Chapter four:
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That song is back, the one that echoes through my brain ever since I slapped Joey for drinking almost an entire bottle of whiskey in front of Mokuba after the fiasco of a meeting with Pegasus. "I'm growing so distant, nothing makes sense to me anymore." I hum as I sit in the hallway outside intensive care. Mokuba is no doubt at home by now and even though I am livid at Joey I cannot bring myself not to be here while they pump his stomach and flush his entire system from alcohol. "The walls are closing in, I dare you to walk in my shoes. Can't explain what's come over me come over me." I drop my head into my hands and wait for any news whatsoever from the doctors. "Please Joey, come back to me." I whisper. I need to apologize for slapping him, need to have his arms around me again to chase away the memories of being alone in that dark place Pegasus sent me too, twice. I pull at my hair until it hurts warring with myself. I am not only angry with Joey but angry with myself. I should have stopped him, should have Mokuba ride up front while I took care of Joeys anxiety."I'm wasting here Can anyone wash it all away. I'm waiting here For anyone to wash it all away. Wash it all away." The guilt and anger have made me almost cold. I can see it but dont know how to fix it. Mokuba flinches when he looks at me right now, his voice quivers when he calls. I havent slept in the two days joeys been in icu unconcious. The nurses beg me to eat, drink and sleep or go home but i cannot. I cannot go home to my empty bed, and i cannot sleep while joey is still so fragile. One of the doctors eye me with suspicion but i couldnt care less. I walk with joey when he is moved to a different room out of icu after he stabilizes according to the monitors. It is now day three. Mokuba stops by and all but orders me to go home, nap and change my clothes. I grumble and feel my guilt waning as the day drags on. I finally agree to go home only when kaiba corp calls me saying they need me for some emergency. Roland drives after i leave explicit orders to call me if something happens to joey, but i am not to be disturbed under any other circumstances. Mokuba nods and takes a seat next to joey to wait for him to awaken or for me to return, whichever one comes first. As i leave i hear a nurse gossiping about the abuse victim who tried to kill himself with alcohol poisoning and how awful it is that something like that could happen to such a young man. I clench my fists and turn to facr her. "Excuse me? But what abuse victim is here who tried to kill himself?" i ask dangerously. The nurse pales. "The young blonde man who just spent two days in icu." she says and i growl. "Make no mistake, nurse. He is not abused. Far from it. He is very well taken care of and if not for me he would be dead by his fathers hands." the nurse looks taken aback then blushes. "I am very sorry mr kaiba, i did not know. However the doctor has documented the bruises and marks seen on the young mans wrists, ankles, and neck." she says quietly and i growl. "It is none of your business of theirs what marks are on his body, if it was up to me none of you peasants would ever have touched or seen him. However, with the onset of several panic attacks and ptsd flareup i had no choice to bring him here because he tried to drink away the pain." i snap and the nurse pales again. "Yes mr kaiba. I understand." she murmurs and i storm off down the hallway, livid that someone could actually believe that i would hurt joey. Roland opens tge door silently and drives me back to the mansion. Another song plays on the radio and i turn up the volume to sing along. "I'm growing so distant, Nothing makes sense to me anymore. I'm learning to resist, Becoming more than you ever were. Can't explain What's come over me, Come over me. Can't explain Why it's so hard for me, So hard to see your side." roland knocks on the door and lets me out as soon as we are parked and i storm inside, unable to look at the interior without joey here brightening the place. I take a shower hot enough to leave burns on my skin before putting on a clean pair of jeans, black shirt, and signature white trenchcoat. I go back downstairs where i am greeted with a hot meal and stack of documents. I eat quickly and sort through the papers. Once i am done i head to kaibacorp. Everyone in my building flinches when i fling open the door and storm inside. Immediately i go,into my office and begin looking over