PRM ch45

A/n: I am so glad that you all loved the proposal...he's such a sweet and loveable guy...who would EVER say no to him? Looks around...NOT ME that's for sure;)

ENJOY!

LOVE to Bnjwl for her mad beta'ing skills and Lvtwilight09 for her pre-reading prowess;)

EPOV

Less than thirty minutes later we walked, hand and hand into Bella's apartment.

I felt the sweat bead on my forehead and my nerves kicked into hyper-drive as Bella turned toward me and pushed my back against the closed door.

"Give me a few minutes." She said with a nervous tone to her voice.

"Um...okay." I said but it came out more of a question.

"Deep breaths, Edward." She reminded me and calmed me, once more. "We won't do anything you aren't ready for, baby. I promise, I'll go as slow as you need me too." Her voice was soft and caring as she cupped my cheek.

I pulled her close to me and tilted her chin up to look at me, "I'm ready, Bella. I want you so much. I'm just...just kind of scared. I don't have a good track record and...well, I just want to be good for you." I hated that my insecurities had crept into this moment that I shared with Bella.

"Oh baby...don't you realize that you could never disappoint me?" She said with a smile as she led me over to the couch.

We sat down and she straddled my lap as her hands rested on my shoulders, "Edward, what happened to you in the past was not what love and sex is about. Those things were done to you from a place of hate and depravity; it was never about intimacy between a man and woman, that was nowhere near what it should be." Her words settled into my mind as she brought a hand up to run through my hair.

The simple motion of her hand as it slid through my hair relaxed me and sent chills down my body at the same time.

"It's just...I want to be good at it...for you. And, well...I want to enjoy it with you." I said in a whisper as she pulled my chin up to look her in the eyes.

"We'll take it as slow as you need to, baby. I promise...you will always be enough for me, in every way." Her eyes were soft and shone with her love for me.

I nodded my head as I tried to push my doubts away.

"Now, give me a few minutes to freshen up, then I'll come get you, okay?" She said as she scooted off my lap to stand.

"Okay." I said as I ran a hand through my hair. It never had the same effect as when Bella did it.

I sat forward and leaned my elbows on my knees, as I put my face in my hands.

Just as I let out a deep breath I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I pulled it out and saw a text from my dad.

Son, is everything alright? Did she say yes? Where did you disappear to?

I fought a small laugh and couldn't fight the smile that broke out upon my face.

Everything is fine. She said YES, and we're at her place. I won't be home tonight.

I hit send and stared at the phone.

She said yes.

Bella was going to marry me.

Bella was going to become my wife.

I felt a wave of joy wash over my body as I heard her call my name from the direction of her room.

I stood and turned to see Bella as she stood in the doorway in nothing but an amazing dark blue silk gown.

It took my breath away.

She held a hand out to me and I slowly willed my feet to move towards her.

Bella smiled as I slid my hand into hers as we walked into her bedroom where she had lit a few candles and turned on some music.

She turned toward me as we got to the foot of the bed, her hands came up to help me out of my jacket.

"I love you, Edward." She said as she loosened my tie and I felt my body warm up.

"I love you too, Bella." I finally managed to whimper as her fingers began to unbutton my shirt.

"I want to make you feel my love." She said as she slid my shirt out of the waist of my pants and then down my shoulders. She tossed it in the general direction of the chair in the corner of the room as I closed my eyes. I wanted to concentrate on the feel of her hands as they ran up my arms.

In my mind I knew that I should do this to her...not the other way around. I remembered what Bella had told me over and over again, there are times when we need to rely on others, so tonight I relied on her to help me get through this. Later I would make sure that I took care of her, I would return the favor she bestowed upon me right now. I stayed still and let her love travel along with her hands all over me.

"I want to show you how much I love you...how excited I am to become your wife." She said as her lips placed a kiss on my chest above my heart.

My arms wrapped around her and I pulled her against me, "I want to show you those things, too."

My lips crashed down on hers and we stumbled back towards the bed where we fell into a pile of arms and legs and heat.

I brought a hand up to run along the smooth silk gown over her thigh. I didn't know which felt better her soft skin or the soft material. I bunched up the gown with my hand as it traveled up her body. She felt so good that I couldn't help but slide my hand up under the silk that covered her breast and touch the bare skin around her small nipple. We both shuddered with desire when it puckered under my touch.

"Oh yes..." She softly moaned when I watched her head tilt back and I lowered my mouth to taste the light pink flesh.

My lips touched her taut flesh and I moaned at the feel of it's hardness against my tongue as I began to suckle. Bella slightly arched her back and I pushed the bunched silk fabric further up her body so that I could have full access to both of her breasts.

