A/N- Hi guys! The wedding so too much fun. I love being Rachel Berry lol I hate admitting this but I cried like a little girl while I was singing "Get It Right"...I don't know why, but whatever it was an amazing expedience. Here's your update. Thank you for being patieant, and I'm sorry it took me so long. It was a seriously crazy weekend. Emzee/'Jade' was an amazing Brittany, but some people kept asked her why she wasn't playing Mercedes, and she got all embarrassed. It was funny. Anyways, please don't be shy about reviews, your reviews are why I can keep writing. You're all the best people ever, and I love you! I hope you like the update. Also, clothing is imporatant so...ass the "h" before the "ttp" and take out the spaces after the periods.
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Thursday afternoon, Quinn sat on the couch in her living room, watching a movie with Brittany. She wasn't paying much attention to it, she wasn't even sure what the plot was. It had been two days since her run in with Jesse St. James, and she felt so unsatisfied. The fact that she had hurt him physically made her happy, and she wasn't even ashamed of it. However, it hadn't been enough, and she wasn't going to give up. She wished she could talk to Rachel about it, but she was busy at work, and already in trouble with her boss, so she couldn't even text her. Her thoughts were interrupted by Brittany saying something to her.
"What...sorry B, what did you say?"
"I said, I don't get how they are in one world, but than go into another. Is all of this happening in their heads?"
"I'm not sure...I did hear this movie was confusing."
"Why is it called Sucker Punch?"
"I don't know...I guess...because there's a lot of punching and fighting?"
"Yeah, that makes sense", said Brittany, who seemed to be satisfied with the shorter blond's answer.
As soon as Brittany's attention was back on the movie, Quinn let her mind wander again. She wanted to see Rachel, and knew she probably wouldn't get to until the next day. She was somewhat upset that Rachel couldn't take the day off. She didn't have any classes on Thursdays, and spending the day with Rachel would have been wonderful. Although missing her girlfriend, she was thankful that Brittany was over. Santana was in classes all day long, so having another person around made her feel so much better. Her thoughts were interrupted once more, when somebody knocked on the door.
"Be right back", she said, standing from the couch. She walked to the door, and opened it to see Jade.
"Hey you", said Quinn happily.
"Oh, my Alice, I missed you", laughed Jade, as she stepped inside, and hugged Quinn."How was Wonderland", she asked, noticing that Quinn's outfit was mostly blue.
"You're crazy", laughed Quinn, as she squeezed Jade tight. She shut the door, and her senses were attacked by the very strong scent of Jade's perfume, and wine.
"Okay, wow, where are you coming from", she asked.
"Lunch with a friend...why?"
"It's...three-thirty in the afternoon, have you seriously been drinking already", asked Quinn, looking at her phone.
"Oh God...wait, how did you...crap! You can smell it, can't you?"
"Jade...".
"I only had two glasses of red wine, I promise, and I know...that's not good. I just, have something on my mind, and that's why I'm here. I'm sorry for not calling", said Jade, kicking her shoes off.
"No, it's alright, you don't ever have to call. Are you okay", asked Quinn, grabbing Jade's hand, and leading her into the living room.
"I'm fine, just worried about things, I guess. Brit! Hi beautiful", said Jade, as she was pulled into the living room.
"Jade! Oh my God, I'm so happy to see you", exclaimed Brittany, as she stood to hug the girl. When pulling her into a hug, she noticed to different scents coming from the girl. One was her perfume, and she loved it as always. The other, the strong scent of alcohol, and it bothered her.
"Whoa", she said, pushing back from the hug."Have you been drinking?"
"A little", said Jade."Not that it's a great excuse, but I've been doing a lot of thinking today...more than I needed to. More than I thought I was actually capable of."
Quinn had to smile a little at Jade's rambling. She was obviously a little chattier when wine was her drink of choice. Brittany gave Jade a concerned look, and lead her to the couch to sit down. Once Jade was seated comfortably in between the blonds, she glanced at the TV.
"Oh yay, you guys are watching Sucker Punch! This is one of my favorites!"
"Really? Do you get it, because I really don't...", said Brittany.
