry, I know how strange that must have sounded...I really do. I'm just scared. I've been having a lot of nightmares lately. One's where people I really care about are just gone all of the sudden. Last week, I had a a nightmare that my girlfriend just walked away from me. Over the weekend, we had a fight, and now we're taking some sort of weird break. A bunch of times, I've had nightmares where my friend Noah, who is like a brother to me, gets taken away, and locked up in prison. But...whenever I dream about Jade...she dies. She always dies", explained Rachel. By the time her rant was over, she was looking down at her lap. She didn't want to cry in front of the doctor, but there were already tears rolling down her face."I'm sorry to be throwing all of this at you, I realize that I'm not your patient. I'm just...so scared."

Mindy let out a long sigh. She could tell just by listening to her that Rachel had been through some things. She stood up and moved around her desk. She took a seat in the chair next to Rachel, and put her arm around the smaller girl.

"You have every right to be scared, Rachel. Dealing with doctors and hospitals isn't meant to be easy for anyone. That's part of why I wanted to speak with you, and why I will be speaking with Jade's family as well. Honey, she's in more pain than she's letting on, and judging by her character, and the very special way she presents herself, I can tell that she's trying her very hardest to hide it. Now, I can't very well force her to tell me everything, so I'm going to need your help."

Rachel nodded, as more tears ran down her face. Mindy pulled her into a close hug, and rubbed her back.

"You're a very good friend, Jade's lucky to have you."

"I'm lucky to have her."

"Very true, and trust me when I say, I'm going to do all I can to make sure you'll have her for a long time. The things I'm seeing with Jade are things that I've never seen before. So, just so you know I will be spending a lot of time with her. I just want you to know that, so you understand that I'm scared too."

"You're a doctor, you aren't supposed to be scared", said Rachel, quietly, as she broke away from the embrace.

"That's how much I need to help her, Rachel. I've met a lot of interesting patients during my time as a doctor. Never any like Jade, she gets to me. I think about her while I'm at home, while I'm out with friends, or with family. She's been on my mind since the day she came in. That's never happened to me before, and I can't just ignore it." Rachel nodded. She was upset to know Jade was facing some serious doctor time. However, to hear that she had such an effect on a doctor, that she was going to get a little more attention, gave her some hope.

After spending most of the afternoon at the hospital, being with Jade for tests, and talking with Doctor Andrews, she was tried. She decided against going into work at all, and just went back home. Jade, who was very quiet for most of the afternoon, had separated from Rachel on the subway, and gone to do some work with Jonah at the bar. When Rachel arrived home, things were very quiet. There was a note on the counter from Puck.

With Mercedes, job hunting. I'll be home later on, and don't try calling or texting because my phone was shut off this morning. - Puck

Even though the note was meant for everybody, Rachel liked that she had gotten to read it first. She went into her room, dropped her things on the ground, and plopped face first onto her bed. She wasn't really sure what to do with herself, but she knew she felt like crying. So, that's exactly what she did. For what seemed like hours, she cried and cried until she fell asleep. When she woke up, it was almost totally dark inside of her room. The only light that shown was from outside. The sun was almost set. She slowly sat up, and yawned. Her body shivering slightly from the cool autumn breeze floating in from her open window. She got up, shut the window, and sat back down to check her phone. She had some random texts, and started going through them.

I think Jonah and I will be working late. Do you want to either come down here, or meet us somewhere for dinner? - J

Have you ever noticed just how much Puck flirts with anything that has a vagina? - M

Rachel had to laugh at that one. She could just hear Mercedes saying it out loud.

I've been thinking about you all day...- Q

That one made Rachel happy, and sad all at once.

Hi Rach, how R U feeling 2day? You should call me later. - B

After answering only certain texts, she put her phone on the charger. She did want to be with her friends, but she didn't think she had the energy to leave the apartment. She was getting really antsy, and pacing back and forth in her bedroom. She was trying so hard to calm down, but it was getting increasingly difficult by the minute. She needed some sort of release, and she needed it soon. She felt that if she didn't do something soon, she would faint. It was than she remembered. Something she knew Jade did all the time. She wasn't supposed to know, she had found out by accident. She opened her door, and made sure nobody else was home yet, before she crossed the hall into Jade's bedroom. She switched on her light, and went straight to the floor. She crouched down next to Jade's bed, and pulled out a small, black, wooden box. She reached under Jade's nightstand, and grabbed a small key that had been taped underneath it. She opened the box, and sure enough there were a few razor blades. It took a few minutes, but eventually she picked one up, and held it in the palm of her hand. She thought back to when she had seen Jade do it.

