Another fast update. But I think I have to stop updating so fast cause I kind of assume that most of you are a little annoyed and maybe don't have the time to read it (summer, school...) because some stopped reviewing (which could also mean that the plot bores you!). Thank you to the ones that constantly review and show me that I do not need to stop! Of course I have no clue how many exactly are reading the story-so thank you to the readers as well!

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Hard-core OTH: I am happy to see that a "new" person reads my fic (You!). So thank you for telling me your thoughts. You probably don't continue reading because you told me that you don't feel like Haley, Brooke or Jamie are on character at all. I really appreciate your criticism and would love to know what you don't like. I always want to improve my writing! I would also like to know which version you read. The one I changed where Haley is not yelling at Phoebe in class and stays calm and does not steal the bag and so on or the old one (I changed a lot because I did not like portraying Haley so "mean"). I don't know why but sometimes those "old" chapters still appear. I am glad that you like the plot though. I don't know whether you've read until the end or only until chapter 4 but you would really make me happy to tell me your thoughts again!

Ace5492: You are wonderful my dear!

may92: Thanks for being so patient! I was a little excited whether the session would bore you but I am glad that it did not! Like I promised: Brooke-Sam will definitely come!

OTHangles: That really means a lot to me that you found it epic ;) and that it was not too long!

katie: Yeah, I am sad too that I "let" Rebecca die but I will show that the Bakers and Scotts are there for her!I really hope you feel better my dear!

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Rebecca's date of death was coming closer and closer. Phoebe managed to open up a bit more every day. She still protested about anything but they could handle it. The therapist was very proud how Brooke and Julian dealt with everything and told them that they had to be careful not to forget about Sam's desires. But Sam seemed to be very happy and wanted to spend every minute with Ben. It was good to talk to the therapist alone at times who told her that it's okay to be annoyed by Phoebe at times and that she must not feel guilty but behave like a normal sister.

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"But I want to go toooo.", Phoebe whined and looked up at Sam and Ben with crossed arms.

"Jeez. Stop annoying me Phoebe. We want some time alone.", Sam answered. Sometimes Phoebe was really like a baby and her whining annoyed everyone.

"Both of you are mean. All you care about is kissing.", Phoebe complained and sat down on the couch and turned on the TV. It was good to see her acting this way instead of having an outburst and destroying her own stuff.

Sam looked guiltily at Phoebe when she went outside with Ben, "She'll be fine.", Brooke hugged Sam and Ben "Have fun."

Sam nodded and went into the car with Ben while Brooke and Julian jumped on the couch besides Phoebe and took their arms around her.

"What do we do with you?", Julian asked and looked down at Phoebe who pretended not to care and watched TV.

"Brooke do you think Phoebe would want to spend the day at a premiere?"

"Well I don't know honey. I think right now she is not in the mood for anything."

"Oh. But we already have those three tickets.", Julian showed them to Brooke and Phoebe pretended not to care. Tickets for what?

"Oh yeah. I remember. Because I own that great fashion line called Clothes over Bros I have some pretty famous friends."

"Oh and don't forget me honey. I am a movie maker."

"Well. I don't know, maybe we should give them to Haley and Nathan."

"But I thought Phoebe loves Harry Potter."

"Oh yes Julian. She does but like I said, today she's just not in the mood."

"Oh, that's sad. I was really looking forward to see the premiere of it."

"Yeah me too. But I guess she just don't want to see the actors and actresses."

"You mean we could walk over the red carpet?"

"Of course honey. Remember I am Brooke Davis-Baker."

"Ooooh. I chose wisely.", Julian laughed.

"Yes indeed. But well, I think I am going to call Haley and give them to her."

They hoped that their plan was working. Of course Phoebe protested when Brooke took the phone and wanted to call Haley.

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.", Phoebe screamed and looked at the cards, "I don't have anything to wear.", she ran into her room.

"How about shopping?", Brooke walked after her and Phoebe jumped into her arms. Julian hugged the two from behind, "But appropriate clothes.", he smiled. Brooke and Phoebe rolled their eyes and nodded.

"Great. Great. Great.", she kissed Brooke over and over again.

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Sam and Ben walked into the store hand in hand. "Are you sure we can do it?", Sam asked when she saw the big package.

Ben just laughed at her and nodded, "I am a man."

