CHAPTER 12

HOW BAD CAN IT REALLY BE?

The day progressed, Katrina stayed in their chambers for the remainder of the day as Severus constantly came to check up on her. When classes had ended, and after they ate, they ventured up to the Headmaster's office to talk about marriage. Dumbledore then agreed that they should get married, and he was the only witness to the both as they joined hands in a way that it was almost like the unbreakable vow. The only words they spoke were 'I do' or 'I will'. As most newlyweds, they kissed afterward.

As the days rolled by, Katrina and Severus talked during their morning break. "Are you feeling alright today, sweetheart?" Severus said as Katrina lay on the bed trying to not be nauseated.

"I'm sorry, Severus. After potions, I just feel so…so horrible." she whispered, knowing she would have to leave her favorite class, let alone her husband out of her schooling. "I hate to say it, but I think I need to change classes until the end of term."

He sat on the edge of the bed, making sure she was alright. "I won't be angry, love. If that is what is making you ill, then we will have to see what else you can do, or, you can sleep in."

She turned her head looking at him. "That is the last thing I want to do-not be in any of your classes." She wiped a tear that escaped her eye. "I would have to take something I have never wanted to take before."

"What sounds interesting to you?" Severus asked, rubbing her leg. "Foolish wand waving or more Transfiguration would do you good. Maybe even Herbology."

"I have enough knowledge of all of them. Besides, Professor Flitwick gets extremely stressed when I'm in there." She some what smiled. "I thought about something I haven't studied, like maybe Muggle studies." Severus looked at her, she never really had an interest in muggles. "They are out there living freely. I just want to know why they do things the way they do. How they go on with their lives without magic."

"They are evil creatures, muggles." Severus sneered. "I wish some of them dead."

Katrina touched his hand after she sat up in bed. "Why do you hate them so?"

Severus conjured the potions book Katrina had been using the entire year. "Have you read anything in this book?" She nodded. "Did you ever wonder who the half blood prince was?"

She looked at him for a few minutes. "You are, but I never fully understood why you marked yourself that. I thought you were a full blood."

"I am not." He said softly, trying to control his anger. "I am a half breed."

"Why did you never tell me this?" She asked, Severus standing. "Why would you not tell me you were a half blood?"

"Not many know." He whispered. "Mother…" He growled. "…is a full blooded witch. Out of stupidity, she fell in love with a muggle, married him, and I turned out."

"Is that a bad thing? Your mother was in love with a muggle, and had you. I should get in touch with her and thank her." She had now been sitting on the edge of the bed.

"No you should not!" Severus said. "My father was a vial creature who I will despise until the day I die."

Katrina walked over to him, touching his back as he turned to face her. She looked into his eyes. "He tortured you didn't he?" Severus nodded, closing his eyes. "What did he do to make you hate him so much?"

"I do not wish to talk about it, Katrina." He used the voice that she always would hear, but not directed her way.

"Am I not your wife? Do you not think I need to know things such as this?" She whispered getting a bit angry. She looked away, calming herself, then continued. "I thought I would be the one to confide in about things like this. Severus, do you love me?"

"You know the answer to that question." he said looking away from her.

"Then look at me, and tell me you love me." her anger had returned, though not as harshly as before. "I thought that was what being married was all about-telling each other every little detail about growing up. You know about my life, yet you still insist on keeping your lips sealed about yours." she walked away from him looking at the opposite wall.

He walked to her, wrapping his arms around her. "Katrina Snape, I love you with everything I have. You have brought things out of me that I never thought I had. This hatred I have toward my parents is very deep and I wish to keep it there for eternity."

"It's in your past, Severus. It is not good to keep things bottled up, such as anger toward anyone." she did not look at him yet. Her anger still boiling.

He took a deep breath. "I will only tell you this once. He was abusive and my mother never did anything to stop it. He even hit her and she did nothing, though the last day of his-worthless life was the last time he did anything to either of us."

"You killed him, didn't you?" Severus nodded, knowing she would know this as well. "What did your mother do when she found out?"

He was walking away from her. "She had been there that night. I had just gotten home from Hogwarts when he was drunk, starting in on my the second I walked in the door." He sat in a chair as Katrina walked in front of him. He never looked up at her. "I had enough after he hit me across the face with his belt; his most powerful weapon, and as I looked back at him, with my wand out, I killed him. Mother was furious with me, saying that we depended on him for his knowledge of muggles." He spat out the last word as Katrina straddled his lap. "He was the first I had killed. Then I became a death eater and, as I'm sure you know, I have killed many after that."

Katrina gently lifted Severus head, kissing him on the lips. "I love you no matter what, Severus Snape. No matter what you were in the past, or how evil you were, I love you and only you. You did what you thought was right, and if you would like to know, I would have loved, and still would love to kill mine."

"Katrina, it is one thing to be tortured by a fellow witch or wizard, but it is the complete opposite being abused by a muggle."

