A/N - Ahhh! So, here it is guys, the last chapter for this story. It's lengthy, and be warned it is a VERY emotional chapter, but it's all nessacery. Again, outfits are crucial, so as usual...add the"h" before the "ttp" and take the spaces out after the periods. In the first half, all the characters are still in their twin outfits, so incase you didn't see those, check the links posted in the chapter before this. Enjoy readers, this story was nothing without you guys.
Special outfits-
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After listening to her friend, give her a beautiful idea, Quinn Fabray's mood was at it's highest. The entire night had been amazing for her, but Brittany had somehow, in her own way, made it even better. There she stood, on the stage in one of her favorite places, looking right at her girlfriend. Rachel noticed she was being looked at, and smiled widely.
"Hey...", said Quinn, as if they had just run into each other randomly.
"Hey", laughed Rachel.
"So...we're not doing our duet...".
"Wait...what? Of course we are, why wouldn't we?"
"Well, because...I've been kinda' sneaky with planning all week, and I'm singing a song to you tonight, not with you."
"Quinn...are you trying to tell me that you're serenading me tonight", asked Rachel, as she turned to her.
"Yeah, I suppose I am", answered the blond, as Santana, Brittany, and Jade walked onto the stage."Our friends were in on it too, it's only right that I have back up for this sort of thing."
Rachel just smiled and shook her head, before receiving a peck on the lips from Quinn. Before the shorter girl could say anything else, Quinn brought her microphone to her mouth, and started talking.
"So, is everybody having fun here tonight?"
The crowd responded by cheering loudly, and clapping.
"I thought so! It's always fun here, no matter what! Now, as most of you regulars out there already know, this is Rachel Berry...the love of my life. We've been through a lot together, especially in the last few months. But, no matter how hard things get, I love her, and that will never change. So, my friends are gonna' help me sing her a song. Sound good?"
The crowd cheered and clapped, as Puck appeared on stage with a stool. He grabbed Rachel by the shoulders, and pulled her down onto the stool. She turned, and looked up at him, and he just smiled and jumped down into the crowd. The threesome took their place in back, and Jade suddenly felt very overwhelmed. As if it wasn't awkward enough for the girl to have two girlfriends, there she was standing in between the two of them, after they had let her know in their own special way, that they wanted to sleep with her later that night. She stumbled a little, and bumped into Santana, lightly.
"Sweetness...are you okay?"
"Mhm...", she mumbled, shyly.
"Uh-huh...", said the Latina, squinting at the girl."...look at me."
Jade glanced at her for a second. Santana clapped her hands once directly in front of Jade's face, and the girl did react. Only, her reaction was a little delayed.
"Jade...you're not supposed to be drinking...", warned Santana.
"I'm...not", said Jade, only it came out more as a question than a statement.
"Baby...", said Brittany, and Jade looked at the tall blond."...don't lie, have you been drinking?"
"Ummm...".
"Oh wow, you have", laughed Santana."Just admit it, you're not in trouble."
"Maybe a little", said Jade, looking down.
"San...we can't take the party girl out of her, can we", laughed Brittany.
"No Britts, we can't."
Quinn looked to the DJ booth, and nodded her head at Jonah. He winked at her, and started the music.
Quinn-
Threw some chords together,
The combination D-E-F.
It's who I am, it's what I do,
And I was gonna lay it down for you.
Try to focus my attention,
But I feel so A-D-D.
I need some help, some inspiration...
Santana-
(But it's not coming easily)
Whoa oh!
Quinn-
Trying to find the magic,
Trying to write a classic,
Don't you know, don't you know, don't you know?
Waste-bin full of paper,
Clever rhymes, see you later...
These words are my own,
From my heart flow...
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you!
There's no other way,
To better say,
I love you, I love you...
The crowd responded well, and Rachel couldn't help but smile, and giggle a little, as Quinn danced around her.
Read some Byron, Shelly and Keats,
Recited it over a Hip-Hop beat!
I'm having trouble saying what I mean,
With dead poets and drum machines.
I know I had some studio time booked,
But I couldn't find a killer hook!
Now you've gone & raised the bar right up,
Nothing I write is ever good enough.
These words are my own,
From my heart flow...
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you!
There's no other way,
To better say,
I love you, I love you!
As the song finished, Puck was behind he bar, serving random people drinks, and taking a few sips of his own. Out of nowhere, Mercedes popped up in front of him.
"Mercedes, it's about time! We've been waiting for you!"
"Don't even start with me...wait until I tell you guys what I have to tell you", she laughed.
"Yeah, I heard you have some news. I'm guessing it's good news?"
"Can I get a shot? Make it...a Birthday Cake shot", she answered, with a huge smile on her face."Actually...make it a tray. We're all doing shots."
"Okay holy shit, I guess it is good news", said Puck, as he grabbed a tray from underneath the counter.
After the song finished, the girls took their bows, and once again were off the stage. Rachel and Jade disappeared into the office, once again, the Trinity being none the wiser. The three of them headed towards the bar. By that time, Jonah had made his way over to greet Mercedes.
"Hi Cedes", squealed Brittany, as she threw her arms around her, and squeezed.
"Hey Britt, hey girls! I didn't hear you're whole performance, Quinn, but what I did hear sounded amazing. Looked like Rachel enjoyed it."
"She did, she loved it. I think she's a little annoyed that we didn't sing our duet. We did spend the last couple days rehearsing it after all, but...she'll get over it", laughed Quinn.
"Where is Rachel", asked Jonah."...and Jade for that matter?"
Everybody started to look around.
"You know, this is like the third time they've vanished into thin air, and I think I have a pretty good idea of where they keep going, and what they're doing", laughed Santana.
"What do you mean", asked Quinn.
"Go get them! I have something to tell everyone", said Mercedes, waving her hands in the air like an excited toddler.
"Okay, hang on", said Santana, and she hurried off towards the office, Brittany following close behind.
"Oh yeah, really quick...while I can tell you guys. I'm proposing to Rachel", said Quinn.
"What", asked Puck, as he set a tray full of Birthday Cake shots on the counter."Seriously?"
"For real", asked Mercedes.
"Yes, seriously, and for real. But, I need your guys help."
"Awesome, what do you need us to do", asked Puck.
"Anything", said Jonah.
"Wait, so you guys don't think that it's a bad idea", asked the blond, in shock.
"God, no...I think it's a damn good idea", exclaimed Jonah.
"Hell, me too. You guys belong together", laughed Puck.
"Mercedes?"
"Girl...you know damn well I think it's a good idea. What do you want us to do?"
Before Quinn could answer, Santana and Brittany were back with Rachel and Jade.
"There you guys are, what were you doing", asked Quinn, her eyes narrowing slightly.
"Jade's hiding a bottle of Captain Morgan Tattoo in the office...", laughed Santana.
"Yeah, Rachel's been taking her back there so she could drink it", Brittany chimed in.
"S, that isn't funny, she's not supposed to be drinking", said Quinn, giving Rachel a disapproving look.