"Oh, sorry. I forgot.", she laughed and they bought it. They went to the car again and started driving. Finally they lay down somewhere in the woods with a blanket and some stuff to eat. They desperately needed some time alone.

"It's nice here.", Ben said and looked around. There was nothing else but trees and flowers around him. No houses or any other people.

"Yeah. I love this spot. I always come here when I am sad.", she admitted.

"Are you sad right now?", he asked softly and took his arm around her. Sam stayed mute for a moment but then nodded, "Why? Is it my fault?"

She loved how worried he could be and looked at him and kissed him softly, "No it is not you. It's just…sometimes I feel like an outsider at home."

Ben had not realized that Sam felt this way, "An outsider? Sam, all of them love you and Phoebe even admires you a lot." Sam knew that this was true and she appreciated it but she felt guilty to speak it out loud and wiped one tear.

"Please don't misunderstand me. I know that…that Phoebe had the worst life I can imagine and…but I feel like I just…I don't know I cannot even describe it…like there is no room for me…like I don't know where my place is.", Sam feared that her boyfriend would misunderstand her.

"I know what you mean.", Ben took her closer to his chest.

"You do?", she asked confused and looked up into his beautiful eyes.

"Well yes, I think I do. I've seen how Julian and Brooke won't leave Phoebe alone for a minute and…well don't have that much time for you right now."

"Oh god. That sounds like I am jealous. I am not. Please believe me. I want them to be there for Phoebe but…"

"Sam. You don't have to feel bad, they are your parents too and although Phoebe has big problems, you need them too but I think that they believe that you don't really need them."

"Yeah I mean, I don't need them as much as Phoebe does. I am not eleven any more and…well I need them in a different way. I don't need to cuddle with them all the time, I have you.", she smiled up at him and he nodded proudly.

"But…", Sam felt the tears coming up, "I…sometimes I feel like I am just a burden to them. I mean Phoebe is Brooke's sister by blood and she is younger and…needs them more. I don't know why but I feel so insecure sometimes. They haven't mentioned the adoption once and…"

Ben interrupted her, "You need to talk to them. I think it's a big misunderstanding. I can see how much they love you. Julian creeps me out how he looks at me when we go out alone and Brooke always asks you whether you are okay and Phoebe may be annoying when she does not want to leave us alone for a minute but it's her way of showing that she loves us and haven't you realized how often Brooke forces Phoebe out of your room when we want to be alone?"

Sam nodded. Brooke had really tried to give them some space although Phoebe had always protested.

"I know that they love me. But…don't you think it would be easier for them without me? Sometimes I am afraid that I add a fight or anything else into the family. They have to deal enough with Phoebe and compared to Phoebe's problems mine seem nonsense."

"Sam. They love you as much as they love Phoebe and you are definitely not a burden to them. I am sorry to say that now but your thoughts are stupid and you have to talk to them.", Sam smiled at him.

"Oh really? My thoughts are stupid? Be careful mister.", she jumped on him and looked down at him with a wide smile. "What would I do without you?"

"Probably having more stupid thoughts.", he teased her and received a soft slap on his forehead. Sam kissed his lips and when their tongues met both of them loved the taste of the other one. Soon Sam went under his shirt and loved going over his muscles with her fingers. He went under her shirt as well and touched her perfect stomach. Her hand went down his pants and she wanted to open it but he pushed her hand away. Again! She immediately stopped kissing him and looked down. Her eyes showed hurt, confusion and fury.

"What is it this time?"

"I think…", she did not let him finish and jumped up and walked to the car in fury, "Sam. Don't be mad. It's just…"

"Jeez. Do you find my body that disgusting or what is it?", she looked madly up at him.

"No. Of course not. Your body is perfect and…"

"Then what is it?"

"I…well…you are a virgin Sam and…", he hoped that he would not make her any madder.

"So? I trust you. I know you won't hurt me but you hurt me when you push me away all the time."

"But I am not a virgin Sam and I want it to be perfect for you. I don't want to ruin anything.", Ben revealed his fears and left Sam shocked for a moment.

"You would not ruin anything cause it's…well it's you. And I want no one else. And by the way there are other things we could do than sex but you seem to be so damn prude.", she opened the car's door and closed it loudly and then just drove away without him but after ten minutes she came back and let him in.

"Thank you.", he said a little mad as well. "And I know that there are other things than sex."

"Well, you do not act like you know any of that stuff."

