A/N: Hey guys! Waddup? Sorry 'bout the last chappie … It was kinda lame and boring at the end … But it was late … And a school night … So yeah …
And, tell me, is it weird when a STRANGER goes up to you and your friends in the middle of the bus and asks "Who's been the good girl for today's lesson?" But yeah, my friend answers 'Me obviously.' Then he gives her a phone! Sony Erikson phone! "A gift" He says. And when he left (Well, ithink he did … ) , me and my friends starts talking about him and the phone, iwas like, 'Dude! Drop the bloody phone!" And my friend started to check his contacts and iwas still shouting at her "Drop the phone before something happens!" Then, all of a sudden, the man comes back (Told ya he didn't get off the bus …) and says to us, "If you don't want it, I'll take it back." Then to the man at the front, "Kids these days." WTF! And he left … So yeah … in my head iwas like, "idon't talk or even take things from strangers! ieven learned that at the park when igot lost … But that's another story …
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Chapter 5
Playing With Fire
Paul, I know that life's gonna be hard with you, but I also know for a fact that life will be harder without you.
"It's okay Bella. Let it all out."
Paul. Paul. The one who helped me calm down after my breakdown. Paul. The one who I used to have a little crush on. Paul. The one who I imprinted on. Paul. The one I love. Paul.
Yesterday, Paul helped me. He hugged me, rubbing my back, cradling me, smoothing me, treating me like I was made out of glass. And actually, it felt like I was that time. Paul. Helping me. Scaring the freshmen's' who tried to come in the toilet. Missing out on his lessons. Staying with me until there were no more tears that could fall. He stayed with me …
Me and Paul. Together. Holding hands. Rings on are our fingers. Children, our children. Happiness. Hope. Love.
In that instant, a vision showed about me and Paul. Walking on beach. Holding hands. Rings. Marriage. Our children making sand castles, playing in the ocean, messing around. Our happiness. Our hope. And our love. Me and Paul. Paul and I.
So you do love him. My wolf said to me.
Maybe I do. Maybe I don't my dear wolf. I said back.
You love him. It wasn't a question, but a fact. And to honest, it was true. I couldn't deny it. But to truth, my wolf loves him. Me? I haven't even thought about properly loving Paul. Me and my wolf are different. Way different. But also one, if you get me. I am her and she is me. But she doesn't get to decide for me, especially if it's about Pau.
Paul may love me, but love is such a passionate word. Too passionate. I sighed, glaring at the tree in front of me. I was a wolf now, in my usual clearing. I was happy here, content. Away from everything and anything.
My ears perked up when I heard bushes rustling. I stood up and looked to were the sound came from. I squinted my eyes and saw another wolf.
PAUL! My wolf shouted, excited. I growled at it, keeping it quite. Paul must have heard my growl because he looked my way.
Deep brown eyes. Chocolate brown eyes. Paul's beautiful brown eyes. So captivating, so Paul.
PAUL! My wolf shouted again. My Paul!
Shut up! Now! He's not yours or mine! He's not ours!
He will be! My wolf said. I was suddenly scared. The way my wolf said it sounded like it was a promise. Like she will do everything in her power get Paul, and she won't stop until she gets Paul.
I whimpered from the sudden hurt and pain my wolf was bringing me to. She was fighting back, and it hurt like hell. Man, my wolf can fight back hard.
Paul! My wolf shouted again. I growled at her, wanting her to keep quiet.
I felt Paul's eyes on me. He must be thinking something is wrong with me, and honestly, I can agree with him on that. I wanted to look at his eyes again, his deep brown eyes. The eyes I used to love to fall into. The Paul I used to love to fall for. My wolf smiled, thinking fast. And not a moment too soon, my wolf took over my whole body. And finally, my body was in no control, but my wolf was.
I looked at my Paul. I gazed into his eyes. Oh how I love his eyes. He gazed into mine and I knew we were meant to be. Me and Paul. Forever. Like it should be. He looked deep into my eyes like he could see my soul, and I could see into his. He smiled at me and my body shivered. My Paul. I went closer to him and he went closer to me. The bond was getting better and better, the way it should be. The way the Sprites wants us to be. The way I want to be, with my Paul.
'Awwooo'
Right after the howl, (Thankfully) my wolf got distracted. Making a gasp, I was finally placed back into body, having control of it. I looked at Paul, feeling my heart beep faster. Damn wolf! And speaking of my wolf, she was growling and snarling at me. I rolled my eyes at her. I would take care of her later.
'Awwooo'
Paul looked where the sound came from, then back to me. He gave me a sad look, desperate and my heart swelled for me to comfort him. I smiled at him, giving in for a second, just one to see Paul smile. And he did. My smile grew.
