I don't know what happened. It was in a flash, one moment she was happy and in love with me then the next she avoids me. She left the party and encouraged me to stay and I did in hope that she would figure that I left the show up again, but that never happened. I call her and I'm only left with her voicemail.
What did I do wrong? I was on my best behavior, I only killed two people in a crowd of one hundred. Even after she left, I stayed strong for her and I get nothing in return.
I hate to say this, Stefan, but do you ever think that maybe Bonnie isn't the one for you? That maybe she's only there to cause you pain? Give you joy for a few hours but in the next snatch it all away?
No. She will never do that to me.
But she has, Stefan, that's the point. You can't force someone to love you, they have to figure that out on their own. Maybe she doesn't love herself. Like I told you in our first session, it's hard to love someone else if you don't love yourself.
But why wouldn't she love herself?
That's a personal thing that only she can know.
So what do you suggest?
I suggest that you move on and wait until she's ready to love you. Or don't wait, but live your life as non-criminally as possible and I'm sure that you'll find someone else.
No one can ever replace her.
And I get that, and maybe that's the point. Do you honestly want a replacement of Bonnie? Someone who will love you one second and flip their switch in the next? And I know you love her, so I'm being polite here,
I have to close my eyes because I can't look at anything right now. I just need the dark, the swirls of Amber behind my lids.
I'm sorry for threatening you and your family. You're the only friend that I have, I shouldn't have done that.
I forgive you.
Do you have any friends for me? Maybe I just need some friends,
No one comes to mind at the moment who I think you'll bond with, but I'll think of someone.
I really shouldn't be here, but I am. Parked outside her house in a rental so she wouldn't recognize my car and know that I'm spying on her. She's not home so It doesn't even matter anyway. I'm just bored. I haven't gotten a name back from Frank yet and I'm stopping a part of me from believing that he was lying to me when he said he'd think of someone for me.
It makes a clank as I slam the glass on the wooden bar. As soon as I saw Bonnie pulling in, I left. I didn't and don't want to know who would be getting out of the car with her. I can tell she was with someone else, she wasn't playing any music and I remember on one of our rare times together she told me how she doesn't like playing the radio with people in the car because it's rude. I just remember smiling at her, dying to kiss her, but I knew that she would move her head away to avoid my lips. She always did at the time, that is until I grabbed her face and forced one on her. She didn't complain and in fact, she kissed me back like she's been needing my lips just as much as I've been needing hers. I relive that memory in my head a hundred times over before leaving.
"Hey! Hey, excuse me!"
I stop and turn to see a woman chasing after me and I wait for her to catch up. "You forgot this,"
I narrow my eyes when she hands me a napkin but I look down and realize that this was all just a pickup trick, for the napkin had her name and number on it. I chuckle then look up at her. "Nice one,"
She shrugs, "Thanks,"
"So I'll uh, I'll call you. I'm Stefan by the way,"
"Nice to meet you, Stefan," she smiles then turns around heading back to the bar.
I walk backward for a few then turn around only to come to a halt. "Bonnie,"
"Who was that?"
"Tiffany,"
She nods. "So you're just gonna see someone else without talking to me?"
"Without talking to you? Bonnie, I've called you a hundred times and not once have you picked up the phone. I don't understand why you even care, you treat me like a dog- no, you treat me like shit. You don't even want to be with me, so how about you do me a favor and leave me the hell alone."
I stand my ground only to crumble seconds later when she cries. Fuck, I made her cry.
"I'm sorry, baby, I didn't mean it, I take it back, I'm sorry, I love you." I hold her and she holds me back and I hold her even tighter. "I didn't mean it, I promise."
"You did mean it,"
"No, I didn't, I swear I didn't. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," I kiss her head. "Let me take you to my place, okay? I'll- I'll make it up to you." I pull slightly away to wipe away her tears.
I have to carry her to get her to move, but she doesn't protest.
By the time I wake up she's gone and my heart is more shattered than before. I fell for it. Her game, her sick game, I fell right into her hands and she got me good. Not even a note and I don't smell her either meaning she left a long time ago and I'm just the fool who trusted her and forgave her in an instant. I'm hungry.
I meet up with Tiffany who I don't necessarily want to kill, but if things don't flow between us then I just might. She's pretty, beautiful even, and I want things to work, I need them to. She smiles at me once we make eye contact and I head to the table she's sitting at and hug her when she stands. She feels nice. Smells good.
