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Chapter Fifteen - Call Your Name
Kakashi snapped his eye open and breathed in deeply, almost like he hadn't breathed in a really long time. His sight was blurry and everything was to light for him to make out anything at all.
The only thing he could remember was the soft lap of his former student.
Was she okay? Had she somehow escaped the manor with Yamato?
He tried to speak, but nothing came out, as his mouth was too dry.
Then suddenly he though that he had heard a soft female voice talk to him, but he could be mistaken, due to the still ringing noise in his ears. But he gattered some saliva in his mouth, swallowed and parted his lips slightly.
"Sa-Sakura...?" he mumbled weakly and tried to sit up.
"Don't stain yourself..." the soft feamle voice said and he felt how he was pushed back gently to the soft mattress he was lying on.
"Sa-Sakura...? Is that really you...?" he then asked the soft female voice, still a bit hoarse.
"Hai..." she answered, it's softness and gentleness made him think back to those days when his mother still had been alive. Alive to comfort him.
She had the same soft voice and he felt for the first time, since his thirty years alive, safe and even happy.
"So I haven't died yet..." he mumbled and tried to glanced to the pink haired woman beside him, who had a concern scowl on her face, when she had seen his smile under his mask.
"Ba-Baka* Sensei..." she scold him and she sounded like she had been crying for a really long time. "You could have died! You should be lucky that you didn't!"
He smiled even more as he closed his eye, due to the still bright light that made him get a headache.
"And you..?" he asked.
"Me what?" she asked questioning.
"Are you hurt...? And Yamato...?"
"We are both fine... Well I should say all three of us... And Taichou was only hospitalised for a week..." she told him.
Kakashi opened his eye and looked to her and she was still a bit fuzzy.
"How long...?" he asked.
"A week..."
"No, I mean... How long have I been like this?"
"Oh... About four weeks... We where worried that you wouldn't woke up again..." she told him.
"Four weeks... It felt like ages..." he mumbled and closed his eye again. "What about Kusachi...?"
"Who?"
"Kusachi... Hinoki's son..." Kakashi told her and she sighed a bit troubled.
"Well, he told me and Taichou about how he had found you and healed the wound you had got... After that he told us the same thing he had told you... About that Yumiya guy..." Sakura looked to Kakashi, who still had his eyes closed, but she knew that he still was listning to her. "Anyway, Kusachi will take over the 'throne' and he will began to make Kirizai a better town to live in... And he told me to send his regards to you..."
"Hum... He will be a good Lord to the people of Kirizai..." Kakashi then said and opened his dark eye and glanced to Sakura. "But how could I survive...? I know that your chakra wasn't enough to heal my wounds and I know that I was more dead then alive..."
"Well, you should thank Shizune... If she hadn't been their you-... you wouldn't have made it..." she told him and Kakashi looked questioning to her. "To answer your questioning look, Naruto got a bad feeling and send Shizune and a team of ANBU to the manor... I'm glad that he did so..."
Kakashi nodded slightly and turned his gaze to the white ceiling.
God what he hated hospitals. If it wasn't those steriles white claustrophobic rooms, it was cirten the smell of antiseptic.
"Oh! I almost forgot..!" Sakura suddenly said and Kakashi turned his gaze back to her.
She began to dig in some plastic bags at her feet and he gave her curious look.
"I bought you something..." she finally said and looked up to him. "Something I thought would make you less restless..."
"You didn't have too..." Kakashi mumbled and took the paket she had picked up from the plastic bag on the floor.
"I think I do... Not just because I feel the need to thank you for all you have done to protect me, but also because I remember how restless you usually is when you end up in the hospital..." she said with a soft smile. "And I didn't really want to break in to your apartment just to get to you a book to read..."
Kakashi raised his eyebrow to her.
"Didn't want to break in to my apartment, you say... I think it was exactly what you did last time..." Kakashi said and began to rip off the brown paper cover. "And the landlord wasn't overjoyed to have fix my broken door..."
Sakura wriggled on the stol and watched how Kakashi's eye narrowed as he looked down to the book in his hands.
"Knocked Up: Your Guide From Bed To Cradle..." Kakashi readed out loud and looked up to Sakura who took the book away from him.
"Ahahaha... Warui Warui*... That was my book... This is yours..." she gave him a new paper covered book, a bit thinner this time.
He ripped off the brown paper once more, but even this book made his eye to narrow even more.