'Awwooo'
Paul growled, annoyed for some reason. I shook my head at him. Stupid mutt, he should be running to help whoever howled instead of being here with me. I gave another smile at Paul and then I ran, but not after hearing Paul whine like a baby. I smiled to myself.
I phased back and stretched my body. I sighed and ran to Sam's house. When I was near my window, I jumped up from the tree. With my foot on the window sill, I jumped onto the roof. I sat down and looked out at the forest. I lay down and closed my eyes.
The way Paul looked at me, like he could see through my façade, my stupid and pathetic façade.
You idiot! My wolf said to me. I rolled my eyes but didn't answer. Why? Why?
Why are you asking me that? I asked her.
You idiot! She yelled at me.
I'm sure we established that already wolfie. I said with a roll of my eyes.
Why are you like that?
Like what?
Didn't you feel the way Paul felt? He was hurt!
And so was I! I shouted inside. I was hurt. Not only him. Not only Paul! Paul hurt me! Shouldn't I feel a little bit?
You foolish child. My wolf said softly. Far to softly to me. You will end up hurting yourself as well as Paul. You do the things you do to Paul and you feel the hurt he feels, but you still do what you do.
"Try getting hurt by the person you love! Try feeling so alone and abounded. So confused and misused! Try loving Paul for all eternality and then having him break you to a million pieces when he says all those hurtful words right at your face! And then you find out that he loves you all of a sudden. That he wants to be with you. Forever. All because of a stupid imprint. Not him!" I whispered to my wolf. Tears were running down my face. I never felt so weak. All because of Paul. "Try loving again but when you look at him, and then you remember all the pain that was caused. Try that and then tell me what happens!"
"Bella!" Emily shouted from the ground. I quickly wiped my eyes and looked at her.
"Yeah?" I asked her from the roof.
"Get down here woman! You might fall!" Emily shouted.
"Emily?" Sam asked, getting out. I rolled my eyes. Then Paul and Jared went outside as well. Hey, the more the merrier, right?
"Look Sam, Bella's up there on the roof, she might get hurt!" Emily said worried.
"I'm fine Emily." I stood up, showing her I'm okay. "Perfectly fine." I took a step towards the tree but my foot slid down the wood and I gave a scream as I slipped.
"Bella!" I heard Paul scream. I closed my eyes and waited for the ground to be in contact with my body, but I felt a warm body collide with him. I landed on the ground but with a body below mine. I breathed out, glad that I'm okay. But –
"Oh shit!" I said as I look up. Paul was below me. "Paul!" I shouted, touching his face, smoothing him. "Are you okay?" I asked him, rubbing him and checking for injures. I looked into his eyes and it held happiness, disbelief and scared.
"You're touching me." He said, in delight, and that brought me back into the real world. I glared at him, standing up.
"Bella, are you okay?" Emily asked me, checking for any broken bones.
"I'm fine." I huffed out. I looked at Paul again and I smirked at him. "Are you hurt?"
"No." He said far too quickly. I pressed my foot to his chest and he groaned. My smirk widened.
"Ya sure?" I asked again. He just nodded. "Okay." I said, walking away. When I was close to the house, I heard Jared say, "Dude, you okay?"
"Fine." Paul said, and then groaned. I smiled again at Paul's ways. He'll never change; stupid and idiotic as always.
I woke up, still sleepy and tired. I yawned and got up to shower. After a nice and refreshing shower I got change into a grey tank top, grey jeans, grey jacket and my Converse. I was wearing coloured grey clothing as I was in a grey mood. I grabbed my beanie and my bag and went down stairs. I grabbed a top tart and went to my car. I put my key in and it didn't start. I tried again but it failed.
"What?" I asked myself. I shook my head and tried again. And again, then again.
"Car trouble?" A deep voice next to my car. I jumped and looked out the window. My face was face go face with the one and only, Paul Lahote.
"What?" I asked him, annoyed.
"Car trouble?" He repeated.
"Yes, as you can see." I said in a 'duh' tone.
"Yes, I can see." He stated.
I rolled my eyes at him. "And what do you want exacly?"
"Nothing I want. But there is something you might need from me."
"Oh really?" I asked him, in disbelief. Me, need something from him? Is he really that full of himself?
"Yes."
"Oh do carry on, oh helping one." I said sarcastically.
"You need a ride."
"No thanks."
"What?"
"I said, no thanks."
