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Part 5

"We need to talk."

You were breathing quick, feeling close to fainting once again. Oh how you feared this moment might come, and he didn't seem pleased with you in the least.

"I know I didn't fool you. You had your doubts I guess, but you knew I let it around on purpose, no ? Why did you lie ? Why do you pretend otherwise ?"

You paled. You didn't want to talk. This must be some nightmare. You didn't mean for things to go this far. There must be someway back. You wanted to run as your body began acting on your thoughts, but his voice stopped you in the array.

"Are you ashamed of me ?"

You turned around, slowly. You couldn't let him think that.

"...N-no !"

"I saw you cry on it, calling my name. Why ?!"

You could only shake your head no after a moment, face anxious. He can't make you do this !

"What do you feel exactly ? Why didn't you say anything ?"

You raised your shoulders, then your arms, shaking your head, gaping like a fish out of water.

"I-I...I-I-I-" God ! "I couldn't, I- !"

"I felt as if you were playing around with me. But you never showed any interest in the others. You never blushed, never stuttered in front of them. You didn't linger on their scent compared to mine. You can spot me in open air without even seeing me."

You blanched furthermore, if it was possible.

"Yes, I saw you ! I found a handy hideout in here, where you never found me. I waited from minutes to hours to watch you come in here, to have any answer you didn't want to give me. But I still don't get it !"

Tears gathered at the corners. He waited, he watched you for a long time, until your knees felt like passing out, but you couldn't get a word out. He framed you nice, didn't he ? What good was it to hide any more.

"Still not gonna talk ?"

Annoyed with you, he grabbed the sweater and lift it.

"Do you want it ?" He watched you closely, but sternly. He was frightening you as he was losing his patience. "I'll throw it away, you hear me ?! Do you WANT IT ?!"

"YES !" You screamed.

He threw it at you. It landed hazardly on your head, shoulder and stomach. The moment he did it, his expression freezed. He knew it wasn't nice to do that, he'll get nowhere like this.

Your shoulders began trembling, and here it was, you were crying...thick salty drops falling and not stopping anytime soon, burning on your cheeks.

"Oh geez, I'm sorry. I..."

"It's alright. I...saw it coming...I-I...You were right. I do love you."

There it was. The confession you held so long in your heart, knowing it would waste everything. He froze from head to toe, lips downward.

"...How long." He breathed out, face closed.

"As long as-..." You had a breath in sob interrupting you. "I don't know ! Ok?! It was...instinctive ! M-maybe when I first talked to you."

"Why didn't you say anything ? I get that Tendô was there, but I worked hard for weeks to flare you the green light and the flags. I knew something was up ! Why did you let me down."

"I-I-I didn't want to ! I-I...I just wanted you to be happy. I never meant t-to act on it. I was happy...just watching you succeed."

"...Now that's a lie if I ever heard one. I saw you here, wearing my sweater like it was yours, moaning my first name !"

You palmed your face in your hands. Of course he saw that ! How embarrassing !

"Oh no ! I'm sorry...!" No way, you wanted to die now if you didn't from shame.

"And you were crying ! Hell, you were suffering ! It was hard not saying anything. I thought you'd come on terms after that, that you would come to me. At least talking. Did you think I would reject you ?"

"...Yes."

"Well it's hard not to after making me feel like shit !"

Your heart broke again.

Your sobs went audible.

"...Come on...don't cry...I didn't mean to make you cry." He laid frightful hands on your arms, staying cautiously at a distance. "Did you know how happy I was to see you interested in me ? It was better-...better than the feeling after an ace serve ! It was hard wondering why you hid it so hard. Just why ?"

"...I didn't- want to upset you. I-I-" You tightened your hand in fists on your skin. "I feared it be worse for you after Shirabu if anything went wrong between us. I feared I would be a distraction. I feared you would not love me back. I'm not good enough for you, but yet...I knew I'd hurt not spending time with you with all this practicing."

Your shoulders slumped down.

"I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm so bad...when you're around. I can't even look at you."

"I know, I know. I see it's difficult, but I tried reaching out for you. I got fed up. I mean...Just look at me now..." He shamefully passed a hand in his hair.

"I'm sorry. This is all my fault !" You gripped your hair, bending over to apologise.

He gently put your hands away, searching for eye contact, his head bent. He was so tall !

"Can I touch you ?"

"Huh ?" You inelegantly responded.

He slowly, so slow you guessed it was to let you protest, slid his big calloused hands on your cheeks, fingers in your hair, watching you straight in the eye as he made you stand up.