"...You Are Dad... Thanks... I think..." he mumbled and looked down to the book with a light green cover, with a father who had his little baby boy on his shoulders. "Why do I have the honour...?"
"Well, you did tell me that you wanted to be with me during the child birth... So I thought, why not let you read a little about fatherhood during a birth..." she told him and blushed faintly. "And if you still feel like you don't want to get involve with Chibi-San, I won't push or blame you... I will understand that..."
Kakashi looked up to Sakura, who still was blushing faintly. He frowned a bit.
"I guess-... I guess it wouldn't hurt to read a little at least..." he mumbled and looked down to the book again. "So, if you are done with your unexpected gifts, can I ask you something?"
"Sure... What is it?"
"What-..." Kakashi paused and mused over the right words to say to her. He didn't want to sound too nosy. "What was it Yamato offred you...?"
She looked surprised down to Kakashi and she began to blush even deeper.
This couldn't be any good, Kakashi mused as he saw her blush even more.
"I-I thought he had told you..." Sakura mumbled.
"He hasn't..." Kakashi told her and she began to look down to the floor, not saying a word. "Why is it such a secret?"
"It's really not a secret... And if he hasn't told you, maybe he has his reason..." she told him and Kakashi frowned and felt how jealousy washed over him.
"Sakura, we are team mates... We don't hide secrets from each other..." Kakashi said to her with his most teacher to student tone he could conjure.
"I know that... But I know that you infact have secrets too and what Yamato offered me, is just between him and me..." Sakura told him with an impassive voice and Kakashi knew he couldn't get anything out of her now. "If he, as I told you, wanted to tell you he would have told you... But he didn't..."
"Just tell, Sakura..." Kakashi was about to loose his impatience with her. She (somehow) always sucsseded to do that to him and it had began the day she told him to fuck off. The day he had told Naruto and the others to find Sasuke and bring him back.
"If you want to know, you will have to ask Yamato..." Sakura raised from the stol. "I will see you when you are out from the hospital..."
Kakashi watched as she walked to the door and grab the doorhandle and then she turned around to face him.
"And by the way, Naruto told me to say to you that when you are out from the hospital, he wanted to see us... Happy reading..." and with that said she was gone.
Kakashi looked down to the book in his lap and he was surprised that he wasn't particularly upset or even annoyed with her. And then he let out a low chuckle and putted the book under his pillow.
~oOo~
Sakura walked out of the hospital a bit annoyed, but still a bit satisfied.
Though, she hadn't find the person she wanted to talk to, instead she had ended up in her Sensei's nursing room and then he had suddenly woke up. She had been surprised that right after she had said those words;
"Please wake up..."
He had called her name.
He didn't ask where he was or if he had died, he had called after her. Her and no one else.
She couldn't help to smile to herself when she thought of it and she (somehow) had felt joy and her heart had began to beath faster, because he had said her name. She mentally slapped herself out of her wrong thoughts and began to foucus on her real mission.
Finding Shizune.
Shizune was the only one that could help her and that she trust enough to keep a secret. A secret that laid hidden inside of Sakura.
Suddenly she bumped in with something small that almost fell to the ground, if Sakura hadn't used her Kunoichi reflex to catch the one who was about to fall to the ground.
Sakura looked down to see a young boy, probably not older then seven and that child was almost a replica of team ten's late Sensei;
Sarutobi Asuma.
"Aisoku..." Sakura said and looked down to the child, who had his mothers hair color. "Are you alright?"
The boy Aisoku nodded faintly and turned his head around to look at the woman walking towards them.
"Kurenai-San..." Sakura looked up to the woman, who looked quite surprise back to Sakura.
"Sakura-San... I'm surprised to see you here at all... I thought that you had been assinged to a mission..." Kurenai said to her.
"Oh, I was... But I havn't been feeling so well recently..." Sakura told Kurenai and she let go of the boy, who walked to his mothers side and he almost hide himself behind her.
Kurenai looked to Sakura and her gaze fell immediately to Sakura's stomach and then Kurenai let out a small smile.
"Well, I can see why and I didn't expect you to be the third on of the Konoha 11 to be the lucky one..." Kurenai said to Sakura who blinked surprised.
`What are she talking about...?´
"When are you due...?" Kurenai then asked.
"D-Due...?"
`Kuso! She is probably talking about the child...´
"I-I don't really know...?" Sakura told her.