"That is what you're feeling, that you were abused worse than I? Severus, no two people are alike, especially when they are being abused. Your parents and my parents are alike in the fact that they thought it was enjoyable to see their children in pain. I have been worried about that since the day we found out about what we made."

Finally, he looked up, shocked. "We will never be like our parents. I told you that our child will know that we love him or her unconditionally. Have I ever struck a student who had been out of line since you arrived here?" he was upset, and slightly angry.

Katrina took a deep breath, saying, "There is one you torture constantly." She could not help but smile as she said this. "And I think you enjoy it as much as she does." she had done it. She lightened the mood between the two of them.

"Why are you sitting on my lap?" He whispered as if he now just noticed where she had been. "Are you trying to seduce me, young lady?"

She smiled at him. "Anything for a excellent grade, Professor." she said seductively as she ground herself against him.

"I do not think this is in our best interest." She still had not stopped, though she unfastened his belt, unbuttoned his pants and zipper as well. "I must inform you, I will not be enjoying any of this."

Katrina cocked a brow. "I think differently, Professor. You have no idea the skills I have to make a man beg for more." her smile made him falter as she adjusted herself to him. "By the end of this class, Professor, you will be wanting to stay here for more." Pushing herself down on his erection, she slowly started moving back and forth. Severus held her hips as he pushed himself deeper inside her making her moan.

"You will have to do better than that, if you want an Exceeds Expectations." he groaned into her now bare chest. She started grinding herself against him, feeling the pressure build within her, he moaned. "You are so very tight. I want more than anything to stay here with you the rest of the day."

"Then you best hurry and finish, so you can beg for more later." she started shaking ready for her climax.

Picking her up, placing her on the floor, he whispered. "I feel you're in need of much more punishment than what I can give you at this time." He started thrusting himself into her, making softly scream his name. "Severus, please don't stop." She was near her end as she lifted her ass off the floor ready to explode on him. She did just that and he kept thrusting his cock into her wanting release himself.

His lips were on hers when it was his turn. "It is against my better judgment." he whispered. "But I quite enjoyed this. We will be doing this again, yes?"

"Most definitely, Professor." She smiled. "Say, maybe after classes are dismissed?"

He pulled himself off her, putting himself back together. "Meet me in my office straight after for your…detention, Mrs. Snape."

As the next few months went by, Katrina had started classes in Muggle studies, finding it a bit boring, but taking it all the same. By the second month of her pregnancy, she had noticed she had a slight bump. Getting checked out regularly by Madame Pomfry, the Mediwitch told her that it was normal for small women to start to show early. She let it slide, though Katrina let Severus know that she was scared that others would find out before term ended. He reassured her that everything would be fine, and if anyone did question her about it, she would immediately tell Severus, who would hunt them down and wipe their memories clean so they would not spread anything around the entire school.

In June, they had told everyone goodbye, and parted from Hogwarts to Spinsters End. Upon arriving, Katrina started her cleaning as she always did. Severus who had been in the kitchen making lunch walked out seeing Katrina doing what he told her not to. "Sweetheart, you must not over do yourself. Lets eat, and I will help you do the dusting and what not."

Katrina sighed. "This isn't what I would call over exertion, Severus. I mean I'm not stretching, I'm using magic constantly."

"You look worn out from the apparition here, Katrina. You should be lying down."

"And if I lie down how is this house going to look livable again?" She smirked.

Eying her, Severus sat down, waving his hand for Katrina to join him. "Lets eat before we argue about any of this. I want to know you are well fed."

Katrina sat beside him and started eating. The baby bulge had become exceptionally larger. "That is all I seem to be doing anymore is eating." Severus smiled as they both went on. "I have been looking at women in general lately, wondering if they are this big when they're only four months along."

"I am sure you are fine, my love." he took a bite of food before saying, "Maybe you're having twins." he smiled at her.

Katrina's eyes became large by that comment and replied, "I hope you're poking fun at me about my worries, because if I am having twins you are in for some very severe punishment."

Severus laugh was carefree and that was the only time that he would be so free. "I highly doubt you will be in any situation to jinx or even curse me."

"But, since it is me that you have married and so willingly had gotten pregnant, I will find a way."

"You are not allowed to use magic anyway." Severus said in his slow dangerous tone.

"Uhg!" Katrina said falling back on the sofa. "I had completely forgotten." She had been acting as if she were feigning having to do all the house work without magic. "What will I ever do."

"You will go to our bedroom after you have finished eating and lay down. Just like I had said before."

"I'm surprised you haven't made me do that yet." She raised her brows. "Would you carry me upstairs to our room?" Her face became a playful pout. Severus leaned over kissing her quickly.

Jokingly he replied, "Not while you look like that I won't. I might put my back out and be good to no one for the remainder of the summer holidays."

Katrina having not any good come back to that quietly sat eating the rest of her lunch. When she was done, she had gotten up and walked up the stairs. She knew that soon Severus would follow, wondering what she would be up to.