"Don't be upset, that's why I've been going back there with her...to make sure she doesn't take it too far. It's fine...look at her, she's fine", defended he tiny girl. At that moment, all attention went to Jade, who wasn't rally tuned into the conversation. She was too busy doing something on her phone.
"It's okay", said Jonah."...she deserves to drink tonight."
"Yeah, she does...she has to go back to the stupid hospital tomorrow", said Mercedes.
"Alright, alright...I get it. I'm over it", said Quinn."...Mercedes, let's here your news!"
"Oh yeah! Yeah! Oh my God...okay, so you guys know how I've been working my diva ass off at the record company, right?"
Everybody nodded.
"Well, it paid off this morning! My boss left the room, or at least I thought she had left the damn room. So, I threw my headphones on, started jammin' out to a little bit a Beyonce...got carried away, you know how it goes...", she laughed, and they all giggled."...well she came back in the room, and I didn't even know. So I just finished the song. When it was over, she tapped me on the shoulder, damn near had a heart attack! She seemed really impressed, right...so she starts askin' me about how long I've been singing, and how much dedication I have towards music. Long story short...".
"Too late", said Puck and Jonah, in unison.
"Shut up! She's giving me studio time! I get to record some covers, and if she likes those, she said she'd help me get out there!"
"Whoa, baby, are you serious", asked Jonah.
"Diva", hollered Santana, dramatically.
The group started celebrating, cheering, and taking turns hugging Mercedes.
"What the crap, that's amazingness", said Jade."...now I understand why you had to come late!"
"Yes, that is exactly why", laughed Mercedes.
"I'm so proud of you", said Rachel."Is there any dates set for when you get to record?"
"Not yet, but that doesn't even matter, as long as the promise was made. And it was made, so I'm so damn happy! Let's do some shots!"
"Hell yes, let's do the shots! I never want to make this many Birthday Cake shots again", said Puck.
"Wait, why are they called Birthday Cake shots",asked Brittany, they all laughed a little.
"Don't worry, Britts, you'll know why after you take it", said Santana.
After they shots were gone, and the private celebration was over, Puck was back on stage. He was singing, and playing his guitar. After Alyson had left, and Jade was gone, their band was at a bit of a loss. So, Puck took over temporary, and it worked out for everybody.
Puck-
Well I met an old man
dying on a train.
No more destination
no more pain.
Well he said
"one thing, before I graduate...
never let your fear decide your fate."
I say ya kill your heroes and
fly, fly, baby don't cry.
No need to worry cause
everybody will die.
Every day we just
go, go, baby don't go.
Don't you worry we
love you more than you know.
Well the sun one day will
leave us all behind.
Unexplainable sightings
in the sky.
Well I hate to be
the one to ruin the night.
Right before your, right before your eyes.
I say ya kill your heroes and
fly, fly, baby don't cry.
No need to worry cause
everybody will die.
Every day we just
go, go, baby don't go.
Don't you worry we
love you more than you know.
As he sang, of course everybody danced, and partied on as usual. The cloud of happiness that had settled over the bar seemed to be effecting every person inside of the building. Rachel and Jade were all over the dance floor, dancing with random people. Quinn, Santana, Brittany and Mercedes were sitting at a table, drinks in front of them, watching Rachel and Jade bounce around.
"God...it's so good to see Jade out of that damn hospital...", said Mercedes."Look at that girl...she's so happy to be here."
"I know, it's a shame she has to go back tomorrow", said Quinn, sadly.
"Well, from what Jonah told me...she kinda' needs to go back. Sounds like whatever's goin' on is fairly serio-...Owe! Damn it!"
Mercedes was cut short by a foot to the shin. She shot a nasty look at Santana, who was already staring at her, wide eyed. It was obvious that Brittany wasn't supposed to know the nature of Jade's illness yet. Luckily, she wasn't paying very much attention to the conversation.
"Um...B...why don' you go dance with Rach, and Jade", suggested Quinn.
"Yeah, okay", said Brittany, cheerfully, and she shot up and ran onto the dance floor. Rachel saw her coming, ran, and jumped into her arms.
"Girl...what the Hell did you just kick me for, that hurt like a bitch", snapped Mercedes.
"Brittany doesn't know that something serious is happening to Jade. All she knows is that she's going back tomorrow. Sorry, I didn't mean to kick you so hard...", explained the Latina.
"It's okay, but now I'm confused. I thought that none of us know what's really going on?"
"We don't", said Quinn."But...regardless, even if Brittany knows it's bad, she will not handle it well."
"Fair enough, but once we all find out, Britt will know too, right?"
"Yeah, but I figured it might be easier for her to find out when the rest of us do. Better than having her freaking the fuck out about what it might be...", said Santana, taking a huge gulp of her drink.
"Exactly, just like the rest of us are. I wish Mindy would have just come here tonight, it would have been nice if she could have seen Jade having such a good time. I have to admit, I had a hidden agenda when I asked to come here. I thought maybe if she drank with us, she might loosen up, and spill some of the details about whatever's going on", said Quinn, a tiny bit of guilt in her tone.
Santana let out a small laugh, she loved her friend's diabolical little mind.
"Plus, she told Rachel and I that we remind her of her and her wife, I could have asked her about married life."
"Speaking of which...what did you want our help with", asked Mercedes.
Jonah came over with a beer, and sat down next to Mercedes. He kissed her on the cheek, and draped his arm over her shoulders.
"Good timing, Jonah. Brittany gave me a really good idea of how to propose to Rachel, and I actually love it", said Quinn, finishing her drink. Santana just smirked and shook her head."You know that amazing painting you guys did on Jade's bedroom ceiling?"
"Yeah, that shit is epic, I'm super happy with out that turned out", said Jonah.
"Oh my god, epic doesn't bring it to justice, you guys did amazingly with that", exclaimed Quinn.
"Jade's gonna' cry her eyes out when she sees that", said Santana.
"So, what's that have to do with...Oooohhhhhhhhh", laughed Mercedes."...that is a good idea!"
"What are you thinking, like painting Will You Marry Me on her bedroom ceiling", asked Jonah.
"Yeah, but trust me, that's just the beginning. This is Rachel Berry we're talking about, this proposal needs to be special", said Quinn."As if she would have it any other way...".
"Go big, or get to steppin", laughed Mercedes.
"So, I was kind of thinking after we get Jade back to the hospital tomorrow, I could convince Rach into hanging back with her for a little while. That way, we could go back to the apartment, plan it out, and get it painted. Did you guys have any plans tomorrow", asked Quinn.
"Uh, no I'm free", said Jonah.
"Me too, I have the day off", said Mercedes.
"I'm free, but I'll probably stay at the hospital for a while. Britts will want to stay too, but, this was her idea so maybe I could talk her into going to help you guys", said Santana.
"Okay, that's fine. Hopefully Puck doesn't have any guitar lessons to give tomorrow", said Quinn, as she thought things over.
"Wait, the paint won't be dry until later on at night. How can we keep Rachel out of her room for that long", asked Mercedes.