"Oh, I see... Does Naruto know about it?"
"No... And I want to keep it that way..." Sakura mumbled. "I believe Naruto wouldn't understand..."
"Maybe not... Then who is the lucky man? Is it Lee-San..." Kurenai mused while looking at Sakura with a smile.
"N-Not Lee-San..." Sakura forced out with an indescribable face expression on her face. "Un-Unfortunately no one..."
"No one...? Then who made you pregnat?"
"I-I was on a mission a while ago... and it was then it happen... It was after all a seducing mission..." Sakura said and began to thought of that time she and Kakashi had have sex in the forest. She couldn't still get the image or the smell out of her mind.
"That... That was sad to hear... Why didn't you do an abortion?"
"It was too late..." Sakura lied. "I noticed it too late..."
Kurenai looked to Sakura with a bit of suspicions, but she decised to drope it. Sakura was obviously lying, so it had probably been something else that had made her to keep it and what ever it was Sakura had a good reason to be lying (even how bad she was at it).
"Well, thing like that happen some times..." Kurenai said and then she smiled once more. "You should be happy that you have such a good Sensei..."
"Huh? What do you mean...?" Sakura asked.
"Didn't you know? Kakashi-San came to me some monthes ago. He wanted advise about his female friend that was pregnet..." Kurenai said and Sakura felt how shock struck her. "I hadn't expeced it to be you, though I shouldn't be surprised... Kakashi-San has always had a soft spot for you..."
Kurenai smiled even wider and Sakura didn't know if she should smile too or if she would run. So she remain standing on the same spot and she wished that Kurenai hadn't spotted her stomach.
And what was it she had said to her about her Sensei? That he had always had a soft spot for her.
That was just insane. Her Sensei just cared for her as his student and friend.
`Well, maybe once Sensei can have a soft spot for once student as well... But for Kakashi to go to Kurenai to ask her for advise, because of my lack of experience... That is something new to me...´
Well Sakura couldn't deny that both of them had crossed the line what was appropriate when it came to a teacher and a students relationship to each other. And they would continued to cross it as long as the child lived.
"Sakura-San...?" Kurenai suddenly said and Sakura looked up to the crimson eyed woman in front of her. "Be careful... And if something happen, don't hesitate to come to me... I will help you..."
Sakura bit her lip and looked down to the ground before she looked up again.
"Arigatou*, Kurenai-San... I will accept your offer..." Sakura said and smiled to her. "By the way, you haven't seen Shizune...?"
"Shizune...? Well, when I think of it I could have seen her with Genma at the Dango Shop and if I don't recall wrong, Anko was with them..." Kurenai told Sakura. "And an advise to you... Don't approach Anko if you want your secret to be a secret..."
"Alright... Thanks again, Kurenai-San..." Sakura said and looked after Kurenai and her son, as they walked in to the hospital area and then Sakura began to walk away too.
~oOo~
"Kakashi-Ojisan*!"
Kakashi looked up from the book he had got from Sakura and saw how a boy had burst the door open and was now jumping up in the bed.
"Aisoku...?" I didn't think I would see you here..." Kakashi said and putted his hand on the boys head and ruffled his black-brown hair. "Where is your mother?"
"Right here... Kakashi..." a soft and kind female voice said and Kakashi glanced to the crimson eyed woman in the door way.
"Kurenai... I should be honoured to have you and Aisoku here just to visit me..." Kakashi said.
"Well, we didn't come here just to visit you..." Kurenai said a bit sterner this time and Kakashi looked to her, while Aisoku giggled.
"Then what have you been doing here...?" Kakashi asked.
"I have vistit Ino-Obasan*!" Aisoku told Kakashi.
"Ino...?" Kakashi looked down to the boy, still with his nad on the boys head.
"Aiso has been on his yearly check up and Ino was the one who examined him..." Kurenai explained and Kakashi nodded.
"Ino-Obasan has got so big!" Aisoku told Kakashi in an excited way, far to unlike his usually shy manners. "And we met your student!"
"Did you met Naruto...?" Kakashi asked the boy, while trying to hide the book under the pillow again.
"No... The weird one..." Aisoku explained while getting scold by his mother, to Kakashi's amusement. "You know, she with all that pink hair...!"
"You mean Sakura-San..." Kakashi said and tried hard to not chuckled out loud, due to Aisoku's explanation of Sakura as the weird one with pink hair.
