-Honey, I'm home –Lena say to me entering at our little apartment where I am folding the laundry and watching our six months old twins in their playpen. They are the most beautiful babies in the whole world: pale skin, brown curly hair with green eyes: Brandon's are dark green eyes but Callie has my eyes, hazel eyes. They have different personalities too: Brandon is the quietest; he sleeps all night and always wants to eat. Callie is always searching everything with big wide eyes, she is always smiling but she doesn't like to sleep. Brandon hates bath and Callie adores them. Brandon is a mama's boy and Callie is mommy's girl. That's why we dress them different, according with their personalities: Brandon is quiet so we usually put him on shirts and jeans, Callie is a happy girl and always giggling, she likes to wear dresses because she is always happy when we put her in dresses. My captain had let me stay at home for six month with the condition that I would continue doing exercise and work my body and I am my old self again, toned and super strong. I want Lena to enjoy my body. Lena and I had not have sex yet, not because we don't want to, we want, but the twins made us exhausted and Callie still wake up in the middle of the night and she needs mommies snuggles. And I wanted to take things slowly but now I am prepared. Lena's parents came home tonight to meet their grandbabies and me and then they would stay the weekend so I had talk with them and prepared the perfect date for tomorrow.
The first two months of the twin's lives we put the cribs near my bed because we didn't want our relationship to be too fast but then we realized that we needed more space for the babies so we sold the bed, I moved to Lena's bedroom, now our bedroom, and painted and decorated the room: three of the four walls are painted in a gray color, the wall where we have Callie's crib has her name in pink letters and photos of a newborn Callie and Callie with us and Mike. The wall where we have Brandon's crib has his name with blue letters and similar photos as her sister. In the other gray wall, the one with the window has the baby changer and wardrobes. The other one is white and has a very beautiful inscription that Lena an I saw in a book about babies and we thought fit us: This babies will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for. In this wall they have all their toys and shelves with books. Near their cribs we have rocking chairs. Is the perfect room for the perfect babies. I thanked God that Lena wanted a big kitchen where we could put the two high chairs and have space for all the bottles, formula, bibs and baby stuff. Now I am in the living room where the only baby thing is the playpen.
-Hi honey, how was your day? –I greet her and removed her cardigan then I kiss her in the lips
-It was good but now is perfect. You here with our babies giving me a very good kiss.
She take me by the hand to the living room and I know exactly what she is going to do, like every other day she will pick one of the babies and sit down with him/her in the sofa waiting for me to do the same. Today she picks Callie and sits her in her lap, doing faces at her and rubbing circles on her back so I pick Brandon and snuggle with my love on the couch. These moments, just the four of us, make me happy but today I'm nervous, I'm nervous about Lena's parents.
-Do you think your parents would like me?
-Of course they would, I mean, they had talk with you in this months, they had seen the twins by facetime and I had talk about you, a lot. You want me to talk you about them?
-Yes please, I need every possible way to impress them because I want us to be forever.
-Daddy is the sweetest man in the world, he is funny, calm and super generous but if you mess up with me he can be so mad because I'm her little girl. He never judge anyone, he always see the best in people. You would love him. –I'm smiling because of her sweet voice when she talk about her dad but suddenly her voice has changed –My mama is totally different: she likes to judge everything, she can't be without doing nothing and she is always criticizing my choice of woman so please when she tell you something is nothing personal: she would disapprove that you are a police officer, that you are blonde and "blondes aren't my type", that you was married to a man and have two kids with him and a lot of other things but I know that at the end of the day she would love your sense of humor, your heart, your soul, your courage and your compassion and of course she would be in love with those babies.
-Wow love. That was intense. Ok so it would be ok with you daddy if I saw him how much I love you but I have to impress your mama, right?
-Exactly. Dana Adams can be…intimidating.
-Well I work with intimidating people and I can be intimidating too.
Lena just kisses me but our daughter star slapping Lena's face and wanting her attention.
-Ok, I think we have to get dressed and dress these two little babies.
Lena is in the twin's bedroom changing Brandon's clothes: he is wearing a black shirt with withe pants and his baby shocks, he is smiling like every time he is with his mama. Callie is in her crib, still in her old clothes.
-Lena, let Brandon in his crib and go get changed, your parents would be here in fifteen minutes.
-Ok. And FYI, you look beautiful in that dress, I like my view from here.
She smile and give me a kiss then get out of the room.
-Ok, Callie-girl come on, I'm going to put you in your beautiful black and white dress.
Twenty minutes later here I am, nervous and with my baby boy in my arms while Lena is holding Callie and opening the door. A beautiful black woman and tall and elegant white man are standing in front of Lena, giving her hugs and kisses.
-Oh, baby Brandon, you are so handsome –Dana look at Lena, begging her to take Brandon in her arms and Lena passes him to her –It's good to see them in real life and not by facetime.
They are looking at me and my daughter right now and I just can smile because I forgot how to form words. I'm so nervous and I don't know why. I mean. I had planned a whole romantic day with their daughter, I had talked multiple times with them but now that I have them in front of me, my legs are shaking.
-Oh, Stef, nice to finally meet you in real life –Stuart hand me his hand and I shake it but he hug me –Can I hold Callie?