"Don't worry, I think I know what to do about that", answered Quinn, with a smile on her face.
At around two o'clock in the morning, things started winding down. Lots of people had left, and everybody was half drunk, and tired. Jonah, and Mercedes had already gone, and Puck was on his out with some other random people. One being a girl he had met that night, so none if his friends expected to see him until the next day. Quinn, Santana, and Brittany sat at the bar, waiting on Rachel and Jade to come from the office. Rachel eventually wandered out by herself, having changed out of her shorts into a pair of jeans. She walked over the bar, put her stuff, and an empty Captain Morgan bottle, on the bar top.
"Oh God...she drank the whole thing", asked Quinn, in shock."Rachel...she wasn't supposed to drink anything, much less, an entire bottle of rum!"
"Don't worry, she's standing on her own, in a mellow mood. She'll be out in a second, she's simply changing into a pair of pants", said Rachel.
"That's a small bottle, if it would have been one of the bigger ones, than we might of had a problem", laughed Santana."I mean, yeah she's been taking shots all night, but not that many, it's seriously alright,Q."
"Are you sure? She's in a really weird mood...", said Quinn."She's been avoiding us half the night...or least the two of you...".
Santana and Brittany looked at each other, and smirked.
"Oh no...what is it", asked the tiny brunette, a suspicious smile spreading onto her lips.
"Well, we have some...plans...for Jade once we get back home tonight", answered Santana.
"Yeah...sexy plans", giggled Brittany.
"Oh, I see", said Quinn, looking to her lap, trying not to smile. She was only hiding her amusement because she knew Rachel was about to say a few words.
More than a few words.
"You guys...be careful. I get it, you are the two horniest people on the face of this planet. In fact, I'm fairly certain that if you were stuck on an island together for the rest of your lives, boredom would never be an issue. However, you guys are dating Jade...Jade who's never actually had consensual sex before...so seriously...you need to be very, very, very careful...".
"Oh my God", laughed Quinn, unable to hold it back any longer.
"Tiny, we know, we're not about to make her do anything she doesn't wanna' do", said Santana."You really think we'd ever hurt her like that?"
"Yeah Rachey, don't you trust us", asked Brittany, sadly.
"I do trust you, both of. I'm just...a little freaked out, I'm sorry", breathed Rachel.
"Don't worry, we'll take care of her", smiled Santana."Real good care...".
"Okay, stop", laughed Quinn."Thank God I'm not sleeping at home tonight."
"Why do you say that, Alice?"
They all looked, and there was Jade walking from the back.
"No, reason...".
"Oh, do you think I drank too much? I swear, I'm not gonna' throw up later...I'm fine", said Jade, sweetly.
"Well I know that, Britts and Tiny know that, but Quinn's still all pissed off because she told Mindy that we wouldn't let you drink. It seems we've turned her into a big fat liar", said Santana, rolling her eyes.
"Would you stop", sneered Quinn."I'm concerned."
"Here, let's prove that you're okay, shall we, bestie", asked Rachel, and Jade nodded.
"I'll give you some lyrics, but don't just translate them. Make them a polite as you possibly can, okay?"
"Bring it on, Rea Rea."
"Teach me how to dougie."
"Please, instruct me on how to do the Douglas", answered the darker girl, barely having to think about it.
"Holy shit", said Santana, bursting into laughter.
"Oh my God adorable", said Brittany, sticking her bottom lip out a little.
"See, Quinn? She's at the top of her game", said Rachel.
Jade smiled a her friends, and girlfriends. It was a true smile, unlike her facial expression an hour later, when she found herself in Santana's bed.
She was comfortably seated in between Brittany's legs, leaning against her. Santana kneeling in front of her. All three of them were wearing nothing but their panties, and poor Jade was already overwhelmed by Brittany's hands on her breasts. She was softly squeezing them, lightly pinching her nipples a little. It felt good. So good that she wasn't really sure how to handle it. She let out a slow, shaky breath, as she felt the blond's tongue on her neck, and on her jaw. Santana was leaning in closer, and closer, but once their noses were touching, she stopped.
"Is this okay, Sweetness", she whispered.
Jade couldn't do anything but nod a little, and the Latina smiled reassuringly, before closing the gap between them, and pressing her lips onto Jade's. As she kissed her, she caressed Jade's torso, softly, and lovingly. Brittany glanced down, watching as Santana's hands moved all over Jade's milk chocolate toned skin.
"Mmmmm", moaned Santana, as she broke the kiss."You're so soft...isn't she soft, Britts?"
"Yeah...she feels so good...", said Brittany, giving the girl's breasts a light squeeze."...Jade...you're so sexy...".
"Oh...God...", moaned Jade, as her body started to tremble slightly.
"It's okay...we're not gonna' hurt you...we just wanna' make you feel good...", said Santana."If we do anything that hurts you, just tell us, and we'll stop."
"We love you too much to hurt you baby", whispered Brittany, before she started kissing and sucking on her neck again. She couldn't help it, neither of them could. The two of them had been fantasizing about the very moment for so long, and it was finally happening. Santana was so turned on at the site. Brittany squeezing Jade's breasts, with her face buried into her neck. She couldn't help but move forward, and start kissing Jade once again. Only, she let her hands wander a little farther than before. She reached down, and started rubbing Jade's center over the top of her neon pink boy shorts. The minute she felt it, Jade's hips canted forward into Santana's hand, and Santana loved it. There were a million thoughts running through the darker girl's mind, but they seemed to be disappearing very slowly.
Oh God...what if it still hurts...no no no they won't hurt me. They won't make it hurt. What if I do something wrong, if they don't- Oh Jesus that feels so good...where is my mind...
Brittany had started rolling her hips into Jade from behind, and she was pinching her nipples in between her fingers. Santana broke the kiss once more, and looked right into Jade's eyes.
"I need to taste you...".
All Jade could do was moan. There was something about the way Santana was talking to her that made her feel so good. It didn't hurt that Brittany was still working her magic with her hands, and her tongue.
"Can you do something for me, Sweetness", asked Santana, as she slowly started to pull Jade's underwear down. Jade gave her a lazy nod, and let out another moan."...whatever you feel...just let go, and allow yourself to feel it. I promise you...", she continued, as she fully removed the underwear."...it's gonna' feel so good...".
"Like magic...", whispered Brittany, in between her kissing and sucking.
"Mmmmm", moaned Jade, as she reached back, and grabbed Brittany's neck from behind.
Santana smiled, and leaned down. Her kisses started in between Jade's breasts. She traveled down her stomach...licking inside of her belly button, and moving even further down. With one hand still on Brittany, Jade's other hand shot forward, and she latched onto Santana's back. The Latina could smell Jade's arousal, and it was driving her nuts. She wanted to tease the girl a little, but that didn't happen. The minute she laid eyes on Jade's wetness, she lost control. She licked the dark slit from bottom to top, and started to lick her clit with the very tip of her tongue. "Jeeeesus...".