the reports for the "emergency" i was called in for. I open my laptop and begin to fix a network error on my newest project. It takes abut twn minutes before i am done. The secretary nods as i leave. "I am going back to the hospital, do not bother me again." i hiss on my way out. As i am stepping out of the elevator my phone rings and i see mokubas face. "Yes mokuba?" i ask, my voice still hard and angry from the nurse and work. "Joey is awake and asking for you." he tells me and my heart surges. "I am on my way back to the hodpital now. Do not let any doctors or nurses near him until then." i growl and mokuba hangs up after a quick,"ok.". I drum my fingers on my knee as roland drives me bck to the hospital. I meet mokuba getting ready to open the door. I see joey flinch when he sees me and i soften even as i see the same nurse from earlier whispering to the doctor i assume is the one who is concerned about joeys marks. Mokuba steps out and i shut the door firmly behind me. I sit down next to joeys bed and sigh, unable to speak until i compose myself. Joey waits quietly for me to speak, no doubt terrified of me right now. I look up at joey, my earlier anger vanishing and my longing to have him wrapped around me spikes. "I should make you leave for that stunt you pulled in front of mokuba, but i cannot bear the idea of you not being there. I havent slept in three days, pup." i say softly, a small tinge of anger surfacing. Joey tears up and swallows, "im so sorry, seto. I know i shouldnt have lost cobtrol like that, i just... Couldnt bear losing you like that." he whimpers and i grunt. "Thats exactly what ive spent the last three days saying about you, pup." joey pales and apologizes again. I shake my head. "I need you home right now, you can apologize there in our bed." i say stopping his next words and standing to go get the doctor to sign the release documents. "Mister wheeler is awake? Good. I shall examine him. Mister kaiba you must stay here." the doctor says as i exit the room and i growl. "Out of the question, i dont care who you think you are mister wheeler comes home with me now." the doctor gets a steely glare and shakes her head. "I am sorry but i cannot do that. Not with the condition we recieved him in. You will stay here while i examine him." she says opening the door and i slam it shut. "You think i am a monster dont you? You have no idea what you are accusing me of do you? I would never hurt joey, not now not ever. Those marks you are reasing in to are and always have been consensual. If you knew anything about him you would understand." i snarl. She looks at me calmly. "I hear that from abusers and their victims alot mister kaiba. Now stay here." she says and walks inside joeys room while i snarl and pace outside. I hear joeys incredulous voice inside the room and smile. The nurses watch me anxiously and i finally walk inside. "Can he come home now?" i ask impatiently and the doctor nods. "Based on what joey has said and he promises i see no reason why not." she says and leaves to draw up the paperwork i presume. Joey looks at me as i am scowlin and he touches my arm. "She aked about your bruises didnt she?' i ask and joey nods. I growl lowly amd joey sighs. "The idea of me hurting you is preposterous." i say and joey touches my arm again. "Not everyone knows that though seto. I mean if you were not sleeping with me and you didnt know what i liked and you saw the bruises on my wrists and ankles what would you think?" he asks and i think about it for a minute. "That your date was one lucky bastard i had no claim to you because i'd kill him." i say seriously and joey chuckles. "That answer doesnt surprise me at all." he says and i shrug. "Its the truth pup." i say and he nods. "But outsiders don't automatically jump to the consensual rough sex conclusion. They jump to abuse first." he says and i sigh, "i know. They do everything opposite." i say bitterly. Suddenly i stand to go check on the status if his discharge, leaving him with a nurse who brings his clothes inside. I see the doctor and she finishes her signature and looks up at me. "He is very loyal to you, mister kaiba, i hope you appreciate that." she says and i raise an eyebrow. "If you knew even half of what ive done for him you would understand how ludicrous that statement is. Is his paperwork done and are there any guidelines i need to be aware of?" i ask and the doctor halfsmiles. "No alcohol, no stress, no undue harshness, he is still recovering from almost dying." she