A/N: 4 of 6... this is the calm part... dont let it lull you into thinking it will be smooth sailing... if you've read me before.. you know I love to do this!

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, SM does, I am playing in the sandbox! ENJOY!

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BPOV

A picnic? He wants to go on a picnic?

I look at his hopeful face and the beautiful wicker picnic basic that he is holding.

"Seriously, Edward?" I laugh at his bright and excited face.

"Why not," he shrugs. "It's a beautiful day. We can have it in your room or maybe somewhere on the grounds? I even have a blanket."

He looks so eager and happy, there is no way I can tell him no. So I nod yes. "Let me get dressed and tell Kate where we will be. Come in and wait."

He steps into the foyer and waits as I rush to get my hoodie and another blanket for me to wrap myself in. I tell Kate we are walking out to the pond for a picnic. She hands me some meds in case I get sick.

When I walk back into the foyer, my breath catches at the sight of him. He really is too perfect and more than I'll ever deserve. I push way the depressing thoughts that threaten to ruin my day with Edward. I give him a huge smile as I tell him I'm ready to go.

We walk quietly, hand and hand to the pond that sits behind the house. It feels too good, too natural having him with me. I feel torn in two directions. How can I keep my distance when every cell in my body longs to pull him closer?

When we arrive at the pond, Edward spreads the blanket, gets me settled and then tucks my blanket around me. He sits down next to me and pulls me close.

"I missed the feel of you close," he breathes.

"Me too," I say as I snuggle closer.

"Tell me about the tour. I tried to follow it the best I could." I'm desperate to turn the conversation away from things that will only bind me further to him.

I watch as he searches my eyes, I want to tear my eyes from his penetrative gaze, but he hold me captive. A small pucker of the skin between his eyes mars his serene face before he begins to talk.

A small tremor of fear slithers down my spine. For a fraction of a second, I wonder if he can see I'm holding back.

A/N: Hmmm... interesting Bella... Thoughts?