She took in a sharp breath. She dug her nails into Santana's back, and started to moan continuously. Her hips shaking, her breathing getting faster and faster. Between Brittany's tongue and hands all over her breasts and neck, moving into her from behind, and Santana's tongue moving against her clit, she wasn't sure what to do. Before she knew it, she felt two fingers enter, moving in and out, the Latina's tongue, moving up and down. She felt like there were fireworks inside of her, she felt like crying. Santana had told her let herself feel so she did.
"Oh God...", she moaned, tears rolling down her cheeks. She whimpered softly, and Santana removed her mouth from Jade's center. She kept her fingers inside of Jade, but moved herself back up. She rested her forehead on the girl's, and used her other hand to caress her cheek.
"Why are you crying, baby...", she whispered."Am I hurting you...?"
She couldn't bare the thought of making her feel like Mika had made her feel. She could never forgive herself if that was the case. She had a feeling that her tears were good tears, but taking that chance wasn't an option. Regardless of all the dirty thoughts, regardless of how badly she wanted to fuck Jade senseless while Brittany watched, or just how much she wanted to see the Brittany on top of Jade making her see fireworks...she had to be sensitive to the situation. She refused to make Jade feel like her brother had made her feel.
"No...no...", she whimpered, softly.
"Than what's wrong...", whispered Brittany.
"I..I..I'm c-crying because...you're not hurting me...".
Santana smiled, and glanced at Brittany. She smiled back at her, and the both of them went back to what they were doing.
The next afternoon, Rachel's eyes shot open. She was freezing for some reason, and she knew that's what had woken her up. At first, she was groggy, and had no idea why the cold was effecting her so harshly. She than realized, she was totally naked, and none of the covers from her bed were covering her. She was half on top of naked Quinn, and goosebumps were covering her skin. She looked down at sleeping Quinn, and smiled, before she pulled the sheets and blankets over both of them. She glanced over at her clock that sat on the night stand.
1:14 PM.
"Oh god...", she whispered to herself, before rolling from her girlfriend's body, and stretching. Quinn started to sir a little, and her eyes opened.
"Afternoon, beautiful...", said Rachel, yawning.
"Oh wow...", yawned the blond."...afternoon...".
Rachel moved herself into Quinn, as happily accepted her embrace.
"Mmmmm...you're so warm...", she breathed.
"Yeah, and you're so cold...geez baby. Snuggle harder...", giggled Quinn, tiredly.
"That would be fantastic, I would gladly snuggle with you for the rest of the day. Unfortunately, we have to get up, and do things before we take Jade back to Hospital Hell."
"Yeah, I know", pouted the blond."Hopefully, her and Mindy will tell us what's going on."
"Do you think she'll be able to come back to Lima with us? My Mom is so excited to have Jade stay with her, I'd hate to just leave her behind. Especially during Christmas."
"I don't know, but something tells me that Mindy wouldn't dare make her stay behind for a holiday. All we can do is hope", answered Quinn, as she kissed Rachel on the forehead.
"I don't wanna' take her back to the hospital, Quinn."
"Of course you don't, none of us do, but what other option is there?"
"We could all move, and change our phone numbers. Legally change Jade's name, and hide", said Rachel, laughing a little.
"Yeah, we could do that, but it wouldn't make Jade's health any better."
"Who knows, maybe the magical cure is to keep her away from hospitals and doctors."
"Okay, I know that you're joking right now, but you have to stop doing that, Rach. Avoiding her issues, and how scared you are...it won't help the situation."
Rachel looked up at the blond, tears falling down her cheeks.
"I'm scared."
"I know."
"You're probably so tired of hearing me say that. I'm sorry."
"No, don't be sorry. I'm here for you for anything and everything", said Quinn, wiping her tiny girlfriend's tears away."I'll always be here."
"Always?"
"Always."
"Forever?"
"Longer."
Rachel smiled, and kissed Quinn softly. The kiss was cut short by a shiver shooting through Rachel's body.
"Oh my God, okay...come on", laughed Quinn."Shower time."
"That sounds amazing. Warm water, lavender body wash and...you", asked Rachel, with a cute smile on her face.
"Mmmmm...you read my mind", giggled Quinn.
A while later, the of them were showered, dressed, and walking into the living room, just in time to see Jade, Brittany and Santana walking in from outside.
"Ladies...", greeted Quinn.
"Hi Alice...hi Rea Rea", said Jade, tiredly.
"Soooo...how was you're night", asked Quinn, one eyebrow raised.
Jade just smiled shyly, and slipped passed Quinn and Rachel.
"Our night was awesome", exclaimed Brittany.
No shame.
"I bet...", laughed Rachel.
"Oh, we are so not talking about this with you guys...Britts, hush...", said Santana.
"Thank you, San", laughed Jade, as she headed down the hallway towards her bedroom.
"Oh my god", whispered Brittany."...she's going to her room."
They all scrambled to get down the hallway, and got to the door just as Jade was opening it. She walked in, and looked around. The girls all smiled, and watched as she looked at the fireworks above her bed, and the fort. She turned around, jaw dropped, tears in her eyes, and stared at the group.
No words.
"You like it, sweetie", asked Rachel.
"I...I...when...ho-...oh my God...", she choked out.
"Yeah, she likes it", squealed Brittany, jumping up and down and clapping her hands.
"You guys...".
"You're welcome", laughed Rachel."You have Puck, Mercedes, and Jonah to thank as well."
With nothing left to say, Jade moved forward and hugged each and every one of the girls. She couldn't say a word, all she could do was cry. As the hugging went on, all Santana could think about was how she would react to see the star machine.
Cardiac Arrest.
After Jade spent an hour in her room, she retreated to the rooftop, alone. The girls decided to give her some time before they left. While Brittany and Jade sat in Jade's fort, talking about random stuff, Quinn and Santana sat at the kitchen counter.
"So, in all seriousness...did anything...bad happen last night", asked Quinn, sincerely.
"No. It was actually...really amazing. She...cried."
"She did?"
"Yeah, because we made her feel good."
"Wow. Mission accomplished than", said Quinn, with a smile.
"What?
"Come on. I know, dating two girls isn't just about the sex for you, but this is you we're talking about. You and Brittany have both been waiting to...be with Jade in that very special way. Plus, you were scared about how it would go. So I mean have to assume it was...".
"Hot?"
"For lack of a better term, yeah."
"You assumed correctly", said Santana, with a devilish smile."...we didn't go to sleep until six o'clock this morning...".
"Okay, okay enough. I'm sorry I even asked", laughed Quinn."I'm happy it went well though."
"Yeah, Q...I'm happy for you too. Listen, I know I've been a total pain in the ass about you asking Rach to-"
"Shhhhh!"
"Shit...sorry. Well, about that...I really do want it to happen, I swear."
"So, why have you been being so negative about it?"