"I know, it's a very confusing movie. I had to watch it a few times in order to understand it, and I still don't fully get it. Honestly though, I think it's one of those movies where the message you get from it, is all up to you. Like, for me, I think the message I see in this movie, is fight endlessly for what's within your heart. Stay true to yourself, but defend those who stand with you."
By the time she was done talking, both girls were staring at her, mouths open.
"Jade...how the Hell do you do that", asked Quinn, in shock.
"Do what?"
"See so much within other things, that's insane. Amazing, yet insane", laughed Quinn.
"Rachel says that I do that, but I don't understand what she means, at all."
"Well, I liked this movie as confusing as it was, but when you put it into perspective like that, I kinda' love it now", laughed Brittany. Jade just smiled.
"So, what's on your mind", asked Quinn.
"Oh yeah, the whole reason I came here. Um...this whole Jesse thing is driving me coconuts, he needs to be stopped, and I need your help to stop him."
"What", asked Brittany.
"I am so happy to hear you say that", said Quinn, who was suddenly very excited."What do you have in mind?"
"I don't know. The thing is, Rachel's been super depressed since Tuesday, not to mention a little paranoid. It's almost as if she thinks he's hiding around every corner. I'm thinking she knows he won't just leave this alone."
"You're right, she said something to me about that last night. Which makes me feel like shit, because I know I only made matters worse", said Quinn, sadly."I never should have touched him."
"He deserved that, and so much more, Q", said Brittany.
"I know, but I wasn't thinking about the consequences of me getting violent with him. I saw him standing outside the bar, and I guess my nerves decided he wasn't leaving without getting his ass kicked."
"I know how you feel, although I'm slightly jealous of your attack on him, punching him in the stomach was all too satisfying for me, but I wanted to do so much more", said Jade.
"I thought you were gonna' kill him, Q. It was actually kinda' scary", said Brittany.
"Trust me, I scared myself. To be honest, if you guys wouldn't have pulled me away, I might have killed him. I hate to admit it, but...that's how I felt", said Quinn, looking away.
"Hey...", said Jade, softly."Love makes people do some pretty crazy things. You were just protecting Rachel, and that's a beautiful thing. You didn't kill him, so try not to feel so ashamed, okay?"
Quinn smiled a little, and nodded her head.
"What can we do to keep them away from you guys", asked the taller blond.
"Them?"
"Yeah, Jesse and your brother...you're talking about keeping them both away, aren't you?"
"No, Brit...I'm just talking about Jesse. Mika is kind of a permanent situation", said Jade.
"Stop it, no he is not", said Quinn.
"Can we not go there right now, please", asked Jade, as she placed her hand on her stomach.
"Are you feeling okay", asked Brittany, rubbing the girls back.
"I'm fine, just a tummy ache. I guess the rainbow roll I ate for lunch isn't agreeing with me", laughed Jade.
"Wait a second", said Quinn, looking at her phone."Jade, you have a check up today."
"Oh come on, how did you know that", asked Jade.
"Rachel puts your check up dates in my calender, and for good reason. You're not skipping, now get your shoes on, lets go", said Quinn, standing up.
"Can I come too", asked Brittany.
"Of cores you can, B."
"No, you guys don't have to come with, I can go by myself", said Jade, as Brittany pulled her up from the couch.
"Yeah right! I trust you Jade, but not with this. I can't help but think that if I let you go alone, you will never actually make it there. Besides, I think Doctor Andrews said it's better if somebody comes with you anyways", said Quinn, grabbing her jacket, and putting it on."I can only pray she doesn't get mad at you for drinking wine for lunch."
"Okay, just so I'm sure, who doesn't talk to my doctor", asked Jade, laughing a little.
"I don't...", said Brittany, shyly.
"Yeah, well I have a feeling that will be short lived after today. Let's go", said Quinn.
Meanwhile, Rachel was outside of the Gershwin Theater, taking a short break. She was halfway through a cigarette, when she remembered how much Quinn hated that she smoked. Every time she smoked one, while Quinn was nearby, she wasn't allowed to kiss her for on hour afterward. Even if she brushed her teeth. She knew she wasn't seeing Quinn that day, but still felt the need to get rid of the cigarette. She was about flick it, but a voice stopped her.
"No! Rach, don't", said Puck, as he jogged up to her.
"Why not?"
Puck simply took it from her and started puffing on it.
