A/N: One more for the night. This means for tomorrow.. I am going to FLOOD your inbox..we have almost 30 more left to go! Can ya handle that?
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, SM does, I am playing in the sandbox! ENJOY!
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BPOV
Bella,
I carried your words everywhere I went. For months they lived not only in pocket, but in my heart and soul. I know how hard it is for you to let me in, to let me be there for you. Thank you for that honor, I will cherish it. I know together we can get through anything. I can't wait to see and talk to you again. Until then, I hope my words will keep you company.
Yours,
Edward
I read the words over and over, my heart screaming in joy. He cares, he really cares about me. But the cynical brain that rationalizes everything tries to break up the love fest. It asks me what do I really know about him, beyond the superficial.
I admit it's not much, but what I feel for Edward is something deep, intangible, and almost cosmic. There is a pull that draws us to each other. When he is in the room, there is no way that my body can't respond to him. It feels like an involuntary reaction to him.
It's a heady feeling, but one that scares the shit out of me. Because if has this hold on me now, what happens when my entire heart and soul is invested in him and us. While it has the potential to be a love and bond like none other, it also holds the ability to break me like nothing ever has.
Not like the day my parents and Nonna died or the day I got my diagnosis. Those experiences will seem like a drop in the bucket compare to what I would feel if this thing with Edward fails.
I'm not sure I can protect myself enough to buffer my heart.
I place his note in my pocket and walk to Alice's apartment. I want to hear about her date with Jasper and maybe try to get some objective advice on what to do about Edward. Something tells me that I'm way over my head and I have no idea how to tread water.
A/N: Hmm what should she do? Again.. thanks everyone.. you have no idea how much I enjoy your reviews! Good night!