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5. a nerd like me

What is a nerd like me doing at a party like this!? Seriously, never in my life I thought that I'd be invited to a frat party, never in a million years I'd actually go. But nevertheless, I'm here, sipping a red cup and minding my own in the corner. The place is crowded, so many thoughts flow around, it is making me giddy. Usually so much sound makes me dizzy but this is a good feeling, it started when I was 8, I heard my father think about another woman than my mom, in a very sexual way. Little me didn't tell anyone but it kept happening, more and more. Not just her dad but her mom too, her teachers and classmates, no one's thoughts around me were/are save. When I was 9 my parents divorced because my dad cheated on my mom, just like I suspected. But little me didn't say anything.

I'll line up some thought I'm picking up, so you understand just how drunk everyone is

1why is my hair always puffy when gravity is pulling it down, how does that work with an afro? Omg I need to ask Dave about this! (I wonder what it's like to be this stupid)

2Drinks, Drinks we need more drinks where are the drinks (this dude clearly had enough as words and sentences started to melt together)

3he's hot, I'mma bang this dude tonight (what a slut)

4this is hopeless, I should go home. Fuck it, no not you, you don't seem fun either, why is it so hard to find good company, maybe her? (relatable)

I feel a pair of eyes on me and not much later some girl is standing in front of her

"hi, I'm Chloe" it's a redhead with blue eyes, I can sense somethings wrong, I smile at her and try to tune out any thoughts so I can give her a try

"Beca" I awkwardly stuff my hands in my pockets and look at my feet (like I said, nerd. But also a geek) wishing I just stayed home and read my book "so what's up"

"oh my gosh, you're so cute" she squealed, I didn't even know that was a thing people did. I look up, shock displayed on my face. I do what I should've done a while ago, leave. Did I scare her? Oh shit, she probably hates me right now, I'm such a fuck up this causes me to turn around and mention for her to follow me, she does, surprised by my confidence. I'm indeed a very weird person, I'm really confident but also really shy and too easily flustered. We go outside and sit down on the grass

"I'll ask again, what's up?" now it's her that looks down, I put my hand on her arm "come on, you can tell a complete stranger that knows nothing but you're name. I could sense something was wrong the moment you talked" she's kinda right, can I trust her? Oh well, I might as well

"I had a fight with my best friend" she takes a deep breath "and I couldn't tell her about it because she's also my only really good friend and I was fighting with her. She's a bitch most of the time but she's perfect and so I came to this party wanting to get drunk and have good night" get drunk and get laid (I try not to smile at that) "then I gave up on that and looked for some poor fool that I could trick into listening to my problems all night. Seems like I found one, not a fool though and you volunteered. Sorta"

I smile and take her hand "I got just the thing you need" she just lets me lead her to my bike (maybe I'm not that much of a nerd if I drive a motorcycle? Right?)

What am I doing, what if she's a serial killer and this is her way of luring in her victims, I really shouldn't do this

I look her in the eye "now assuming your parents taught you about stranger danger, I'm going to tell you some stuff about myself and give you my number so you can call me to talk whenever you want" I take a deep breath, I'm not big on the sharing thing but (strangely) want this girl to trust me "I'm a freshman at BU, I love music and my favourite book is Artemis Fowl" she smiles at that so I keep going "I'm a nerd and a geek from head to toe, I am an absolute potter head and my house is Slytherin, which is kinda weird because I'm loyal and kinda smart too so I could be in every house except Gryffindor" this is me stopping my rand on Harry Potter but I could go on for ages, Chloe is laughing now

"I trust you, let's go" I smile at her and lead her to my bike, not commenting on her face when she sees that I'm actually riding the damn thing. It's my pride and I've saved money for years to be able to buy this thing, so I grab my spare helmet and we get on. I can feel Chloe hesitate so I look at her and give her a reassuring smile. We get on and take off

Now you must be thinking, this girl is not thinking that many thoughts and from what I'm showing you you're right. But that's the thing, most of the shit that goes on in people's minds is not interesting at all and for that exact reason I won't show you, just know that my life is a constant of hearing stupid things like the burrito I ate this morning was delicious or even did I lock the door?. Shit like that's just boring.

After about ten minutes we arrive at my favourite place ever, I came here first a few years ago. We get inside "it's like a café and a library at the same time and it's such a genius place cuz we're allowed to talk and read all of these amazing books while eating the most delicious chocolate cake ever and drinking really good coffee, it's a bit strong but you'll get used to it. Come one let's go!" I don't notice how excited I am up 'til now at least, my cheeks go red she's really cute that makes it even worse. I get saved by Stacie

"sup Becs, I see you brought a friend" she winks, Stacie is the waitress that works here and she's a good friend of mine "I'll get your order" she walks away again

Chloe is confused wait why did she not ask what I wanted

"she'll get you the same as me, don't worry you'll like it"

Is she able to read my mind or something? I smile, and talk and talk for hours about all the things that I love, I show her around and show her my favourite place to read my favourite books. I really like spending time with this chick, she makes me feel comfortable. After it's almost time to get up again we go back to Barden, Chloe studies there too so I drop her off in front of her dorm.

"I had a really nice time Beca, we should do this again sometime" she kisses my cheek "thanks for spending the night with me" she goes for the door

"wait Red" I really want to kiss her so I go after her and I do it, I kiss her. Her lips are soft and if is amazing, I pull back "call me"

Then I walk away

Oh my god, I'm fucked