"I have to be honest, I didn't expect you to call me,"
"Why wouldn't I?"
She smiles shyly, "I don't know, I guess because it was my first time ever doing something like that. I'm not usually a chaser, I have no idea what I'm doing." She chuckles and I smile back.
"Well for your first time, you really peaked my interest." She smiles. "You have really beautiful eyes,"
"Thank you. I get that a lot, people say they're my best feature,"
"What about me, what's mine?"
She chuckled then lets out a breath looking at my face. "I love your eyes as well but to be original, I would say your smile."
That caused me to smile and her to laugh, pushing some hair behind her ear.
"I don't really smile often,"
"Not that surprised," she winked, "but you should."
"It's kind of hard when life's a bitch."
"True. But you must have some happy times, no?"
"More bad than good lately. I uh, I'm kind of seeing someone but we're basically broken up at the same time."
"How so?"
"Bonnie is- it's like I repulse her. She can stand me for a few hours but once that's over, it's over and I don't hear from her in months and if I'm lucky weeks."
"Wow,"
"I'm sorry, I don't mean to bring up my issues. That's what therapy's for,"
She lightly chuckled. "Well it's great you're going to therapy and I don't mind talking about past relationships. It's a topic that always seems to sneak its way in some way or how." I look down at her hand when it topped mine. "If you want to talk to anyone but your therapist, I'm here. I promise."
My spine is frozen as I walk home. That promise she made me, I felt it, I knew she meant it because her eyes told me she did. Her honest eyes told me that she one hundred percent meant it. I wanted to kiss her, I wanted to bring her home and fuck her, but I didn't. She's different and fuck, I just might be in love with her.
...
I stare at my phone because Bonnie texted me and apologized for leaving saying that she got an important call and had to leave. She tells me that she kissed me on the cheek and adds a smile at the end. I suddenly feel like I betrayed her like I cheated on her, and I don't want to feel this way, but I do. I hate it.
Can I come over?
Yes.
I convinced myself that I wasn't in the wrong on the way over which is why Bonnie doesn't know about my date nor will she ever. I kiss her neck then her lips, sitting her on the countertop as I stand between her legs. Her hands run through my hair and I hold her closer, kissing her deeper.
"Baby," I pull away breathing, "what's the best feature on my face?"
"Your nose."
"My nose?"
"Yes, I love it. Especially when you rub your nose against mine before you kiss me." I smile and do just that having her smile in the kiss. "What about me?"
"Your lips."
She bites the bottom one then our mouths meet again until we're all kissed out. We snuggle on her couch and she turns on Cartoon Network and we laugh together. This is the most normal that I have ever felt and it's no surprise that I'm with the love of my life. She's the love of my life.
Bonnie falls asleep in my arms and I stay awake afraid that I'll wake up alone again. I just enjoy her and her soul.
...
We go for a walk and a part of me is scared that we'll bump into Tiffany but so far I've been lucky. I don't want to hurt her feelings and I don't want to push her to the side for Bonnie because I really do like her and at the same time, I don't want to use her as somewhat of a rebound. She deserves better than that.
"What's on your mind?" I heard Bonnie wonder.
"Nothing too important," I shrug. "Just in my head."
"Well if you need to talk about it, I'm here."
I look into her eyes to see if I'll see the same look I saw in Tiffany's, but she looks away and keeps walking, holding my hand. I try to not think much of it. After our walk, we head to my place and fuck. Long, prolonged fucking, amazing and something within me knew that things would never be the same between us after this. What that exactly means, I don't know, but a part of me is ready.
I wake up to her left arm and leg around the side of my body. I smile and hug her back hearing my phone alert me that's got a new text. I know that it's more than likely Tiffany but I'll respond later. Her phone rings and it's enough to wake her. She whines but rolls over answering. I don't listen in, only wait for her to start packing so she could leave me. I watch her as she does so with her ear still pressed to the phone with the help of her shoulder. She's barely doing any talking and I'm curious to know who's on the other line, but she tells whomever it was that she'll be there.
"Sorry, babe, I have to go but I'll call you later."
Lies.
"Okay,"
She kisses me then is out the door. I'm pretty hungry and currently struggling with if I should eat or call Tiffany and then I remembered that she texted me. I grab my phone, unlock it, then read it.