"Hai! Sakura-San... And you know, she got a big belly too! But not as big as Ino-Obasan's..." Aisoku said in a matter of fact voice and Kakashi raised an eyebrow.
"She got a big belly? How could you tell that...?" Kakashi asked the boy who shrugged.
Even if Sakura had gotten a bit bigger, it was still hard to tell that she was preganent.
"She run in to me..." Aisoku finally said and Kakashi looked down to him.
"She did...? You know, she has always been a bit clumsy..." Kakashi said and that made Aisoku to laught.
Kurenai began to walked closer to the bed and looked down to the chattering boy and the half listning man beside him.
The reason way Kurenai had began to come closer to the pair, was because she had noticed the book Kakashi had tried to hide under the pillow and it didn't look like one of his Icha Icha.
With a reflex of a cat, she grabbed the semi-hidden book and Kakashi looked panicked up to her.
"What is this...?" she asked him and she glanced to the the book in her hand.
"A book, I think it look like..." Kakashi told her and she frowned while Aisoku looked confused up to them.
"Sweetie, could you please walk out just for a minute... Okaasan* needs to talk to Kakashi-Ojisan..." Kurenai told her son who looked gloomy up to her.
"I don't want to... I want to stay with Ojisan..." Aisoku told his mother and looked up to Kakashi as support.
"Listen to your mother, Aiso... And why don't you try to find Ino-San... And by the way, it will be your mission, okay and you need to report back to me when you found her..." Kakashi said to Aisoku who immediately shined up and rushed to the door.
"I will be back soon, Sensei...!" Aisoku said and rushed out of the room and the door swung shut behind him.
"I have always said that you can handle him very well... I envy you, Kakashi..." Kurenai said and Kakashi looked up to her.
"It hasn't nothing to do with me handle him good... He is far too similar to how Asuma was at that age..." Kakashi said and Kurenai looked questioning to him. "His mother... She used to tell us everything about him when whe was at his home as kids..."
"Oh..." Kurenai said and then she remembred the light green book in her hand. "You Are Dad..." Kurenai looked from the book and back to Kakashi. "Did Sakura gave this to you?"
"She did... So? Can't she give me a book nowadays...?" Kakashi asked.
"Of couse she can... But why a book like this?"
"You tell me..." Kakashi said while looking up to Kurenai who frowned while making her lips to a thin line in her face.
"Maybe because she is pregnant..." Kurenai said and Kakashi looked impassive up to her but Kurenai had learned to read his 'lonesome' eye and it told her everything she needed to know at the moment. "Kakashi... You could read this book a hundred, no a millions of times, but it wouldn't change a thing..."
"What do you mean with that...?" he asked.
"You will never be ready..." she told him.
"Ready with what..." he looked confused up to her.
"You will never be ready to support her when her child will be born..."
"And why is that..." Kakashi began to get a bit annoyed by Kurenai's assumption on him, not be ready to support Sakura.
"First; You can never really prepare for a child birth... Second; It's not your child... It can never be the same as watching your own child be born... Ask Shikamaru..." Kurenai told him.
"I know... But I will still be thier for her, as I have promissed her..." Kakashi told her. "So... You did see that she was pregnet..."
"I did... It was not hard to tell actually..." Kurenai said and and Kakashi sighed. "She should be happy as long as they don't get a hold of this..."
"She should..."
"And something has been bothering me since I met Sakura today..." Kurenai told Kakashi who still was looking up to her.
"And that is...?"
"She lied to me when I asked her who fathered her child..." Kurenai said and Kakashi tensed, but didn't show it. "And I do think she knows who it is... And I think you know it too... You was after all with her during that mission..."
"I don't really know..." he told her. "Just because I was with her, it doesn't mean I should know who made her pregnent..."
"And it's one more thing... If this was just some unlucky coincidence, why did she decide to keep it? And she is a medic, she shouldn't missed that she was pregnent... Not for that long at least..." Kurenai continued, while Kakashi squirmed uncomfortable in the bed.
"You know Sakura... She isn't the one who would 'kill' something that would be called a life... She isn't like that... She couldn't even kill a bug if it was so..." Kakashi told Kurenai, but he was pretty sure that Sakura could kill a bug if she needed to.
"Perhaps... Or maybe... or maybe the one who impregnent her was some one she was close to..." Kurenai gave Kakashi a stony look.
"Wha-What's with that face...?" Kakashi asked Kurenai, who began to look like she had solved a puzzle.