says and i pause. "Sex is ok but not if its too rough." i state and she nods. "Perfect." i growl and take the papers from her andhead back to joeys room where he is going to the bathroom to get dressed. He comes out and i show him the papers. "You are finally free to go." i say with a smile and joey purrs as my eyes darken. "Take me home, dragon." he murmurs and it's all my selfcontrol not to pick him up and carry him out or take him right then and there. I grin as my eyes darken even more and i escort him out to roland and the waiting limo. Once joey crawls inside i make sure the divider is up, mokuba is in the front seat and i pounce on joey, pinning him to the seat as i kiss him fiercely. He gasps and moans, writhing under me in the way i adore. I claim his mouth until his body relaxes into putty. I pull back with a grin, "miss me?" i ask and joey purrs. I lightly smack his hip and he groans, "i said did you miss me?" i growl harshly. "Yes, i did, seto." joey whimpers in my ear and i kiss him gently. I pull him into me so he is on my lap and bury my face in his chest, inhaling his scent. Joey wraps his arms around me and i feel his confused expression. I look up and see his concern. "I was ordered not to be too rough since you are still recovering from almost dying, again." i explain and joeys eyes soften. "Do not hold back on me because you think im fragile, dragon. I know ive earned a severe punishment indeed." he says and i grip his hips tightly in my hands. My puppys eyes roll back in his pretty face and he moans softly as the bulge in his jeans gets bigger. My eyes darken and i growl possessively. "Alright then pup, as soon as we get home you will go upstairs, shower, prep yourself and then wait for me on the bed in the chamber, knees apart hands on your neck." i growl and watch as joey shivers. "Yes, my dragon." he whispers and i kiss him harshly. Joey whimpers as i roam my hands up and down his body hungrily. With both eyes locked on his i raise one of his wrists and kiss the faint blue marks gently. Joey shivers and i nip lightly, watching as he spasms and hisses in pleasure, eyes drooping halfway shut. "Eyes open." i growl and bite harder, leaving a perfect imprint of my teeth over the fading bruise. Joey moans and his eyes snap open. I stroke his face lightly and purr. "Thats my good puppy." i switch to his other wrist and trace the fading marks there with my lips. Joey shivers and i move my lips to his neck as i jerk both his arms above his head with one hand. My other hand fists into the hair on the nape of his neck, tilting his head up so i can leave a trail of bites down his pale flesh. Joey groans and struggles against me until the limo suddenly stops and i hear doors open. I growl in frustration as i let a dazed and limp joey go to climb out of the limo and escort him to his feet. I smack his ass and growl in his ear before walking up the front walkway, "remember what my orders are." joey shivers and nods before following me wobbily into the house. I go into the kitchen to talk to mokuba while joey heads up to our room to do as i told him. Mokuba looks up, a bit afraid and i sit down heavily. "Im sorry mokuba for how ive been acting the last few days, i just have been working through things in my head. How are you holding up?" i ask and mokuba looks relieved. "I am better now that i know you wont be kicking joey out. Ive been more worried about you though big brother. Ive never seen you act like that with joey, you always seem to treat him more gently. Like you are afraid he might break, but then i do catch him every now and again putting makeup on bruises." he says and i cringe. He raises a hand. "I dont want to know how they get there or why, because i see how good you two are together. I am only glad you seemed to have forgiven him for his lapse of control and judgement. I hope you gave him a chance to explain big brother." mokuba says with an accusing glare and i shake my head in wonder. "Trust me mokuba, he has nothing to explain, i already understood why it happened and i honestly blame myself for not thinking about his needs at the time. I thought he could make it home before he relapsed. See joey has ptsd and anxiety issues because of his father. His method of dealing with that kind of pain is to drink. I found a different way to help him but i am not discussing that with you because well, youre fourteen. I should have been better prepared for his actions. I wasnt and he paid the price unfortunately. I did not have to