"You have nothing to be afraid of. I love you too." You were startled. His thumbs wiped out your tears little by little. "I fell in love little by little as I saw your interest in me, saw me back on track with the serve trick, saw how you held on that jacket of mine as if it was the most precious thing. Remembered how happy you looked wearing it the first time. How you keep smelling it forever."

You sent him big, moved, hopeful eyes.

"It's as if you were calling out to me, though you were never talking to me. So tell me, how do I smell ?"

"...Very good." You looked away.

He laughed heartedly. "I waited this long for a description, and this is what I get ! Haha ! But finally some honesty I guess. This is good !" He scoffed again. "Is that what made you fell for me ?" He asked more huskily.

"...N-no."

"What then ?" Your heart continued to drummer in your ears. He was so close you felt like passing out any second now.

You went to sit on the bench and he followed your movement, his hands holding yours.

"Hey, are you okay ?"

"I-I-...no." Indeed, you were blushing so hard, missing air and having your long time crush confessing so easily to you. You couldn't decide if this was nightmare or a dream anymore. "Oh god !"

"Come on, I know you're flustered, but get some grip. I told you I loved you, didn't I ? Look at me."

Your eyes feasted on his hazel one, and his ashy blond hair and his strangely lightly tanned smooth skin.

"It's gonna be okay."

"You're so beautiful..." You trailed, looking at him. "They say setters are often pretty, like Oikawa, but you're the most beautiful, the most dedicated I've ever seen. You deserve so much better."

His lips pursed as a astonished blush crept up on his cheeks and ears. He was completely won over, damned for.

"I should be the one telling you that..." You broke the stare but he grabbed you face with a hand, compelling you to continue. "Can I kiss you ?" He heatedly asked. Your eyes widened. "I know you're uneasy and- shy with me, and this might be too soon, but you make me want to so much."

"...N-no. This is a bad idea." You remembered why you couldn't let it happen. "No ! Semi- your exams, college...! Volleyball !" God, couldn't you at least make sentences ?

"Ha..." He sighed. "You're right, geez, I got carried away. (Y/N), will you officially be my girlfriend ?"

You nodded negatively. His shoulders slumped.

"(Y/N), don't worry. My grades are fine. Is me being a third year a problem ? Because I'll leave after ?" You looked down. "Don't worry, I won't leave you. I'll make time for you. Are you afraid I won't make time enough for you ?"

You reluctantly agreed, nodding and slowly raising your eyes to his. His thumb caressed your cheek.

"I'm sorry. I-...It's selfish, I know. But...I love you so much." You explained poorly. "Seeing you here...it's not enough."

"It's alright. If you love me that much, I'll be happy making you happy. I'll balance my schedule. I'll spend all of my free time with you. I'll study with you, teach you what I know so your grades won't suffer anymore. And this time we don't have to tell the others anything, if that's what you want. How about this ?"

He saw how you were hesitant but so, so longing to say yes. Still, you wouldn't answer.

"Come on, you can't tell me you don't want this. I promise I'll happily spend the time you need, you just say the word." You tightened your hands. "Tell me what you want, I'll make it happen."

"...It looks too good to be true. So it must be-" You argued.

"No, it's not. Come on, I'll make it. Let's have a date." He neared his face to yours. "You always take care of us, it's like we're mom and dad. Just let me take care of you. Let me love you."

Your face and you skin was so hot, you were sure he could feel it burning his hand.

"But you have so much fans...girls come at you all the time..."

"(Y/N) ! Whatever, I don't care ! You've been on my damn mind for months now, I don't want to lose anymore time. You don't have to fear anything, I won't make you jealous."

"Semi..." You couldn't believe your ears.

"Eita." He rectified. "Here." He backed up briefly, fixing his sweater on your form so it would wrap you. "I'll give it. You won't have to enjoy it hiding anymore." You sniffed, moved. "You want it bad, right ? I know you do."

He pestered you, and it worked, making you smile and laugh through your tears.

"Ha ! I knew you wouldn't resist having it. Now that I have an indisputable argument, you can't refuse, right ?"

You nodded, the last of your tears brushing your smiling lips.

"I love you." He repeated, his voice strong and steady, his face unyielding. He close the distance between you, cupping your face, but stopped at a mere breath away from you, eyes heavily lidded.

"Please take care of me." You murmured.

You closed your eyes, barely tilting your chin up in surrender, as your hand crept up in the crook of his elbow. Not able to wait any longer, seeing you give the go-ahead so frail in his arms, he gently pressed his lips on yours, molding them to share the best first kiss he could give you. Your heart exploded in your chest as your hand grazed his skin.

He didn't want to pressure you anymore or make you feel nervous in his presence so he quickly retreated and caressed your hair, covering you with a tender gaze.

"Stay here, I'll get tissues."

You didn't deserve this man.