I'll Stand By You

by WitchyVampireGirl

Bella and Edward meet briefly on her 21st birthday. When fate conspires for them to cross paths again months later, will they have the courage to make it last while facing their darkest fears? March 2012 Drabble War entry AH

50. Chapter 50

A/N: Hows Edward dealing?/

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, SM does, I am playing in the sandbox! ENJOY!

50

EPOV

I am fine.

I am fine.

She's fine.

She's fine.

I keep repeating the words as I wait for my heart to calm down from the paralyzing dream I keep having. They always start out different. Sometimes in the hospital, a few times in my house or in Bella's room, it's the ending that always gets me.

Each time she flat lines, each time I watch her die.

The absolute terror I feel upon waking leaves me shaking, dripping in sweat and frantic.

I feel as if I'm going out of my mind. I don't understand why I am having these nightmares. Okay, so yes part of me fears that she won't get better. But, I rationalize, if things were that bad, she would tell me, or someone would, right?

I know I should talk to her about the dreams or at the very least ask her about her prognosis. Yet, each time I try, there just doesn't seem to be a good time.

So when I'm with her, I force the dreams away. I focus on her, the here and now. It is the only thing that gets me through the days without falling victim to the crippling fear the grips my heart.

It is one of her off chemo days and we are sitting in the sunroom playing cards. I smile at how bundled up she is even though she is sitting in a sunny spot.

"You're cheating, Edward!" she shouts at me.

I look from her to my cards, "Hey, I can't help it if I'm good at Go Fish."

She rolls her eyes, "You are so cheating. If you keep it up, I'm gonna tell Emmett."

Now it is my turn to roll my eyes. Ever since she met my brother, she continuously threatens to tattle on me. It's actually kinda cute.

"Ohhh, scary," I pretend to quake and quiver.

She gives me a have giggle half snort and I hear the unmistakable sound of buttons being pressed. In a flash her phone is to her ear.

"Why you little sneak." I grab the phone from her and when I hold it up to tell Emmett off, I hear a recording for the local movie theater.

I narrow my eyes at her, "Ha, ha, funny, Bella."

She continues to giggle.

At time like these it's easy to forget the dream and pretend everything is going to be just fine.

A/N: What do you make of Edward's dreams?