Here's the next one! I tried to make it sexy, but that really didn't work... Read up to see what I mean!
I don't own Twilight, if I did, this chapter would be in the movie! :D
I put the plastic bag on the bed, sat down and looked around my room. Too bright! I quickly reached over to close the curtains behind my bed. I was still not comfortable though. Too quiet! I took the remote control of my stereo and pressed play. There was one of my dad's old Cd's in the player. It was an old Cd, Moon Safari by Air, but it was perfect. I turned up the volume and let the sensual sounds fill my room.
Right, everything is ready. I'm ready, I think... I started taking off my clothes, but as my jeans were halfway down my legs, my phone rang. Edward! my mental voice rang as I checked the caller ID. "Uhm, hey Edward!" I said, grabbing the remote and turning the volume of the music down.
"Jasper, you ok, you sound a bit off!" I seriously had only said 3 words, well 2 words and an unintelligent murmur. How did he even hear if I sounded off in that?
"I'm good. What's up?" I asked, trying to keep my word count to a minimum. Oh fuck! He went to the police with Alice, Emmett and Esmé this morning! "Wait, how did it go with the police?" I quickly added.
"We filed a report, but I didn't press charges for now. We talked about it and I don't actually want him to go to jail or something. He basically kicked me out, so I don't think he'll come after me anyway. But in case he does, I can press charges so he can't make me come home." I could hear the pain in his voice. Aro hadn't done anything to deserve it, like ever, but Edward loved him. "Though it isn't home anymore, not really, Alice's is home now."
"Do you want me to come over? Or you could come over here?" I asked. I would hug him and kiss him until it didn't hurt anymore.
"No, we're going around my dad's house to pick up my car, now that he's probably at work. After that we're going out to a movie and dinner, just the four of us. It feels really good to do something together, you know? We've never done that before." He was quiet for a minute. I didn't know how to respond, I knew how important family time had been for me. It was unimaginable to not have had that.
"So what are you doingtonight?" He asked me and I felt myself blush. I glanced around the room and looked at the plastic bag.
"Ehm, nuthin'. I uhm, nope, nothing!" I stumbled over my own tongue speaking.
"Jasper Whitlock! What are you up to?" His voice was commanding, I liked it. Placing my hand over the microphone, I let out a deep groan.
"I'm not up to anything, just going to watch a movie!" I wasn't lying, I was going to watch a movie. "I ehm, I have to go, my momma is calling me for dinner!"
"No she's not, we just passed her in the street! You liar! What are you up to Jasper?" I could hear the fake distress in his voice, he was acting all hurt and offended.
"Well, she just got home, got to go, love you!" I quickly hung up before he could respond and concentrated on my breathing for a couple of minutes.
I had lied of course, my momma wouldn't be home for another couple of hours. She had left me dinner in the oven, as she was having dinner at uncle Peter's house. She had asked if I wanted to come along, but I said that I had a lot of homework. Another lie.
What I wasplanning was far from homework. I eyed the plastic bag again and sighed. I got my supplies from a shop in Seattle that I found online. The owner seemed suspicious when he asked if I was over 18 years old and I told him that I was. He had been helpful though, after I told him what I needed, a bit too helpful.
I peeked inside the bag, still feeling a bit flushed about the contents. One bottle of lube, a pack of condoms, a tiny butt plug, a slightly larger vibrator and a movie. I took the DVD out of the bag and picked up my laptop from the night table. I inserted the DVD and took off the rest of my clothes as it loaded.
I slid under the covers of my bed and turned the music volume back up. I was really nervous, but this was something I had to do before tomorrow. Just one more day before I would have a sleep over at Alice's house, with Edward. I knew that he had experience with sex, so did I, just not with gay sex. I wanted to know what it would be like, so I searched the web for gay porn.
I didn't find anything, mostly because there was parental supervision on my laptop. Most sites containing the information I needed were blocked. But I did find the address of a sex-shop in Seattle.
Not knowing what I needed, I told the owner my current situation, nerves raging through my body, cheeks flushed. The heavily tattooed salesman had laughed and slapped me on the back. He sat me down in a chair and handed me a soda. "I don't believe you are old enough to be in here, but I understand why you are." he said and sat down opposite me.
"Damn, I might get into serious trouble helping you out, but hey, I have a soft spot for teenage gay boys." He started laughing even harder when my eyes widened and I shifted uncomfortably in my chair. "Don't sweat, it's not that kind of soft spot! We're all like you at first, young, horny and nervous. If I don't help you out, you'll go to another place, and you might get all the wrong stuff! So, I'm Jacob." He smiled at me reassuringly and shook my hand.
"So, what would you like to know?" He asked and my cheeks had flushed again. "Oh come on, if you're going to be having sex, you might as well live up to it!" He said with a wink. "Ask me anything, I'm a sex encyclopedia! I've done a fair bit myself and I've seen or heard about the rest. I even experimented with some guys at college, so don't go thinking my straight ass has got no experience." I chuckled, the man's charms made me feel at ease.
He told me all about topping and bottoming, giving head, rimming and even some weird shit called sounding. The last he warned me about, it was very risky, but no way in hell I was planning on stuffing anything up my dick anyway.
