*disclaimer: i own nothing but the plot. All songs belong to adele, evanescence, FGL, Zedd, lady gaga, skillet, rag n bone man, the cab, and breaking benjamin.*
I drift off next to Seto as he types on his computer. My body stops shaking and I finally feel normal. Seto strokes my hair and I am lost in a black pit of dreams. Lyrics fill my dreams and I tumble from image to image as the songs change.
"Hello from the outside,
At least I can say that I've tried
To tell you I'm sorry for breaking your heart
But it don't matter, it clearly doesn't tear you apart
Anymore.
I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away.
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello
Hello, how are you?
It's so typical of me to talk about myself, I'm sorry
I hope that you're well
Did you ever make it out of that town where nothing ever happened?
It's no secret that the both of us
Are running out of time
hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?
I wont stay long in this world so wrong. Say goodbye as we dance with the devil tonight. Dont you dare look at him in the eye as we dance with the devil tonight. Hold on, hold on, hold on."
I feel myself falling falling falling when I hear my name. I struggle up into the light again as I hear Seto singing softly to me.
"
Embers in the ashtray glow like memories that won't let go
I'm out here trying to get them untangled
In the darkness on the edge of town
A little lost, a little found
Waiting on a call from an angel
All you have to do is stay a minute
Just take your time
The clock is ticking, so stay
All you have to do is wait a second
Your hands on mine
The clock is ticking, so stay
I light up the night and let it burn
Lean back and watch the sundown fade
But if I told you I love you,
Would it make you wanna stay?
I'm sorry for the way I hurt you
And makin' you walk away (I shoulda took the time to tell you)
And if I wrote you a love song
and sang it to you everyday
Would it ever be enough to
make you wanna, come back home and stay?
All you have to do is stay a minute
Just take your time
The clock is ticking, so stay
All you have to do is wait a second
Your hands on mine
The clock is ticking, so stay
and stare
Off at the headlights on the highway
That guy in the windshield looking back looks just like me
But there's a crack in the reflection
But if I told you I love you,
Would it make you wanna stay?
And if I wrote you a love song
and sang it to you everyday
Would it ever be enough to
make you wanna, come back home and stay?"
I open my eyes weakly and see Seto's face looking at me worriedly. "Don't you dare leave me Joey, I am nothing, nothing without you." he whispers and I struggle to smile, struggle to convey that even though I do not want to leave my body is betraying me. "Look at me Pup. Baby tell me yes and I will give you everything, baby tell me yes and I will be right by your side. I will fix you with my love." my dragon rumbles and I search his face. I see his determination to not lose me and I grimace as I raise one hand to his cheek.
"I'm only human afterall, you're only human afterall." I whisper gently and Seto lets a tear fall. "Keep fighting Pup. Please." he begs. "I hate feeling like this, I'm so tired of trying to fight this. The more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing you." I cry, feeling weak and helpless.
"
Tonight I'm so alone
This sorrow takes ahold
Don't leave me here so cold
Never want to be so cold
Your touch used to be so kind
Your touch used to give me life
I've waited all this time, I've wasted so much time
Don't leave me alone
Cause I barely see at all
Don't leave me alone, I'm
falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Dreaming of the way it used to be
Can you hear me
falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Falling inside the black
Falling inside falling inside the black
You were my source of strength
I've traded everything
That I love for this one thing
Stranded in the offering
Don't leave me here like this
Can't hear me scream from the abyss
And now I wish for you my desire
Don't leave me alone cause I barely see at all
Don't leave me alone, I'm
falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Dreaming of the way it used to be
Can you hear me
falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Falling inside the black
Falling inside falling inside the black." echoes through my mind before all is still.
Seto's pov
Joey's breathing settles down to barely there and I push the call button quietly. A nurse comes in and eyes us twisted around eachother. I growl slightly, directing her attention back to me. "Get me the best doctor here and immediately. If I lose Joey I will make sure this hospital is levelled." I hiss as Joey's breathing slows even more. The nurse bobs her head and sprints out of the room. "Oh pup, don't give up. Please stay with me." I murmur into his ear again. A slight increase in Joey's breathing is all the response I get and I feel my heart constrict so tight I feel it might implode and kill me too. A tear slips down my cheek as helplessness overwhelms me. A doctor comes in and I look up. "What seems to be the problem Mister Kaiba?" he asks taking a seat across from me. I look at the doctor like he is insane. "My lover is barely breathing even with a respirator and you are asking me what is wrong?" I snarl incredulously. The doctor sighs. "Mister Kaiba, there is nothing more I can do for Joey. It is all on him now whether he makes it or not. Threatening the staff here will not keep Joey alive if he wants to go." the doctor says and I snarl. "He wants to live but his body is failing him." I snap and the doctor looks resigned. "How do you know?" he asks bluntly and I pause. "Because Joey has been through worse and still survived. He is a fighter, a survivor, more so than I ever could be or am." I say softly. The doctor nods. "The maybe you are not fighting hard enough for Joey." he says and stands. "I have other patients Mister Kaiba. The rest of my staff knows to take extra special care of Mister Wheeler. If anything goes wrong they come straight for me." doc says and walks out. I look at Joey sleeping next to me and a tear tracks down my face. "I will fight for you Joey, but I need help. I cant do this without your help." I whisper and Joey's heart flutters. I pause. "Get out your guns, battles begun, are you a saint, or a sinner?
If loves a fight, than I shall die,
with my heart on a trigger. They say before you start a war,
you better know what you're fighting for.
Well baby, you are all that I adore,
if love is what you need, a soldier I will be.
I'm an angel with a shotgun,
fighting til' the wars won,
I don't care if heaven won't take me back.
I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe.
Don't you know you're everything I have?
and I, wanna live, not just survive, tonight.
Sometimes to win, you've got to sin,
don't mean I'm not a believer. And major Tom, will sing along.
Yeah, they still say I'm a dreamer.
They say before you start a war,
you better know what you're fighting for.
Well baby, you are all that I adore,
if love is what you need, a soldier I will be.
I'm an angel with a shotgun,
fighting til' the wars won,
I don't care if heaven won't take me back.
I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe.
Don't you know you're everything I have? and I, wanna live, not just survive, tonight. I'm an angel with a shotgun
fighting til' the wars won
I don't care if heaven won't take me back. I'm an angel with a shotgun,
fighting til' the wars won,
I don't care if heaven won't take me back.
I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe.
Don't you know you're everything I have? And I, want to live, not just survive, tonight and I'm gonna hide, hide, hide my wings tonight.
They say before you start a war,
you better know what you're fighting for.
Well baby, you are all that I adore,
if love is what you need, a soldier I will be." I sing quietly and Joey's heartbeat evens out steadily and strongly. I smile and pull Joey closer to me, careful not to bump his broken ribs. "I am right here, not going anywhere. If you need me to fight now, I will." I murmur before I join Joey in a deep sleep.