"I'm a little nervous, and you can't even blame me. You and her, you've been through so much and I just don't want to see anything else happen. There's been so much pain, so much drama, and I guess I'm a little scared that she might say no. Or that it might stir things up, and make you guys fight or something. Regardless...I'm sorry for all the shit I've been saying about it, and I know you guys are meant to be. You have my blessing, and you won't hear anymore doubt from me about it. I promise."
Quinn just smiled, leaned in, and hugged Santana tight.
Jade had been up on the roof for about twenty minutes by herself before Rachel decided to check on her. She was laying down on the blanket, eyes to the sky, taking deep breathes. She seemed content, but Rachel needed to be sure.
"Jade...", she said, as she approached her slowly."...you okay?"
"No, I'm not Rea Rea...but don't worry. I'll survive for the moment."
Rachel laid down next to her best friend, grabbed her hand, and held it.
"We have to leave for the hospital in about an hour, okay?"
"Okay", said Jade, sadly.
"I know you don't wanna' go back...and I don't want you to, but...we need to know what's going on, and I need you to get better", said Rachel, squeezing her hand tighter. They wouldn't look at each other. They both just laid on their backs staring up to the sky. Rachel knew that if she made eye contact with Jade, she would loose herself, and start to cry.
"Can I tell you something", asked Jade.
"Anything."
"I don't think I'll get better, ever. It hurts too much, and I can't fight it...".
"What hurts too much, sweetie?"
"Everything. My head...my tummy, my heart. It all just hurts. My body is on fire...all the time. I know it doesn't seem like it, but trust me...it always hurts. It's so bad that...I think it will be like that forever. I'm so tired Rea Rea...I just...wanna' sleep forever", cried Jade, keeping her eyes to the sky. Rachel squeezed her hand even tighter."...I know you don't understand, because you don't know what's wrong, but I promise you...it hurts a lot, and I can't handle it."
"Yes you can. It's like you just said...it doesn't seem like you're in as much pain as you just described. You're able to hide it most of the time. To me, that means you can handle it", said Rachel, holding back her tears.
"I'm sorry, bestie...", cried Jade, finally looking over at the girl."...I'm just so sorry for my pain and drama. I know I'm a handful, I know I'm a lot to put up with...and I swear to you...I promise I don't mean to be."
"It's okay, you don't have to be sorry. It's not your fault, and you know, you've been here for me through so much. No matter what...I'll be here for you too", cried Rachel. "You put up with so much from me...and for as long as I live, I will appreciate that, Jade. I'll never stop loving you...I'm only alive because of you. I'm here because of you, and Puck, and Jonah. You saved me, you're my best friend in the whole world, and no matter what you say no matter what you do, it won't change how I feel. I need you."
"You know you have somebody better than me now, right?"
"What?"
"If something happens to me...you have Quinn. She loves you so much Rachel, you have to know that...and you have to know that she would conquer the effing world for you, no questions asked."
"I do know that...but...that won't make loosing you any less painful. Damn it...", cried Rachel, as she sat up."...just tell me what's wrong? Why are you talking to me like you're gonna'...d-die?"
"Because...I want to die."
"Oh God...stop...please don't make the nightmares true...stop".
"I just want the pain to stop. There's a better world than this one...I just have to go find, you know? I just have to find it...", said Jade, through her tears. She seemed out of it, so Rachel couldn't bring all of her anger out. She was frustrated.
"Jade, please stop! I'm begging you...stop talking like this! I can't take it, I can't...", said Rachel, standing up."
"I'm sorry...I'm just...trying to be honest. You had them before you had me...and even if you don't want to believe it...that means something, Rachel. I know how morbid, and pathetic I must sound to you right now...and I'm sorry, I just wanna' be honest with you. I'm selfish for not being able to just deal with it...I know that. I'm so effing sorry...".
Rachel had so much that she wanted to say, but she couldn't bring herself to say it. She wanted her best friend to have some peace at that moment, so she calmed herself down.
"It's okay...I shouldn't...be...so pissed off, I shouldn't be yelling. I just love you, that's all...".
Jade just looked up at Rachel, and wiped some of her tears away. The smaller girl knelt down, and held her hand out, as if she was waiting for Jade to give her something.
"How did you know", asked Jade, calmly.
"Just give it to me, sweetie...please", she begged. Her voice was desperate, and there was no ignoring it. Jade reached into her hoodie pocket, pulled out a razor blade, and placed it in Rachel's hand.
"Thank you."
Jade just smiled a little, as Rachel leaned down and kissed her on the forehead.
"I'll leave you alone for now, but don't do anything dumb...and please...come inside soon. We should get going to the hospital", said Rachel, standing up.
"Alright, Rea Rea."
Rachel nodded, and hurried towards the stairs. She was moving so fast, she didn't even see Quinn waiting for her inside of the small room that lead to the roof top. She slammed right into her, and immediately tried moving passed her.
"Whoa whoa...what's wrong, sweetie", she asked, noticing how upset Rachel was.
"She had this on her, don't worry she didn't use it", cried Rachel, showing Quinn the razor blade.
"Shit", said Quinn, taking it from her, and pocketing it.
"She...she's in so much pain, Quinn. She just told me that she wants to die...".
"Oh God...", said Quinn, pulling Rachel into a hug."No...she shouldn't be saying things like that."
"I know, but just...look at her...just watch her...", said Rachel, moving away from Quinn, and peeking through the doorway. They could both see Jade laying there, her hands balled into fists, her eyes closed tightly. It was obvious that she was in physical pain, and trying to push through it on her own. It was also obvious that she was having more than just a little bit of trouble.
"We should take her in now", said Quinn, as she went to go onto the roof.
"No, Quinn, wait. Just...look at her...", said Rachel, grabbing onto her girlfriend."...just look...".
"I'm looking...this is heartbreaking...we have to get her to see Mindy", argued Quinn.
Rachel was sad. She knew Jade was hurting, and wished that she didn't want to die. However, she was starting to see what Jade was trying to tell her. She was starting to see the peace Jade would be at if she did just let go and pass on.
"God...she just wants to sleep", whispered Rachel."...she's so tired, and she just wants to sleep."
"Don't Rach...don't give into things like that", begged Quinn."She needs help...".
"You know that Sucker Punch movie she likes so much", asked Rachel, not taking her eyes away from Jade. She didn't seem to be paying much attention to the things being said to her.
"Yeah...".
"There's this song from the soundtrack. She's always listening to it...and...now I think I know why."
"Really?"
Rachel closed her eyes for a minute, and could hear the song, faintly in her head. She could hear the music, she could hear the lyrics. She had an overwhelming feeling inside of her, that Jade was hearing that very same song at that moment. She'd learned a lot from her, mainly that it was possible to feel for others, and sing what it was that they were feeling. That was exactly what Rachel wanted to do at the moment.
Rachel-
Sing me to sleep.
Sing me to sleep.
I'm tired and I...
I want to go to bed.
Sing me to sleep.
Sing me to sleep,
And then leave me alone.
Don't try to wake me in the morning,
'Cause I will be gone.
Don't feel bad for me,
I want you to know.
Deep in the cell of my heart...
