Answer to Pance: 'Yes, poor Sakura :( (And yes, Kakashi is suppose to love her and still does, hopefully) Kakashi is just human and everyone react differently with this kind of things. In Kakashis case he was (what I believed he would do) taking this news very bad, due to (what I think) his childhood. Yes, shame on him...!'

( Disclaimer: I Don't own NARUTO! They belong to His Highness Masashi Kishimoto! )

Chapter Two - Not Meant To Be

The silver haired Jounin walked the street of Konoha, with his hands in his pockets. Suddenly he felt the rain pour down.

People began to run in to the shops to avoid the pouring rain, but the silver haired Jounin didn't mind the rain. He had always liked the rain, somehow.

Suddenly he stopped and glanced at a little lonely boy on the street and he was crying. Had that boy get lost from his parents?

"Ichirou!"

The silver haired Jounin watched how a man (possibly the boys father) embraced the boy and walked away with him.

The Jounin sighed and began to walk again. The rain was still pouring down. He had forgot why he was walking the street.

`Ah! That's right... Naruto told me to came to the office after my training with Sakura was over...´

He suddenly felt a knot in his stomach just by thinking of that pink haired Kunoichi. He had just left her all alone on the training ground.

`I'm such a dork... I could at least watched her until she had walked home...´

Then he suddenly remembered why he had left her all alone.

She had told him that she was pregnant.

It had shocked him. But the thing that had shocked him more was that she had told him that he probably was her childs father.

`I can't be a father... It doesn't lay in my nature to be one... I'm a cold hearted bastard, who only care for myself... And my own interest... My interest...´

One interest was that pink haired Kunoichi and he has just told the woman he loved to fuck off.

`What a nice friend I'm... She told me something that was obviously bothering her and I acted like a big asshole, when I probably should have support her... Well, what's done can't be undone...´

The silver haired Jounin reached the Hokages office and knocked on the door and entered stright afterwards.

"You are late, Kakashi-Sensei..." the blond haired Hokage said and narrowed his blue eyes at the silver haired Jounin.

"Warui Warui... But my sparring with Sakura took a bit longer then expected..." Kakashi said.

"Is that why you are wet?" Naruto asked. Kakashi shrugged. "You shouldn't walk around in the rain... You can catch a cold... Anyway, I have got the ANBU reports about Sakura-Chan..."

"That went fast...And...?" Kakashi said.

"She got accepted..." Naruto told him shortly.

"That's good to hear..." Kakashi looked at the Hokage.

`Now I have a reason to avoid her as much as possible...´

"If that was all, can I go now?" Kakashi asked.

"Not quite yet..." the Hokage told him. "I only have one more thing to tell you..."

Kakashi gave the Hokage a short glance. This couldn't be good.

"You have got all friendly with her so I thought it was only fitting..." the Hokage began.

"So?" Kakashi said and he started to see were this was heading.

"I want you to supervise her ANBU training..." the Hokage said and Kakashi bite the inside of his cheek.

"Naruto, I understand that you want me to supervise her training, but I think that maybe Sai or Yamato would be more fitting..." Kakashi told Naruto who frowned.

"Why is that? It looked like Sakura finally was getting along with you... So why do you think Sai or Yamato-Taichou would be more fitting for her?" Naruto asked Kakashi, who sighed.

"She only was getting along with me due to the mission... She still treats me like I was a totally a pain in the ass." Kakashi said and Naruto rolled his eyes.

"That doesn't explain why she asked you to spar with her..." Naruto said.

"She didn't ask... I offered her my service to her and she accepted it..." Kakashi glanced at Naruto with his droopy eye. "You know how she is... She still want to be stronger..."

"And you are strong, Sensei... That's why you are the perfect piece in the puzzle..." Naruto told him.

`Kuso*! He throwed my own words back to me... So like Minato-Sensei...´

"Fine... Do as you wish..." Kakashi mumbled. "But if she began to complain, she is all yours..."

Kakashi turned on the heal and began to walk towards the door.

"Have something happen between the two of you?" Naruto suddenly asked.

"No, why do you ask...?"

"You only walkaway when something is bothering you..." Naruto said with a smug look on his face. "And you didn't want to train her, that was quite obvious... So I ask you again, did something happen between the two of you...?"

Kakashi glanced at Naruto.

"No... Nothing at all..." Kakashi told him.

"Good... You can began to train her tomorrow..." Naruto said and watched how Kakashi walked out of the room, waving his hand at him and closed the door behind him.