As the summer went on, Katrina had gotten bigger. September would be coming around soon, and she was sitting down one day working on booties, blankets and anything else she could think of to make for her unborn child.

In mid July, the pair had traveled to Hogsmeade to acquire about a house for Katrina to live in during the school year while Severus teaches. There is one that Katrina instantly falls in love with and Severus signs the papers to buy it. As soon as that is done, Katrina conjures up cleaning supplies and starts cleaning every room at once, while Severus returns the Spinsters End, packing everything that will be needed for school and to live in the cottage in town.

Weeks after they move in, Katrina is sent an owl and they journey to Diagon Alley. Transfiguration, Herbology and of course Potions will be her only classes. And, it wouldn't be some sort of trip without almost being caught either. One of the Slytherin's stopped Severus, while buying a new cauldron for Katrina among herbs that he had needed for his storage.

"Lovely to see you, Professor." A seventh year shouted. "Mum, Dad, come quickly."

"It is good to see you will be taking Potions again, Miss Westdale." Severus said in his business like tone. "Ahh, Mr. And Mrs. Westdale. Pleasure as always to see the both of you."

Katrina started to walk back to Severus, when she noticed the girl and her parents talking to Severus. Quickly as she could-in her condition, turned away looking around at other herbs that Severus might need in the future. She would have to dig out her father's invisibility cloak to visit Hogwarts and rummage through his personal store.

Severus had seen her, watching as he spoke to the parents. He wanted to get out of the shop, and return to his own shopping- or rather, Katrina's needs. "If you would excuse me. I also need to finish up on my list of things I will be in need of during the school year." The three bid Severus farewell, as he walked out of the shop.

Katrina snuck out without anyone noticing her, or her pregnancy and met up with Severus not far away. But, far enough that she had to walk past the ice cream shoppe. She turned to look at the goods in the window, but kept walking as her stomach rumbled.

As they met up, Severus smirked. "Think it's funny watching a pregnant woman drool over ice cream?" She smiled reaching him. "I wish, for just one day, you could have this heavy load, right here." She rubbed her enlarged stomach. "And then you can deal with extremely weird cravings in the middle of the night, and everything that swells."

Severus laughed, enjoying her rantings. "I do not love you any less, my beautiful wife." He grabbed her bag, throwing it over his shoulder, and walking toward the bookstore to get the books that Katrina would need, and look for more interesting pieces of literature that might spark his interest. "I will buy you as much ice cream as you'd like when we are done in here."

Katrina quickly found her books, while Severus looked around for anything that he found of interest. As of course the only thing that he had found interesting had been his wife. Severus ended up paying for the purchases and they walked the short distance back to get ice cream.

"Since you're spoiling me today, I had been thinking." Katrina said after savoring her hot fudge sundae.

"And what might that be, Katrina-hoping all of the ice cream you're eating is just for our child?" He laughed as he ate his own ice cream concoction.

"You are so very hilarious, Professor." She stood up looking across the table at his stomach. "I see you are starting to gain a little around the middle yourself." She sat back down, smiling over her small victory.

"When we are done here." He started. "We will head to The Leaky Cauldron for dinner." He placed his empty cup on the table, awaiting Katrina to finish.

Finally placing her cup on the table, she stood up. "I'm ready when you…are."

"What's wrong, sweethearts?" Severus asked as he quickly stepped around the table to hold Katrina. "Maybe we should go home. It has been a very busy day for you."

"I'm alright, love." She whispered. "Just a slight twinge."

"Fine." He answered. "But, I must insist I take you home if I think you are done for the day."

"I am sure to let you know." She told him as they set off for the pub where Katrina once worked.

On their walk, Katrina still had a few light twinges that she could hide from Severus, though she wasn't sure if she hid them well. Every time she sucked in a quick breath, he was looking at her with the most worried expression he had ever given her. They had made it to the pub, where they sat down and ate. Severus watching Katrina very closely which did not bother as it would someone who was not married to him. She enjoyed his endless attention, and the way they would insult each other sporadically through out the day just for the fun of it.

Standing as they were about ready to leave, Katrina grabs onto Severus as she is grabbing the bottom of her stomach. "Sweetheart." Severus gasped as he did not know what was happening. "What is it?"

"I think it's time to go home and wait." She groaned out in a bit of pain. "I think we might be having a baby soon."

Holding Katrina in his arms he aperated out of The Leaky Cauldron as quickly as he could. He told Katrina of nothing, but when they arrived, he whispered, "I would rather be safe knowing that it is time by a professional."

They had gotten a room for her. Severus helping her into a gown and then helping her in bed as they waited patiently. "I'm not ready for this, Severus." Katrina cried. She started to have a contraction, and her ranting about not being ready stopped.

"Katrina, you will be a wonderful mother." Severus whispered to her, soothing her as they looked into each others eyes. "I will make sure of it."

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