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On the topic of "What did Alex mean when she said she forgot something?"

Well, you will just have to find out. I promise you will know when she 'remembers.'

Chapter 14

I know Alex has this fear that she will not be chosen. She has a fear that she will be left behind, to see my happy life with Olivia. It is not like that. I have a fear of leaving my comfort zone. A fear of losing my fiancé. A fear of losing Alex. I hope that somewhere in this twisted world I could love both…have both…I have a lot of fears, locking up an innocent man, a fear of dying. Most of all, my greatest fear is being alone for the rest of my life, becoming a bitter old ADA, who looks back at her life and having regrets. I don't want to regret my decision.

Olivia and I….we were love at first sight…Once I saw how passionate she was and clever she was I immediately fell in love with her. We were closer than ever. We would talk all night. I remember when I lost my ADA badge…she didn't tell me how stupid I was to do such a thing…she understood why I did it…I told her that I want to leave New York in search for answers…to do what…I really don't know…but she cheered me on. She was with me through my ups and downs. Lately, not so much…we have grown apart…maybe it was because of Alex's and my relationship…or it was just us…drifting away…

Then, Alex came into my life…out of nowhere…I hated her…but it seems like I hated her, for her crush on me, if that makes sense. When I am with her I feel… different. She is different too. I never thought I would see The Alex Cabot, shed a tear, especially over me. I love her and I don't want to hurt her either. She is so good to me. She is what I need now. I just don't know if that is what I will need for the rest of my life. I feel like I can tell her anything. I can be with her and smile. I know she loves me, cares about me, will do anything for me…but am I repaying that back to her? I can romance her, sure…but can I care about her like she cares about me…will I do anything for her? Some questions don't have answers…yet.

"…I adore you." Alex just said something and all I got was I adore you.

"I love you." I say.

"I love you, too." Alex's voice gives me shivers.

I like that she is always calm…in every situation…she cares about my feelings…I have to say when she took me to relax... I was awestruck. Did she fall from heaven? Every day I am with I fall deeper and deeper in love with her. She hates when I am tense or angry. She gets out of her way to please me and all I can do is tell her that her fate, with me, lies on a decision. A decision that tells her if she can be my girlfriend or not, A decision that can change both our lives forever.

Then this decision leads all the way back to me. It leads back to my feelings, my heart. I don't have an answer now. I don't think I will ever have one. I will just hope my brain doesn't bail on me if my heart doesn't work. It's going to be tough to see either of them out of my life. I don't think I can bare to see Olivia's face when I tell her I have been cheating on her…If I choose her…It will suck…she won't trust me…she won't want me. It will suck if I don't choose her. She will be devastated…but it's my decision. I can't base it on their reactions…I have to base it on me and my needs.

"What are you thinking? Why are you so quiet? It's weird…" Alex asks.

I giggle a little bit, "Sorry…I actually don't want to talk about it…not right now…I like the silence."

"I always get what I want out of you…I hope you know that."

I nod, "I know."

Week Later

I am packing to go on a trip with Olivia. Where are we headed? Miami, Florida. I knew a couple of friends who own a beach house and they said they will let me borrow it for a week. That is where we are headed. I did promise Alex I will call her when I get the chance.

The plane ride was great but I have to say looking at that beach house made my day. We were both a little jet lagged so we slept in the bedroom.

I woke up first. She was still asleep and I didn't want to wake her. I grabbed my phone and stepped outside.

I called Alex. "Hey, Lex it's me Casey." I gave her that nickname a couple nights ago. She was trying to order food and some guy who was foreign asked for her name…she had to repeat her name at least 20 times. 'Alex, A-Lex…no…no…Lex…yes..Alex.' So from that I just started calling her Lex.

"Oh, hey," I hear her shut her door. "I already miss you."

"I miss you too. We just arrived. Olivia is sleeping. I am hoping we get enough strength to do something today…"

"What's going on? Are you afraid? Your voice…it's a little shaky" she tells me.

"I don't know…I am afraid to tell her…how would that make you feel? Hey we are on vacation and I tell you I am cheating…doesn't sound like what a normal person plans…" I stare at the beautiful scenery ahead of me. They water crashing into the soft sand.

"Hey, you will be great just…tell her how you feel…I haven't been to Florida in this time of year…is it beautiful?" she is just trying to change the subject.

"Hey, who are you talking to?" Olivia comes up behind me.

I got a little startled and I turn around rapidly. "Hey, look I will call you later about the case. Alright…bye." I think I just left Alex in confusion…she'll figure it out.

"My assistant. She wanted to know who should take my case." She nods.

"Ok…I just woke up with a huge craving to party at south beach...you're in?" She asks still at the door step. The wind blowing in her face.

"I'm cheating on you." I can't believe I just said that.

"What?" she looks like she didn't understand.

I can't take it back it's already out in the open. "I am cheating on you."

"Ok...so we pack...and get the hell out of here..." She is hiding her feelings.

"Olivia..."I lean to touch her.

She quickly moves. "Don't touch me..." she walks away and enters the room.

I follow her only to get the door shut at my face. I understand that she is going to be angry.

I walk away to the living room.

Bang.

Fear comes upon me as I rush to Olivia's room.

AN: Cliffhanger or what? I know you hate me but hey I had to do it...guess what Casey blurted it out..on the first day of vacation...Tell me what you think...I have to say it is mean of me to leave you in these type of situations. Feedback is greatly appreciated.