-Of course, she has to meet his gramp, right?
The first half hour Dana and Stuart had been admiring our babies and giving us present for them. Dana loves the twins room but Lena was right, she had been telling her daughter how pale she was, how bad is her hair….I don't understand her, Lena's skin can't be "pale" and her hair is the most beautiful I had ever seen. Now, the babies are in the playpen and we are in the kitchen, making dinner. Dana and Stuart are making mashed potatoes, I am doing a salad and Lena is finishing the pasta.
-So Stef, you like being a police officer?
-Um, yeah, most people will look at me like I am crazy, including your daughter –I laugh but kiss Lena's lips – but having the opportunity to make a change in the world, a really small change but is a change, make me feel like I am doing something right. Every time I save a woman in an abusive relationship, every time I put rappers or murders behind bars I'm saving someone life or giving justice to someone's family. I had never fired a gun and I hope I never have to do it.
-Wow, that's a good speech Stef –Stuart is smiling at me like I have convince him.
-But, you put yourself in danger every day and now…now you have a family: your twins and my daughter.
-Dana, I have a bulletproof vest, at least one partner covering my backs and a lot of training. Most of the days I just do patrolling and deal with a teenage fight in the street or I'm putting fines. I can reassure you that I love my family and every time I'm out there I'm thinking in my girl and my kids.
-Well, not now, she has maternity leave for two more weeks.
-Ok, I just want to meet you more times Stephanie so please, don't leave my daughter too soon.
I laugh –Don't worry Mrs. Adams, I'm stuck with her forever.
-I bet the uniform is the best about her job, right baby girl?
-Oh daddy, you have no idea.
And I burst into laugh, my face is red but I love Lena talking with her dad that way, they have a pretty good relationship.
-But your partner is you ex-husband, right?
-Dana…-I let go a sight –I know that you think I'm some kind of bisexual but I am not, I'm a lesbian and I married Mike because he gets me pregnant and I had sex with him or a relationship with him because I was afraid, afraid of being judge, afraid of being hurt but I divorced that man six months ago and he is ok with my situation. He would always be the father of my twins but this kids had three parents because Lena is their mother and she would always be.
Lena is upset, I see the anger in her eyes but I'm holding her hand and squeezing it so she can't say anything. I understand Dana's fear, I'm sure we would be afraid of the partners of our kids too, it's part of being a parent.
-And what is your family situation? I mean, your parents, friends?
-Well the moment I realized I was in love with Lena I told my mom and she is more than ok with that, she always knew I was gay but my dad…well he is very catholic and is totally against this. Um…-Lena is squeezing my hand now because she know I don't like to talk about my teen years and the Tess Brown situation- WhenIwassixteenIdatedagirlandmydadfounduscuddlingonthesofahesentmetoapriestandIhideitforsevenyearsbutLena…changed everything.
-Ok, honey, ok, slow down, slow down. I'm sorry about that but I'm sure your dad would understand. At first it was hard for me too, don't get me wrong I knew I would support Lena always but seeing her with girls it was hard at first because I don't want my baby hurt and she gets hurt a lot. But now, seeing her happy, with these beautiful kids is worth it.
-Thank you mom.
The conversation was pretty light from there, I really like them even if they are doing a third degree with me. We have finished eating and now we are in the bathroom with the grandparents so they can give the twins a bath: Stewart is in love with Callie and her curls and my daughter is looking at him and clapping her hands.
-Brandon is normally this quiet or is just because of me?
-He doesn't like baths, he always scream and cry. I can't believe how calm he is now.
-So he is like my Lena when she was a baby. She was the sweetest baby in the world except when we were giving her a bath, it was the only time she cries and scream.
I look at my girlfriend with amazement: I can't believe that, Lena absolutely adores baths now!
-Right? Is hilarious.
We put the babies to bed and now we are having a bottle of expensive wine in the living room, this is better than I expected. We are teasing Lena with stories about when she was a baby and they are asking me about little Stef. But now is 10 p.m and I hope we would have an excited day tomorrow.
-Ok, is late and we are a little tired. Can we came here tomorrow and stay with the babies all day? So you can go out and have a date or something?
Lena is nervous, a date? She had not been on a date with Stef like never because of the babies and her job they are always exhausted but now, letting her parents all day with the babies so they can have a good day together, alone. It's brilliant.
-Oh, we would have to improvise something but yes, definitely yes!
When Lena's parents went to their hotel we clean the kitchen and now we are in bed, Lena is wearing one of my big sized t-shirt with just panties and her hair up and I'm wearing my police academy t-shirts and black shorts, my hair is in a bun too. I can't stop myself and I kiss her neck, letting soft kisses until I find her mouth, fifteen minutes later I'm so turn on, my hand is in her panties but she tell me to stop.
-Why love? I'm so tuned on; I want to make love with you
-I know love but tomorrow we will have the day to ourselves and we would be doing this all day. I had waited six months, you know? I want it to be perfect, is your first time with a woman love.
-Ok, I can't wait for tomorrow.
She lay her head in my chest and I wrap my arm in her waist, smelling her lemons shampoo and wanting for tomorrow to be here so I can enjoy my girl's body.