Hey, Stefan, it's Tiffany, I was wondering if you would like to be my date tonight at this art gallery opening. I know it's last minute but I'll appreciate it if you can.
I call her. "Hey, I would love to be your date. What time and what should I wear?"
"It's at nine and I can pick you up if you want or you can pick me up or drive there yourself. I'm a pretty fast driver so I can get us there if you live far,"
"I'll text you my address,"
She chuckled. "And I'm wearing red so anything to match that should be fine."
"Okay, great. I'll see you later."
"Bye,"
"Bye."
I hang up then decide to get someone to eat. I want to be good for her and not drain someone at the party so I'll get my meal in now.
I open the door to her and eye her body in that two piece. The red skirt long and flowy and the top tight, sucking in and lifting her breasts. A patch of her tanned skin just waiting for me to touch in the space between. "Wow, you look amazing, beautiful."
Bonnie never dresses up like this for me so I don't even know how to react but I guess I should start by not staring at her. She smiles and I take notice of her dark lip and slicked back hair. Damn, she's even more beautiful than what I remember.
"Thank you, you look amazing in a suit."
I kiss her temple then take her hand leading her to her car and though I'm not driving I open the driver's side door for her. Once I get buckled in, we're off and I take notice of the slit that's in her skirt. It's very high and her leg is exposed to me and if this were Bonnie I would grab it, but I don't want to overstep. Maybe on the way back depending on how she acts around me.
She leans in and turns up the radio some and I take that as a sign that I need to get out of my head and actually talk to her. "So, you're an art lover?"
"Something like that. My mom's a painter and I used to paint,"
"Why did you stop?"
"School just got in the way. I mean I paint every now and again, but definitely not as much as I used to. I miss it, honestly."
"What are you going to school for?"
"History major. I want to be a teacher."
"Really?" She nods. "That's great."
"What about you?"
"I've been to college got degrees but I just don't use them,"
"Why not?"
"I don't know I mean at the end of the day it's somewhat pointless. I mean you want to be a teacher which I wouldn't classify as pointless, but I know that I can walk into some sort of an elite computer or whatever company, say I'm self-taught, show them my work and skills and they'll think about hiring me just as much as the guy before me with a degree."
"As sad as it is, that's very true."
"But I am a history nut. It's my favorite subject."
"Really, what do you like about it?"
"I love all the dates and inventions and people. I was always great at history, even as a little kid."
"Well if you play your cards right, I just might let you be my teaching assistant." She looks over at me and smiles and I smile back making her giggle some.
"You're so fucking cute."
She's stopped at a light and looks over at me and I know that look. I lean in following her move and our lips meet just once and I'm sure it's because she's wearing lipstick. We pull away as the light changes to green and as she hits the gas, I move my hand to her leg.
...
The opening was actually great, I had a fun time with her. She introduced me to her friends who seemed like decent people then I briefly met her mother and after that, we just stayed with ourselves. Looking at the art as she informed me on the background and asked my opinion on everything if it wasn't obvious. We snuck in a few kisses, but one of those I heard a flash so I'm pretty sure one of the photographers took our picture. We ate mainly cheese and grapes, occasionally feeding each other and for the second time today I felt normal.
We go to her place when the party's over and she cooks for me and we eat at the table playing footsie and talking about our lives and the art.
She takes a shower and I use the time to look around for a bit. She doesn't seem crazy and she doesn't keep anything in her house to make me assume that she is. I loosen my tie and head upstairs and walk into her room seeing her dressed in a robe.
"If you want to stay over, I like to sleep in really baggy clothes so I'm sure something will fit you. But if not I can call an Uber."
"No, I would like to stay, if that's okay with you."
She nods and I walk up to her and hold her and kiss her like I've wanted to all night. She pushes me away and my eyes move down to see her taking away the knot in her robe then pushes me towards her bed. Once I'm looking up at her she removes her robe completely and she's perfect. I tell her she's perfect before I kiss her and roll her to her back. I kiss down her chest before meeting her lips again.
...
I loved the way she came for me. I loved the feeling of her around me, the feeling of her touch. I loved her lips and her sinister smile as she rode me. Her breasts, her stomach, and ass, I fell in love with.
"Good morning,"
I kiss her. "Good morning," again.
"Last night was great,"
"I couldn't agree more," I run my hand alongside her naked body. "What do you say I make you breakfast,"
"Yeah?"