I will feel so glad to go.
Sing me to sleep,
Sing me to sleep.
I don't want to wake up,
On my own anymore.
Sing to me...
Sing to me...
I don't want to wake up,
On my own anymore.
As Rachel sang, Quinn watched Jade. She could almost see just how hard she was trying to push everything away, and it was heartbreaking.
Don't feel bad for me,
I want you to know.
Deep in the cell of my heart...
I really want to go.
There is another world...
There is a better world.
Well, there must be..
There must be.
When Quinn was sure Rachel was done singing, she lightly grabbed her by the shoulders, and spun her around.
"Baby...I know Jade wants to sleep. I know she wants to sleep for a very long time...and I understand that you're trying to be sensitive to her pain...". Rachel nodded slowly."...but you can't give into the things she's telling you."
"What kind of person would I be if I didn't listen and be sensitive to the things my best friend is telling me, Quinn?"
"No, that's not what I'm saying. It's more than just okay that you're able to understand where she's coming from. You do listen to her, and you are sensitive to her feelings, but that can only go so far in this situation. She's sick, and out of her head, she needs help. At this point, I know Jade well enough to understand that she's out there, and says certain things that sound different to most people. She's different, she sees things that others don't, she hears things that people don't...she's special in one of the best ways possible. But...Rachel...this is different, even for her. She's stronger than this, she's better than this, and she needs help. Don't give up on her...".
Quinn wasn't trying to sound so harsh, but she saw her girlfriend's hope slipping away, and was willing to say whatever she felt like saying to prevent that from happening.
"Tell me how you feel about this, because believe it or not...that is important right now", said Quinn, cupping Rachel's face with her hands."Tell me, baby...".
"I want her to live...but without so much pain."
Quinn smiled warmly.
"Me too...that's what I want for her too."
Rachel nodded, and snuggled herself into Quinn without hesitation.
That evening, around five o'clock, Jonah, Rachel, Quinn, Santana, Brittany, and Jade piled into Mindy's office. It was a moment the entire crew had been dreading for hours, and it was happening whether they wanted it or not.
"It's amazing to see all of you here for her. Jade, you have a damn good support system here", said Mindy. Jade just smiled sadly, and nodded. Brittany, who was already sitting down, pulled Jade into her lap.
"Do you want me to explain it, or would you like to", asked Mindy.
"You...please", mumbled Jade.
"Okay, if that's what you want."
Mindy scanned the room once more before she started speaking. She knew it wasn't going to be easy, but it needed to be done.
"Alright. So, here it is you guys, I will try to explain this in a way that's easy for all of you to understand. Jade's body is on the verge of shutting down. As you know, she has a habit of keeping most of her feelings all bottled up. Beleive it or not, that can cause more damage than most people realize. Given her childhood, her history with certain...situations, the fact that she rarely deals with things...her getting sick makes a little too much sense. She has a form of Post Traumatic Stress. Because of that, the anxiety, the depression, certain types of strain on her body, and the sleeping pills she was being poisoned with...to put it simply, her body has had enough."
It was silent for a minute. Nobody really knew what to say. They weren't expecting such a long explanation. Jonah was the first to break the silence.
"So...what does that mean exactly?"
"It means...".
Mindy knew she had to keep going, but it was hard with all eyes on her. She had to make it even more simple.
"Jade's body has been through too much, and some of her organs aren't functioning correctly as a result. The good news is, it can be dealt with."
"What's the bad news", asked Santana.
"I mean...she'll get better if dealt with properly, the issue is, it's not as common as it sounds...", Mindy rambled, nervously.
"What's the bad news", asked Santana, again.
"...I'll need her here a lot, but trust me when I say I will do everything I possibly can to-".
"Jesus", snapped Santana, causing everybody in the room to jump."...tell us what the bad news is!"
"Jade will be sick for the rest of her life."
"What", they all asked, in unison.
"No...", whined Brittany.
"Wait a minute, you just said this could be dealt with", said Rachel.
"Yes, it can be, but some of her problems will never really go away. As of now, I can maintain the illness, but...I'm sorry, you guys. I'm sorry Jade."
Jade just looked down to the floor. She'd heard all of it before, and it was just painful to be listening to it all over again. Not to mention, how upset everybody else was to hear it for the first time. She had to look down. Otherwise, she'd have to see the reactions of everybody in the room.
"I know how weird this must sound, at first it didn't make much sense to me either. But, I've been talking to other doctors, from other hospitals, even other cities, and states. It's very rare, but it's very real. The illness doesn't even have a name."
"God...illness...", said Rachel, as if it were a curse world."I really wish you wouldn't say that."
Jade stood from Brittany's lap, and tried to walk out of the office, but Jonah stepped in front of her.
"No, stop."
"Move, Jonah...please?"
"You're not running away from this."
"I wanna' go home...", she cried.
"You need help, you're staying here", he said, as if he sad the last say.
"Fine, I'll stay here...but let me out of this room, I can't take this room anymore...please", she begged, tears rolling down her face. She was starting to get a little bit panicked."Jonah...please", she whined, trying to get passed him again.
"Chill out", said Jonah, calmly."Just take a breath, would you?"
"Jonah, let her out, Britts, go with her", ordered Santana, and just like that Jade was out the door, and Brittany was following close behind.
"Get used to that", said Mindy.
"To what", asked Quinn.
"The panic."
"Dude...I can't even believe this, I feel like I'm having a really bad dream right now. So...my sister is gonna' be a panicked, depressed mess for the rest of her life", asked Jonah.
"No, don't think like that, Jonah", warned Mindy.
"What the Hell is he supposed to think", snapped Rachel."Do you not listen to yourself when you talk, what about everything that you just told us?"
"I'm going to do everything I can to help her, guys. I promise you that. I've already got some tests planned for later this week, but she will need to stay here to be monitored closely."
"This is complete bullshit, I can't do this right now", said Jonah, and he turned around and left the room. Without saying another word, Rachel got up and left with him. Santana, and Quinn were the only ones left sitting in front of Mindy's desk. Santana had been very quiet for a while, and Quinn's thoughts were all over the place.
"Well...go ahead...storm out. I'm sure you'd love to blame me for this too", said Mindy, taking her glasses off. She leaned back in her chair, and sighed.
"No, I don't blame you", said Quinn."It's just...hard to hear. I can't lie, I expected worse, but that doesn't make it any difference. This still sucks really bad."
Mindy nodded, and looked over at Santana. She was looking to the side, and making it a little too obvious that she was trying hard not to get too emotional.
"What about you, sweetheart...what are your feelings on this?"
Santana didn't say a word.
"Come on, S. I know...it's hard...", said Quinn, placing her hand on the Latina's lap.
"Fuck...", she whispered.
"This isn't a death sentence, Santana. I can fix this", said Mindy.
"I just...I don't get it. How can such a horrible thing happen to such an amazing girl", asked Santana, her voice breaking."She doesn't deserve this...".