forgive him, he had ti forgive me. I also had to forgive myself. That being said, you will be on your own tonight for dinner and bed. I must make the time for joey. Do you understand? Tomorrow will be a normal day for all of us i promise." i say and mokuba nods. "I get it seto. Take care of joey." he says andi tousle his hair. "Thanks mokie." i say and head upstairs to the secret room i had built. Joey is waiting for me as i ordered and i grin. "Look at me." i growl and joeys hed snaps up to look at me. I stay where i am and step out of my shoes. Joey watches hungrily and i unbuckle my belt and slide it out of my pants, letting my pants drop down my hips almost an inch. Joey whimpers and i shrug out of my jacket. I take off my shirt, revealing the planes of muscle i know joey adores. Sure enough, his breath hitches and i smirk as i reach for my pants. Joey whimpers pitifully as i slowly undo the button and zipper to let my pants pool at my feet. I step out of my pants and socks and walk over to joey. "Up." i growl and he rises to his feet without moving his hands from his neck. I kiss him soft at first and then harder, until i feel him completely melt against me. I step back and look at my puppy panting and flushed as well as deliciously hard. "My bad puppy, disobeying me. However shall i punish you?" i ask softly and joey shivers. "You may speak." i growl and joeys knees start to weaken. "Maybe my dragon should spank his disobedient puppy." joey whimpers and i tilt my head. "Is that all?" i ask and joey shakes his head. "Perhaps my dragon would consider suspending his puppy as he spanks him with the leather flogger." joey murmurs, blinking at me from under his lashes and i grin. "Stand under the grid." i growl, and joey scurries over to the side of the room to stand under a bunch of hangng chains and straps. I take off my boxers and go to my cabinet where i retrieve my favorite black and silver leather flogger. I walk back to joey slowly, slapping the flogger strands against my hand sharply. Joey flinches with every smack and i grin softly. "Legs apart, hands in the air." i purr and joey obliges, bracing his feet against the posts for the elevated pegs. I reach for the leather cuffs and strap joeys wrists into them. He is standing on tiptoes and i move the pegs into place. "Up, and do not fall off." i say and joey steps onto the pegs, allowing some relaxation on his arms. I walk around joey, examining the setup. I reach into a drawer and pullout a golden silk blindfold. I tie it around joeys eyes and smile. "Perfect." i purr and joey whimpers. Witout a warning i strike joeys back with the flogger with a sharp smack that echoes. Joey cries out and jerks in the cuffs, almost losing his balance on the blocks. I strike his feet sharply with the flogger. "Do not fall." i growl and joey struggles to keep his footing. I kiss his lips gently and gently flog his chest. I pull away and lay the flogger on his shoulders quickly and sharply. The smacks resound through the room and i lightly pinken his back with a few soft whacks. I settle into a rhythm of soft and hard strokes until joey is almost screaming and nicely red all over. I drop the flogger and lightly run a hand down his heated skin. Joey moans and i kiss him softly, everywhere i can. I come in front of him and grab behind his knees, wrapping his legs around my waist as i kiss his mouth softly. With one hand i undo the blindfold, letting it fall away to reveal honey brown eyes misted with tears. I gently kiss his eyes and rub my hands through his silken hair. "How is my puppy feeling?" i ask softly and joey kisses me passionately. "Very well punished my dragon." he says and i smile. "Do you feel like you have made up for your disobedience?" i ask and joey shakes his head. "No my dragon. I have not." he says quietly and i nod. "What else should be done for your punishment?" i purr and joey looks at me through lashes again. "Would my dragon like to punish his puppy with the collar?" he asks and i immediately flush. "Oh pup, its been a long time since you asked for a collaring. Can you ever forgive me for not taking care of you when i should have?" i purr sinking to my knees in front of joey. My golden puppy drops into my lap and kisses me softly. "I will answer that after you collar me." he purrs and i growl. "On your knees." joey immediately plants his knees and hands on the ground, head bowed gently. I stand and stride over to another cabinet where i retrieve a collar, a mask, a tail, and two sets of