Naruto frowned. Something was definitely troubling Kakashi. But right know Naruto hadn't a clue what it could be.

~oOo~

It had began to rain heavily and the ebony haired Shinobi from former Root walked back to the village, when he saw a pink haired woman sitting in the grass facing the river.

It looked like she had been sitting there for a long time, because she was soaked to the bone. He stopped.

"Sakura...?" he asked the woman and began to walk towards her.

The woman didn't respond. The ebony haired Shinobi stopped beside the woman and looked down to her.

"Sakura? Has something happen? You look like you have been crying... Have you?" he said and crouched down beside the woman. "You know that you can tell me..."

The woman stroke away some tears from her cheeks and he putted an arm around her shoulders.

"Do you want to talk about it, Sakura...?" he asked and she nodded faintly. "So, what happened? Didn't you and Kakashi-Senpai have sparring toghter today?" She nodded again. "What happened then? And where is he...?"

"He left..." Sakura told the ebony haired Shinobi between the sobs.

"Why?"

"We... We had a fight..." she mumbled and he looked quite suprised.

"You had a fight... About what?" he asked.

"About what you and I talked about yesterday, Sai..." she told him. "He wasn't quite happy about it..."

Sai looked even more suprised then before. He had never believed that Kakashi-Senpai would have told her anything that could have hurt her. But maybe he had been wrong.

"Why was he angry? Was it about you being pregnant or that you didn't knew who the father is...?" Sai asked.

"I don't know..." she lied. "He was probably just shocked to hear it and... And he didn't know how to react..."

Sai raised an eyebrow.

"Kakashi-Senpai cares for you, like he care for Naruto as well. He was probably protecting you from something he believed you can't handle... That's was maybe why he was angry with you... But that doesn't sound like him at all..." Sai mused. "You must have said something that upseted him pretty much..."

Sakura frowned and bit her lip nervously and she shrugged her shoulder. Sai glanced at her.

"Come, I will walk you home..." he said to her and almost dragged her up from the grass. "We will change your clothes and I will make you some tea... After that we can talk..."

Sakura looked at Sai with her emerald eyes. She had never thought that Sai actually would be there for her. Naruto had always been that person by her side to pick up the pieces, now it was Sai. Things had really change.

When Sai had asked Sakura to open the door to her home, he walked with her in to the bedroom and putted her to the bed.

"Put on some dry clothes and I will see you in the kitchen..." Sai said to her and left the room.

Sakura began to drage off the soaking wet top and then the shorts and then the panties followed. She unwrapped her bindings that covered her breast and then she beagn to dress herself in dry panties, a black sweatpants and a way too big black sweatshirt. She walked out of the bedroom and entered the kitchen, there Sai just had took out two tea cups from the cupboard.

Sakura sat herself down in one of the four chaires and sighed deeply.

"You don't have to stay, Sai..." she told him.

"Naruto have taught me to not abandon my friends when they are in need of some console..." Sai smiled and poured the hot tea in the two cups. "It's okay with Kukicha*, I couldn't find anything else..."

She nodded and putted her chin in her palms.

"You are hidding something from me, aren't you, Sakura...?" Sai suddenly asked her and she looked at him. "You do know who the father is and that is maybe why Kakashi-Senpai was upset with you..."

Sakura looked down to the cup Sai gave her and she sighed again.

"Aaa... I think I know who it is... But I'm still not sure..." Sakura mumbled to Sai, who sat on the chair opposite of her.

"So, did you had sex with Kakashi-Senpai...?" Sai said as if that was the naturally thing on earth and Sakura burned herself on the tea. "Careful it's hot... I was right, you did have it with him..."

`Damn you Sai! Why must you be so freaking observant...!´

"What if I did...?" she mumbled. "Are you going to tell the elders that we did it..." Sakura glanced at Sai, who sipped on his tea.

"Who you have sex with is none of my business..." Sai told her and placed the tea cup on the table. "I'm more curious why you had it with him. He is after all your Sensei..."

Sakura looked ashamed down to the table. Sai had been right. He was her Sensei, they wasn't suppose to be that intimate with each other.

"You haven't figur that he maybe took advantage of you...?" Sai suddenly said. "I mean, you have been a bit lonely and he is a smooth talker after all... He knows how to get what he wants..."

