AN: I finished this chapter yesterday and I was going to post this tomorrow, but I feel that you need a little dose of this story. You guys are on point with the reviewing. Hope you enjoy reading and please review. Thank you for reading. Thanks for reviewing: Butterscotch, MHfanSmoezz, Nobot4life, steple, Mackster, Bianca, Tracer, and Cavak. Read and tell me what you think. I WILL make a better sexual scene between Casey and Alex. I have to make the atmosphere and it will have to click with the story. [ Just for you :) coming soon ;D ]

I feel so relaxed. She starts to breathe on my neck. She plants kisses ever so delicately.

"Alex…" I mutter out of my lips. After that orgasm I don't think I can get another crazy feeling. "We are heading to work tomorrow…" I manage to say as she lightly kisses me on my lips.

She climbs on top of my and pins down my arms. She places all her hair to her right side and tilts her head a bit and leans towards my ear.

She smells like Japanese Cherry Blossom.

"Casey…" I shudder at the proximity and the apparent lust in her voice. She moves back and stares at me. "You are so beautiful…I just want you to be mines… so bad. I feel so restricted. I don't want to put you in a crazy position." Alex tells me.

"Alex, we only have been in this for a few days…" I sit up and she is still on my lap. I place my hands on her waist to move her forward and leave them there. "What we have is so complicated. I never, had a connection like this, not with Olivia…" I smile as I remember what she just did to me. "That…what you just did for me was amazing. I don't know…but there is something about you that attracts me so. I don't…want to feel this…it's so wrong…but so right…" Tears escape my eyes. "I love Olivia. I really do, but I don't know what to do. I feel this…between us…I don't want to hurt Olivia but I don't want to leave you. I know at some point I will have to choose…"

I was interrupted by Alex, "…Casey…you don't have to choose…" She is crying too.

"I will Alex. You know it as much as I do…someone is going to get hurt…and if it happens, I want it to be me…"

She leans in to kiss me, which ends in a hug. "So what do we do now?" Alex asks sniffling.

I shrug, "I am falling in love with you…I already tripped and fell twice…I just don't know when I fall again, who's hand will I grab, Olivia's or yours."

She looks at the time, "It's twelve sixteen in the morning. Let's sleep." She climbs off of me and heads to her side.

I lean to turn off the lamp.

Next Day

I wake up to a buzzing sound on the lamp stand. I look at Alex and she is sleeping soundly. I grabbed my phone and walked out of the room.

I stare at my phone's time, six thirty. Usually the time I wake up when Olivia is around.

"Hello," I state effortlessly.

"Hey Babe, glad to hear you're alive. What about Alex?" I hear her chuckle.

I walk to my couch. "She's alive…" I respond with annoyance. I don't hate Alex damn it…

"Grumpy? Well, you said your car didn't start…and Alex didn't bring her car…I am coming to pick you up around 8?" Olivia asks.

"Yea." I shut the phone off. I didn't mean to act so grumpy…Olivia is just annoying at the moment.

I grab my towel and head into the shower.

After I am done freshening up I realize Alex hasn't woken up. I gently shake her. "Alex…" I whisper.

She is a light sleeper. Her eyes burst open. "Hey," She states softly.

I kiss her forehead. "Olivia, is picking us up at eight, it's exactly seven so take your shower and dress up." I say as I walk towards my closet.

We finished everything around eight fifteen. Olivia hasn't showed up yet. She said eight. Whatever Olivia is doing is pissing me off…Everything she does wrong annoys me and I don't know where this is coming from.

Olivia knocks on my door.

I head towards the door to go open it. I give Olivia this look. She quickly responds, "I ran into a person…lost track of time." She shook her head. "I am here now, so let's go."

I follow behind Alex. I don't know why, but I am infuriated. As we enter the car the slam the passenger door.

Olivia stares at me as if I am insane. She gets into the car, as does Alex, who probably at this moment is scared out of her mind.

Olivia drops off Alex and I. I get out of the car first and I don't turn back. She is…ugh. I enter my office and shut the door behind me.

Seconds later I hear a small knock.

I look up, "Ugh…Come in" I state with attitude.

Alex enters with this shock look on her face. She locks the door like it is policy.

Why did she come? I just want to be alone.

"Casey, did something happen between you and Olivia?" I know she is caring and all, but I am just not up for this right now.

"Alex…Look we both have to work today…I just want to focus, ok?" I get back to working.

"Casey, what is bothering you?" She sat in the seat Olivia usually sits on.

I look up with this angry face expression, "Alex, please…later."

She doesn't move. She is so stubborn.

"Look, I am pretty sure we are going to get somewhere with this whether you like it or not. I don't care how mad you are." She glares at me.

I'm not giving in. "Alex! I can't play these games right now. I am fucking pissed right now ok! Just go…please." I didn't mean to come off rude.

"Look, I am actually trying to hear you out. Don't shut me out. What the hell is bothering you this much." She doesn't give in.

I am getting angry. I am going to ignore her, so my big mouth doesn't get me in trouble.

The truth is I am pissed. Olivia let me fall in love with Alex. I mean its Olivia's fault, right? She doesn't…She isn't Alex. We butt heads on cases as diminutive as he say-she say. I hate Olivia for…I shouldn't hate her, but I do. It's my fault that Alex and I happened, but it's also hers. When Alex says she will do something, she will follow through with it. Olivia on the other hand…I don't know…I love Olivia. However, marriage seems like a far away option…even though we are engaged.

What is being engaged? A title I must have for another year until I am finally yours. Why don't we get married already? I am dreading the days as they may be approaching faster. I am not dreading marrying Olivia, but rather dreading that I will be marrying her and leaving Alex behind.

I know I will end up choosing one of them, but when? The day I am betrothed to Olivia? Today? Tomorrow?

"I'm going to call Olivia. Look, I promise I will tell you later." I calmed down and I feel the need to tell Olivia I am sorry and that I love her.

Alex's face expression changed the moment I mentioned Olivia's name. "Uh…yea…ok."

I think somewhere deep inside; she hoped Olivia and I were over. As she steps out of the room I start to dial Olivia's number.

"Benson." I hear shuffling of papers. She must be at the precinct.

"Olivia, it's me, Casey." I reply.

"Oh," She sounds depressed.

"I just wanted to say I am sorry. I am sorry for everything," I tell her as tears are rushing down my cheeks, "I am sorry for everything that I have done to piss you off or hurt you in anyway. I don't know what to do anymore…each day it gets harder and harder…" My voice starts to break up.

"Whoa, sweetie, its ok. We all have bad days, look I can pick you up during lunch to eat and we can talk and whatever is on your mind can come out, ok?" Her voice is soothing.

"Yea. I just want you to know I love you so much. I love you, ok?" I start to wipe my tears.

"I love you, too. Casey, I think you need me now. I can just drop…"

"No, you come during lunch ok."

"Ok."

I feel at least some release of guilt.

AN: Killing Me Softly… Countdown by Beyonce. That is pretty much a song for this story. Casey is under a lot of pressure. Who do you think she should chose? Just wondering…I like reviews and readers. This chapter = your gift from me to you :)