PRM ch44

A/N: So, from here on out you will see time jumps, however, I will not let you miss too much in those missing time frames, I promise.

And, this ch and the next are probably my most fav ch's that I've ever written and that's a lot:) My beta, Bnjwl and pre-reader/twifey, Lvtwilight09's too!

I've also decided that I'm just not ready to let these 2 go, well, if I'm honest, I'm not ready to let Batteredward go...so I'm going to 50 ch's instead of 45. I just feel like we need more of his happiness...after all, we've endure so much of his pain, it's only fitting that I give you more, more, more of his happiness.

And, I'm still holding onto a BIG, HUGE, ENORMOUS secret...that I will reveal during the EPI...unless someone guesses it first;)

ENJOY:)

Six Months Later

BPOV

Edward and I had officially dated for six months tonight. We were going back to the Italian restaurant that we visited on our first date.

I couldn't hide my excitement as Alice stood in my bedroom doorway and smiled at me.

"Bella, I don't think I've ever seen you this way." She said with a laugh as I flittered from my closet to the dresser as I looked for some undergarments to match the dress that she'd brought over for me to wear tonight.

"I don't recall that I have ever been this giddy." I said as I stopped and stared at her as she shook her head at me.

Alice walked across the room and grabbed my wrists to hold me in place, "Calm down. You're making me nervous to just watch you."

"I just want tonight to be perfect. It's a big deal for us both to celebrate an anniversary," I said as if she didn't understand the significance.

I knew all too well how much she understood.

She smiled and held my hands, "It is a special night." Her eyes were filled with compassion and I could see the tears that built within them.

I had grown to love her like the sister that I never had. She had become one of my best friends along with Edward and Esme.

The Cullen's were truly the family that I had always wanted and I was honored that they accepted me as one of their own.

Edward and I spent almost as much time with them as we did alone.

"What will you and Jasper do tonight?" I said as I broke her grip on my wrists to walk into my closet to get dressed.

As I dropped my robe and pulled on my navy silk underwear and bra set that I pulled from drawer while Alice told me of their plans for the evening from her perch on my bed.

"Nothing major, we'll just take the yacht around the cove." Alice replied coolly.

"How in the hell will you 'just take the yacht' around the cove since neither of you own a yacht?" I yelled back from my position still inside of the closet as I adjusted the garments and stepped back towards the bedroom.

When I stepped out of the closet and within eye sight of her, I could see the dreamy quality in her eyes and I could tell she was in love with Jasper. "He rented a yacht?" I screeched as she giggled and shook her head.

"No, silly, he borrowed my parents yacht." She said as if I just should have known that little fact.

My jaw dropped as I realized how often I forgot how wealthy the Cullen's actually were.

"Oh...well, that makes sense then." I said as I walked around the bed and picked up my dress.

"Alice, this dress is beyond words." I said as I held up the dark navy silk and chiffon dress. It had wide shoulder straps and a small plunge in the cleavage. It was soft and fit me to a 'T'. It was plain on top but then became full around the waist where a chiffon ruffle plumed out in ribbons down the side of the skirt before it stopped just above my knees.

She smiled, "I know."

The way she spoke made me think that there was more to this dress than the fact that she simply picked it out and brought it to me.

There was no tag inside of it and it fit me perfectly.

"What's with this dress, anyway? Who's the designer?" I questioned as she just shook her head at me.

"Nope. My lips are sealed. Just enjoy it." Alice said as she made the motion to zip her lips and threw away the proverbial key over her shoulder.

"Fine, don't tell me." I said with a laugh while I did a little twirl in the mirror.

Suddenly, I grew nervous as I stared at myself.

Alice walked up behind me and smiled softly, "You look beautiful."

Our eyes met and once again I saw the shimmer of tears that coated her eyes.

We were still for a moment, as we just stared at each others reflection, before she smirked, "Now, let's get your hair done." She gave me a small push toward the bathroom.

The nerves I felt before remained...and I wondered what tonight would bring.

EPOV

I couldn't sit still as my parents stood in my bedroom doorway and watched me pace.