They were magnificent, perfectly firm and I felt like I could feast on them for hours. From the looks of her actions, she might be content with that as well.

"More, Edward... I need more." She groaned as her head came up and our eyes met.

I moved my mouth across her skin with light kisses between her breasts as I took the other one into my mouth. This caused a new moan to escape from me.

I was so hard. I don't remember a time when I have ever been this hard before in my life, or this turned on.

It worried me that I wouldn't be able to last very long and I had to quickly squash that fear or else it would ruin this moment.

"Edward, you need to get rid of those pants...I need you." She gushed as her hands began to finagle their way to the button and zipper on my dress slacks.

I couldn't help but chuckle at her eagerness. "Bella, you surprise me." I said as I moved her hands away and stood to remove my clothes.

"I've waited my whole life for you, Edward. It shouldn't surprise you at how eager I am now." Bella said as she looked up at me with lust-filled eyes.

Just the sight of her in that state was enough to send my senses into overdrive and for the fear within me to spike.

I stopped my hands on the zipper of my pants and felt my heartbeat pound against the inside of my chest.

"Edward?" Bella asked as she sat up and crawled on her knees to the foot of the bed in front of me.

I cast my eyes down, suddenly afraid to look at her.

I felt her hands come up to my cheeks as she slowly lifted my face to hers. "As slow as you need to go," her voice was soft and caring as she reminded me of her previous words.

It saddened me that her eyes were now full of concern as they met mine, "Let me help you, don't think," she said as she brought a hand up to place over my heart, "Just feel."

She leaned in and gently placed a kiss to my lips and I didn't think about the fact that her hands swiftly rid me of my pants and boxers.

Once she had them pushed down to my ankles she pulled me back with her toward the bed. I pushed them the rest of the way off with my feet as our passion reignited once again.

We quickly reacquainted our bodies as our arms and legs tangled within the others once again, I felt myself grow harder than I had ever been. Her skin was so warm and perfect against mine. I wanted this every day for the rest of my life, this was my definition of perfection. Her, me, like this together.

"I don't have protection, Bella." I said as a new fear washed over me, that we hadn't thought this through properly.

She stopped the sweet kiss that she laid across my neck and pulled back to smile at me, "I'm covered, Edward. I'm on the pill."

Oh, well that takes care of that, doesn't it...no pressure or anything.

"Take me, Edward...please." She breathlessly begged as I moved in between her legs.

I could feel the heat from her core as it radiated up her inner thighs as I nestled in between them.

I hadn't often had sex in this position so I once again felt my inadequacies build inside of me. But, once I looked down to see Bella's face as it shined back at me with nothing but love and acceptance, I knew that I would okay.

"Edward, I love you...it's okay." She whispered as I positioned myself at her entrance where the heat and wetness made my eyes roll into the back of my head.

I placed the tip just inside of her and felt my breathe hitch from the sensation. Bella's hands began to slide up my arms, "It's okay, Edward...make me yours." Her eyes locked with mine as I slowly began to push into her.

The feel of her warmth as it began to wrap around me with each inch I pushed in further was like what I would equate to heaven.

"Oh Bella...it feels so...so tight...so warm...like home." I murmured as I settled my body on top of hers once I was fully sheathed inside of her. I was afraid to move... afraid that the release come out that was already poised in the tip of my dick would explode to soon.

"Slowly, Edward...you feel so good inside of me. It's like we were made for each other." Bella whispered as her arms wrapped up under my shoulders to hold me to her.

I knew that if I focused on her it would hold me off for a little while longer, so I captured her lips with mine as my hips began to move on their own. I was overcome with feelings of love, of serenity and more importantly of peace.

"I love you, Bella. More than I could ever imagined possible to love anyone...from the depths of my soul, I love you, my bride to be." I was able to say in between my body's need to breathe.

Bella began to roll her hips and rise to meet my thrusts and I knew I was only seconds away from falling off that edge of ecstasy that I had always heard about.

"Let go, Edward...let go and fill me with your love." She moaned as she threw her head back and I felt her body clamp down on mine.

I couldn't hold off any longer. I closed my eyes and felt the flames shoot from my body as I growled out Bella's name.

Finally.

After all that I had been through, I finally knew what true love and intimacy felt like.

I couldn't wait to spend the rest of my life with Bella exactly as we were in this moment.

A/n: peeks out from behind the desk...Well?

Betcha weren't expecting that huh?

LOL...oh just wait...just. You. Wait.

He he he he he he he (insert evil laugh here)

Noone's even attempted to guess what the secret is...here's a hint...I'm NOT ready to let him go.

See ya in a day or two...

Kyla