When he picked the butt plug from the shelf he threw it at me and started explaining again. "You will want to start with this. It's small, like a finger. Now listen up. Lube your ass, lube this plug, lube your fingers and than lube everything some more! Just tease your ass with it without pushing it in at first. You know, sliding it against it, applying some pressure without pushing through." I nodded my head as he explained, though this was slightly awkward.
He went on. "Then you can go and try to get it in. Make sure you are entirely relaxed first, with the teasing. Now, when you push it in, you will want to press, like you do when doing a number 2. Don't squeeze, just push. Got it?" I nodded again.
"Right, next thing you need." He picked up the vibrator from the shelf. "Once the plug is all good, and you can slide it in and out without burn, use this one. It's only slightly bigger, but it's got this little bend at the end, see?" He threw the box at me and I watched the design. "It'll hit your prostate and make you feel all good and wonderful."
He let his eyes wander over the shelves again, picked up a bottle of lube and a pack of condoms. "Use water based with the condoms, they won't survive the oil based lubes." The man was like a freight train, I was kind of dumb struck from the moment he said sex encyclopedia. I nodded again.
"Oh, and last but not least, some inspiration!" He picked up the DVD and tossed it to me. "It's a good one, trust me!" He walked passed me to the register and I followed him, dropping the stuff on the counter. "Alright, I'll let you have the condoms for free, so be sure to use them. Oh and tell your Edward to go slow, ok? If he wants to have sex with you, he better not make you regret it!" Again I nodded and softly stumbled out a thank you before paying and driving home.
And now here I was. If Jacob's explanation had been uncomfortable, this was worse. I kind of felt a little ashamed and secretive, having this premeditated evening of self exploration. I really didn't know how to get rid of this feeling.
I started the porn and watched it, awkwardly sitting in bed naked, hands above the blankets. I was watching two really hot guys sucking each other off and it was really hot. Still I felt weird and didn't dare to actually touch myself. Fuck! Why am I so fucking weirded out by this!
Right, so I usually jerked off in the shower, maybe that would help. I grabbed the plug and lube on my way to the bathroom and let the water run to heat it up. I turned off all lights in the bathroom except the one above the mirror and locked the door. When the water was finally warm I stepped under the jet and tried to relax.
I let my hands go over my body and pinched my nipples. They had always been very sensitive and touching them sent a shiver down my spine. I ran one hand down my abdomen while I kept teasing the nubs on my chest with the other one. I thought of kissing Edward while I palmed my now semi hard dick. I wondered what it would feel like if he was with me in the shower, touching me.
I took the bottle of soap and squeezed some on my hands. I grabbed my cock and slowly started moving my hand up and down the shaft. I wasn't really jerking off yet, just enough to get a full erection. I slipped one hand around me and slid my soaped fingers down between my buttocks.
I rubbed my fingers over my hole again and again, so far it felt really good. I wanted more of it for sure, so I tried to push my finger in, just a little. It didn't really work, but to be honest, as soon as I tried I could feel my whole body tense. This wasn't going to work standing in the shower like this, I should go back to my room and try there.
I quickly rinsed off the soap and got out of the shower. I dried my body and left the towel around my hips as I darted back to my room with the lube and plug. The darkness in the bathroom had helped, so I turned off all the lights in my room and put the stereo back on.
Laying down on the bed I folded a pillow under my hips for better access. I coated my fingers with lube and lifted my legs up, knees to my chest. Rubbing my entrance again, a small drop of pre-cum smeared over my stomach. I closed my eyes and tried to relax. I slowly pushed my middle finger through the tight ring of muscle. It felt a bit uncomfortable, but it didn't hurt, so I pushed through the second ring. Ouch! Fuck! I kept my finger still, right where it was.
After a little while laying there, not moving, with my own finger in my ass, the burn went away. I was confident that was a good thing and I pushed my finger a bit further in. Holy fucking hell! How am I ever going to be able to shove that plug in here? Let alone Edward's dick? I pulled my finger out quickly, which felt even worse. "Fuck!" I muttered, I was definitely screwed, or not screwed at all when you thought about it.
Maybe it had to do with the nails, the plug didn't have nails and Jacob had told me to push like on the toilet when it was going in. I hadn't done that either. I took the plug and covered it heavily with lube. Just to make sure I rubbed some lube on my entrance as well.
I rubbed the rubber toy along my hole a few times until I felt relaxed again. I rounded the top of the plug to my entrance. As I pushed like I was pushing something out I quickly pressed the plug all the way in. Oh fucking hell, for all that is holy, fuck! I squealed loudly and grunted. I rolled to my side, my hand hovering over the plug in my ass. I was too fucking scared to move. Fucking hell, that hurt! It needed to get out, it burned! But how the hell was I going to get it out? Moving it hurt way to much!
Okay, I was going to do this like ripping off a plaster, everyone knows that as long as you do it fast, it hurts less! I took the plug and breathed in deeply. One, two, three... "Aaaaaaarch! Fuck! FUCK!" I screamed as I ripped the plug back out of my ass. I really hope that Edward likes having something up his ass, because I'm sure as hell not letting him anywhere near mine!
Let me know that you think!
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