A/N: 2 of 3... are you checking out the other stories..they are fabulous!
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, SM does, I am playing in the sandbox! ENJOY!
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BPOV
Somewhere deep inside me the damn broke. I'm unable to hold back how I felt about him or how much I needed him. I'm tired of trying to be reserved. So I said what the hell.
When he tells me that he has no problem taking me to chemo, I go with it. I don't second guess and I don't give into the crippling fear that he will leave. He has told me he is staying, so I believe him. I place my trust and my heart in his arms and pray he will protect them both.
We spend the days before my appointment watching movies and talking. He even takes me to the studio to watch him and the band work. I'm in awe when he explains the arrangement he made with his band to spend more time with me.
I fear they would be resentful, but that is farthest from the truth. Emmett treats me like a kid sister; Jasper is like a long lost dear friend. His presence is calming and effortless. I can see why Alice is so smitten with him. But is it Rose who surprises me. While on the outside she looks intimidating and daunting, she is sweet and so down to earth.
With her I feel as if I found the older sister I wished I had when my parents died. She loves to shop and finds the most amazing scarves to cover my head. She even goes as far as to help me find cool new ways to wrap them.
With Edward and his band, I find the start of a family. The safety that I innately felt with Edward grew to encompass the three people who meant the world to him. I saw the happiness and joy that he radiates when I spent time with them.
I find myself relaxing and even starting to think of the future. I try in vain not to get too far ahead of myself. But every once in awhile, I dream of Edward and I on the road as he tours or family dinners with my friends and his. The more I allow myself to indulge in these dreams, the more I want them to come true.
On the Sunday before my appointment, Edward and I are driving back to his place. Since my appointment is early in the morning, Edward suggests that I stay with him. He is in the middle of discussing a song he is trying to write when I interrupt him.
"I love this song," I exclaim as I turn it up loud.
I close my eyes and let the familiar haunting melody soothe me even further. My lips soundlessly sing the words that have become my theme song since my diagnosis. I can feel Edward's gaze, but I'm too lost in the music to answer the unspoken question between us.
As the radio goes to commercial, Edward turns the volume down and I feel him looking at me.
"It's the song Alice played to remind me that I didn't have to tackle this on my own. In the beginning I was stubborn, trying to do it all myself. This was her way of telling me it didn't have to be that way."
A/N: DON'T ASK ABOUT THE SONG... YOU WILL FIND IT OUT... hehe... ok... one more.. ok?