"Oh, well I would have given you one if you wanted one. My packs usually last me about two weeks now anyways, so it's not like I don't have some to spare."
"Don't even worry about it, this is fine. How's your day?"
"It's alright. I ended up having to sing on the stage, because the mics weren't working correctly", said Rachel, rolling her eyes.
"Holy shit, that's so cool, why are you mad", asked Puck.
"It was just...I don't know. Didn't feel right."
"Fun Size...you sing at Smashed all the time, what's the difference, really?"
"Trust me, Noah. There is a very significant difference. No, I'm not just talking about the stage size, or the acoustics. The energy itself doesn't even compare, and although the environment is a huge factor, bar and theater-".
"Okay, okay! Sorry I asked, holy shit", laughed Puck.
Rachel just smiled.
"So, when are you out, I'll come back and get you."
"You don't have to do that. Where are you coming from anyways?"
"Job hunting, oh! I got a job", exclaimed Puck.
"Okay, I'll be happy for you as soon as you tell me it has nothing to do with sleeping with cougars...", laughed Rachel.
"It's not, don't worry. I'm gonna' be giving guitar lessons."
"Oh wow, really?"
"Yup. I start next week."
"How did you manage to find something like that?"
"This music store had a sign out front, said they needed an experienced guitar player, so I went in and talked to the owner. He's awesome, he's gonna' give me discounts on stuff, I'm so excited. I don't start until next week though."
"Well, I'm very proud of you Noah, that's good to hear. Now all you need is your guitar when you leave for work, not a pocket full of condoms", said Rachel.
"Oh, shut up", he said, with a smile."Seriously though, when do you get out, because I'm coming back to pick you up."
"She says I can leave by eight, which means I probably won't be done until around nine. Why are you coming to pick me up? I was planning on taking a cab...".
"That will cost too much, and you're not riding the subway alone. I'll be back at eight, and if your not done...I'll just wait around, no big deal", said Puck. Rachel just smiled, and hugged Puck tight.
Once she was back inside, she sat down in her usual spot, and continued what she had been doing before. She knew her boss, Wendy was on the phone, so she didn't bother to look at her much less say anything at all.
"Jesus Christ, I'm going to kill that man! This is getting ridiculous! I'll be there as soon as I can", the woman screamed into her cellphone before throwing it into her purse.
"Was that your neighbor", asked Rachel, without looking from what she was doing.
"Yup."
"Is Luke cheating on you again?"
"Yup. And she can hear them loud and clear from our apartment. Only this time, she's pretty sure there's two people with him!"
"I'm sorry, Wendy. I'll hold everything until you get back", said Rachel. She really wanted to tell her boss that her husband was gay, and no matter how many times she forgave him for sleeping with men in their bed, he'd always be gay. However, since she was used to the situation, and knew Wendy was dealing with some pretty heavy denial, she opted to keep her mouth shut.
"Yeah, thank you. I'll be back as soon as I can. By the way, thank you for not being late today, and for helping with the sound check. I love that voice of yours", said Wendy, as she stood up to put her jacket on.
"It was no problem."
Once Wendy was out of the building, Rachel relaxed a bit more. She didn't stop working, but she did find it much easier to get through what she had to do when her boss wasn't there. As she thumbed through a stack of papers, to find a file she was missing, her phone started ringing. At first, she just glanced at it, heart set on ignoring the call. That was, until she saw who it was that was calling. She immediately stopped what she was doing, grabbed her phone, and answered it.
"Hello...?"
"Hey Rachel, how are you?"
"I'm fine Shelby...how are you?
Meanwhile, at the hospital, Jade was sitting in an exam room. She was up on the exam table, fidgeting around, and kicking her feet like a nervous five year old. Quinn and Brittany sat in chairs against the wall, slightly amused by Jade's current state.
"Jade...sit still", laughed Quinn.
"I can't...I don't like being here", she whined.
"You need to relax. I thought you liked Doctor Andrews?"
"I do, she's adorable, but...I just...I wanna' go home."
"Aweee", said Brittany, standing up."It's okay, me and Quinn will be in here with you the whole time", she cooed. She gave Jade a quick hug, and sat up on the exam table.
Quinn studied Jade's behavior a bit more, and decided it wasn't amusing as much as it was a little scary. She wasn't making eye contact, she wasn't doing as much talking as she had been before they arrived there. Something was up, and Quinn knew it.
