AN: Say...did I leave you in a cliffhanger yesterday? Lol...it was mean. I think Olivia is a pixeled character in this story on that she is always distant and you rarely get a read on her. You know she loves Casey, a lot. She is in love with her and even with fights they seem to get closer...Sorry for the cliffhanger hope you can forgive me :). Lol. Lucky 13 reviews last chapter. Thanks for reading and reviewing: tummer22, JeffHardy724, MHfanSmoezz, Mackster, Stussy, Lexie, Tracer, Madds21, Nobot4life, Butterscotch, Cavak, Surfrider, and steple.

I am trying to open the door.

"It's ok the gun fell...I didn't think you were this caring over me, Case... If you were cheating on me...why did you accept the ring...you put me through all this trouble for you to hurt me in return." I hear her sobbing.

I jam open the door. She's on the floor curled up. "Case, I don't want to be near you right now..."

"I know there is no excuse in the world to excuse what I did to you...I want to tell you how it happened..." She makes me feel like I am a monster. That is what I am...I should have said no...but I said yes...Instead of telling her how I felt... I found it somewhere else.

She doesn't even look at me. She is taking this calmer than I expected... "I was in a bad place after that night...you know about the trust thing...I called Alex...she came over and we immediately hit it off..."

She laughed, "Ha ha that's Alex for you..."

"...I love her...she loves me..." she turns around. Her eyes puffed red and her nose is red also.

"I just want to know what went through your head as you were cheating on me...I was never going to find out?" she asks.

"I don't know." I tell her.

"Did you sleep with her?" She looks at me in the eyes.

"Yes..." She quickly gets up and grabs her suitcase.

"Good thing I didn't unpack yet." She isn't holding back feelings now...I think whatever she wants to say to me is going to explode out of her.

"Look, Case...This hurts...I am sorry I can't love you like Alex Cabot...The Alex Cabot I know is...whatever just...I don't want you near me right now..." I know she is trying to run away from this...but she can't...I want her to yell at me...take things off her chest before she does something she regrets.

"Olivia...tell me what is going through your mind...I know you hate me right now...that is normal...but I have known you too long for you to be this calm...I don't want you to do anything stupid..."

"Stupid? What about what you did to me? Was that stupid? I don't hate you...I am hating myself...I fell so hard for you and you led me to believe a lie." She continues to cry as she is dragging her suitcase to the rental car.

"What we had...what we have...isn't a lie...it wasn't a lie Olivia..." She stops and turns towards me.

"That was five years Casey...five years...if you didn't want to be in this why didn't you tell me...I fell for you..." She pulled out the keys.

"I am sorry...It just happened...it's not like I planned for this." Tears are streaming out of my eyes. I feel like I abandoned her.

"Look, don't worry about me...I should of seen this coming right? I am a detective...I pushed Alex to you...It's my fault...I will be at a hotel, this vacation really was a great idea..." She enters the car. The winds brushing through her hair, she looks at me with these loss eyes. A loss for words. She hates cheaters. She looked at me like she looks at one of those scumbag rapists she locks away.

Slowly she pulled out of the driveway. I did not run after her knowing that she needs the space, to recollect herself.

I am the one cheating and I feel so disgusted of myself. I am the one who is anxious. I sit on the curb and berate myself for my big mouth, and big heart.

My phone vibrates. It's Alex.

"Hey..." I try to say strongly hoping she won't notice that I am crying.

"Casey? What the hell happened? I can hear you sniffling." She states with a sort of alertness to her voice.

"Um...I..." I fall silent as tears gush out of me like a waterfall.

"What is going on? Casey!" She sounds scared for me.

"I told...Olivia..." I tell her. She is probably happy.

"Oh my gosh, sweetie. I thought you were going to wait until Saturday?" I know she is happy...I just know it...

"Alex, stop acting like you care...you wanted this to happen all along..." I continue to cry.

"Acting like I care? Look, Case...where are you? I can come in a couple hours..."

"NO! Alex, just stop...leave me alone...I didn't think that it would hurt this bad... letting her go. Telling her I am one of those idiots on the street... cheating on their girl...she trusted me, Alex, damn it! How can you trust me...how do you know I won't cheat on you?"

"Casey, calm down. I trust you because you trust me. I know your heart. You didn't mean to do what you did. Our hearts just have different ways of telling you..."

"Telling me what? That I am with the wrong person?...give me a break..." the tears continue to pour out of me.

"You need some space. I will call you later. Ok?"

I shut the phone off.

A guy is approaching me. "Hey, are you ok?"

"Yea." I say through my tears.

"You don't look ok...The beach is relaxing...you should walk a bit..you know, to clear your head. I am a friends of Robert's..He told me you would be coming with your girlfriend...he told me to watch over you." He gives me his hand to pull me up.

"Thank you." I grab his hand and stand up.

"Can I?" he leans to wipe the tears off with his towel.

"Thank you."

"Hey, no need. Just go with the person that makes you happy." I look at him puzzled. How does he know about my dilemma...I never told Robert.

I see he him run to the beach and disappear within a crowd.

That was weird. I decide to actually take a walk on the beach, to clear my head.

When I was younger I always wanted to go to the beach but living in a landlocked state... I really never been to one. I had a friend I grew up with named Robert, we were once a thing, but only to hide our true selves. See, he was gay and I am a lesbian. I asked him if I could borrow his house maybe to see if Olivia and I could get married here. I ruined it I know.

I took off my shoes and placed my feet in the warm sand. I look to the sky, which is very beautiful at this time. I remember something Olivia told me 'our relationship is like a lost puppy. 'every moment I spend without you is like losing a puppy, hoping that when you find him, he will still love you and stand by you.'

I think I just made my decision.

AN: Hey! I think the next chapter is the last...which is so sad because I like this story...I think I can make a sequel work with Alex...(but the ending will be ruined because you read it here) lol...I will try. Thanks for reviewing, great stuff :). Of course...This is not much of a cliffhanger, but it does keep you guess on who is the person Casey chooses. I have bad news: I will not be updating tomorrow because I am going to an audition (wish me luck) and won't be on the computer. Thanks for being the best readers alive. Tell me what you think.