After Caitlin confessed, Harry stood up, and didn't say one word. He just left. Jay and Caitlin stared at each other. "Are we in trouble?" Jay wondered.
"I think so..." Caitlin looked worried. "I think i just ruined it for the both of them... but she's almost 5 months pregnant and he just needs to know. I know Amber is not going to tell him and since Jesse already spread word... we didn't really have much of a choice, did we?"
I was getting ready to start work, when i heard a knock on the door. Who could this be at this hour? i didn't even have time for visitors right now.
There was another knock on the door, this time, more threatening.
"Who's there?" i wondered. No one ever abused my door that bad. "Open up." it was Harry's voice. I froze. By the agression i could tell something was wrong.
I took a deep breath. "C-come in..." i said.
I kept staring at the door, not knowing what to expect his mood to be, or what it is he would tell me.
The door flew open and a pissed off Harry entered the room. He slammed the door shut and crossed his arms. He just stared at me. He stared at me for what felt like hours.
"Do you... want to sit?" i wondered.
"No, i'm only going to be here for a short while." he said. I could hear the cold tone in his voice.
At that point, i just knew. I knew someone had told him about the baby.
"Is it... true?" he wondered. He stared at my belly, and i covered it with my arms. "Is... what... true?" i bit my lower lip, man i really had to stop doing that.
"The baby?" he said. "Is it really mine?"
I froze again. Someone told him before me? It had to have been Jesse. "Did Jesse...?"
"Doesn't matter who told me, what matters is you didn't tell me! were you ever going to tell me about this!?" he sounded pissed off, his voice became louder and it scared me.
"I was planning on telling you but then i heard about your new girlfriend and i just couldn't ruin your relationship like that." i said.
"What matters is that i'm about to be a fucking dad again!" he yelled out.
"You don't have to be." i said. "I could just pretend like it's Gary's and we won't say another word." i said.
Harry laughed. "Do you really think Gary is that stupid he doesn't know?"
I took a few steps back as Harry approached me. "You're scaring me..." i said.
"The hell with you!" he replied. "I don't want to have anything to do with YOU or that kid!" he turned around and stormed off.
I knew this was going to be his reaction. I felt the tears burn in the corner of my eyes. He was going to give up that easy.
Yes, i wanted him to be happy, yes, i wanted him to be with the love of his life... But a child not knowing who their father is... i just can't do that to my baby.
And maybe he was right about Gary knowing it's not his child but... why wouldn't he say something about it?
Harry hated my guts even more than he already did. Part of me wishes that this part of my life never happend, that i could just live a normal life with my boyfriend Gary, i wouldn't be carrying Harry's child, i wouldn't even be a mom yet.
I wasn't ready to be a mom.
And then the fear kicked in. I was going to be a mom and i had to raise this child alone. Once Gary knows for sure this is not his child, he would leave me and i would be alone with the baby.
I don't even know a thing about babies.
And to make matters worse, i had to have this child at STAR labs, cause it'll be a metahuman child and Harry knows all about them since he created them.
Which means that Harry has to welcome our child into the world.
Which means he would stare at my vagina for hours waiting for the kid to pop out. How much more awkward could that be?
Months passed and i've been trying to avoid Harry, avoiding STAR labs.
Gary and i have broken things off, when he found out the baby wasn't his, he couldn't handle it. He just couldn't deal with the heartache that was done to him.
Just like i knew i would be, i was all alone, in my two bedroom appartment.
I've been reading books about 'parenthood' but since the due date is getting closer and closer, i couldn't dare to look at another book, cause it would remind me of the hell that's about to start.
I've heard a lot about childbirth, that it's the most disgusting but yet, most beautiful thing people have ever seen.
To me, the idea of childbirth just disgusted me. There was nothing glamorous about pushing a child out of your vagina and people staring at it.
I even read somewhere that some women poop during childbirth. I really did not want Harry to see all that.
"We need to see you, Cait x" I was on my way to STAR labs, on my way i asked Caitlin if Harry was there, but thankfully, he wasn't. I know i couldn't avoid him forever.
"What did you need from me?" i wondered as i walked into the lab. I was barely showing a baby bump, which still amazed everyone. You would think i was at least 20 weeks pregnant, but here i was, 36 weeks pregnant.
The only thing i was really excited about was meeting my son or daughter. Finally finding out what i have been carrying all these months.
"We just wanted to discuss your birthplan." Caitlin wondered.
"Is there a birthplan?" i wondered. "I thought you couldn't predict childbirth."
"We just want to make sure of who you want to be there in the room with you." Barry wondered.
I leaned against Caitlin's desk, and sighed. "Well, it depends on who wants to be there, i'd love for you all to be there." i said. "Cisco, Caitlin, Barry..." i said.
"Are you okay with Harry bringing your child into the world?" that question still bothered me. "Every time i think of that i see me in the delivery room with his girlfriend watching us in the corner of the room." i said. "And him staring at my vagina."
"It's not like that's the first time he ever stared at it." Cisco said. "Cisco!" Caitlin snapped at her friend. "What?"
"He's right though." i said. I felt ashamed admitting to it, but it was all my fault anyway.
The elevatordoor slid open, and Harry stepped in the room. He didn't notice me at first, and i wasn't even looking at him, i didn't even know he was there.
"Good day people." Harry said. He then looked up and stared at my back. Harry froze, and he could feel a rage building up.
I froze when i heard Harry's voice. I really shouldn't be here right now.
"What are you doing here?" Harry growled. "I thought i said i didn't want to see you anymore."
I turned around. "You're gonna have to deal with it! cause you're helping my child into the world! "
"It's our child." Harry snapped. "No, it's MY child, cause you didn't want to have anything to do with it, REMEMBER?" i snapped at him. I walked passed him, but he grabbed my arm.
"Careful Amber." he whispered in a threatening tone. "Wow take it easy man, she's pregnant." Cisco said.
"I can take care of myself just fine, Cisco." i said. I looked up at Harry. "It's the truth, remember a couple of months back, when you said you didn't want to have anything to do with me or THIS child?" i placed a hand over my belly.
"I know someone who IS excited." i said. "And that's their big sister, Jesse."
Harry let go off my arm, and stared at his feet, i wasn't sure if he was building up rage or if he was actually regretting ever hurting me like the way he did.
I guess it was only fair cause i didn't tell him first.
"She texts me at least once a week wondering if i'm alright, if i can feel the baby kick, if i need anything from the store, if i need help painting the nursery, and where have you been?" i wondered. "You have no right to call yourself a dad, not to my child at least!"
It looked like Harry wanted to say something, but he hesitated.
"You have nothing to say to that, huh? that's what i thought." i said, i wanted to walk away but he grabbed my arm again.
"STOP that!" i called out, and slapped him in the face, causing him to release my hand to grab a hold of his cheek.
I wasn't sure what was going on with me, the only thing during this pregnancy was that i could get intensly mad, and i knew i would regret this once i stepped through that door and left.
I stared at him for a few seconds, and then made my way out of the lab.
"Are you okay professor?" Barry wondered.
"I think i deserved that one..." Harry moaned.