"Jade...",she said suspiciously."What is it about today's check up that's got you so rattled?"
Before Jade said a word,Quinn's phone started ringing, and she dug through her purse frantically to answer it.
"Your ring tone is don't rain on my parade", asked Brittany, laughing a little.
"Just when Rachel calls", said Quinn, as she answered her phone.
"Hey you what's...wait, slow down, I can't understand a word you're saying. She's what? Oh my god, well when? Tonight? Okay, okay well just calm down. Right now? Won't you get in trouble with Wendy? Okay, okay just calm down, I'll be there as soon as I can. Love you...alright, bye."
"What's wrong", asked Brittany and Jade, in unison.
"I don't know, something about Shelby being in town, and wanting to see her for dinner", said Quinn, standing up.
"Wait, Shelby as in her mother", asked Brittany.
"Yeah...I didn't even know they talked...", said Quinn.
"They do, but not often, and it's usually not a very long conversation", said Jade.
"Well, she's freaking out. Jade, would you mind if I left", asked Quinn, nervously.
"No, go be with her, it's alright", she answered, with a smile.
"I'll stay here, and take her home when she's done", said Brittany.
"Okay. I love you both, I'll see you later", said Quinn, and she was out the door.
Once Quinn was gone, Brittany looked at Jade. She was looking down, her feet swinging back and forth. The blond smiled, reached over and held her hand.
"Why are you so scared?"
"I just...don't like these places is all...",mumbled Jade.
"Lots of people are afraid of doctors, and hospitals and stuff. Santana did mention that you get a little freaked out about being here, but this seems worse than what she described", said Brittany, squeezing her hand tighter. As she was talking, Jade was fighting tears. She was embarrassed enough to be acting like a scared little child in front of the girl. Embarrassed about what she knew, embarrassed about things she might find out. She really liked having Brittany as a new friend, but she felt about her like she did about the rest of her friends. Like a burden. Crying in front of her wasn't an option at that moment.
"Why is this check up different than the rest?"
Before Jade had the chance to answer, Mindy walked in with a clipboard and a file folder in her hands.
"Hey, there's my favorite patient. Oh, you brought a friend that I don't know. How are you?"
"I'm good. It's nice to meet you doctor, my name is Brittany."
"Nice to meet you too, and please, call me Mindy", said the woman, as she shook Brittany's hand. She noticed one of Jade's hands was being held rather tightly by her friend, and she was looking down at the floor.
"Jade, what's going on, you alright?"
The darker girl just nodded her head.
"Okay", said Mindy, as she pulled a chair towards the exam table, and took a seat."Talk to me, why do you look so terrified?"
"She's been like this since we got here", said Brittany.
"I know these places scare you, but I've told you a hundred times before, sweetheart, I'm not going to hurt you. I'm here to help you, and that hasn't changed."
Jade wouldn't say anything, and she kept her concentration on the floor.
"Come on, sweetie...talk to me."
"If it helps, I know she's been having a lot of stomach issues", said Brittany.
"Okay, well Jade why don't you explain that to me, so we can figure out why that is."
"I...I think...I already know why", said Jade, very quietly.
That evening, around five o'clock, Santana angrily stormed into her apartment, and slammed her stuff down to the floor. She kicked her shoes off, and removed her jacket. The Latina was infuriated. She had gotten used to spending a lot of her class time texting with her friends, and girlfriend. However, that afternoon, she was unpleasantly surprised to find that her friends, as well as Jade, stopped answering her messages with no explanation. She pulled her cellphone from her pocket, and made her way into the living room. When she looked up, Brittany was standing there.
"Oh my God, why have you not answered your phone in the passed like three hours", Santana questioned, angrily. "I couldn't get a hold of you, I couldn't get a hold of Jade! Finally, Quinn texts me saying that you and her were together!"
"Santana", Brittany said softly.
"No, Brit you don't understand! I'm still having a little bit of trouble with you two being friends, and I'm trying really fucking hard to get over it! For your sake, and for hers!"
"Santana...please", Brittany tried again.
"Hanging out with each other, fine! But not answering your phones while your hanging out with each other, yeah that's not okay!"