"Kakashi, I know that you care for her and I didn't think so much about the friend of yours who was pregnent... And I also know that you never care of other peoples personal matters... But now that I know that your pregnent friend is Sakura... I began to think..."
Kakashi looked a bit anxious to Kurenai and then he looked away, almost like he waited for his sentence.
"Kakashi... Are you-... Are you the father to her child?"
There. She had said those words that had made his perfectly peaceful world of lies to crumble down to nothing.
"Have I been too careless if you noticed it that quickly...?" Kakashi mumbled and looked down to his lap, feeling the shame washing over him. "I know what I did wrong and I regret it deeply..."
A sudden sharp pain on his cheek told him that he had been slapped in his face.
"Stop with saying those stupid things!" Kurenai scolded him. "You did something wrong and you regret it, I understand that you feel like that... But have you for once thought about Sakura and her feelings? I could tell, by just looking at her, that she is hurting and you are totally ignoring her...! She is scared and I beat she feels all alone and you are doing nothing to change that...!"
Kakashi clench his jaw and was still looking down to his lap.
"It's not that easy..." he mumbled between his teeth.
"Is not easy? It is easy... You just need to accept that fact that you are about to be a father, not ignoring it...!"
"I'm not going to be a father!" Kakashi suddenly barked and looked up to her.
Kurenai looked a bit shocked down to him, but she had (still) a scowl in her beautiful face.
"It's time... It's time that you wake up Kakashi!" Kurenai almost yelled to him. "You are about to be a father. You can't change that... The only thing you are doing to her is hurting her. But she needs you... She needs you to be there for her all the time, no one else... That is why you have to choose... Choose between staying or let her go... Right now you are confusing her. You are giving her signals that you care for her, while you are ignoring her unborn child..."
Kakashi glanced to the corner of the room and he sighed. He knew that Kurenai was right. But how much he just wanted to let it all go, he found himself not able to. He cared for her too much to just let her go and that was the same reason to way he couldn't choose.
"I can't..." Kakashi mumbled.
"You can't choose?" Kurenai glared to Kakashi. "What are you afraid of? That you will end up like your own father...?"
"I'm not afraid of ending up like my father did... Sure, I'm afraid that my kids would end up all alone if I died, but never to end up like my father..." Kakashi told her.
Kakashi was for once proud of being son to Konoha no Shiroi Kiba*.
"Then tell me what you are afraid of..!" Kurenai demanded.
"I'm afraid of being rejected!" Kakashi growled and his eye widened in terror over his own words.
Kurenai blinked twice and looked surprised and even a bit worried down to him.
"You-... You like Sakura...?"
Kakashi nodded stiffly and looked away from Kurenai's gaze. Her look of disgust was the last thing he needed to see at the moment.
"She is my student... My subordinate... It's my responsibly to protect her, not ravish her... That's why I think everything is wrong..." he mumbled, surprised to not see any disgust in her crimson eyes, only sadness.
"You should have thought of that before you impregnent her..." Kurenai told him with a grim look on her face.
Harsh words from a usually gentle woman and Kurenai began to suddenly look tired down to him.
"I know..."
"Therefor I think you should make it up to her... You should-..."
"No! I will not! I told Sai the same, I will not do it... I have made her life to nothing more then shit and I can't do it again... She deserve someone who could love her with all his heart and give her the antention she needs..." Kakashi told Kurenai. "Not someone like me, who never could love someone before..."
"That is maybe true, but don't you think her life will be even more like shit if you don't do anything about it?" Kurenai asked and Kakashi looked troubled up to her.
Maybe she had a point.
"It's your choise... But you know as well as I do what position Sakura is in right now... And it will be getting worse the more you wait..." Kurenai told him and putted the book she had held in her hand down on the nightstand.
Both of them stood in silence and nither of them looked at each other and Kakashi knew her words had spooken a bit of truth. The only problem was how he would pressed on, on the road Kurenai had began to build for him.
The door slamed open, making both of them jump in surprise.
"Kakashi-Ojisan-Sensei!" a shrill voice of laugher ringed in the little nursing room and Kakashi's bed got attacked by the little 'demon', throwing himself under the quilt.
"Aisoku!" Kurenai scolded the boy, who peeked out of the quilt. "Please Aisoku, have at least some maners..."
"Gomennasai*, Okaasan..." the boy Aisoku mumbled and Kurenai sighed.