"And then we go to the park,"
"Mhmm…"
"And I take you back to my place and we eat lunch and you'll stay for dinner and spend the night."
"Hmmm, okay."
I laugh a little and she moved her arms around my neck. "I love seeing you happy," she kisses me and I kiss her back.
"You make me happy." I hold her close and kiss her neck. "You make me really happy."
"You make me really happy too." She caresses the side of my face. "I just want to ask you a question and it may ruin things but I need to know,"
"What is it?"
"Are we like committed? I mean I know that we just met and I wouldn't be asking this so soon if there wasn't another woman in the picture."
"Bonnie,"
"Yeah, and I really, really like you, Stefan. I wouldn't have slept with you if I didn't and I can see my future self loving you, but I don't want to get my hopes up if you're just going to ditch me for Bonnie whenever she calls."
"I get it." I sigh. "I wish I could give you an answer, but I don't know myself. I can see myself loving you and being committed to you but Bonnie I- I already love her." She nods. "I ruined it, didn't I?"
She weakly smiles. "Would I be stupid if I say no?"
I smile and she does so back rolling on top of me.
I can feel her eyes admiring me as I cook for her. I can feel her smile burning through my back and this feeling is very different. When I cook for Bonnie she's never around. either upstairs asleep or showering or getting ready and if it was anything like last time she wouldn't even eat it.
"I can feel your staring, you know?" I say just to poke fun.
She laughs. "I'm sorry, babe,"
"Don't apologize, I kind of like it," I turn to her smiling and she laughs running a hand through her hair, pushing it back some only for it to fall right back to place. She bites her lip at me. "Where do you keep your sugar?"
She stands to show me which I was hoping for and reaches for it in a cabinet. I hold her from behind and kiss her neck.
"Thank you, baby,"
"You're welcome," she kissed me. "This smells amazing… Can I taste?"
"No, you have to wait,"
"Pretty please?" She turned in my arms wrapping hers around my neck and meets our foreheads.
I look into her eyes the best I could then sigh. "Fine." She smiles then kisses me before pulling away some. I cut her a slice of my special French toast and added a piece of strawberry to it and a half of squirt of whipped cream, syrup and powdered sugar. She chuckles and I hold the fork up to her mouth. She watches me as the flavors hit her tongue then her eyes close making sounds of delight.
"Damn this is good, delicious and I typically hate whipped cream."
"Then why do you buy it, silly?"
She smiles, "Because my friends like it and if they crave it, I can whip it out."
I shake my head at her then move in to kiss her, but her phone rings. She walks over to check who it is.
"I have to take this, I should be back by the time you're finished cooking." I nod. "Hello?" She walks away and I return to cooking and when I'm done and she isn't back yet so I set the table then she arrives. "Let me guess, you have to leave,"
"What, no, you worked so hard, I won't just leave you like that." She reaches out her hand meeting the side of my face and offers me a small smile.
I meet our foreheads holding her tight then let out an exhale through my nose. "You're exactly what I need."
"You promise?"
"I promise." I kiss her twice and hold her a little longer before we eat.
...
Her laugh is contagious and all I want to do is make her laugh because her eyes shine like the sun. She's beautiful, so beautiful and bright and I— "I love you." Shit.
Her eyes widen but she smiles. "Oh do you now?"
"So what if I did?"
"Then," she wrapped her leg around me, "I'll just have to kiss you senseless."
I grab her as she does so and flip us over, taking more control. I then realize that we're at a public park with children around, so I steady things to a halt.
"I think I might just love you too."
I smile and kiss her again calmly twice. "Let's go to my place,"
She nods and I take her hand helping her up then grab the blanket we were laying on. I pretend that I didn't see Bonnie as I pulled off and kept my attention on the woman I loved who was in my car. When we arrive, I show her around then we head upstairs to my room where I immediately lay down the picture I have framed of Bonnie and me. It was on my dresser so I hope she didn't notice.
"Your place is huge,"
"It needs to be for all the ladies." That earns me a head shake and eye roll. I chuckle and hold her from behind. "Kidding,"
"You better."
"Do I sense jealous-ness?"
"So what if you did?"
I turn her and meet our foreheads. "You have nothing to worry about." I lift her legs around my waist and hold her ass, walking us to my bed.
"I have a secret," she tells me once we're laying.