"Santana", Brittany said, raising her voice. It was until then, that Santana noticed the tears in Brittany's eyes. She was nervously biting at one of her fingers nails, and looked like she'd been crying for a while.
"Shit...what is it", asked the Latina, knowing instantly that something was wrong.
"Jade's having a miscarriage."
"Wait...w-what...but...how...t-that would mean...".
"That's why her stomach's been hurting...and why she's been throwing up and stuff. She's loosing a baby...", said Brittany, sadly.
Santana just stood there, in shock. She heard what Brittany was saying to her, but for some reason none of it was making any sense. She wanted to cry, but she was surprised that she couldn't even do that. She snapped out of it once she felt the blond's hand on her shoulder.
"San...".
"Where...w-where...is she?"
"In your room."
No sooner had the words left Brittany's mouth, was Santana practically running towards her bedroom. She opened the door, and there was Jade laying on her bed. She was curled into a ball, sobbing away. Santana walked over to the bed, and without even hesitating she laid down next to the girl, and pulled her into her arms. Brittany walked in, and closed the door behind her. She just stood idly by, unsure of what to do or say.
"You said nothing happened...", Santana whispered, letting her tears fall."You said he didn't touch you that night."
"I'm sorry", cried Jade, as she rolled over, and buried her face into Santana.
Brittany who was still just standing there, locked eyes with Santana. She wasn't sure why she felt the pull she had felt, but she just had a strong feeling that she needed to make eye contact with her. The blond recognized the look in her friends eyes, it was one that was rarely seen, but it was there. She knew the look, and knew what it meant.
Help.
Brittany slowly moved to the bed, and laid down on the other side of Jade. She cuddled her from behind, and kissed her softly on the cheek. Nothing was being said, but nothing needed to be said. Jade Price was in more pain than any of them had realized, and all the two former Cheerios knew was that she needed comfort, and they would give it to her no matter what. It was true, Brittany didn't know the girl very well, but she cared about her. She was instantly drawn to her, and couldn't stop caring if she tried. There was just something about Jade that made it so easy to like her. Maybe it was her loving nature. Maybe it was how sweet she always smelled. Maybe it was just her. Regardless, seeing her in pain was heartbreaking. Knowing that somebody she was loved and was supposed to trust was the one causing the pain, was even worse.
Back at the apartment, Rachel was in her closet. Quinn sat on the bed, and watched as random articles of clothing went flying over her head, and onto the floor.
"Fuck", Rachel mumbled."I can't do this."
"It's alright, do you really think she's gonna' care what you have on? I think she just wants to see you", said Quinn.
"Yeah, which still makes no sense to me. She's visited here before, but this is the first time she's ever bothered to make any plans with me. Obviously, there's something she wants. Not to mention, she has no idea I like girls, much less, am dating you, so that should be loads of fun", she rambled sarcastically.
"Relax, I'm sure if you just find the right way to tell her about it, she'll take it well."
"Ha! Right, Quinn. What the Hell am I supposed to say, huh? Oh, hey mother, long time no see, I was wondering how your new daughter's doing, and incidentally, I'm dating her birth mother."
"Wow", said Quinn, looking down.
Rachel stopped what she was doing, and realized that what she had just said was kind of insensitive.
"God, Quinn...I'm sorry, I didn't mean it like that", she whined, walking over to the girl. She slipped onto her lap, and wrapped her arms lovingly around her shoulders.
"Rach, is that something that you think you'll ever get over?"
"What, her taking Beth?"
Quinn just nodded.
"Honestly, no. I don't think I ever will."
Quinn frowned a little.
"But...with you, it's a different feeling. In time, I forgave you. Then, I started to realize that there was nothing you needed to be forgiven for. You didn't do anything wrong, Quinn. You made a choice about that little girl. I know you didn't give her Shelby just to hurt me, and I always knew that. I was just looking for reasons to hate you."
Quinn smiled.
"With Shelby, I think I'll always be angry. She told me she didn't want anything to do with me, and went and adopted a baby. I get that the thought of dealing with a teenager scared her, but...it still hurts. It feels like she was just trying to replace me. She made it seem like she didn't need me...but the truth was...I needed her", explained Rachel, breaking into tears.
"Oh baby...",cooed Quinn."Did you ever tell her that?"
