February 14, 1991

Olivia had spent almost her entire adolescence wishing she had a girlfriend, but never did she imagine her first girlfriend would be Jenny, the most popular girl in school. Jenny was a senior, captain of the varsity cheerleading squad, and the Class of 1991's vote for Most Desirable Girl. She could have had any guy or girl she wanted and she chose Olivia. Olivia felt like she was on cloud nine when Jenny asked her out. There was no romance involved and she didn't ask her in a special way, but Olivia felt as if she didn't have to. Jenny Jacobson had asked her out and Olivia felt as if that alone was a privilege.

Jenny and Olivia were practically inseparable, much to Alex's chagrin. What made matters worse for her is that they were always kissing and sneaking off for a quickie in the locker room or under the bleachers. Olivia was having sex almost every day and Alex had yet to make it to second base with Casey. Olivia knew that Alex was envious of her, but that was because she didn't know everything about her relationship with Jenny. All Alex knew was what Olivia wanted her to know.

She bragged about having sex with Jenny, but that was only to make Alex jealous. Just hours after she lost her virginity, she called Abbie and Alex and told them about it. They asked the expected questions: was going down on a girl gross, what did Jenny's body feel like, was it the greatest thing she had ever experienced, did she have an orgasm? Olivia excitedly answered all of their questions, but she really felt like crying. Losing her virginity wasn't what she had thought it would be. She expected a romantic evening filled with gentle caresses and tender moments, but what she really experienced was the total opposite. She wanted to lose her virginity to Jenny, just not at that moment. Olivia felt as if Jenny had forced her to have sex before she was ready. One night when they were making out, Jenny started undressing Olivia and every time Olivia said no or tried to stop her, Jenny would tell Olivia that she loved her and if Olivia loved her too then she would have sex with her. Although she wasn't ready, she gave in for fear of losing her girlfriend.

Having sex for the first time was painful for Olivia and she had no idea that it was possible to bleed. Instead of comforting her, Jenny was upset with Olivia for bleeding on her new sheets. Her mom had a feeling that Olivia had sex with Jenny, but Olivia felt so dirty and ashamed of herself that she didn't want to tell her mom even if it meant her mom could help her. She had always imagined losing her virginity to Alex, but now that the moment had passed, she decided to give up on ever making Alex her girl.

A couple of months after she lost her virginity, Olivia had a talk with Jenny about sex and Jenny apologized for what had happened. The apology was hardly sincere, but Olivia forgave her regardless. Their relationship had improved since then and Olivia had no idea whether it was because of her talk or because sex no longer hurt Olivia and she was no longer holding back.

"I hope you guys don't mind that I invited Jenny," Olivia said as they sat down at a booth at Sticky's, their favorite restaurant.

"Why would you do such a thing?" Alex asked.

"Because she's my girlfriend and it's Valentine's Day," Olivia pointed out. "It's not my fault Casey can't be here. She could have put you first and finished her science project sooner. Jenny has cheer practice and she's leaving early to be with me."

"Cheer practice," Alex scoffed. "What does she have to do while she's there? It's not like cheerleading is getting her anywhere. Although shaking her ass in public is great practice for her future career as a stripper."

"Jenny has the best moves," Olivia bragged. "And she uses them all on me. She gives me lap dances whenever I want."

"Baby," Jenny said as she stood next to their table. "Are you telling your friends what we do?"

"No," Olivia told her even though they both knew it was a lie.

"I don't care," Jenny insisted. "I just want my girl satisfied. You're so hot, Olivia. I can't wait to get you alone."

"You're not getting her alone," Alex pointed out. "She's playing Metroid with us after this."

"Oh, Four Eyes, I forgot you were even here," Jenny said to Alex even though she was looking at Olivia. "You're kind of just a backdrop, nothing worth paying attention to."

"Baby, don't say that to Alex," Olivia told Jenny, but Jenny wasn't paying attention. She started kissing Olivia and whispering things in her ear.

"Lex, you want to play some video games?" Abbie asked.

"Yeah," Alex said meekly. Abbie knew Alex hated being around Jenny, so she had to suggest something to do before Alex started crying in front of everyone.

"I'm sorry," Olivia mouthed to Alex as she left, but Alex wasn't paying attention to her anymore.

"I hate your loser friends," Jenny told Olivia once Alex and Abbie were out of sight. "I mean, Abbie is okay, but Four Eyes is a total loser. We all make fun of her because she's so weird. Don't you think she's weird?"