cuffs. "Come here." i order and joey crawls over to me to sit at my feet. "Good boy." i say softly as i begin putting on the equipment. Joey whimpers and i kiss him gently when i finish. "Stand up." i growl and joey obeys flawlessly. "Bring me a glass of water. From the kitchen." i order and i gracefully lounge across the chaise. Joey whimpers and begins shuffling across the room to go to the kitchen. I smile until joey is out of the room. "I'm so sorry for the Demon I've become, You should be sorry for the angel you are not. I apologize for the cruel things that I did, But I don't regret one single word I said. Just walk away, Make it easy on yourself. Just walk away, Please release me from this hell. Just walk away There's just nothing left to feel. Just walk away, Pretend that none of this is real." i sing softly a tear escaping my eyes. I hear a startled shriek and a crashing sound of dishes breaking and i sigh. I rise off my couch and don my trenchcoat, careful to close it, i do not care for my servants and brother to see me naked. I stride down to the kitcen where a maid is frantically picking up dishes and joey is cowering on the floor terrified and on the brink of a panic attack. I growl, alerting the maid and joey to my presence. "Get out." i snap at the maid and i drop to my knees in front of joey. "Breathe, remember my order. I am thirsy, you will bring me a glass of water. Do not step on the broken dishes." i purr and joey shakily moving to the cabinet where the glasses are stored. He fills the glass with ice and , bringing me the drink carefully. I pat his hair and smack his ass, "back up to the chamber pup." i purr, taking a sip of water before folowing him upstairs. I hear a sobbing maid somewhere but i am more focused on the blonde in front of me. I open the door and make my way back to my couch, dropping my coat on the floor. "Come here." i growl patting my thigh. Joey climbs up and curls up next to me. I take an ice cube and place it in joeys navel. He flinches and rolls so the ice will not move. I take another ice cube and swirl it around his nipples. Joey moans and his head falls back against my shoulder. I kiss his neck, biting the sensitive skin until he screams. I flip on top of him and start licking the melting ice off of his nipples and stomach. My blonde puppy arches into my tongue and whimpers. "How does my pretty puppy feel now?" i growl softly. "May i remove the collar now?" he asks and i bite his neck as i smack his hip lightly. "Ask correctly." i purr and joey melts in my hands. "May i remove my collar now my dragon?" he moans and i kiss him gently. Slowly, teasingly, i begin by removing his cuffs, his mask, his tail, and then the collar. I kiss the skin on his neck where the collar made it red. Joey purrs and i pull him to me holding him close. "Feel better?" i murmur in his ear and joey purrs in my ear, nuzzling my neck. I chuckle and move us to the bed where i lay him out gently. In one movement both his wrists are tied to the headboard and i kiss every inch of skin i can. Joey purrs and twitches under me. I slowly move down the blondes lean body until i am between his knees looking up at his face. Joey catches his breath and i swllow his entire length as he moans and pushes into my mouth more. I work the blonde into a frenzy with my mouth as i stroke myself off. I feel joey gettng closer to the edge and i release him to lube myself up before sliding into his tightness. Joey gasps and screams as i fill him. The sudden tightness almost makes me lose it but i reign it in and thrust slowly into him, rolling my hips gently. I focus each movement with precision, making sure i hit that bundle of nerves that makes my pup scream until he has no voice left. Joey levitates off the bed as he explodes in my hand and i growl before i pick up speed, determined to make him come again. I stroke the hardening flesh in front of me as i pound into him mercilessly. Joey screams and explodes in my hand as i slam into him and release with a moan of satisfaction. I collapse on top of my puppy, undoing his wrists and wrapping my arms around him. We lie there, taking comfort in eachothers presence until joey yawns. I smile and bury my face into his shoulder. "Sleep my pretty puppy, you have earned it." i murmur. Joey yawns again. "I love you, seto." he sighs and i kiss his chest softly. "You are my world, pup." i whisper. The blondes eyes droop shut and he snores gently as he sleeps. Soothed by joeys smell and sounds i drift off as well.