This is part two of chapter 24 she understands me, you should read that if you haven't. enjoy
37. she will never leave
She's no longer afraid to speak up and it even becomes a regular occurrence that Beca tells her girlfriend she loves her, she sings a song to her once and every time Stacie hears her voice she'll get tears in her eyes. But one day it just stops, it takes a few days for Stacie to notice the change. Somehow the silent girl gets even more quiet, the random post it's that Beca would leave for Stacie to find around the apartment became less and less until there were none at all. Stacie's worried, everything was going so well, she was going to ask Beca to marry her later this month, although it doesn't seem the right thing to do now. Stacie suspects it has something to with the reason Beca became mute in the first place but they never really talked about it so she can't really do anything. She watches how Beca moves around and she seems to make herself smaller than she is, she doesn't smile as often and doesn't seek out comfort as much as she used to. Stacie is still trying to think of a way to confront Beca about it without being shut out, she doesn't get the chance. One day Stacie comes home from work and she finds Beca crying on the sofa, the tall brunette drops everything and closes her girlfriend up in a tight embrace, placing soft kisses on her hair.
"come one Becs, tell me what's wrong" she murmurs "you can write it too, just please tell me what's going on" it takes a while, before Beca does anything. Other than what she'd been doing the past weeks, she moves closer to Stacie and buries her face inside the crook of her neck.
"why are you still here" her voice sound hoarse from crying, the question is not at all what Stacie had been expecting, she opens her mouth to answer but opts to let Beca explain. "I'm a mess, I'm not worth such a beautiful girlfriend like you" Beca chuckles bitterly "I bumped into my father the other day, I didn't notice it was him at first and I said sorry because that's the normal thing to do. I kept walking, still not knowing it was him when he grabbed my wrist and pulled me back. He" she has to take deep breaths to try and not burst out in tears again.
"it's alright baby, take your time" even though Stacie is practically fuming right now she needs to be there for Beca, she doesn't understand how anyone could hurt such a sweet and caring person. Beca continues speaking after a while
"My father's not a nice person, he never loved me, or my mom. Every time I opened my mouth to speak he either told me to shut up or he glared at me like I kicked his puppy. Knowing this, I never opened my mouth again, I just wanted to feel loved. I hated him but he gave me food and I slept in his house, he even payed for college so I was in his grasp for my entire life and when I left it was really hard to not feel like I was worth being listened to so I just shut up." For the first time she smiles and looks up "and then there you were, being your understanding and beautiful self, you made me feel important, well no, you made me feel less alone and I love you for that"
"I love you too" Stacie is careful with her words "what happened with your father?"
Beca lifts her head so she can look at Stacie before hiding again "he basically told me I'm not worth anything and I shouldn't have said something, nothing new"
Stacie wants to do nothing more than go up to Mr. Mitchells house and give him a piece of her mind, maybe a taste of her fist. But she stays of course, she thinks of the first thing Beca asked, why does she stay? "you are sweet, you remember the little things, like how I drink my coffee or that I love lavender. The way you play and create music is so important to me, I haven't ever seen anything like it. I really respect how you are so modest even though you are the most skilled person I have ever seen create music. You can do anything you set your mind to. I love the way you fit against me and it honestly made all my want for anyone else disappear when I first felt it, and the sex is pretty great too." This earns her a snort but she's not done yet "when you first told me you loved me, like talked to me, I am sure that was the happiest moment in my life. I never needed you to talk to me until after that. Your voice is like a drug, I got one taste and I'm addicted for the rest of my life. These are all reasons I stay, but the biggest is that I love you. I love everything about you, your weird habits, your quirkiness, your secret love for Harry Potter. If you ever feel unloved just look into my eyes and you'll see all the love you need looking back at you. My heart is yours and I trust you with it" Stacie forces Beca to look at her and see she's right. "wait here" she says as she quickly gets up and grabs her back, finding the box that has been sitting there for a while now. "Becs, Honey, can you come here for a sec?" she hears soft footsteps and takes a deep breath, Beca is now standing in front of her with a questioning look on her face. Stacie slowly gets down on one knee and smiles up at Beca, holding the ring in front of her. "if you need prove that I'll never leave, marry me"
Stacie has never seen Beca looks so happy, she sees her starting to nod but opening her mouth instead. Staring into Stacie's eyes she sees how much the other girl loves her,
"yes" she says