"I know she doesn't. I mean, I hate to say this but...her having a miscarriage is actually what lead me to everything else. To be honest, she part of the reason she lost that baby was because of this right here. The thing is, new illness' and diseases pop up all the time. Why this fate chose Jade as a target, I don't know, but it's not fair. I get the anger, I understand why everybody is reacting so harshly towards me. That's where the whole, don't shoot the messenger part of my job comes in."
"She can beat it though", asked Quinn hopefully.
"Oh God yes, not just because I've been doing my homework, and know certain things that will help. Also, I know Jade well enough by now to have realized that she is stronger than she gives herself credit for. Again, this can be maintained.
"It's so screwed up, you know", said Santana, through her tears."We just got her away from all the bullshit, we just saved her from the nonsense, and now this? That girl isn't just strong, she's like fucking bionic, and has already put up with so much shit. Now you're saying that the pain, the puking, the weakness, that all permanent? That's so unfair. My parents are actually trying to wrap their minds around me having two girlfriends, they wanna' meet Jade, they wanted to spend time with her and get to know her. Now...this?"
"Don't you worry about that, your parents will get to know her", said Mindy."You really need to stay positive about this, because honestly, it will make all the difference in the world. Your parents will get to know her for sure."
"Well, that's the thing, you said she'd have to be here for tests and everything. We're all supposed to be going back to our hometown for the holidays", said Quinn.
"I would never keep Jade cooped up here for Christmas. She can go home with you guys for the vacation, as long as you can tell me she won't be going near that family of hers", said Mindy.
"No, she won't, neither of them will. Jade's staying with Rachel's Mom, and my Mom as well. Jonah's staying at Puck's...they aren't going near their parents", said Quinn.
"I can't lie to you, she'll be here a lot over the next few months. However...I need you guys to keep your heads up, we will work through this together. That girl means a lot to me, and so do all of you. I'll do whatever it takes to make sure Jade is alive and happy for a very long time. You can trust that."
"Thank you", said Quinn.
"Yeah...thanks...", said Santana, wiping her face.
"Santana, you should probably go and find her, you look like you need to talk to her", said Mindy, with a warm smile.
"Yeah...yeah, okay...", said Santana."I'll be back in a few."
With that, she stood up, and left the room.
"Quinn, I need you to stay a minute, there is something I need to talk to you about."
"Okay...".
"My wife, Amy...she had a Jade in her life once upon a time. Her name was Kayla...and she had a cancer. She was Amy's best friend long before I was ever in the picture. When she got sick, Amy took it hard...I mean she lost her mind. It damn near destroyed her when Kayla passed away", explained Mindy, sadly.
"I'm sorry to hear that, but why are you telling me this?"
"Rachel needs you right now. That's why I refuse to get frustrated with her for her anger towards me. I know this is very hard for her, but I've seen how you are with her. I know you love her a lot, and she loves you so much more. You need to do everything you can to be there for her in this time of crisis. I'm not saying she'll loose Jade for sure, but regardless...you need to be there for your girlfriend. I'm willing to bet that if this was happening to Santana, Rachel would be right there for you, no questions asked. Do you understand?"
"I do, and don't worry, I'm never leaving her. I'm actually...proposing to her tonight", said Quinn, her cheeks turning a pinkish color.
"Oh my God, are you", asked Mindy.
"Yeah, I've got the ring , and a plan. You were actually part of why I decided to ask her."
"How?"
"When you told us that we were cute together, and that we reminded you of you and your wife...it just made me feel so much better about asking her. Thank you for that."
"You're welcome. Marriage is a big thing, Quinn. Are you sure you're ready? Not that I doubt you, but you're younger, I just...have to ask."
"I'm ready. I mean, this is just the proposal. I'm sure we'll wait a while before we actually get married, but...I feel like it's the perfect time to ask, and I love her more than anything. So, this is the night. I'm asking her to be my wife tonight."
Mindy smiled, and nodded her head.
An hour later, Quinn, Brittany, and Jonah left the hospital, while Rachel and Santana stayed behind. Brittany didn't want to leave, but Santana knew she should, so she convinced her. Jonah needed to leave as well. He was angry, and confused about his sister, and being around her only made it worse. He wouldn't tell her that, of course, but it was the truth. The three of them were almost silent the entire way back, but they all had to process what was going on in their own personal way. Quinn was especially conflicted. Hearing about Jade's health situation only made her feel more compelled to making her proposal to Rachel that much more special. When they got back to the apartment, they headed straight towards Rachel's bedroom, to figure out how they were going to paint the ceiling.
"Weird, I thought Puck would have been back from his one night stand by now...", laughed Quinn.
"No, he was back before we left the hospital, but he passed right out in his bed. I guess he's still sleeping. But, Mercedes texted me, I thought she was already here...", said Jonah.
"It's way quiet in here though...", said Brittany, tiredly.
However, when they walked into Rachel's room, Puck and Mercedes were half done with one of the most beautiful murals to have eyes laid on it. Puck was standing on top of a ladder, paint brush in one hand, small can of Gold paint in the other. Mercedes was standing on Rachel's bed, putting tape into a corner. The entire room was covered in plastic tarps.
"Oh. My. God", said Quinn, looking up."You guys...".
"I know, I know we were supposed to talk about it, but Rachel's our girl...we know what she likes to look at", laughed Mercedes."We didn't really do anything towards the actual words, Will You Marry Me, yet. We just threw some background in so far. Don't be mad, because if we wouldn't have started, it never would have been dry by tonight."
"No no no no, I'm not mad at all, you guys are doing beautifully...", said Quinn, in amazement.
"Wow", said Brittany, her eyes glued to the ceiling."...look at all those gold stars...".
"Well, good timing getting back, we were just trying to figure out where we can put more gold stars...", said Puck.
"Alright, just hold up on the star you're working on, dude...the corners are screwy. Let me go change into some different clothes", said Jonah, as he left the room.
"Oh God, why is he so sad", asked Mercedes.
"Um...I'll have him explain that to you. We have some news...", said Quinn, sadly.
That night, around nine o'clock, Rachel got back from the hospital. She was tired, sad, and just wanted to go to sleep. Little did she know the surprises that were waiting for her when she walked through the door of her apartment. She walked in, and it was totally dark. Nobody had answered her texts or calls for the passed thirty minutes or so, and she was somewhat frustrated. As she walked into her apartment, she was surprised to see a very pretty, pale gold dress laid out for her in the kitchen. There were accessories, shoes, and a notice with the dress.
Rachel,
Don't move, don't think. Avoid your bedroom, don't question anything. Please put the dress on, and meet me on the rooftop.
-Quinn
Rachel smiled. The romance was meant so much to her, she couldn't help it. Ignoring her strong need to know why she was supposed to avoid her own bedroom, she decided to just listen, and stay away. She put her things down, and grabbed the dress. She looked at it, and wanted to cry. It was a short, little gold dress, one just perfect for her. The fact that Quinn wanted her to wear it made her so happy. She grabbed the bracelets, necklace, and shoes that were set out with the dress, and headed towards the bathroom. Minutes later, she was walking into the rooftop of the building, wearing her beautiful outfit, her mind filled with a million different thoughts. As she walked out into the roof, she smiled at what she saw before her. A perfect little picnic made for two. Lit candles, white roses, and some food. All beautifully laid out on a small table meant for two. Quinn was standing next to the table, in a little black dress. She looked absolutely gorgeous, and smiled as Rachel approached her, and wrapped her arms around her.