"So, did you found Ino-San...?" Kakashi suddenly asked, while looking down to the boy under the quilt and who shined up and then he began to looked a little troubled.
"No... I didn't..." he answered. "But I found Kabu-San* with a nurse instead..."
"You did...?" Kurenai said and looked a bit shocked.
"Un*... Okaasan, what does, 'I will put my kunai in your shuriken' mean...? Is Kabu-San teaching her to hit shurikens with kunais?" Aisoku asked his eyes shined brightly.
Kurenai looked speechless down to Kakashi to find some support from him.
"Well... Aaa... He is..." Kakashi finally said and Aisoku shined up even more.
"Teach me, Kakashi-Ojisan-Sensei...!"
"Um... Some day, Aisoku... But not today..." he said and looked down to the boy and then up to Kurenai who looked like she could kill that poor Kabu-San, who ever he was.
But one thing was Kakashi sure of, he didn't envy Kurenai the slightest, not at the moment. But he was sure he would get his allotted share of this sooner or later. The only question was if he ever would live that long to be a part of it.
~oOo~
The pink haired young Kunoichi walked down the street, back to her home avoiding the Dango Shop that was on the way to her home.
That had made the Kunoichi to be forced to take a different and much longer way back home and she had still not found the one she was looking for. Something that had made her even more annoyed then she was before and the encounter with Kurenai and her son had made things a little bit worse.
She knew that Kurenai wasn't someone who would began to gossip about her state to everyone (in that case it would be Ino) and when it come to Aisoku...
Well she didn't know the boy that much. But what Sakura have heard, that boy wouldn't talk to anyone more then to those he trused. And by the way, how could he even tell that she was pregnent? She was (probably) just fat to him anyway.
`That's right... Fat and unattractive... Even pregnent Ino would still look sexy compare to me...´
Suddenly she bumped in to someone again and she was the one who got grabbed by her wrist, to not fell to her bum.
"Take it easy, girlie..." a slightly seducing manly voice said and let go of her wrist.
The pink haired kunoichi looked up and she froze to the spot.
This was not her lucky day.
"Oh...! It's you..." he said and looked down to her with his warm brown eyes. "You are Kakashi-San's girl, aren't you, kawaikochan*..."
"I'm-...I'm not his girl...! And I do have a name...!" the pink haired Kunoichi barked to the senbon chewing man in front of her.
"Gomen Gomen... But I don't remember names that well..." he said and was still standing uncomfoting close to her.
"Maybe it's because you never ask, before you screw them..." she growled low and he raised an eyebrow to her.
"You can be really crule some times... And it still surprise me how Kakashi-San could even put up with you..." the brown haired senbon chewing man said and the young Kunoichi knew he was just teasing her.
"Well Genma, if you don't have anything better to do then get in my way, could you please move your sorry ass..." she barked. "I don't have time with you...!"
Literally, she didn't want him to notice her slighter bigger stomach. Even if he was a man (and a womanizer), he wasn't stupid and he would notice if he came too close.
"You are starting to sound like that old dog Yamato... Sakura-Chan..." Genma said and pushed away some hair strands from her face and tugged it behind her ear. She flinched slightly by his action.
"Talk for yourself, Genma..." an other mans voice could be heard and Sakura turned her face to that voice.
"Tai-Taichou..." she said and watched how he stopped beside her and looked down to her.
"Are you okay...?" he asked her and she nodded. "Good... Can't you see that you are bothering her...?"
Genma looked a bit surprised to the brown haired wood user and spun the senbon between his lips.
"Well... How could I...? She looks botherd to everyone she mets, so how could I see that, Yamato...?" Genma said and the brown haired wood user Yamato moved in between Sakura and Genma.
Sakura was surprised by Yamato's suddenly action to move in between her and Genma, almost like a wall that protected her from Genma.
She didn't need his protection, she could handle this by herself.
"Taichou-...!"
"Sakura... Let's go..." he suddenly said and grabbed her wrist and began to walk the oposite way Sakura was heading at. Leaving a slightly bewildered Genma behind.
"Taichou, let go of my wrist...! I'm not a child, I can walk by myself...!" Sakura said and glared at Yamato who didn't let go of her until they was closer to the streets of her own block.
"Why was you walking down that street, when your home is on the otherside of the village...?" he asked and turned his face towards her.