"Don't... Don't say thinks like that about Kakashi-Sensei... He didn't take advantage of me... We did it on my terms, not his..." Sakura told Sai. "I was a virgin, before I got raped... Kakashi helped me with feeling more comfortable about making love, I was greatful for that..."

Sai looked at Sakura and raised an eyebrow at her. In his ears it almost sounded that she cared for her Sensei. Well not really care, it's was more like she loved him. It worried Sai a bit. What he had heard from his fellow ANBU, Kakashi did always thought of his team mates and every move they made was always for the safty of the team. But Kakashi wasn't the man who would 'bond' with anyone. Why, none did really know.

But Sai was sure of one thing. Kakashi had began to cut his bonds between himself and Sakura, hurting Sakura in away Sasuke had hurt her.

"Why do you care for him?" Sai asked her and Sakura looked at him. "He was the one that hurted you... And I thought you hated him..."

"And I do hate him..." she mumbled. "But a part of me will always care for him... But after today, I think that little part have vanish as well..."

Sai sighed and watched how Sakura began to brake down in faint sobs again. He raised from the chair and walked towards Sakura and did something he only had read in books, he hugged her. He hugged her like some one would hug their lover.

"Stay with me..." Sakura mumbled in to his chest and Sai nodded softly.

"...I will..."

~oOo~

Kakashi entered his apartment and closed the front door behind him. He dragged off his sandels and he unzipped his Chuunin vest and throwed it in the sofa while walking towards the window in the living room and pressed his forehead to the window glass.

The darkness was hanging over the Shinobi village of Konoha and the rain was pattering against the window. He closed his eye and sighed deeply.

What he had done towards Sakura was unforgivable, he knew that. And Sakura was probably at home by now, cursing him for being the dork he was. He couldn't blame her for that. If she wanted to use him as a punching bag right now, she was welcome to do so.

"What should I do know...? I will just fuck it up even more if I walk home to her and tell her what I feel about this..." he muttred to his reflection on the window glass. "Because I will just lie to her about my feelings anyway... I'm just a simple fraud..."

Kakashi could see her hurt looking emerald eyes through his closed eyes. He began to regret what he had told her back then. It hit him now that she maybe only wanted some one to talk to about this and now when both of them had began to get closer to each other, he had probably the one she had began to trust much enough to tell him such a thing. But now he had been the one who had broken that trust and even bond.

"I need a drink..." he mumbled and removed his forehead from the window and walked towards the kitchen and began to look for some saké.

It had been some time since he had been drinking just to forget how messy his life was. Last time it had been over Sakura as well.

~oOo~

A brown haired man rolled up the scroll and putted it down to the kitchen table. He yawn and dragged his hand through his brown hair.

He looked at the clock on the kitchen wall and sighed. It was already 23:58 and he was not suprised that he was tired. Suddenly a loudly banging on the front door could be heard and the brown haired man frowned.

"Why an I not suprised..." he growled and raised from the kitchen chair and walked towards the door and burst it open. "Genma! If you don't drag your ass away from me, I will bind you with a wood rope and push you down the... SENPAI?"

"Do you really talk to... to your friend like that... Tenzou...?" a silver haired Jounin hiccup and leaned on to the doorframe.

"Why are you here? You know that I don't like when you are here drunk... Last time didn't end well... And it's Yamato not Tenzou..." the brown haired man Yamato said to the silver haired Jounin, who walked in to the apartment. "And I didn't say you could enter my home either, Kakashi..."

"I'm your friend Yamato.... And I need to talk to a friend right now..." Kakashi mumbled and dragged himself to the sofa and crashed down on it.

"At least you could take off your sandels before walking in to the living room..." Yamato growled and his eyebrow twisted dangerously. "And even if you are a friend, I don't appreciate when my friends descend my own home..."

Kakashi just glared at him in a drunk way and Yamato sighed.

"I guess when you are here, what do you want?" Yamato said leaning on the wall.

"Naruto told me that Sakura got accapted to ANBU and I will be her supervisor in her ANBU traning..." Kakashi sighed and rolled on to his back.

"So? What's so bad about that? You two seems to get along pretty well nowadays..." Yamato said and glanced at the opposite wall.

"We did... But she is a bit angry with me... now..." Kakashi mumbled.

"And why is that?"

"Something I said upset her..." Kakashi said and shortly and Yamato raised his eyebrows.

"Something you said...? And what did you say this time?" Yamato asked and Kakashi shrugged. "If you don't tell me, you can forget that I will help you..."

