Title: Riparerò si

Author: me

Series: Katekyo Hitman Reborn!

Pairing: 4851 / SpannerxShoichi

Disclaimer: I do not own anything.

Chapter 5

When Spanner wakes up Shoichi is still cuddled against his chest. Quietly sleeping and dreaming peacefully. Spanner reaches out for the cupper locks carefully curling it around the fingers of the blond mechanic. He's very cautious because he doesn't want to wake his friend or scare him. The blonde knows of the fragility of the redhead especially in his current condition. But Shoichi just cuddles more onto Spanner's chest. He just blinks surprisingly. So he carries on to runs his fingers through the red locks.

About half an hour later Shoichi begins to move and blinks sleepy. Spanner stops in his motion but leaves his hand in place. Before he really sees what or who is around him or even remembers something from the previous evening Shoichi shuts his eyes tightly and curls himself into a small ball under the blankets to escape from the foreign touch. "It's just me." Spanner said and pulls back his hand. The redhead looks from under his blankets still shaking and mumbling: "So-sorry.", which was hardly understandable. "It's alright. Do you come out from under the covers?" A small nod and Shoichi comes out from under the blankets, still shaking a little. "I'm sorry that I scared you." apologizes the blonde. "It's o-ok… I-I just … I was just a bit ... su-surprised. And I didn't see that it was you … and got scared." Shoichi tries to explain. "But when… when I see it and… and that it's you, like now, it should be ok… You can… co-continue. I-If you want. I think… I-I have to ge-get used to the contact." he continues slightly blushing. Thereupon Spanner reaches out again very slowly and carefully. The other follows the movement with his green eyes and twitches a bit under the touch but stays still and concentrates on who it is who touches him. After a few moments he relaxes and even leans in the touch. But Shoichi still doesn't dare to close his eyes. He trusts Spanner but the fear in his head is bigger that the trust. For now he thinks about it: There is no reason to be afraid of. It's just Spanner and him. The blonde wouldn't hurt him in any possible way. And so the older relaxes more and more and his opposite recognizes this too. So Spanner takes another careful step forward and takes Shoichi's hand. He even feels a small pressure from his friend as response.

A little pause sets between them. But it was no awkward silence, it was comfortable. Shoichi feels safe and in the right place. He wants to take the next step and asks with shaking voice. "Spanner?... … … Could … could you hug me?... Just hold me…. a little?... … Please?" Without any words the blond takes his friend in his arms but he holds him not to tight. He doesn't want to narrow or even scare Shoichi. The redhead had to overcome the urge to push the arms around him away. But he let himself in and grows comfortable after a few moments. Spanner feels that Shoichi was uneasy at first in this situation and almost forces himself to stay. So the blonde caress the back of the redhead's hand to calm him down.

An outstanding person would say about a picture of this situation that the two would be lovers. But for them it is just friendship. At least they thought so until now. But both feel the change of their feelings for each other. They are not sure what it means and if the other feels the same or feels something similar at least. For the moment the only thing that matters is to get Shoichi fit to meet Byakuran and the feelings that develop only in their subconscious. Spanner knows very well how to suppress this feeling for now but Shoichi isn't able to do so and he suddenly feels his cheeks heat up even if he doesn't really understand now why but his first reaction is looking down to hide his red face which grows even redder when his look falls on their tangled hand. So he just shuts his eyes and tries to calm down a bit and get rid of the blush. Spanner doesn't notice the redhead's inner conflict and just sees how Shoichi's face crumbles a little and worries. So he leans next to the other's ear to ask if everything is alright. Shoichi just twitches from the blonde's breath on this ear and shut his eyes even more but nods as an answer. Seeing the red face of his friend Spanner worries a bit "Are you really alright? You look like you have fever." With these words he takes one of his hands and puts it on Shoichi's forehead to feel the temperature. "It's … It's really ok. Re-really." stumbles the redhead and feels his face growing hot again. "You are hot. Do you really feel good?" The younger asks but just gets a nod a response even if it is more vehemently this time. "It's really everything ok. I feel good when I'm with you and it's always a peaceful atmosphere and you are so friendly and the best friend I and everyone else coul wish for." Spanner just blinks in surprise but smiles then and thanks Shoichi who just realizes what he had and shut his eyes and leans back on Spanner's chest. He feels just too embarrassed to look in the other's eyes. Spanner doesn't need more, he just hugs Shoichi again feels suddenly this flustered feeling in his chest. He doesn't know or understand why but he likes it and again it doesn't really matters that he doesn't know. The older cuddles unconsciously more against the younger and holding his hand gives him some kind of security. This security grows to a height that not even thoughts of Byakuran could have crush this feeling of safety. "Spanner?" Shoichi asks again breaking the silence. "Would you… would you come with me to this meeting?" "The meeting with Byakuran?" Just a nod in response. "If you want so I can come with you. But how will you establish my presence?" asks Spanner. The other answers after a few minutes, while playing with the mechanic's fingers and more cuddling: "I will introduce you as my personal assistant. If Byakuran can have one I will have one too." The blond just nods and pulls Shoichi closer to his chest.

They don't know why they do it. But without any causes their faces move closer and they feel their breaths on each other's skin. First the tips of their nose touch and then their lips meet. Neither Shoichi nor Spanner really knows how to kiss. How should they. But when it happens it all just goes with instincts and intuition. They feel the delightful tension between them. Spanner runs the tip of his tongue over the Shoichi's lower lip. Again it all goes via intuition. But this step was too far for the redhead and he pulls away. "No-not this..fast… please. I… still… have these pictures in my head." He shakes his head like he wants to shake away the memories. Spanner smiles understandingly and just gives a small kiss on the older's cheek. A light blush could also be seen on his face.

"I will get us something to eat." Spanner stands up slowly but Shoichi holds his sleeve again and says :"We can eat microwave food but please stay." So Spanner sits down again and hugs his "still-friend". "What are we now? Still friends? More than friends? Lovers?" "I-…..I-I.. don't know…" Spanner just smiles and gives a another kiss on the other's cheek. "It's ok. You can tell me when you know it by yourself."

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