"But - " I opened my door and got out. I tied my shoe laces tight, knowing it's going to be a long journey. "Bella - "
"Bye Paul." I said to him, waking away. After a few minutes I didn't see him behind me. He gave up that easily? I asked myself, all of a sudden sad and alone. Then, according to my mood, it started to rain. "Oh come on!" I yelled out to the sky. "Stupid rain." Then the rain got heavier. "Stupid, stupid rain!"
Beep!
I jumped and nearly slipped when I heard a car's horn.
"What the - ?" I half asked myself but stopped when I saw Paul's car driving next to me. I glared at him but started to walk away. Paul's car kept on following me at a slow speed. I was half tempted to get into his car and half wanted to kick it's tires down, but that would mean Paul would have to walk with me if I did so.
That'll be good. Paul and his warmth. My wolf said to me. I rolled my eyes at her. Stupid wolf.
Warm or not, I'm not letting him touch me! I warned her.
"Bella!" Paul yelled. "Bella!" He repeated, but I didn't pay attention to him, I kept on walking. Even for a werewolf, I was already tired. Damn I'm so weak! This time my wolf rolled her eyes at me. "Bella Isabella." Paul sang out. I turned to him and glared at him. I hate it when people call me that. I just hate it.
"Paul." I warned him, grinding my teeth.
"Okay, I'll stop called you that Bella Isabella only if you get into the car." He offered.
"Oka - No!" I said to him.
He rolled his eyes at me. "Bella Isa - "
"Shut up Paul, or else!" I said to him. I started to walk a bit fast but slipped on the ground.
But before my body went down, another body held me, a warm one, again. The roof accident came back to me. I looked up to see Paul suddenly looking angry at me.
"Would you be more carefull Bella! You could've gotten hurt!" He nearly yelled at me.
"You -" I pointed my finger to his chest, "- Paul Lahote, have no right to yell at me!"
" Yes I do Bella!"
"Really? Since when?"
"Since I impri - "
"Impri - what?" I asked him, smirking. Caught you there Paul, but too bad I already know your deep dark secret. Okay, maybe not dark but it is deep. You get the point.
"That's it!" He grabbed me by my waist and slung me over his shoulder.
"Paul!" I yelled at him. But my wolf was happy. Good view of his butt, eh?
Yeah, yeah. Good view, whatever.
Suddenly a idea came to me. I quickly pinched Paul's butt but then Paul slapped mine. Back fired plan Bella. My wolf said to me. I could practically see and feel her smirk.
"Don't think so Isabella." The way he said my name made me shiver, and I didn't like it, at all, but my wolf did. Of course she would. "Think you could do that to me, think again. I'll do that to you. And speaking of butts, you have a nice one. Good shape, really nice. Hey, have you ever - "
"Shut up!" I yelled at him.
He laughed and said, "Joking, geez. A little sensitive are we Isabella?"
"Shove it!"
"'Ere we go." He dropped me into his car, quickly closed it and went to the drivers seat. "You cold?" He asked, like it was the most normalise thing to say. Like he didn't just pick me up and slung me over if shoulder. I rolled my at him.
I kept really quiet, not wanting to talk to Paul, just me having my arms crossed, a frown on my face.
"A lady with a beautiful face should never frown." He said.
"A man like you - Oh sorry, a man like you would always make a lady like me frown. Hello, you made me frown and cry not long ago."
"I'm sorry." He whispered. He sounded so sincere.
Because he is. My wolf whispered.
I know. I whispered back. I know so damn much.
I just nodded. I closed my eyes and started to think.
"You can tell me." Paul said after a while.
"'Bout what?" I asked him, confused.
"About what your feeling."
"Cold." I said to him. Not outside-shivering cold, but inside-scared and alone cold.
"Come here." He held his arm out. I looked at him, and all my will broke out - I started to cry. "Bella." He stopped the car and unbuckled my seatbelt. He put me onto his lap and hugged me. Paul and his warmth is nice. So nice. So warm. I sighed and snuggled into him. For once am I only going to do this. For once am I letting myself give in. Only for once will I be with Paul. I put my arms around his shoulders and hugged him tight. "Bella?" He asked me. I shook my head and hugged him tighter. I cried on his shoulders. 'Sorry.' I mouthed on his shirt. 'So sorry.' Paul rubbed my back, trying to calm me, and it worked. "You can tell me anything Bella."
I nodded, and sat up from his lap, but my arms were still around his shoulders. "You know yesterday, the phone call?" I asked him, wincing from the pain for Derrick.
"Yeah," He urged me to carry on, but I stopped talking, deciding if I should continue. "Don't shut me out," He begged. He put his hands on my cheeks, "Please."
