Part 2 of "no one is truly a bad person, not even me. There will possibly, maybe, be a part 3 because this leaves like a lot open and there's not really and end but we'll see. For now, enjoy. Peace out *disappears in thin air*

39. Let me explain

Dear Bella's,

I know you all hate me, you hate me for lying to you, you hate me because of who I am and because of what I did. And I know that when you asked me to leave it also meant no contact, and I promise this is the last thing you'll hear from me, I respect your wish. But I felt the need to explain myself, I feel like a need to show you my story, just so you understand me a little better. You can throw this letter away, I'll never find out but please don't. Don't think about me as the person you fought on a daily basis, think of me as the friend that lived with you for months. Well, if you're still reading, thanks, I'll start now, I'll stop wasting your time.

Hi, I'm Rebecca Mai Liu 刘, my roods lie in China. My last name means Kill or Destroy and my family has a history of ruling parts of China, they were more like dictators. I was born in America and take most after my father, Warren Mitchell. Other known as the leader of the organisation you know as The Empire. The same organisation you've been fighting for years now. I was the heir to his throne, I had no choice in that. I needed to become the best in everything, I needed to be worthy. I lived with my mother until I was 10, we lived happily, I was send to live with my father when she died. He made me train every day, I got beaten when I did something wrong, which was a lot of times in his eyes. It was like he was trying to beat the human out of me, to keep me from letting emotions cloud my mind and do everything he said without second thought. I'm ashamed to say that he succeeded, I stopped doing feelings, pain was the only thing I knew, the only thing that proved that I was still alive. My Grandfather saved me from my father's hands when I was 20, but after 10 years of torture I was a shell of myself. My grandfather couldn't save me, no one could, I lived in his house at that time. It is close to LA and one of my families temples is there. My family has a great history of powerful and strong men and women, all their spirits rest in our temple and they decide whether you are worthy of your weapons. It's kind of like they decide whether they trust you to keep up the family name, like they are wielding my sword with me and whatever I do with it effects them also. The first time I stepped into that temple the swords I got when I was 6 years old, disappeared. It felt like part of me was taken away, it was the first time in year that I felt something. I felt sad and angry, I cried, screamed and shouted at my grandfather when all he ever tried to do was help me, I wouldn't accept it. I ran back to my father, who was pleased to have me back, my old life continued and Empire had free access to our city. I took my father's name, part of me still respected the Liu family and didn't want to do bad in their name, my father of course believed that I wanted to be part of his family. Never. Well, anyway, then you guys came in to the picture and man that sucked. All of the sudden we had to defend ourselves and although you guys are not trained enough to defeat any of us alone, it was still difficult to lose some of our people. You killed my only friend in the Empire, after that I was truly alone. More and more I became a robot, not caring about the consequences of my actions, not caring who died or got hurt, as long as you guys paid for taking away the only thing I had. I'll tell you a little about him, his name was Benjamin Applebaum, he was a sweetheart. He used a bow and arrow, never been one for a face to face fight, Benji was way too innocent to be a criminal, a murderer like the rest of us. He was the one who took care of me after another beating, he was the only person I could talk to. He left behind a sister, Emily. I had to take care of her once he was gone, I brought her to my grandfather and begged him to take care of her, I sat on my knees and cried for the loss of my friend. Emily was 18 at the time, she understood that she had to leave, she was just as sweet as her brother and knew I was trying to protect her. She understood that I wasn't just a monster, I wasn't emotionless. I cared for her and her brother. My grandfather took pity on Emily, not me, no, he still believed I was not saveable. He was right, he took Emily in and I promised her to revenge her brother, she told me to save myself before it was too late. After that I hunt you guys down, followed you for days, figured out all your strengths and weaknesses. Which one of you drove me to insanity? Which one of you killed my best friend? I won't tell, I know it, I just feel like it would only divide the Bella's and in difficult times like these that's the last thing you need.
For years I did my best to break you, to bring you to the edge of destruction and leave you there, so you could pick yourself up and the whole thing would start over again. Until all 7 of you went after me the same time, big mistake. Without my katana's I was not half as strong as I was with them and it didn't take long before you had me in shackles, you made one mistake though. You forgot that I was a thief, a criminal and most important, I was the second most important person in Empire. No, I wasn't gonna get caught so easy, I knew one of you hit me on the head. I could feel the blood dripping down my neck, I could use that as a cover. I bit one the bit of poison that all our agents had in their mouth and it resulted in me fainting, I woke up in the hospital and pretended to not know my name. I started crying and I faked a panic attack. The police hooked me up to a lie detector, you were all there and you say how I spoke the truth about not knowing who I was. Well, not exactly the truth, I was trained to lie. I remember Aubrey's words after the police offered to put me in a holding cell, she said "we'll take her back, that way we can make sure she doesn't escape. We'll take her back if she remembers something" and the rest just did what Aubrey said because you're all afraid of her. You hated me, I know, I understood that, I was your enemy and many times you almost kicked me out of the house. I like living with you guys, the beds were better than at home, the walls were coloured and not grey. The whole thing was a lot less depressing than where I came from, there was even a piano. I hadn't played in years but Chloe told me that I could play whenever I wanted, I still don't understand why she was so nice to me all the time. I watched you guys train and it took all of my will power to not interrupt and show you how to use your strengths better, seriously guys, is that the best you got. You are uncoordinated, you don't work well together, you fight with honour and especially that last thing is a big mistake. Honour is not something the Empire knows, so forget it. If only I was still your friend, I'd teach you. After I save all of your lives and got send away, I went to my grandfather's, we made peace and he is training me again. I live together with Emily, I changed my name back to Liu. I feel better, and for that I want to thank you, without your kindness and friendship I would've still been with Empire. I also want to say sorry, sorry that I lied, sorry that I kicked your asses so many times, sorry that I made you hate me. I'm sorry, if you're still reading, thanks. I just wanted to say that if you ever need my help, give me a call.

Sincerely,

Beca Liu