"No...for some reason...I thought she would just know. Though now, more than ever, I realize that mother daughter connections aren't always as strong as I imagined them to be."
Rachel rested her forehead on Quinn's, and cried softly. Quinn held her close, and rubbed her back.
"Are you sure going to see her is a good idea? We don't have to go if you think you won't be able to handle it. You are dealing with some other things right now, so I would understand."
"No, I'll be okay...as long as you're with me, I'll be okay."
Quinn smiled once again, and leaned in to kiss her girlfriend. Rachel kissed back, in such an eager manner, that it shocked Quinn a little. Once it broke, they both just breathed into each other.
"Whoa...", whispered Quinn.
"Sorry. I had forgotten just how much better your kisses make me feel", giggled Rachel, as Quinn wiped some of her tears away.
"You know what? I think you should wear something that you want to wear. Not something you think she would like. Yes, your style has changed a lot, however if it's how you're comfortable now, go for it. If Shelby doesn't like it, well...screw her."
"Really?"
"Yes, really."
Rachel smiled, and kissed Quinn again, this time pushing her onto her back, and dominating the blond's mouth with her tongue.
"We...can't do...this right now...", said Quinn, in between kisses.
"I know...", said Rachel, but she didn't stop.
It killed Quinn, but after ten minutes of making out, she had to sit up and push Rachel off of her.
"Aweee, come on", whined Rachel, folding her arms across her chest.
"No, you need to get dressed", laughed Quinn.
"Easy for you to say, you look amazing today, as always", said Rachel, as she went back to her closet.
"Easy for me? I'm wearing this to dinner only because it's what I put on this morning. We're at your apartment, in your room, where your closet is right here with all of your clothes in it", laughed Quinn.
"Yeah, yeah...I know...".
Once Rachel was finally dressed, Quinn watched her as she brushed her long, dark hair. She got up from the bed, and stood behind Rachel in the mirror.
"You look cute."
"Really? I'm just wearing a hoodie, and jeans...", said Rachel.
"Well, I think you look cute. Plus, we're only going to a diner, not some four star restaurant."
"That's true. Hey, will you go in my top drawer, and pick a necklace for me", asked Rachel.
Quinn nodded, and walked over to Rachel's dresser. The drawer was already open, so she just had to start looking through what seemed like hundreds of necklaces. She spotted one, and pulled it out. She held it in front of her, and looked at it. She couldn't help but smile. The charm was a tiny little white robot. A simple little piece of jewelery, but Quinn liked it.
"Where did you get this little robot necklace?"
"Oh, Kurt gave it to me before I moved away. He said something about how it reminded him of me, because he thought of me as a little robot that would stop at nothing to be on Broadway", said Rachel, laughing a little. Quinn smiled, and shut the drawer. She walked over to her girlfriend, and reached over her to put the necklace on her.
"Really?"
"Yes, really. I like the necklace, but the story behind it makes me like it even more."
Rachel just smiled, and shook her head. A while later, the two of them were getting out of a cab in front of the diner Shelby had asked to meet Rachel at. They stood outside, and waited for the woman. They were a little early, so they knew she probably wouldn't be there when they arrived. They stood, holding hands, watching people as they walked by. Quinn looked over and Rachel. She had her eyes closed, and was breathing deeply.
"What are you doing", she asked, playfully.
"Nothing, just enjoying the cold autumn air", said Rachel, with a small smile.
"You like this time of year, huh?"
"I do, it reminds me of...home."
"Lima?"
"Yes. I think Lima was beautiful around this time of year."
"I never really paid much attention I guess", said Quinn, sadly.
"I bet you will next time you're there", giggled Rachel.
"Oh you bet me?"
"I do, I bet you a whole five dollars", joked the tint brunette.
"Okay, fine. It's a bet", said Quinn, leaning down to kiss her. In the middle of their kiss, they heard somebody clear their throat, and stopped. They looked forward to see Shelby, with a very shocked look on her face.
"Oh...shit...", mumbled Quinn, under her breath.
"Rachel...I...Quinn...", the woman said, in almost a whisper.
Rachel's level of nervous was at it's highest at that point, and her mind was racing through thoughts a little faster than what she would have liked. With that, she blurted out the only thing she could think to say at the moment.
"Hi Mom."
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