"Are you going to tell me?"
"I want to,"
"Then what's holding you back?"
"Fear."
"Don't be scared of me, babe." I pull her into my chest.
"No, it's not you I'm scared of it's just I'm scared of myself to get so… I don't know, vulnerable with you because you're still in love with Bonnie and that's fine but I know how happy she makes you too. I could see it in the photos."
I sighed. "I'm-"
"If you were going to apologize, don't. I hate to keep bringing this up but maybe I'm not as OK as I thought with this,"
"Baby don't- don't do this, please. You're actually here for me, Bonnie is never here for me, you make me happy and yes, she does too, but she always tears it away."
"Then I don't understand, why are you with her in the first place? Forget about me, but she doesn't sound like a good person."
"Because for whatever reason, when I am with her, I didn't feel like the monster I am."
"You're not a monster, Stefan." She caresses the side of my face. "I promise you're not."
I exhale and meet our foreheads. "This is our thing now. I only do this with you." She smiles and moves in closer to me.
She kisses me and that's all I need to want her.
I've never smiled during sex but T has me doing a lot of that. When I kiss her and pull away, she's smiling causing me to smile. Her neck is her weak spot so anytime I kiss her there, she giggles making me chuckle. She talks to me as she rides me, how happy she is and how good and satisfying I feel. Little cuss words fall in a whisper and a cry awakens as I grab her hips with strength.
I flip us over as she comes and continue within her and faster once she grabs my hair calling out my name. Her legs spread wider and the beast inside me growls and my hips only stop as I stiffen. I pull out and roll beside her.
"That was amazing," she crawls on top of me and I palm her breasts.
"You want more?" I sit up some and lick along her neck.
She moans. "Yes please,"
...
We wake up to each other naked and well rested. We smile at each other and kiss before getting up. I look over my shoulder seeing her stretch her arms then slips on my shirt before standing finding her panties. I get up and slip on some sweatpants and grab her hand leading us downstairs to the kitchen. It's nine PM so I asked her if she minded leftovers and luckily she didn't. I heat us up some pasta but make fresh garlic bread. She turns on a record and hums and sways and I soon join her holding her from behind and her hands cover mine.
"What do you know about The Beatles?"
"I would act like I loved them since childbirth but at one point they were so mainstream that I studied up on them, listened to literally every song and wore their merch for the longest time just to fit in." I chuckled. "Little did I know, no one actually knew anything about them, they were just following a trend. Like Nirvana."
"Don't even get me started,"
She laughs and I twirl her to meet our chests. My phone rings and I sigh but get it and frown when I see it's Bonnie. Maybe she wants to yell at me for this afternoon or maybe not and I know I shouldn't, but I answer it anyway.
"Hello?"
"Stefan?"
"Yes?"
"I need you."
"What?"
"I- I need you."
My heart is pounding because this has never happened before. She doesn't call me first, she doesn't say anything to me first but tonight she needs me. "Right now?"
I hear her low sigh. "Never mind,"
"Wait, wait," I look behind me glad that Tiffiny isn't watching. "I'm just- I have- I-"
"I understand. Bye."
"Wait." I pause to see if she hung up and I'm relieved when I don't hear the beeping. "Where are you?"
"You have company, it's okay."
"No, I want to come. Please tell me where you are. I'm coming,"
She sniffs in. "I don't know where I am."
"What?"
"I'm in this cabin, I was just driving and I just- I'm scared."
"Baby, don't- I'm coming, okay, I will find you."
"How?"
"Just tell me which direction you were heading,"
"Um, west."
"Okay, I'm coming for you, I promise. Okay?"
"Okay,"
I end the call then grab my things ignoring Tiffiny as I did so, but once I'm done, I go to her. "I'm sorry that I have to do this, but I have to go."
"Is everything okay?"
"No, it's not, I- I'm sorry, I have to go."
I leave her and get in my car, drive to Bonnie's place then start west. My heart is pounding, I'm so worried about my baby, she needs me, she's scared and I'm the person she called. Not Elijah or Caroline, me. She loves me, she has to know it now that she truly loves me because I'm the one that can make her feel safe.
I come across this long, empty road and I have a feeling that I'm near. I can see why she's scared and I start to wonder what was on her mind so much that it caused her to get this lost.
I'm relieved when I see her car so I pull over and look inside it, but it's empty. She said she's in a cabin, so I run until I find one about a mile out. "Bonnie?"
