A/N: I'm doing everything all out of order because I'm so tired. I'm laughing at myself as I make stupid typos, I still have so many things to do, but I don't want to do nothing in case the power goes out tomorrow. Typical me. Kain's point of view.

Disclaimer: I don't own Vampire Knight, and I make no profit from this.

It was a Tuesday when I found out that Ruka was on the fritz.

No, not the fritz like a coffee machine or a washer. Ruka has times where she just can't work socially, where she breaks down.

Like that.

"Ruka..." I stared down at the aforementioned girl in my arms. Ruka was shaking, chewing her perfectly manicured thumbnail and staring up at me like a terrified child.

It hurt to see her like this. It had gotten progressively worse since we were kids, when she would just catch me alone and cry for a little while. Now it was full on panic-type disorder and she had no control over it. It broke my heart in every way possible, especially the one sentence that recurred in every single one of her attacks.

"I can't be my Mother's child, Akatsuki, I'm just not good enough." Ruka would whisper, clinging to me like I was the only thing keeping her afloat in a horrible world. Sometimes it was the only thing she could say in the worst attacks.

That Tuesday, I held Ruka as the others went to class, Rima promising she would tell the teacher that Ruka was sick.

"Akatsuki?" Ruka murmured, though she was starting to nod off. I was tired too, we had both been up all day, but I could hold out until I tucked her in, as I had done many times before. "Akatsuki?"

"Yeah?" I changed the position I was holding her, so I was supporting her head and she wouldn't hurt her neck falling asleep.

"Fix me, I'm broken." Ruka fell asleep with those words, leaving me to wonder exactly what she meant.

The next few months, I tried my best to help Ruka. I kept her as close as I could, staying with her whenever possible. In the third month since the Tuesday attack, I found that Ruka came to me more often instead of going after Lord Kaname. She made attempts to be nicer to Aidou, and she seemed lighter around Rima. Something was changing; I just wasn't sure what it was.

"Akatsuki!" Ruka dive-tackled me as she came into my room. Aidou took his cue and slunk out, he wasn't one to listen in anymore. "Akatsuki, thank you." She murmured into my shirt.

"For what?" I held her close, reveling in the feel of her so close to me. "What did I do?"

"You fixed me." Her words struck a chord in my mind, but it didn't register at first. "All I needed was someone to love me, to be sure of it, and to support me emotionally. Thank you, how can I ever repay you?"

"You don't need to-" I started, but she cut me off... with a kiss.

My first instinct was to push her away; that she had to be under some sort of influence to want me. My second instinct was to kiss her like she'd never been kissed.

She pulled away; face a bright pink and looking up at me with guilty eyes. "Sorry, I just thought... I didn't mean to... so-"

This time I grabbed her and kissed her. I was going to make sure that she wasn't sorry for that.

A/N: Ohh I'm exhausted. I desperately want to add to everything though, because I don't know when I'll be able to add to my one shots again since I started my Gundam Wing stories (ok, story non-plural, I still have to start the second one tonight). Anyway, I love hearing from my readers, so will you please drop me a comment? I would love that. Thank you for using your time to read my story, it means a lot to me!