Drum Drum Drum

Thump Thump Thump

Was the currently melody that was taking place in her head. It was made organically from her own body. She's been hearing and definitely feeling this symphony for the past few hours since Ben had fled the Jedi library and he was off god knows where, she couldn't feel him in the bond. He had shut her out. Something she didn't think it could've been done but at the same time she wasn't surprised that Ben Solo was able to achieve the unthinkable.

She had no idea how she managed to climb up to the jedi temple when her head felt twice her body weight. It didn't take Rey long to realize that Ben had completely blacked out the bond and that the massive headache she now was nursing was a side effect. She was somewhat aware that she wasn't alone and the force ghost were here with her but she didn't know which ones had remained or which had left. She could hear whisperings of them discussing what had happened with Ben but Rey didn't have the energy to eavesdrop or even blatantly ask what they were talking about because this massive headache was enabling her to function in any productive way.

She rubbed her temples in soothing circles, eyes closed and tried not to think of all the memories she had witnessed from Ben. Specifically the last one, the one that had sent Ben over the edge but it seems that the more she tried not to think about it the image summoned itself. She didn't know how bad his childhood had been to the point where he would consider hurting himself. The memory didn't finish playing itself out before Ben had yanked them from that specific scene so she didn't get to see wether he had gone through with it, but if she was really was being honest with herself she didn't think she could stomach seeing a young Ben willingly hurt himself. That's what his loneliness had driven him to do…To attempt to release some of the pain he felt on the daily basis…

It was strange to see younger versions of Han and Leia interact with their child. She always assumed they were good parents, how could they not be? They were great individuals who had accomplished so much and fought for all of the right causes. They were sympathetic and always willing to give help. Well, maybe Han will need some convincing but he would come around. She didn't forget how Han had offered her a job after knowing her for a few hours! Leia, how she hugged her when they first laid eyes on each other when she returned to the resistance base after the Starkiller Base had been destroyed, and when Han had died. She had shown great compassion and trust in a person she didn't know, and maybe that's why Rey had a bitter taste in her mouth after witnessing what she seen.

She couldn't excuse or justify some of the ways Han and Leia had addressed their son. As if he was a 'situation' that needed handled instead of their own flesh and blood that they were referring to. It was clear to Rey that Ben had been incredibly powerful from a young age and didn't have much guidance through it all. She didn't see Luke in any of his memories but that could also be that they were withdrawn prematurely. She thinks he might've been around fourteen at the last memory so she knew that there was probably more, a lot more that she didn't know, she wasn't sure if she wanted to see…

But…

She also couldn't justify Ben or Kylo killing off Han… He might've not been able to handle his powerful son, didn't know how to guide him since Han wasn't force sensitive but still…This frustrated Rey so much more. She needed to find Ben and force him to tell her more because from where she stood there were somethings that didn't add up and she was much more confused than she originally was. She felt slightly guilty in thinking that, they were his thoughts and memories and she shouldn't force him to tell her anything that he didn't want to…but…she needed answers. This just made Ben more of an enigma than he already was.

Rey had to admit that Ben was justified to be upset was to why the Force was showing her things that he didn't want her to see. It reminded her as to when he had gone into her memories back on Starkiller base in search of the map to Skywalker. She could definitely sympathize but there was no way for Ben to confront the Force as to why he was abusing his privacy. At least Rey was able to turn the tables on him and invade his mind and look into his thoughts, that evened out the playing field.

Force, she wanted to cry. It really had been a long day. She felt her eyes sting as she felt the weight of todays pressures on her chest. That with a combination of this disastrous headache that she had she was just ready for today to end. She had no idea what time it was or if the sun had even set. She had her knees pressed up against her chest, forehead on her knees, rubbing her temples to try to soothe the pain. Kriff, today really had to end.

"Rey?"

Rey didn't have to look up to know who was addressing her. She took a deep breath and very slowly peeked over her knees to see the kind eyes of Obi Wan looking down at her sympathetically.

"How are you feeling?"

She knew that he was asking this with genuine concern, but she really wished she could bring down lightning with just her glare because she was positive she looked exactly how she felt.

"Headache," she said simply, she slowly raised her body to a sitting position as she cradled her head with one hand. She noticed that the sun was finally setting marking the end of this overwhelming day, she closed her eyes once again.

"He still has the bond blocked?"

Rey didn't want to move her head anymore and spoke, eyes still closed.

"Yes, he's not wavered for a second," she takes deep breaths to control her many scattered feelings and the pain her headache was giving her.

"His transport is still here so he hasn't left. We can sense him on the island so for the time being it's best that we give him some space," instructed Obi Wan.

"Why is the Force doing this?" she blurted out, opening her eyes looking up at the Jedi Master

Obi Wan looked down at her one hand stroking his beard thoughtfully, "Balance," he said simply.

She glared daggers at him.

Obi Wan looked at her more thoughtfully, he move to sit down right in front of her. This is when Rey noticed her was the only remaining and that Anakin had disappeared, she hadn't even noticed.

"Master Yoda had explained that this bond works best with transparency and honesty. You and Ben are in harmony when you're open and honest with each other. It seems that Ben is quite reluctant to let you into his past. The Force is nudging him to be more forthcoming but he's fighting it. The more he fights it, safe to say the Force will continue to do the showing in his behalf. I've never seen the Force behave like this, it really is interesting. Usually the force is vague but poignant but no, not in this situation," he stared off, small smile tugging at his lips.

Rey nodded, the throbbing in her head only let her absorb half of the things the Jedi master explained.

"Why the headache?" she whined, placing bother her hands to her temples

"Unnatural, the bond isn't supposed to be blocked. It's supposed to be open and flowing between the both of you. I'm certain you're not the only suffering this headache, he's going through it with you," he smirked.

She really wanted to find Ben and ask him really nicely to put down the wall. She was sure that she wouldn't be able to find him tonight, not with this pounding headache she's nursing courtesy of him. Kriff, she really just wanted to lay on her bed in her hut and try to sleep it off.

"You need to get back to your hut. Hopefully by tomorrow Ben will be more willing to cooperate," Kenobi said, rising to his feet.

"Have you met him?" she grumbled as she slowly prepared herself to rise.

If there's anything she knew for sure about Ben Solo was that he knew how to sulk.

Authors Note: Thanks for the support that you guys have been showing for this story! I know this chapter is shorter than the usual but I didn't want to leave you guys hanging. Next chapter will include Ben since this was all Rey. See you guys next week!