A/N: Another cuz I love you soo much!

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, SM does, I am playing in the sandbox! ENJOY!

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BPOV

"Are you sure you're fine with me going out tonight, Bella?"

The look of concern on Alice's face was heartwarming. I know how much she is looking forward to this date with Jasper. It has been all she could talk about. He is the first date she has gone on since my diagnosis. There is no need for both us to be sexless.

"Yea, go, Alice. Let me live vicariously through you." Just then a wave of nausea hit and I reach for the basin sitting on bedside table. I throw up the little snack I thought I could keep down. I swish my mouth with some water and spit it out.

"Still feeling sick?" I give her a small nod.

I had another chemo appointment yesterday. The throwing up usually lasts a day and then I am just weak for a few. But every once in awhile the after effects get worse and last longer than normal.

"I hate leaving you like this." She looks away. My illness is so hard on her. Sometimes I feel like I hold her back.

I clasp her hand in mine, "I'll be fine. Kate is here, so is your mom. You know I'll just be sleeping. No need for you to hang around like that. Go and have fun with Jasper. For me?"

I give her the best smile I can muster.

She looks at me warily, "Ok, just for you." She then erupts into giggles.

I give her a genuine smile, "Girl, I have seen Jasper, he is one fine looking man."

"But he's no Edward is he?"

I feel myself blush, something I haven't done in a while.

"I see that blush. You are so busted." She pauses and quiets down. "You still have a thing for him don't you?"

I nod, "Even in that short time we stared at each other I felt the pull to him. I can still remember the way his skin felt against mine."

"Then don't lose hope." She gives me a kiss on my cheek. "I'll come see you tomorrow as I'm sure I'll get in late."

"Sounds good. Have fun." I wave as she walks out my door.

"Do you want to take a shower, Bella?" asks Kate as she comes into my room.

"Yea. I would love to."

I see her eye the basin on the floor. "Got nauseous?"

"Yea, looks like one of those times."

She pats my hand.

"I got you." She then busies herself in helping me get to the bathroom and into the shower. With how weak I feel, she makes me sit on the shower chair and then lets me wash myself.

She hands me a terry cloth robe that will dry me quickly and then helps to rub vitamin lotion into my skin. When we are done, she helps me into some comfy pants, long sleeve shirt and my favorite hoodie.

When we open the door back into my room, I stop and almost faint.

"Hello, Bella."

A/N: Well... who could that be? One more so you can find out!