"Why would you care? Can't I walk were ever I want these days? Has Sensei told you to spy on me...?" Sakura growled to him.
"No he hasn't... And what would you do if you had met someone else... Someone 'smater' then Genma...? I was just trying to protect you..." Yamato sighed and glanced to her and he could see that she was biting her lip, drawing blood from it. "Don't hurt yourself... It's just that if you want it to be a secret, you shouldn't walk around and show it of to everyone to see it... You should just had walked stright home..."
"Well, I appreciate your concern, but I can't take care of myself... And beside, I was avoiding the Dango Shop..." Sakura told him and he raised an eyebrow at her.
"You were avoiding the Dango Shop...?" he looked at her like he didn't believe her.
"Aaa... And you don't have to look at me like that! I can avoid eating sweets if I want too, but this time it was out of other reason to why I was avoding it..."
"And those reasons was...?" Yamato asked as they came closer to the Dango Shop.
"That reason is gone now..." Sakura said and glanced to the Dango Shop in relief.
"So Anko was that reason..." Yamato said and glanced from Sakura to the Dango Shop. "Pretty understanding reason... And how, if I may ask, did you know that she would be there...?"
"Kurenai..." Sakura answered simply and was still glancing at the Dango Shop. "She told me..."
"Are you telling me that Kurenai knows about your condition...?" Yamato asked and Sakura nodded. "Well better her then Anko, I guess..."
Yamato stopped when Sakura didn't followed him any longer and saw that she was still glancing at the Dango Shop.
"No Sakura, we are walking stright home..." Yamato told her and he saw how she began to pout.
"I'm not a child any more... And I'm hungry..."
"But you are acting like one..." Yamato mumbled under his breath. "Fine, I will buy you some and after that we will go home... You stay there..."
"I'm not a dog either..." she called after him as he walked in the Dango Shop and she began to smile to herself.
If a pregnecy meant that she would be attended like some fragil doll, she could live with that throught her whole pregnecy. But she refused to be protected by them, she could take care of herself and she wanted to show them that even if she was pregnent she was still strong.
But somewhere back in her mind told her that she wasn't that strong as she wanted them to think she was.
She had been raped, tortured and almost killed and almost every time he had showed up. Showed up to protect her like some knight in his shiny armour. She had began to depend on him to save her. But for how long? Until he couldn't save her anymore? Until she wasn't weak anymore? Weak?
Yes, she was weak, but she still was refusing to believe in that. Her pride wouldn't allow that. And yet she was. She was weak. If she had have any sense at all, she would just kept her mouth shut that day she found out she was pregnent and done an abortion. Then nothing of this would ever have happned.
She would still hate him, a bit lesser though, but still hate him or would she? Could she really hate him after all he had done to keep her alive until they had got back to Konoha? She couldn't. She couldn't hate him and even how much she had denied those strange feelings she had felt during that time when she had laid in the hospital after their mission to ChimaChima, she couldn't stop to feel them whenever she was near him.
She sighed heavily and looked to the ground and saw a little lizard looking at her before it crawl passed her. She sighed again.
`Maybe I'm really about to fall-...´
"Sakura! Let's go...!"
Sakura was brought back from her thoughts by Yamato standing in front of her with a carton of dangos, looking down to her with a little smile.
"Let's go... Sakura..." he said once again and she nodded.
She shook away her recently thought out of her head. It had been after all, a really stupid thought.
~oOo~
Sakura slide down on her three seat sofa in the living room and sighed deeply.
The Dango carton was still standing on the kitchen table, but it was now empty and her Taichou had left her home four hours ago (after that he had made sure that her half dead plants in the kitchen had got some water). And now she was sitting alone in the semi-dark living room, just watching the awful brown flower wallpaper (she never had cared or had money to redo when she moved in here, at that was more then three years ago).
God what she missed her old home and her own room. She had always thought that her room was the best and she had even a balcony. What had she now? She had a front garden. A tiny front garden that growed like crazy and she was pretty sure that someday the neighbours would began to complain that they had been attacked by a tiger.
"And here are you going to grow up, little one..." Sakura mumbled and putted her hand on her stomach. "Even if Kaachan* hasn't a big place, I will make sure that you will grow up happy... Just like I did..."
A suddenly knock on the front door could be heard and Sakura jumped slightly in surprise.
She raised from the sofa and walked towards the front door and open it slightly. She wasn't surprised to have late visitors, Ino and even Naruto had always been those who had vistit her on late nights and even Kakashi at one unhappy occasion.