"Stef?"
I rush to her and hold her pressed against my body. I missed her and her short stature and curvy frame. I hug her closer then lift her legs around my waist so she could hold me better.
"Baby, don't do this again, you had me so worried about you,"
"Sorry,"
"Are you okay, are you hurt?" I pull away to look at her face.
"No, I'm fine."
I sigh watching her then meet our lips, kissing my favorite lips on this planet. Her hands dig into my hair, kissing me back.
"I wasn't lying when I said I needed you." She pulled away.
I stare into her eyes before removing her shirt and she places her feet on the ground so she could undress me. I kiss her at any given chance before we connect and I just stare into her eyes as she stares into mine and her arm goes around my neck, never breaking contact. She massages my scalp before she pulls then switches our positions with her on top. She places my hands on her waist and I keep them there, tightening as she leans in towards me. Her body is so fucking perfect, no one can compare. She comes meeting our lips causing our kiss to be sloppy, but I kiss her more anyway as she starts up again until I come.
I hold her against me when she pulls out and lays beside me. "Thank you for coming,"
"I'll do anything for you." I kiss her once catching up on my breaths as does she.
We fall asleep after getting dressed again and wake up basically at the same time. She kisses me, making my heart slow but I grab her anyway just to have her near. "Baby, I missed you so much,"
"Really?"
"Yes. I always miss you."
"But you're dating someone else,"
"That doesn't change the way I feel about you." I run my hand down her hair. "I will never stop loving you."
"I love you,"
I hold her placing my head in the crook of her neck. "You have no idea what it does to me when you say that." I start kissing up her neck. "I should get you home,"
"My car ran out of gas,"
"Mines didn't. Come on,"
She takes my hand and we walk out together and start walking. I start to wish that I just drove until I saw the cabin, but I take pleasure in holding her hand and walking with her. We reach the cars and she checks her for any valuables before getting into mine. We hold hands the entire ride then I have to go get someone to tow it to a gas station. Of course, that takes forever, but it gets done and I drive back to her place and join her on the bed. I love holding her.
"Thank you, baby,"
"You're welcome," I kiss her forehead. "I'll make you some lunch later,"
"Okay,"
"I want to spend the day with you,"
"Can we stay inside?"
"Of course we can, whatever you want."
She kisses me and I grab her letting my phone go to voicemail. I don't want to talk to anyone or be with anyone but Bonnie right now.
"Can I tell you a secret?" She asks hovered above me.
"You can tell me anything,"
"I wasn't really lost last night. I just- I just wanted to see if you would come find me. Wanted to see if you still loved me."
I'm not sure how I should feel. She tricked me but she had a reason that I can't bring myself to be angry at. "Just call me, Bonnie. You don't have to pretend to be lost or scared or anything like that, just call me. I'll answer in a heartbeat."
"I'm sorry,"
"It's okay," I kiss her. "Know that you'll always be my one."
She nods then rest her head on my chest. Her warmth covers my body like a sauna and I rest in its delight.
For the first time ever, we're in the kitchen together cooking. Cooking and holding a conversation. She asked me about Tiffany and I told her the truth, I told her that I have a connection with her, that we went out on dates and that I loved her. A part of me wanted to hurt her and I'm not sure if I did or not but it did something, I could tell. She changed the subject quickly and we find ourselves laughing reciting movie lines. Some of the ones I recite Bonnie doesn't know what movie they're from which makes it all the more funnier. We sit down at the table together to eat which is quiet but that's okay because we're too busy eating. I'm surprised when she stands only to sit on my lap and she hugs my head before eating again and I take that as her way of telling me that she just wanted to be closer to me. I smile and rest my head on her shoulder for a beat.
"So how's uh everything with Elijah?"
"I don't know, I haven't talked to him lately. I hear he's okay though."
"That's good."
"What is?"
"That he's doing good. I may not like him, but I have a heart." That made her chuckle. "You don't believe me, baby?" I tease.
She chuckled again. "I didn't say that. if anyone knows that you have a heart it's me. You're the most loving man I know. And I mean that sincerely."
"Thanks, babe." I run my hand across her stomach.
She stopped my hand by covering it with hers and I look up at her as she stays there frozen.
"Babe?"
She snaps out of it. "Huh?"
"Everything okay?"