I nodded again. "My friend called and she said that my best friend got into an accident and I just broke. Derricks my best friend and to have him there - barely alive is killing me in the inside." I explained to him. "I mean, have you ever had someone you love close to dying, and you couldn't be there with the them because you were too far away?" Paul nodded. He did ... ? "And then I just couldn't handle it anymore, so I broke to pieces."
"And I was there to bring it all back, to fix the pieces, and Bella, know this: I'll always be there to pick up the pieces you left or have broken." He promised.
"Than maybe Paul, you should start picking up the pieces you left broken." I said, looking right into his eyes.
"Than I will. I'll do it now. All of it. Just to show you that I want us to have a new beginning."
I shook my head, putting his hands away from my face. "It's not like that - "
"Yes it is Bella. I'll work my damn hardest to get your trust back, to get everything back. I was stupid and an idiot before, but now it's different. I'm different!" He gently grabbed my face and my lips met his. My lips mould into his, and for the second time, I left myself fall into Paul. I kissed him back, with all my might and will. I kissed him, pouring my emotions into his. I gave him all my hurt and pain, and somehow ... My love. And he gave me his sorrow, guilt and Love. He softly licked my bottom lip, asking for entrance. I shook my head. "Not yet." I whispered onto his lip. I felt him nod, and started to continue to kiss me again. My arms went around to his neck and his arms went around to my waist. We both held onto each other tightly, like one of us would lose each other, and I honestly thought that.
Tap, tap, tap. The sound of someone tapping on the window broke me and Paul apart. The door swung open to reveal Jared and Embry.
"Oh - um ..." Jared couldn't finish his sentence. I mean, it isn't everyday you'd see your new number one enemy kissing your best friend, which is also her enemy.
"Uh - hello?" Embry said.
I laughed and got off Paul, who whimpered. I smirked at the inside. I ran a hand through my hair and said, "What's up guys?"
"Um - well, we say Paul's car here and we thought we could get a ride." Jared said to me, "That okay with you dude?" He asked Paul.
"You seriously gonna ask that man?" Embry said.
I laughed out loud again, while rolling my eyes. "Get it, we're already late, plus it's only my second day."
Jared and Embry got in at the back. Paul started the car and we head off to school with a little bit of awkwardness tension in the air.
I was munching on some nice - no, not nice, amazing, delicious even - home made spaghetti when Emily asked how my days are.
"Um - alright." I answered her. Not even alright is the right word for the days I've been having. I mean I couldn't really say, 'Yeah, well, yesterday, I had a break down in the school toilet, another one today in Paul's car and Paul was there to help me through it all. He also kissed me, I kissed him. His mates caught is red handed and he also told me I have a nice butt.' I could say that but what would they say? Especially Sam with the little comment about Paul and my nice butt.
Jared faked cough and nudged Paul's arm. Paul glared at him.
"Um, okay then." Emily said, staring at Paul and Jared.
"Well, my day, approximately at 8:37am, I saw a couple making out in the car and - " Embry started to say.
"Only you Embry would be so - what's the word - perverted to actually say and watch that." I interrupted him.
"Ah, but what I'd the couple in car was someone I knew?" He wiggled his brows at me.
"Again, I say: perverted. Nor even strangers but your friends, Embry Call, what would your mother say?"
"I am damn right proud of your son!" He said in a 'mother' voice.
"Ding, ding, ding, and he finally lost his marbles!" I said, jokingly. People at the table were shocked. "What? Do I have something on my face?"
"Uh no, but your talking to Embry." Jacob said.
"Yeah, I know. I mean, the dude lost his marbles, I think we should give him sympathy."
"But your talking to us, like not hating us ... " Quil said and an idea popped into my head.
"Okay then. So that's me trying to be nice. I guess I should stop. Sorry guys, but now I'm not going to be your friends anymore, we'll all go back to hating each other." I picked up my plate and started to walk to the stairs, hiding my smirk and my laughs.
"You idiot!" Embry yelled out.
"Quil! Seriously?" Paul yelled.
"Dude!" Jacob complained.
"I'm sorry okay?" Quil said.
I stiffened a laugh that wanted go come out.
"When your playing with fire, you'll get burn ... Hard." I whispered. I smirked to myself, doing a little happy dance.
"Bella! Someone's on the phone!" Emily yelled.
"Okay!" I shouted back.
I went downstairs and grabbed the phone.
"Hey babe." A voice said. I knew that voice.
"Derrick!" I shouted. I wanted to ask him so many questions but he said:
"Look at your porch."
"I'm sorry, what?"
"Look at your porch." He said again.
"Okay." I did as I was told, receiving some odd looks from the pack. I shrugged my shoulders. When I got out, I screamed. "Derrick!" I ran to him and jumped onto him, hugging him to death.
"Hey baby girl ... "
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