"Don't waist my time... I am not in the mood..." Sakura said to the person stading on the doorsteps.
"Is that how you greet dear old friends...?"
"Shi-Shizune...?" Sakura said a bit surprised to see that ebony haired woman, who looked at the pink haired woman with a faint smile.
"Can I come in?" she asked and Sakura stepped aside. "Thanks... Wow, you have a really nice home... Much better then my place..."
"You think so...? I have always found your place better then mine..." Sakura said and showed Shizune to the sofa.
"Well, it isn't that bad, it's just too small..." Shizune said and sat herself down. "Anyway, I was working the evening shift at the hospital and not to my very surprise I found Kakashi-San trying to discharge himself... And what I heard he had woke up around noon today, so he shouldn't be out walking..."
"Tsk... Try to tell him that... I mean, not even if you tempt him with Icha-Icha he would stay..." Sakura mumbled and Shizune laughed slightly.
"Yeah... You are right about that... He is just like that I guess... However, he told me that you had been looking for me, so hear I am... Was it something importent you wanted?"
"Well, I wanted to ask you for a favour..." Sakura said and Shizune nodded.
"Sure, just tell me and I will do it..."
"It's kind of private, so it needs to be done in secret..."
"Oh... Are you attempting to do a new secret posion or something like that...?" Shizune asked and leand closer to Sakura.
"No, nothing like that... It's just that I-... I need you to be my... nurse... My nurse to do my gynecological examinations..." Sakura said and Shizune's jaw dropped some.
"So you are... You are..."
"Hai... I'm pregnent..." Sakura said and Shizune gave away a squeak of joy and hugged Sakura hard.
"I knew it! You lucky girl... Look at you, you are looking marvellous and healthy... I envy you so much..." Shizune said and let go of Sakura who was a bit shocked of Shizune's suddenly 'attack' and she blushed. "Who is the lucky one? Is it some mysterious dark man maybe...?"
`Or a mysterious pervert more likely...´
"I don't know who... It was an accident during a mission..." Sakura said and she tried to hide her sadness and Shizune's suddenly smile of joy disappered.
"I'm sorry to hear that... So it was during that mission in ChimaChima, when you had been raped..."
"Hai..." Sakura lied and she thought it was funny how easy this lie came out of her mouth. Well, it wasn't really a lie.
"Don't worry... Everything is going to be just fin and I would be glad to be your nurse..." Shizune said and hugged Sakura once more. "Why don't you came in to the clinic in four weeks... I know that the clinic isn't used on that friday, so drope in around six... Is that okay?"
"Hai..." Sakura answered and watched how Shizune spoiled her stomach with gently hand strokes and talked to her stomach in baby talk and it for once felt good to have some one whom she trusted to care about her in this way.
Just like old days...
Author note:
Kakashi is still alive, even if he took a lot of beating from Yumiya. Then Kurenai scold Kakashi for his "stupidness" and more or less tell him to make up his mind, just like Sai and even Yamato have told him to do for some months ago. And Sakura is still troubled by her mysterious feeling for a certain man and Shizune is over joy by Sakura's little secret. Can Sakura keep her secret much longer? Or will she finally spill it?
It may contain some spelling errors...
And some notes;
When I writes the text 'like this' it means that the person in question is thinking. When I writes like this the person emphasis just that word and when I writes like this that means flashbacks.
Mini Japanese dictionary and little more;
Arigatou = Thank you
Baka = Idiot
Gomen = Pardon (your pardon)
Gomennasai = I beg your pardon
Konoha no Shiroi Kiba = Konoha's White Fang
Kawaikochan = Cutie or Sweetie
Kaachan = Mom
Kabu-San = Mr Turnip literally. Aisoku doesn't know their neighbours name and because their neighbour is growing turnips he gots the name Kabu-San. Real name is Koshiki Kosho... *lol*
Kuso = Shit!
Ojisan = Uncle
Obasan = Aunt
Okaasan = Mother
Un = Yeah
Warui = Sorry
Chapter 15 finally out! I have been on a business trip to Denmark, so this have been done really fast I think... And when it comes to chapter 14 it have done it really sloppy (I know) I just wanted it out before I went to Denmark and finish that 'mission', I'm sorry about that... I really am... I hope this one was better (I think I am about to lose my touch)... And now I'm going to bed...
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