"She's my best friend," Olivia argued. "I don't think she's weird. I think she's—"

"Whatever," Jenny said and rolled her eyes at Olivia. "Let's get out of here. I want you all to myself."

After saying goodbye to her friends, Olivia got into the front seat of Jenny's car and headed over to her girlfriend's house. Unlike the other times they had sex, Jenny went above and beyond trying to create the perfect setting for Olivia. She lit candles all over the bathroom and ran a bath for the two of them. Olivia leaned against Jenny and Jenny wrapped her arms around Olivia's waist.

"Do you know why I asked you to be my girlfriend?" Jenny asked.

"Because you like me," Olivia teased.

"Not just that," Jenny said and kissed her on the cheek. "Every time I see you, my heart starts racing and all I want to do is be alone with you. I can't keep my hands off of you, Olivia. I've never felt like that about a girl before. Usually, they're the ones after me, but asking you out was the first time I'd ever put myself in the position where I could be rejected."

"I wouldn't have rejected you, Jenny. I had a crush on you long before you asked me out."

"I love you so much, Olivia."

"I love you, too."

"Be with me after graduation?" Jenny asked as she slipped her class ring on Olivia's finger. Olivia turned around so she could start kissing her girlfriend. A ring, yet another thing her girlfriend had given her that Alex's girlfriend hadn't.

"Of course I will," Olivia said in between kisses. "Jenny, I don't want you to leave for college in the fall."

"Baby, I'll be at Hudson. That's not far from here," Jenny told her as she looked into Olivia's eyes. "Plus, I'll be in the dorms. You can spend the night with me anytime you want."

"I'd love that so much, babe."

"And I'm still going to come back to see every one of your games," Jenny promised. "You know how much I love watching you play. There's something about the way your body moves. It's like playing that sport is something you're meant to do. Everyone looks at you when you play because they know you're so good and I just want to tell them all that you're my girlfriend and I'm so proud of you."

"I'm going to show you some moves right now," Olivia said as she started nibbling on Jenny's neck.

Three hours later, Jenny offered to drive Olivia home, but Olivia felt like walking. She lived a mile away from Jenny's house, but she had no intention of going home. She lovingly kissed her girlfriend, got out of bed, and put her clothes back on.

"Bye, baby," Olivia said and gave her another kiss. "I love you."

"I love you, too—so much."

"I love you more," Olivia told her.

After leaving Jenny's house, Olivia headed straight to Alex's. While she was walking over there, she wasn't sure if her intentions were to brag or to apologize for what Jenny had told her.

"Lex," Olivia said and pulled her in for a hug. "Can we go up to your room?"

When they sat down on Alex's bed, Olivia noticed that Alex was crying.

"You smell like Jenny's perfume," Alex pointed out as she cried into Olivia's shoulder.

"She's my girlfriend, Alex, and I do things with her, so it's only normal that I do smell like her perfume."

"Did you have sex with her?" Alex asked.

"I didn't come here to talk about that," Olivia told her. "I came here to apologize for what Jenny said."

"I don't care what she says to me," Alex admitted. "I care about what she does to you."

"She only does good things to me," Olivia said, trying to spare Alex the details.

"So, you did have sex with her?"

"Alex, she's my girlfriend and it's Valentine's Day. Of course I had sex with her. You have a girlfriend, too, Alex. I'm sure you and Casey are going to have sex with each other someday soon."

"I don't care," Alex said sadly. "I hate Jenny so much, Olivia. More than you'll ever know. And now I see that ring on your finger. It's like she owns you. She hurt you the first time the two of you had sex and she didn't even care. I would have cared, Liv. I shouldn't be feeling this way because I have a girlfriend and I love her, but I love you, too. I should have been the one you lost your virginity to. I would have held you afterward. I would have kissed you. I would have done anything to make you feel as if what you gave me was so special because it is special, Olivia. It's something you shouldn't have given to Jenny. You should have asked me out in the seventh grade and then it would have been something we gave each other."

"You could have asked me out, too, Alex," Olivia told her. "Why did it have to be me?"

"I think you should leave now, Olivia."

"Okay," Olivia told her, not wanting to argue with her best friend.

Olivia walked home as fast as she could. The whole time, she thought about Alex and she thought about Jenny and she wondered when or if her life was ever going to be uncomplicated.