"Edward, if you continue to tug on your hair that way it'll all fall out." My dad said through a chuckle.

I stopped and stared at him, "I got the habit from you and your hair is just fine."

His jaw dropped while my mom smacked him on the chest, "Good one, son." She smirked and walked toward me.

Once she stood in front of me, she adjusted my tie, again, then cupped my cheek, "I'm so excited for you." I noticed the wetness in her eyes and it made me feel anxious all over again.

Anxious because I knew that her tears were tears of joy but they also contained a small amount of panic that would never go away, panic that my previous life would somehow or another catch up to me again. It was a panic I still knew, often I found myself scared that it would happen as well. I still felt shame and regret that they would always feel this way because of a decision I had made.

"Thank you, Mom." I whispered to her before I pulled her into a hug.

"I think your car is here, son." Carlisle said as mom and I broke our embrace.

I had chosen to make this date like our first one in that we would take a limo and eat at the same restaurant as our first date.

"Wish me luck." I said to the both of them as I straightened up my jacket and checked my pockets one more time.

"You won't need it but good luck." Esme said as she patted me on the shoulder.

Twenty minutes later the limo pulled up in front of Bella's apartment and I had to take a few deep breaths before I exited the car.

The driver opened the door and I hesitantly stepped out into the cool night air. Winter was upon us and the air had turned colder as the sun dropped into the oncoming night sky.

As I made my way to Bella's door my heart felt like it would pound out of my chest, I don't remember a time when I had ever been this happily nervous in all of my life. I said a prayer that tonight would go as planned.

I had come to realize that Bella was essential to my life; I couldn't live without her nor did I want too.

So, tonight I would take the necessary step forward to ensure that I never had to worry about that again.

I stood at Bella's door, straightened my jacket and took a deep breath before I knocked softly on the wood.

Alice opened the door with a huge smile and winked at me, "She's almost ready, come on in."

"Okay." I said with a sigh and walked into the apartment.

My eyes involuntarily looked from Alice and up toward Bella's bedroom. It was a place I had yet to actually venture into but I had dreamed about it incessantly, especially here lately. I realized that in the midst of my day dreams the most beautiful creature in the world stared back at me.

"Hi Edward." She said with a gentle puff of breath.

I walked toward her slowly, "Hello beautiful Bella." I said just as I slipped my arms around her waist and pulled her gently toward me.

I leaned down as she pulled her face up and our lips met with that magical moment that seemed to spark between us as we kissed.

A giggle that came from behind my back reminded me that we weren't alone.

"You guys are so cute." Alice said with another giggle which caused Bella to blush.

I kissed Bella's forehead before I turned around for us to face my little sister as she tried to contain her excitement. She knew what I had planned for tonight, so I understood the overflow of her emotions.

"Well, you guys have fun. I have to go meet Jasper." She said as she walked towards us for goodbye hugs.

Once she closed the door behind her, I turned to Bella, "Are you ready to go?"

She smiled, "Yes, let's go."

The ride to the restaurant flew by as we talked easily about our day. We arrived at the restaurant and my nerves went into overdrive.

Bella took my hand as we exited the limo, "Thank you, Edward."

"Anything for you, Bella." I said as I pulled her closer to me. We walked arm and arm in the door and were almost immediately led to our private dining room, just like our first time here.

In the familiar setting we felt extremely comfortable and moved our chairs closer to one another, "You look positively beautiful tonight, Bella." I whispered in her ear before I placed a kiss to her temple.

She shyly looked up to me as her cheeks flamed with a blush.

"Thank you, Edward. You look rather handsome, yourself." She said in return.

Dinner was easy and our flirting increased as time went on. The chemistry between us had heated up over the past few weeks, as we had finally ventured into the realm of heavy petting.

I finally felt like I was ready to take the next step with Bella, but my old insecurities still haunted me. I felt inadequate to meet her needs.

Due to the past abuse that Tanya had put me through, I worried that my penis wouldn't work properly. It seemed like a silly worry because the doctors had assured me that everything was in proper working order. It just seemed to be one of those things that until I saw it for myself, you wouldn't be able to convince me otherwise.

