A/N: Remember... it will be ok...

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, SM does, I am playing in the sandbox! ENJOY!

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BPOV

We made it through the first 10 days of me being back on chemo. True to his word, Edward is there every step of the way. I know that I shouldn't be surprised, but I am. It also makes it harder not to give him my whole heart.

Alice chides me that I'm being to cautious, that I am over thinking it all. I just can't help it. I have this nagging fear that everything is going to fall apart. But despite all my fears and concerns, I know one thing is for certain, I'm in love with Edward.

On the ride to the hospital this morning, I notice how on edge Edward seems. He is quiet and almost withdrawn.

I touch his arm that rest on the console between us, "You okay, Edward? You're awfully quiet." I let my fingers trail lightly up and down his arm, loving the feeling of heat that courses between us.

He captures my fingers and raises them to his lips while watching the road, "I'm fine, didn't sleep well, so I'm kinda tired." He turns to me and gives me his silly lopsided grin and I can't help but smile back.

I squeeze his hand and twine his fingers with mine. His touch soothes and calms me like nothing else I have ever felt. The rest of the way we drive in comfortable silence while holding hands. Gone is the tension I felt from him. My easy going Edward is back.

As I go on back to the treatment room, he gives me a kiss on the cheek and forehead and settles in for the hour wait in the waiting room. The treatment went by without a hitch; I didn't even have any nausea. So it is easy to greet Edward with a smile.

But on the way home, things start to feel weird. Edward, sensing that something is wrong, pulls over to check on me.

"You okay, Bella. What do you need?"

"Just really dizzy and nauseous. Just get me home." He nods and carefully pulls back into traffic, speeding towards home. I close my eyes to fight the overwhelming dizziness.

Soon enough, I feel Edward touch my face softly, "We're home, sweetheart. Stay here and I'll help you out."

I nod weakly and wait. He speeds to my side of the car and gently helps me out and up the few steps to the front door. Just then I feel my heart begin to pound furiously and black spots creep to the outside edges of my vision.

I see Edward's mouth moving, but I hear no words, just muffled sounds. I try to reach out to him, but I can't feel my arms. I feel myself start to slide sideways before everything goes black.

A/N: WTF? Will give ya the next one.. although.. you may not like it!