"What?", Ben said hurt. They did not speak for the rest of the driving. When they entered the house Sam went into her room and closed the door loudly. Phoebe looked confused after her and then at Ben. She jumped up immediately "What have you done to her?", she pointed furiously at him and he rolled his eyes.

"Nothing.", he answered and went into his room and closed the door as well. Phoebe immediately ran into Sam's room but was shocked when Sam was crying in her bed.

"Get out of my room please."

"What happened Sammy?", Phoebe asked very worried but Sam screamed at her again.

"I said get out.", she stood up and pushed Phoebe to the door and closed it loudly. Sam had never reacted that way to Phoebe and she stood a little confused in front of the closed door. Of course Sam did not want to scream at Phoebe but today was definitely not her day and she needed some time alone. All the things that had happened lately were just too much right now and she wanted to cry into her pillow.

"Moooooom. Sam is crying. I think something happened.", Phoebe said worried. She had started to call Brooke her mom at times and Julian her dad when something was bothering her. Brooke immediately stopped painting the fence and went inside to her oldest girl. She knocked softly at the door and waited till Sam answered. But Sam just screamed, "Leave me alone.", from the inside. Nevertheless Brooke opened the door and looked into the room.

"Honey it's just me. Can I come in please?"

Sam just mumbled under her pillow "If you want." Brooke sat down on Sam's bed and took away her pillow and looked down at her oldest girl. She loved this girl so much that it broke her heart to see her this sad. Although they were only thirteen years apart she definitely had motherly feelings and wanted to help her girl.

"What happened honey?", she asked worried and waited for the answer but Sam crossed her arms.

"Like you care.", Sam knew that it was not fair to say that but suddenly all her insecurity was coming up: The fear of never being adopted, the fear of being a burden to them, the fear of loosing Ben mixed with many other emotions she did not even understand. Sometimes it was not easy being a teenager.

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Nathan and Haley sat on the table while they watched Jamie and Lisa playing in the garden. It was sweet to see their kids interacting so nice. Although there was an age gap of almost eight years, they spend much time together and Jamie always protected his little sister.

"I think of going to the zoo with Lisa later on.", Haley suggested and Nathan nodded with a smile.

"So it's boys and girls day?", he laughed and was looking forward spending some time with Jamie alone. Jamie had grown so fast that it was almost unbelievable to remember the little eight-year-old boy. Sometimes Nathan regretted that his job meant that he would not be able to see his family every day.

"Why don't you ask Phoebe and Sam as well?", Nathan suggested. Lisa admired both of the girls very much and always smiled all over her face when she saw them.

"I don't think that Sam still likes going to the zoo. But I'll try with Phoebe.", Haley nodded and remembered when she had met her the first time. She was glad that her instinct had told her that something was not right with Phoebe. When she looked at her now, she could see a totally different version of her. But she needed to talk to Brooke and Julian. Phoebe's grades were going down drastically and in her mind it would be better if Phoebe stayed down a year. Of course she was a very bright and intelligent girl but she still thought that it was not appropriate for an eleven-year-old kid to be under fourteen year old ones.

"Did Brooke tell you anything how Sam and Phoebe are lately?", Nathan asked curiously. Of course Julian and Brooke had told Haley everything about Phoebe's past and the troubles they were having at home but Nathan had just arrived from a stressful week of training and had not had the time to talk to them.

"She obviously opens up more and her tantrums are not that big any more. But I am also concerned about Sam.", Haley admitted.

"Sam?", Nathan asked confused. Lately Sam seemed to be very happy and she was glued to her boyfriend Ben.

"Well yes. I know how Sam is. She tends to hide her feelings and would never push herself to the fore.", Haley thought of the Sam that had slept in cars and only found her voice through writing.

"I love you honey.", Nathan kissed her on the mouth and laughed at her confused face.

"What did I do?"

"Well, you always care for everyone and you made me the man I am now.", Nathan squeezed her hand and looked at his adorable children, "And you gave birth to those two"

Haley smiled proudly and held his hand tight. It was good having him at home.

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I hope you liked the Sam moments I added? I know that it may seem a little harsh how Sam pushed Phoebe out of her room or snapped at Brooke but sometimes you say or do things you don't mean and of course she regrets it. I want to show you that I did not forget Sam or the Scotts and you'll have more of Sam-moments in the next chapter!