Chapter 6

"What do you want McNally? Out for blood or just revenge?" He asked giving her an unreadable hard expression.

"You...you're leaving? I...um...I got your mail" she said stepping closer.

"Yeah so? I sent it for you to get it" he said stating the obvious.

"I don't get it Sam? I don't get this whole thing" she said motioning between them.

Unsure of how much of the mail she read & understood Sam was playing safe & choosing his words wisely.

"What's to get? There is no thing Andy" he said mimicking her hand motions.

"Well you seem to think so. That's why you're leaving. I translated the letter to English Sam." She said biting her lip & fiddling with her hair as she stood a few feet from him.

"And that doesn't mean anything. So you can read. That doesn't change anything. I need to go so you can show yourself out" he said flatly finishing the last of his beer & slamming the bottle on the counter next to him.

Rolling her eyes Andy took a hesitant step forward & raised her finger to his lips silencing him from talking.

"No Sam you had your say. Now it's my turn. What happened this morning was a blow up of miscommunication. I was trying to tell you something but you wouldn't let me finish before assuming the worst. I was trying to tell you that Luke asked me to move in & I said no. I broke up with him right after that because I realized at the Penny last night that he was not what I wanted. When I saw you after I got shot I felt safe even though I had just taken a bullet to the vest. I was not scared, worried or anything I should have been because I opened my eyes & you were there.
I saw the look on your face then & thought it was just coz I was your rookie & I got shot. Of course you would be worried. Then last night at the Penny the look on your face then terrified me. None of it made sense until Luke called last night & I realized that was not what I wanted. This morning when you left me in the cruiser I thought you're just being an ass until I thought over your words & I began to think it was something else. Frank asked me if I knew what your personal issue was& that added a piece of the puzzle telling me that I was the issue. Thinking about you flipping over Luke & the mention of him asking me to move in let me come to the conclusion that you were jealous. Then I read your letter. My heart broke when you said you were leaving Sam...Shit Boyd's still outside"
Stepping back she reclaimed her finger from Sam's lips & turned walking towards the door. She pulled it open & stuck her head outside before calling out "You can leave now Boyd. Sam's not interested & he is not going. Have a good life" she yelled as an afterthought slamming the door closed in a very pissed off face.

Making her way back to the kitchen she found Sam had opened another beer but was still leaning against the kitchen counter, his face a mask of unreadable blankness.

"Look Sam we need to talk. If you still wanna go when we're done...well that's up to you. But we are not leaving things like this".

Exhaling a deep sigh Sam pinched the bridge not sure of how to react to the situation or to Andy's sudden self-assuredness.

"I know that you have been waiting for the opening at Guns & Gangs Sam & I know it's been open for a while now. You haven't had the urge to take it so why now? Why run away & not fight for what you want? Why run off to someone else's life Sam? Or worse you could get killed doing that!"

"That's exactly why McNally! Someone else's life! In someone else's life there is no Callaghan & there is no McNally & there is no me! There is no chance that I can do that to you again & there is no chance that I will hurt you in anyway in someone else's life" Sam's voice rose as he motioned to Andy's wrists. Anger laced his voice as he said the harsh words.

"Sam there is no more Callaghan & McNally. That is so over. It was over before it actually even started. As for these" she paused to lift her wrists up all the time looking at them.

"These will go away Sam. It's not like I think you did it intentionally. In a way I suppose I asked for it. I should never have slapped you. I'm sorry..."

Slamming his now half empty beer down on the counter top Sam suddenly silenced Andy's words as he caused her to jump in fright at his sudden evident anger.

Taking a hesitant step backwards Andy felt the need to put a tad bit more space between her & Sam.

Seeing her reaction to him Sam's anger at himself increased to something he had never felt towards himself- pure, unabridged hatred.

"Go" Sam all but yelled grabbing his beer before staking out of the kitchen. He made his way upstairs to his bedroom & slammed the door, feeling the need to put space between them had turned to physical barriers.

Standing in the darkened room Sam was leaning against the wall looking out the far window, watching the street basking in moonlight.

Andy opened the door more forcefully than she intended causing them both to jump as the door hit the wall behind it.

"No" Andy said stepping into the room.

"No what McNally?" Sam asked before taking a sip from his bottle still staring out the window.

"No I will not go. Just what the hell happened downstairs Sam? For that matter what the hell happened to you Sam?" A lot of emotion was now evident in her voice as she still stepped forwards.

"You McNally, You. It's always been you. Then you got shot coz I didn't have your back & I just lost it ok? Then I lose my cool & do physical harm to you & you say it's your fault? It was never intentional but it happened. Because I had like six too many & could not keep my temper under wraps. I saw you jump just now & step back McNally. You felt unsafe so close to me & you had the smell of fear on you. That means that you're scared of me now & the trust is gone coz..."

Sam looked at her for a split second wearing nothing but a face full of remorse before he looked away.

"No Sam. I have always felt safe with you, around you. & I trust you with my life every single time I go out on patrol with you. Do you think I would be standing here alone in your house with you if I was scared of you or what you might do to me?

"Do you think I would be here if I didn't trust you?"

Andy took a step around Sam so she was closer to the window so that she could see his face, see his reaction to her words.

"Do you trust me Sam?" She asked in a quiet whisper.

"Yeah" he mumbled softly. "I just don't trust myself with you"

"How much Sam?"

"How much what McNally?"

"How much do you trust me?"

"With my life every day, same as you"

"Is that a lot or a little?"

"A lot"

"Ok then trust me now ok?" Andy said taking Sam's beer bottle out of his hand & putting it down on the window sill.

Standing close to him she whispered "close your eyes"

"McNally..." His tone was still rough around the edges.

"Please Sam you said you trust me so show a little trust here then. Close your eyes"

Curiosity was getting the better of him. Although they were still standing in front of the upstairs window he doubted she would actually try pushing him out of it or something.

Letting out a sigh of resignation Sam closed his eyes as she had requested & stood waiting for whatever Andy had planned when he felt her arms go around his neck & she leaned in smacking her lips on to his In a kiss that was unexpected to say the least.

His eyes flew open as he placed a hand on either of her shoulders in an attempt to pull back. Andy feeling his hesitation took a step forward. Sam's lips soon responded for a few seconds before his brain shut it down & he pulled away.

"McNally what was that?" Sam said astonished.

"That Sam is me trusting you with my heart" Andy said as she took a step back, a mischievous glint in her eye.

Sam who still had his hands on her shoulders pulled her towards him suddenly as he returned the actions & kissed her.

"What was that Sam?" She asked finally pulling away.

"That Andy is me confirming I already trust you with mine." Sam said sporting a fully-fledged dimpled grin.

"So no more Callaghan & McNally huh?" He asked seeking reassurance.

"Nope"

"So how about a McNally & Swarek?"

"Yup, I think that can be done"

"And no more a transfer to Guns & Gangs? Can you do that?"

"But Sam you have been waiting for a spot to open since I burned you. I did say after we talked if you want it you can take it. Doesn't mean I'll like it, but I won't hold you back"

"What? & break up McNally & Swarek now that it's in play? I know what you said but...what if I don't wanna take it? I was only taking it to get away from the Callaghan & McNally combo, but since that's not an option...maybe I should stay?"

"Seriously? I think I can defiantly do that. & by the way Tu me rends dingue". Andy said with a renowned gust.

"Hey I thought you don't speak French!" Sam said shocked by her sudden language preference.

"But hey, you drive me crazy too" he added as they still stood embraced in the window under the soft shine rays of moonlight.

The end.

Thanks for reading!

J.