"Fine..." Kakashi grunted. "Sakura told me that her friend got pregnant and she asked me for advise, but I'm not the type to give advise to such things like that... So I told her to find some one else and then I left..."

Yamato glanced at Kakashi who was glaring at the ceiling.

"Do you know what I think... I think that Sakura is that friend of hers and you didn't know how to handel the situation, so you left her to deal with it herself..." Yamato said to Kakashi who looked suprised at him in a drunken sort of way. "You know as well as I do, that you are terrible lier and you are even worse when you are drunk..."

Kakashi closed his visible eye and Yamato could hear him mutter something. Yamato sighed.

"What did you really do to her if she is that upset, that even you are avoiding her...?" Yamato asked Kakashi who sighed.

"I told her to not get near me..." Kakashi mumbled.

"You told her to fuck off? Is that what you are telling me...?"

"Not literally fuck off, more like please-leave-me-out-of-this..." Kakashi told Yamato and heard how Yamato began to walk towards him.

"If she came to you to tell about what state she is in, shouldn't you be there to support her?" Yamato told Kakashi. "She came to you, not to Naruto, me or Sai... And you gave her the cold shoulder, when she needed you the most! How can you even call yourself her friend and even Sensei, when you left her like that?"

"You are sounding exactly like Naruto, when you talk like that..." Kakashi told Yamato, who gave him a look that told Kakashi to shut up.

"You are not taking this seriously! How can you be so laid back when you know that you have probably hurt her..." Yamato almost yelled to the silver haired Jounin in the sofa. "Are you going to do an 'Obito' all over again?"

Whit those words Kakashi glanced at Yamato who had sat himself on the oak coffee table. Yamato could see Kakashis regret in his dark grey eye.

"You should tell her that you are sorry..." Yamato told him. "She haven't done anything wrong, you are the one who did..."

Kakashi dragged his hands through his silver mess of hair and stared back to the ceiling. He couldn't face her. Not after what he had done and said to her.

"Call me a coward..." Kakashi muttred and Yamato frowned.

"Senpai, you can't avoid her your whole life... And you are even her ANBU 'capten'... You have to tell her that you are sorry, even if she maybe won't forgive you..." Yamato crossed his arms over his chest. "And I'm just curious... Who is the father to that child?"

"Who knows..." Kakashi said almost like he daydreamed.

"Didn't she tell you that...? But didn't she got raped by that guy you killed...?"

"Not what I know... She got rapped, but not during the mission..." Kakashi told Yamato, who raised an eyebrow and had a smug look on his face.

`Kuso*! I talk to much when I'm drunk...´

"Don't tell me, that you screwed her?" Yamato looked down to Kakashi with his black eyes. Kakashi didn't look back. "You did!"

"Well, she wanted to do it as well... It was not like I force her to anything..." Kakashi told him and Yamato sighed.

"So the main reason to why you walked away from her wasn't just because she told you that she was pregnant, it was also because she told you that you was the father..." Yamato mused and closed his eyes. "How can she be so sure? She could have been raped with out her knowleg and got pregnant that way..."

"She didn't get raped during the mission, I told you so... That bastered Shinkou didn't want to touch her, not after she had been intimate with another man... That other man was me..." Kakashi told Yamato and he felt how the alcohol slowly was leaving his body. "...We did it twice... Don't give me that look..."

"Twice? What was you thinking with? One time is bad, but two times..!" Yamato scold him and Yamatos face looked really scary in the dim lit living room. "She is for crying out loud, your freaking student!"

"Well, she isn't technically my student anymore..." Kakashi told Yamato who frowned.

"But you will always be hers Sensei! What if the elder find this out? They will not be happy to hear it..."

"They won't... As long as you don't tell them..." Kakashi said to Yamato.

"Well, I'm not a 'gossipmonger', but she can't hid it for long you know... Soon they will notice her growing stomach and they will be asking questions..." Yamato told Kakashi. "You know the laws, concider Kunoichis and 'unwanted' pregnancies..."

"I know the laws... But what can I do about it? And as long as they don't notice it, they can't do anything to her..." Kakashi sat himself up in the sofa. "And with that, it will be to late to do anything about it..."

"I guess you are right about that... Even if you are drunk..." Yamato mumbled. "And did I just hear you confess, that you actually want her to have your child..."

Kakashi frowned.

"Who said it was my child...?"

