A/N: *sigh* You guys rock! I know... its getting a bit rocky.. but it will all work out. One thing I want to clear up! BOTH Edward and Bella treated that night as if it would be thier only night. Like Edward said, if she wanted me to contact her, she would have left her number. But she didn't. She didn't want to put them thru a long distance thing. This is just what happened as a result of that choice. Several coming your way!

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, SM does, I am playing in the sandbox! ENJOY!

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BPOV

We drive home in silence. Alice, seeing my resolve in not wanting to discuss what she walked into, concentrates on getting me home. I close my eyes and focus on keeping it together until we can get home. Then I can fall apart.

When Alice pulls into the drive, there is a flurry of activity. Alice's mom, Cynthia Brandon, greets me with a smile.

"How you feeling sweetie?" She runs a hand across my forehead. "No fever, any vomiting or pain?"

"No, just a bit queasy."

Cynthia turns around, "Kate, Bella's here."

I look up to see the private nurse the Brandon's hired to help care for me when I moved here after my diagnosis. At first I was reluctant for help when Alice brought me here. We compromised and I stayed with Alice in the apartment above the garage. But when Alice found me huddled in the bathroom after one of my chemo appointments, Cynthia refused to accept 'no' for an answer.

That very instant, I was moved into a room in the main house and Kate was hired to help me out. She has been invaluable to me. In the beginning I was so weak and anemic that Kate had to do everything for me. She helped me as I vomited, bathed me when I was too weak to lift my arms and kept me as fed as my stomach allowed.

But the generosity of the Brandon's didn't end there. Knowing how much Angela meant to me and Alice, they moved her in with us. Now she and Alice live in the apartment above the garage. On my good days I hang out with them like old times.

The only regret I have is that I had to withdraw from school. I rarely had the energy to get out of bed, much less to attend class, labs and keep up with the work. My girls held me as I cried when I made the decision.

After Kate gets me changed into comfy clothes and into bed, she scampers off to get me a snack and my after chemo meds. The second she out of the room, there is Alice, slinking in and sitting on my bed looking all innocent.

"Alice," I beseech.

She holds up her hand, "I know, not right now, but we will."

She gives that look that tells me that arguing would be pointless. I give her a terse nod as Kate comes back in the room.

"I hope you're behaving in here Alice, Bella needs her rest now."

Alice rubs my leg over the blankets, "Just checking up on her, Kate. I have some homework I should get going on. I'll come and check on ya later, ok Bella?"

I smile, "Sure." She gives me a pointed look and leaves.

"Here is some juice and your meds." Kate hands me a small cup with several medications inside. I take them at once and wash them down with half the cup of juice. I let Kate take my vitals and she helps me to settle down for a nap.

When I am alone in the dark, I close my eyes and see him behind my eyes. His pain and confusion clearly evident. My last conscious thought is if that is the last I would ever see of him.

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