She had walked up onto the roof top to find Jade, and when she did, Jade was laying on her back. Eyes glued to the sky, tears rolling down her cheeks. Rachel wanted to go to her, but she had a feeling she should just watch her for a minute. She hung back, and watched as Jade's crying subsided a little at a time. It seemed as though she was trying to calm herself down. Rachel got worried when Jade lifted her shirt, and placed a razor blade on it. She froze while Jade slowly started pulling the razor across her stomach. She wanted to stop her, but for some reason she couldn't move, or speak. All she could do was watch. After she had made a cut, she started to cry a little harder, but she was smiling. She wasn't crying because she was in pain, she was crying because she wasn't anymore. Rachel couldn't help but admire her friends state at that moment. It was one of the most bittersweet moments she had ever witnessed in her life. Once she had convinced herself that she didn't need to go to Jade, she snuck back to the apartment. She hurried into Jade's room, and climbed out onto the fire escape, leaving the window open just enough so she could get back in. Ten minutes later, Jade calm into her room, looking surprisingly calm, and pulled the black box out from her bed. Rachel watch where she put the box, and where she put the key after she had locked it. Once Jade left the room again, she snuck back inside, and into her own bedroom.

Now here she was, having snuck into Jade's room once again, only this time it was to find her own serenity. She knew she shouldn't, but wanted to. If she didn't feel what Jade had felt, she wouldn't do it again. However, she knew she needed to try it just once.

Where can I do it so nobody will see it?

After running through a bunch of different options, she decided to just do it on her arm. She'd put a band-aid on it and if anyone asked, she would say she got scratched. She took a deep breath, and placed the blade on her arm. Her heart started to pound, but she ignored it the best she could. She pushed, ever so slightly, feeling her skin break from the pressure. She wasn't expecting the blade to be so sharp, but she liked it. She slowly pulled the blade across her arm, and watched as a small straight line of blood appeared on her arm. Suddenly, everything melted away. It was as if all the pain she was feeling from her life was gone for a moment, and she could only concentrate on the pain she was causing all by herself. A few tears fell from her eyes, as she finished. All she could do for the next five minutes was look at it. She leaned back against Jade's bed, and just stared at her arm. She'd wipe the blood with her hand, and watch as more blood slowly came out. It was like watching her problems exit her body, and she couldn't help but like it. Once she finally snapped back into reality, she hurried into the bathroom, washed her arm and rinsed the razor. She found some of Jade's Spongebob band-aids, and placed one over the cut. After putting everything back in Jade's room, exactly where she had found it, she went back to her bedroom, changed into some pajamas and climbed into her bed. She felt so content, so calm and worry free. She knew it would last long, but she was going to take advantage of it. She soon drifted off into a sound sleep. She got lost in dreams about Quinn, being there with her. To hold her, and make her feel safe. An hour later, she woke again, to the sound of her phone vibrating non stop on her bedside table. She reached for it, and saw a number that she had never seen before. She hesitated, but decided to just answer.

"Hello?"

"R-Rachel", a shy voice asked.

"Yeah, this is Rachel. Who's this?"

"It's m-me...it's Sunshine...".

Rachel sat straight up, and switched her lamp on.

"Sunshine? Oh my god, what's wrong, are you alright?"

"I n-need...you...I really need you."

The girl sounded like she was in serious pain, and Rachel was out of her bed faster than she had ever moved in her life.

"Tell me where you are Sunshine...I'll come to you."

I know this chapter was kind of shorter than usual, and there was a whole lot of Rachel and Jade stuff. But, I do think it's all relevant, and people have been so sweet about leaving reviews, so I just wanted to get this updated. I hope you guys liked it, and please the positive feedback coming, it gives me all the inspiration I need. You guys are seriously amazing readers, and I love you all. Please review if you can. :)