I did have one ray of hope, if my recent morning erections were any indication, then I allowed myself to slightly believe that the doctors might actually be right. But, the doubt still lingered in my mind.

After we finished our meal, that due to our nerves neither of us barely ate, Bella looked at me, "What are we doing now?"

"Oh, I know it's a bit chilly but I thought a nice stroll through the gardens would be nice. Unless you had something else in mind?" I said, suddenly filled with anxiety that my plan might not have been the best given the colder temperatures at this hour of night.

"That sounds lovely, Edward. Besides, I'm sure you'll find a way to warm me up." She said with a smile.

I gulped and smirked back, "Of course I'll always keep you warm."

Bella batted her lashes at me and I swear I heard her mutter, "That's what I hoped to hear."

A short time later, as we strolled through the long path through the garden behind my parent's estate, I led her to a small gazebo that was strung with twinkling lights.

I felt the space heaters that were left on for us, my parents must have realized how cold it would be and set the small heaters out to warm us up.

There were rose petals spread around and soft music played through in the speakers, and as we walked into the space Bella turned to me with confusion clearly written on her face.

"Edward, what is all this?" Her eyes searched mine, I smiled and moved us towards the center of the gazebo.

We stood face to face and I slowly lowered myself to one knee as she gasped and her hands cupped her mouth.

"Bella, my love...I realized a long time ago that I couldn't live without you in my life. You are my best friend, the love of my life and I want to have you by my side for the rest of our days on this earth. You saved me, you helped make me whole again...and I love you. Will you please do me the honor of becoming my wife?" I gulped as I noticed the tears on her cheeks as I realized they mimicked my own when I pulled the small box from my pocket and opened it to reveal my grandmother engagement ring.

"Oh..." She stuttered and then brought her hands to my face, "Yes, yes, a thousand times yes, Edward."

I stood and gathered her in my arms, "Oh Bella, you've just made me the happiest man on this earth." I said before my lips crashed to hers.

The kiss was heated as our lips gave way for the battle our tongues waged against one another. Her mouth tasted like the sweetest cherry I had ever savored and I pulled her tight against me as my body exploded with heat for her.

"Take me home, Edward." Bella said as we broke for air.

Suddenly, I was confused and pulled back to look into her shining brown eyes.

"Home?" I questioned.

"Spend the night with me, Edward. I want you to make me yours." She whispered as realization dawned on me.

"Are you sure, Bella?" I questioned as she tiptoed up to kiss my lips again. The kiss quickly escalated again as I felt her leg wrap around mine and I swallowed the moan that involuntarily escaped.

Once again, we broke apart and she whimpered, "I've never been more sure of anything in my life. I'm ready, Edward. Are you?" She said as her eyes held mine and searched for any sign of doubt.

"I'm more than ready." I said as I kissed her again.

"Let's go home then." She whispered against my lips.

A/n: Can I get a whoop-whoop? And then a big AHHHHHHH!

I am soooo, sooooo, sooooo in love with him...I've held him so close to my heart for so long now and I just can't bear to let him go yet...

Next chapter in a day or two.

REC's that are owing me:

Crash & Burn by TwiStar Junkie – broken, addicted Edward...recovering, snarky Bella – LOVE IT!

Break Even by TwiStar Junkie – abused Bella...swoon worthy Edward...so damn good and her chapters are long and update regularly...AWESOME!

Fatty by Kitkat681 – Damn...a fat Edward...and it's so inspiring she's created a support group just for the fic. READ IT NOW:)

Whisky Lullabies by lvtwilight09 – Her best writing to date, IMO...you won't be sorry if you are an angst hOOr like me;)

It Isn't Over Yet by Reyes139 – A devastated Bella...an almost unredeemable Edward – positively some of her best writing.

That's it for now...they are all in my favs!

BTW, my new collab w/ Bnjwl starts on Monday Feb6th. Metal Pointe...check out my group, theonlykyla fanfiction on FB for the banner and more info...ROCKERWARD, need I say more?

Kyla