"You just did... Anyway, I will give you two choices, no actually three... First; You can choose to let her have this child and not be involved with her or her childs life. Second; Tell her to get rid of her unboarn child and take the consequence by just telling her that. Third; If you want her to keep the child you can support her in the way you can, even if it turns out to not be yours..." Yamato told him and Kakashi sighed. "So, what will you do?"

"Ma*, I think I will take a little walk... Need to clear my head..." Kakashi raised from the sofa a bit unsteady and headed to the front door. "Sorry to disturb you in the middle of the night... Jaane*..."

Kakashi closed the door behind him and Yamato looked at the door.

`Don't do anything stupid now, Senpai...´

~oOo~

After have walking (wobbling) around every where in Konoha in the middle of the night the silver haired Jounin know, he had made up his mind.

He would walk straight to Sakuras home and tell her what he really felt about this. She wouldn't forgive him right away, but hopefully she would began to talk to him again after he had explain everything to her.

The silver haired Jounin (who still was slightly intoxicated) wobbled down the street, towards the home of his pink haired ex-student Sakura. It was when he came closer to her home that he could hear some familiar voices.

"...Arigatou*..." a sweet female voice said.

"Anytime you want..." a male voice said to the woman.

And when the silver haired Jounin had the (two room and a kitchen) terraced house in his view, his heart sank.

What he saw made his drunken mind almost flip and his heart began to sink even deeper in to something dark and even familiar in his chest.

What he saw just right outside of Sakuras home, was two people hugging each other with an affection that only two lovers could show. The man had ebony black hair and the woman had soft pink hair.

At that moment the silver haired Jounin didn't know what to do. His mind told him to drag the 'intruder' from his woman, but in this drunken state he was in now he would probably just making a fool of himself. He was not fitted to start a fight, not with this much alcohol in his system (even if it had began to fade away from his system). And he wasn't the person who would walk stright towards them and tell the man to fuck off, he was more of the man who would biding his time and then unexpected give the 'prey' a living hell.

The only things that bugged him was why Sakura was hugging Sai in that way and why Sai was with her this late? What he could tell the clock must have been around two or something like that. It was really suspicious, he thought.

He watched how Sai stopped hugging her and smiled in the way he always did, holding his hand on her shoulder.

"You can come when you ever want..." Sai told her and leand forward and kissed her forehead. Sakura blushed slighly and then she smiled faintly.

"I now... See you, Sai..." Sakura said to him and he began to walk away and Sakura closed the front door behind her.

What had he just witness? Had Sakura and Sai alway been like that? Had he been to blind to not see if Sakura and Sai dated? But if they had dated, she would have told him that, wouldn't she?

The silver haird Jounin sighed and lean against a big maple beside him.

`Why couldn't I see that before? Are you really that stupid, Kakashi?´

That silver haired Jounin Kakashi clenched his jaw and slammed his fist above his head in to the trunk of the maple.

"Kuso*..." he growled, trying to think clearly but failed.

Why did it felt like his heart just had been stabbed with a dull Kunai? And why had it hurt when he had seen Sakura hugging Sai?

It wasn't like she had 'cheated' on him, she was free to do what ever she wanted to do. But still it had hurt to she her hugging another man like that. And he remebered that he had made her seal to not activate for his own selfish need to have her all for himself. He was starting to regret that. But if Sakura didn't want him in that way he wanted her, he couldn't force her and he didn't want to see her unhappy because of his selfishness. Yes, he had began to be selfish.

Kakashi dragged his hand through his unruly silver hair and closed his dark grey eye and felt how the cold October wind tug his navy-blue Konoha polo-neck jumper and he opened his eye to see some blood red maple leafs playing in the wind and disappearing up in the cloudy night sky. He looked down to the ground, feeling more miserable then before.

`...Maybe we wasn't meant to be...´

Author note:

Kakashi have finally understand that he had done wrong (even if he was drunk while discovering it). And what with Sai and Sakuras suddenly affectionateness?

It may contain some spelling errors...

And some notes;

When I writes the text 'like this' it means that the person in question is thinking. When I writes like thisthe person emphasis just that word and when I writes like this that means flashbacks.

Mini Japanese dictionary;

Kuso* = Shit

Ma* = Well

Jaane* = See you

Arigatou* = Thank you

Kukicha* = (or twig tea) Is a Japanese blend made of stems, stalks, and twigs. It is available as a green tea or in more oxidized processing. It has a mildly nutty, and slightly creamy sweet flavor.

Feel free to ask me if something is bothering you.

Take care!

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