"Hi beautiful", Quinn said, lovingly.
"Hi...what is all this? Why are you so amazing", asked Rachel, laughing a little.
"It's been a long day...I just thought you might need something special", answered Quinn, as she extended her hand.
"Dance with me?"
Rachel smiled, and took Quinn's hand. The blond led her tiny girlfriend a few feet away from the table, and embraced her. How the music started, or where it came from, Rachel wasn't sure. It didn't matter, it was beautiful and romantic, and she knew exactly what song it was from the minute it had started to play. And when Quinn started to sing, Rachel wanted to cry.
Quinn-
What are you doing the rest of your life?
North and south and east and west of your life.
I have only one request of your life...
That you spend it all with me.
All the seasons and the times of your days,
All the nickels and the dimes of your days.
Let the reasons and the rhymes of your days...
All begin and end with me.
Quinn twirled Rachel a few times, and than pulled her back into her, closer than they had been before. She continued to sway and move back and forth, as she sang.
I want to see your face in every kind of light,
In fields of dawn and forests of the night.
And when you stand before the candles on a cake,
Oh, let me be the one to hear the silent wish you make.
Those tomorrows waiting deep in your eyes,
In the world of love you keep in your eyes.
I'll awaken what's asleep in your eyes,
It may take a kiss or two.
Through all of my life,
Summer winter spring and fall of my life,
All I ever will recall of my life...
Is all of my life with you.
By the time Quinn had finished the song, Rachel had a few tears running down her face. She looked up at Quinn with more love in her eyes than she had ever been willing to show. Quinn kissed her softly on the lips, and pulled her towards the table.
"You just sang Barbra for me...", said Rachel.
"Who else would I sing Barbra for?"
"You're too good to me. You have been few a few days, now."
"Oh my God...there is no such thing as being too good to you, Rachel."
"Why are you doing all of this for me tonight?
"I love you, and I think you deserve some special treatment in your life once in a while. Do you need any other reason?"
"Well, when you put it that way...no, I don't."
For the next hour, the two of them sat, and ate the the special vegan meal Quinn had set out for them. They talked about anything and everything. All the while, Quinn being nervous as ever about what she wanted to ask Rachel. Once they had finished eating, they talked even more, danced and snuggled under the stars. Rachel's sadness about Jade seemed to melt away, and she let herself drown in her emotions towards Quinn. She didn't even question why the boys weren't home, or where they might have been. After a while, the candles had burned down to almost nothing, and the two of them were getting cold, being on the rooftop.
"Not that I don't love being up here with you, but do you think we could go inside now? I'm getting cold", said Rachel. Quinn just smiled, and grabbed onto Rachel's hand. She pulled her towards the stairs, with an amazing amount of patience.
"Don't you want to clean all of this up, and take it down to the apartment", asked Rachel.
"That can wait until tomorrow, baby. I'll take care of it, don't worry", answered Quinn.
Once they were inside of the apartment, Rachel tried to head for her bedroom, but Quinn stopped her in the living room.
"No, you wait here for a minute. Don't move until I say, alright?"
Rachel was confused, but she smiled, and nodded. Quinn kissed her once more on the lips before going into Rachel's bedroom, and closing the door behind her. The blond silently thanked God that Rachel had actually listened, and stayed away from her bedroom. She walked to the night stand, and turned on the star machine that she had borrowed from Jade's bedroom. She looked up at the ceiling once more before closing her eyes, taking a deep breath, and moving just a few feet away from the door. It smelled like pink carnations thanks to Jonah raiding his sister's incense stash.
"Rachel...you can come in now, baby", she said, loud enough for the little diva to hear.
Rachel didn't know what to expect. Maybe Quinn laying on the bed, wearing something sexy. Or, maybe wearing nothing at all.
Quinn smiled as she listened to the footsteps, and the sound of the door opening. As Rachel stepped into the room, she gasped, and her attention was immediately on the ceiling. There were what seemed like thousands of gold stars, against a dark gray sky like background. Different music notes painted in black, clouds, butterflies, and colors. The detail, and the lights from the star machine would have taken her breath away on their own, had it not been for the sentence painted in fancy black letters right over her bed.
Will You Marry Me?
The minute she looked at Quinn, the blond was down on one knee, right in front of her. She grabbed her hands, held them right, and looked up.
"I know that...we've had our issues. I know how much I put you through, and I may never forgive myself for that. But...look at us now. You and me, Rach, we belong together. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, loving you, taking care of you making your dreams come true...making up for anything and everything I have ever put you through. You're beautiful to me, and if I didn't have you...I'd loose my mind. Please trust that, please trust me." She had tears rolling down her cheeks, and couldn't help but notice that Rachel did as well.
"...you are everything to me, and nothing will ever change that. You've made me feel so special, so that's what I will be doing to you for as long as it takes for you to understand, Rach. I will never let you go, because my heart has been beating for you for longer than even I'm able to know. I know this seems soon, I know that, but...I don't want to live without you. Will you let me be here for you, forever?"
"Awweeee...Quinn", she sobbed.
"Rachel Berry...will you be my wife", asked Quinn, as she pulled the ring box out, and opened it for Rachel to see. Rachel let even more tears fall, as she looked at the ring. Diamonds and Gold, being held to her by the love of her life. She knew exactly what she felt, and that it was time to just let it out.
"Yes."
"You will? You'll marry me", asked Quinn, looking up at her in shock.
"I'll marry you, Quinn", cried Rachel.
Quinn smiled side, stood up, and slipped the ring onto Rachel's finger. They kissed and held onto each other for the rest of the night. Quinn was still in shock that she had gotten the right answer. When they broke their kiss, Quinn looked directly into Rachel's eyes.
"Forever, right", she asked.
"Forever, and always, Quinn Fabray. Always."
Okay, wow...I'm super sad that this is the end, but as promised there will be a follow up story. You guys, seriously, from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU. You are the BEST readers I have ever had, and I hope this last chapter was loved. Took me a while, I know, but here it is. Please don't hold back on reviews, and feedback, because it's just fuel for me. Thank you so much for all your other reviews and feedback, and for being such an inspiration to me.
Songs-
"These Words" By: Natasha Beddingfeild/ Quinn
"Kill Your Heros" By: AWOLNATION/ Puck
"Asleep" By: Emily Browning/ Rachel
"What are you doing for the rest of your life" By: Barbra Streisand/ Quinn
Special thanks to ljam86 ... you know what you've done.
Again you guys, you're so damn awesome, and keep a look out for the next story! And if they're any songs you guys think I should use in the follow up, message me!