"Yeah," she smiles then kisses me, letting go of my hand.
"Hey," I grab her face. "Tell me,"
"I can't,"
"Why?"
"Because I'll hurt you."
"What do you mean?"
"I don't want to say anymore."
"Okay," I only stop pushing because I don't want her to ask me to leave. "I've been going to therapy," I say a distraction.
"Really, why?"
"I just need someone to talk to, you know. Someone who would just listen and just- I don't know, but it's nice."
"How long have you been going?"
"Not long, I've only had two sessions so far."
"So what do you talk to her-"
"Him,"
"him about?"
"You, mostly and just things I'm dealing with at the time."
"Has it helped?"
"Very much. Though I did threaten him one time."
She laughed. "Jeez, babe, only two sessions in and you threaten him?"
"Which is exactly why I'm going to therapy, I need help."
She smiles then shifts to straddle my lap and I held her hips. She kisses me and rocks her hips into me making me groan which makes her smile. She knows. She knows that she's my weakness and that just proves it. "Are you just teasing me or am I actually going to get some?"
She takes my face in her hands and kisses along my cheek until she reaches my ear then bites me there. I take that as my answer then carry her upstairs.
I wake up to a phone ringing and shortly Bonnie answers it and I was just going to go back to sleep but I hear her tell whoever it was her name then ask who she was talking to and she said a name back that made me immediately listen in. Tiffany.
"...Stefan's girlfriend,"
Bonnie pauses for a few seconds. "Yeah, I've- I've heard. He told me how much he loves you."
"And he told me how much you abandon him."
Holy fuck.
Another pregnant pause. "I've been going through a difficult time-"
"So he's over there?"
"Outside fixing my car actually. I got stuck in the middle of the road last night and I called him and he came."
"He's just fixing it now?"
"Well he spent the night on the couch and we had lunch and stuff… You know how men are, he might be out there all afternoon not wanting to ask for help."
"Yeah."
"Anyway, I'll tell him you called."
"Thanks."
"Bye,"
It's dead silent and I feel so horrible. I had no idea that Tiffany would ever say anything like that but she did express that she's a jealous person so it isn't much of a shock anymore. It still sucks though. What I'm mainly surprised by is how Bonnie lied. She could've easily told her the truth about last night and our day so far together but it was like she was sparing her feelings which was something that Tiffany didn't do.
I pretend to just wake up and I turn to her but her back is faced with me instead. I gently placed my hand on her back as she turns to me, I offer her a smile and she gives me one back but it was forced and that made me frown. "Babe,"
"Your girlfriend called,"
"Baby,"
"I thought it was my phone but it wasn't and I told her that I would tell you. She seemed nice." I just look at her. "You should call her," she says letting out a breath.
"I don't want to, I want to only be with you right now."
"What about tomorrow?"
I shake my head clueless, "I-"
"Whatever, Stefan." She moves to get up but I stop her.
"No, you don't get to do this to me. Not again. You can't keep dismissing me like I'm nothing then want me to be there for you a week later. I'm tired of this, Bonnie."
"So she was right,"
"What are you talking about?"
"Tiffany. She told me that you tell her that I abandon you."
"I never said abandon,"
"It doesn't matter."
"I'm sorry-"
"Stop apologizing, Stefan! Jeez, I can't- I can't do this anymore."
"What?"
"You're more than anything I deserve. I can't be with you anymore."
"Yes, you can,"
"I can't."
"Yes, you can. You don't get to break up with me, not after everything that I have done for you. I love you, Bonnie and I'll be the first to admit that I wish I didn't love you so much, but I do. You care about me, more than you care to admit, but you do and for whatever the reason, you're doing everything in your power to block those feelings and push them to the side. Why?"
"Because I don't want to love you."
"Why not?
"Because I'm not supposed to."
"Who in the hell is stopping you? Is it Elijah?"
"Mostly, it's part of it,"
"Part of what?"
"If I tell you," a tear slides down her cheek, "you're going to hate me and I'm not ready for that yet."
"I will never hate you, Bonnie."
"Yes, you will. I know it."
"I won't. I swear to you."
"I'm not the person you think I am. "
"Then who are you, tell me who you are."
She stares at me and I look into her eyes back when I see her swiftly move then a needle is in my neck and by the way I'm fading, I know it's filled with vervain.
"I'm a hunter."
Black.