A/N: Shall we check in on Edward?
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, SM does, I am playing in the sandbox! ENJOY!
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EPOV
When I arrive home after being at the hospital, I pace, furiously. My mind is a jumble and I have no clue how I am feeling or what I should I do.
Emmett's words swirl in the chaotic mess. My heart aches for her and whispers for me to find her. I shake my head in a vain attempt to clear out the noise. When that does nothing to alleviate my confusion I slump down on my couch and throw my head back.
What the fuck do I want?
What the fuck is the right thing to do?
Behind my closed eyes I see the wildly different Bellas. One is so full of life and passion, with dark eyes flashing fire and want. The other is still, shrunken, pale and ghostly, no sparks of life within her dull brown orbs.
This isn't how I pictured our reunion.
But still, there is the connection, the draw I feel for her. Time had not lessened it like I feared. Instead, it felt alive and vibrant.
Could I take of her? Did I want to take care of her? Would she even want me around her?
The way she asked Alice to get her out of there was a sharp knife to my spirit.
Umm, ya just stared at her asshole. What was she too think?
Ohh fuck, she must have thought the worse!
What if I had fucked things up too bad to make them right?
The idea of never seeing her again sent a sharp pain in my chest.
There is your answer buddy.
I sat up. I had to see her once more to say I am sorry.
Just then maybe we could see if something can grow between us.
Now I needed to figure out how to find her.
A/N: See.. he wants to at least make things right between them. Want a few more? Thoughts?