Title: Riparerò si

Author: me

Series: Katekyo Hitman Reborn!

Pairing: 4851 / SpannerxShoichi

Disclaimer: I do not own anything.

Chapter 2

Spanner awakes the next morning laying his head on the mattress like the evening before and back is arching. Shoichi is still sleeping and still holding Spanner's hand almost clinging to it for his dear life. Spanner thinks about standing up and making breakfast – something that's very rare for him because he usually eats when he's hungry and not to a specific time. He strokes Shoichi's hair slowly and recognizes that he forgot to take Shoichi's glasses off and so he does it now. As he stands up he frees his hand carefully from the redhead's who immediately grabs the sheets. First Spanner goes to the bathroom to wash himself. Working as a mechanic is a dirty job at least. After this he went out to get something better to eat than his usual microwave food, but not without taking a look at the still sleeping Shoichi. "He looks kind of cute." Spanner thinks and blushes as he recognizes what he just thought. So he leaves the room to get their breakfast. Shoichi should get a good one at least after the last night.

When Shoichi awakes Spanner wasn't there anymore, he was only holding the sold sheets instead of Spanner's warm hand. He sits up but suddenly feeling pain flashing through his head and he sinks back into the pillows. After a few moments he tries to sit up again but this time more slowly. As he looks around he can't see the other mechanic. Hesitating he calls: "Spanner?" No response. "Spanner?" This time he calls a little louder. Again no response. Shoichi can't imagine why Spanner should leave his lab, he almost never does. Now Shoichi's getting nervous and his stomachaches come back like always. He warps the blankets around him like a small and weak protection from everything around that could possibly hurt or even touch him. The green eyes never leaving the door, the only entrance and the only exit.

After minutes of staring at the door Shoichi's eyes get tired and he doze off for a moment. Exactly in the minute the door opens slowly but with the usual screaming sound. Shoichi wakes up again but this time with a small scream and seconds later he was bathed in sweat and panting. There was panic in his eyes. But then he recognizes a blond young man standing in the door frame. Spanner. Shoichi tries to calm down himself. The other mechanic holding a tray in his hands, closing the door behind him. He tried his best to find something eatable as a breakfast. As Spanner sees Shoichi shaking and warped in his blankets and sitting in the last corner of the bed, he walks slowly towards the pile of blankets, puts down the tray an tries to calm Shoichi down. "Shoichi, everything is ok. It's just me." While he speaks, he slowly reaches out to pat the blankets on Shoichi's head. The redhead twitches but doesn't turn his head away. " I brought you breakfast. I have toast with strawberry jam and even fresh orange juice. You should eat something." Shoichi shakes his head under the blankets. Spanner ignores this gesture, takes a toast and holds it in front of the redheads face. "Try at least." Unwillingly Shoichi takes a small bite of the sweet toast. This way Spanner feeds his friend for almost an hour. But for Spanner it doesn't matter. The only thing that matters was that Shoichi gets better. Step by step, bite by bite the blankets slide down and in the end they cover just his legs. After finishing breakfast Shoichi gets uncomfortable and starts to knead his shirt which he also wore under his uniform yesterday. "Would you like to change?" asks Spanner as he sees how uncomfortable Shoichi seems in his current cloths without the blankets. The answer was only a small nod. So Spanner stands up slowly to search for some new cloths for Shoichi. He comes back with a simple white T-shirt and a olive-green overall. "You can go to the bathroom and take also a shower if you want." Again comes just a small nod as a response. Shoichi stands up slowly and takes the cloths from Spanner's hand. But instead of leaving for the bathroom he just stands in front of Spanner and stares at the ground. "Could you come with me?" ,it was only a whisper but Spanner understands every single word from Shoichi. "I can wait for you in front of the door. Is this ok with you?" A thankful nod was the answer. Shoichi grabs Spanners hand hesitant. It was his way to say "thank you". This was also the only physical contact he could make in his current mental state. Spanner guides Shoichi patiently to the bathroom.

When they arrived the bathroom door Shoichi whispers: "Cou-Could you talk… while I-I'm alone…. there? I-I feel ….. … it would … it would be helpful….?" Spanner usually doesn't speak or talk very much but he nodded nevertheless. "I'll try to think about something." "Thank … you…" and with this words Shoichi disappears in the bathroom.

Spanner leans against the door frame and started to talk about random things that come to his mind: new science technologies, mosca designs, the new software for remote controlling or how boring the black spell meetings are.

While Spanner talks about all this, for him typical, topics, Shoichi hesitates to undress. He knows what hides under the fabric. But with Spanner's calm voice in the background it was bearable. So he undresses and tries to avoid the look into the mirror and the look on the marks Byakuran had left. He knows they were there but he wishes he doesn't knew. He steps under shower and let the warm water flow over his hair and skin. He tries to wash away the marks but it was impossible. But even after the shower Shoichi feels kind of dirty for what was done to him. He puts on the T-shirt and the overall pulling the zipper as high as possible to cover most of his skin. He catches himself by breathing in the scent of the overall. Even if it was a scent of soap from the laundry there was still a note of oil and iron in it. And with a little bit concentration you can also smell a breath of strawberry lollipops. Shoichi blushes heavy as he realizes what he was doing. Immediately he shakes his head to clear his thoughts, takes his worn cloths from the ground and walks to the door. When the redhead opens the door Spanner stops talking and asks: "Feeling better?" "A bit" Spanner just nods. The two friends walk back to the bed sit down and an awkward silence sets upon them.

Shoichi had the need for affection, he doesn't know why but he has the feeling of needing comfort. But there was also the fear of too much contact even if it gets better from minute to minute he spends with Spanner. The blond was aware of Shoichi's discomfort. "Can I do something for you?" he asks. "I just… I don't know… can you…. just stay?" mumbles the redhead. Spanner just nodded. He would stay with Shoichi. "It's just because I want to help you and I don't know how I can do something because I'm very careful with contact. I don't want to scare you after what happened yesterday." Shoichi felt guilty but grabs Spanner's hand and it seems that he just want to proof the blond wrong. "It's ok. You don't have to do this. Just try to relax a bit. It's just me and nothing can harm you here." Hearing these words really relaxes Shoichi and he feels better. He doesn't know why and it was absolutely untypical for Spanner to say such things but it doesn't matter in this moment. "Maybe co-confrontation … wi-with… the problem…. is-is the best … way o-of getting healed." says Shoichi with a low and shaking voice. "Are you sure it is ok?" Spanner was surprise. Shoichi wants to work up this cruel event as fast as he could. And at the moment he feels the difference between being with Spanner and being with every other person but he can't understand it really. This was the only a thought far away in the back of his head but it was buried under the fear that was planted in his mind by Byakuran. Without intention and deep in thoughts Shoichi leans against Spanner. The contact he makes on his own isn't this bad he recognizes. So Shoichi takes the contact he needs and get it from Spanner for free, without any equivalent return. Spanner doesn't care and he also doesn't understand why Shoichi is searching his affection but now exceptionally it doesn't matter to him that he doesn't understand. Shoichi is getting calmer and his breathing synchronizes with Spanner's and he almost drifts up into the land of dreams.

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