5/21/18 update:
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5/27/18 update:
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"i know she's here."
the eldest one finally arrived at sakura's house on land. tsunade on the other hand was confused at this rate. she looked at sasuke and she noticed that his hair was down with all his long glorious hair flowing down on his back while wearing his black armours.
"yes she is here... what's going on?"
shizune on the other hand just told tsuande to let him in. it took her a while to let him in as she was now worried and confused.
"if you're looking for her, she's by the lake. why don't you just sit down first and have some tea? i'll call on her-"
sasuke turned his body around to head towards the lake where he usually stay and spend time above grounds.
shizune touched tsuande's shoulder and shook her head and they both watched sasuke walking towards sakura.
sasuke didn't stop his tracks going towards the lake as he could see the water mass from the distance.
the field of flowers were around him as the evening wind swept some of the flowers away and make it float in the air.
the scent of the flowers hit him like a wave. he was like a in a trance.
in a trance where the scent put him back into the past where the flowers finally bloomed for the first time after the war.
his legs kept walking forward until he saw her sitting down by the tree with her back on it while looking at the lake.
she was only wearing a thin white night dress while her long pink hair was flowing into the air as the wind blows. pillows and blankets were all around her as if she's planning to sleep there.
he also noticed that her dress was quite fitting for the weather as it wasn't too hot nor too cold.
he slowly walked up to her and this time, he was now getting nervous.
'why the fuck am i getting nervous all of the sudden? i'm the fucking eldest god of all of these weaklings and here i am getting nervous over some younger goddess who's centuries younger than me?' he thought to himself.
but his heart was now racing rapidly. he was feeling all kinds of emotions. anger, protectiveness, lust, and caring.
he hasn't felt these emotions since he was young. back when he was naive and didn't know better.
why is he here in the first place?
why does he care all of the sudden about her well being?
was it the feeling of attraction because sakura looks like miyuki?
or was it the feeling of something new that sakura just makes him feel this way?
he has been feeling this way whenever he hears her name when she was young. the first time she saw her when she was still a babe. when he saw her when she was fully grown. it was something...
but when the little cupid demon pricked him with the love arrow, his feelings just went haywire.
his feelings and how he felt about her was truly there.
it was something he wants. and never want to let go.
he needs to restrain himself because he has a lot of burden to carry as the eldest god.
once again, the fates are playing with his feelings, he thought. the fates were always there to mess things up for him.
always.
"mom... not right now, i just wanted to be alone." she called out without moving.
her voice. it sent jolts down to his spine.
"leaving the underworld without my permission is not allowed."
at this time, sakura's heart stopped and she panicked. she didnt move from her position and she could feel her heart beating fast. she doesn't want to see him.
she quickly turned her head around and saw him standing a few feet from her. sasuke, the eldest one of them all, standing with his all black armour and his long hair was down, dancing in the air as the wind blows.
she stood up quickly but sasuke's mist wrapped around her legs making her sit still on the ground. she didnt say anything but she could feel her hearbeat beating fast as if its about to lift away and burst out of her chest.
"why did you leave?" she shook her head and didnt answer.
she could feel that he was mad and angry from the way he asked the question. she could tell by the aura that he was giving. she turned her head away from him and struggled to get away from the mist that was wrapped around her.
this time, she felt her self been turned around abruptly and the lord of underworld was now in front of her, sitting down next to her.
"why did you leave?" he asked again.
this time his sharingan was swirling and his rinnegan also. she didnt look at him directly in his eyes as she knows what his eye powers could do.
"i... felt like it." she whispered.
there was no answer from him. he didn't liked the answer that she gave him. he wants to know why he left.
he wants to know what he did wrong so he could apologize for it.
sasuke on the other hand deactivated his eye powers and removed the mists around her.
"because you felt like it?" he asked. this time, it has a sting of sarcasm.
"eldest one please... i don't want to be around you..."
"no."
her voice was cracking, he could feel her feelings being thrown off from her. he could feel that she was about to cry.
this time sakura looked at him and started raising her voice.
"i don't want to get in trouble with your loved one... i... don't want you around me! I-"
the more that he looked at her with her sad and angered expression, he just want to pull her closer to him and just bring her to his arms.
to feel her warmth on how her energy radiates from him.
to absorb all of her feelings to him.
to absorb everything.
"I dont want to be wi-!"
but not even finishing her sentence, to her surprise, sasuke pulled her up by her arm and his mist lifted her up as sasuke kissed her on the lips.
he just have this urge to kiss her.
to bring her closer to him.
to comfort and console her.
as he pulled her closer to deepen the kiss sakura was trying to pull away but couldn't as sasuke has his grip on the back of her head.
he closed his eyes and tried to remember how miyuki felt like.
how her lips felt like.
how her body felt like.
how her kiss tastes like.
but... nothing came to his mind.
his kiss with sakura was new and fresh.
her lips felt really soft and plump.
her body felt like she's on fire but cold as ice at the same time; soft and curvy.
her kiss tastes like every single fruit he could imagine all at once and he likes it.
he likes this feeling.
sakura on the other hand, was shocked and never in a million years that she thought that the eldest one would kiss her.
she surrendered to the kiss and relaxed under his touch.
this was it. the moment she's been waiting for. the eldest one, kissing her.
she dreamt about this moment since she was young when she first met him. she kept wondering how his lips would feel on hers. she always thought that it would be rough and cold, but it was the opposite. it was soft and warm.
at the same time, she was confused as why the eldest one was kissing her. she's beyond confused but at the same time she doesn't want to over think too much as she was tired from crying and being down the whole day and the past couple of days.
hurt from the fact that the eldest one has someone else to love.
someone who he was looking for all this time.
but the more she thinks about it, tears fell from her eyes.
sasuke slowly pulled away from her lips but kept their forehead touching after giving her a small kiss.
her eyes were still closed as if she was dreaming but he gave her another soft kiss on the lips before she opened her eyes to look at him.
"eldest... one?" she looked at him and he gave her a kiss on the the forehead and hugged her.
"...why... did you kissed me?" she asked.
his grip on her tightened. he wasn't expecting for sakura to ask her a question like that.
was it wrong for him to kiss her when his feelings were about to explode?
why did he kissed her?
why?
"because... i care about you." he whispered.
"like how you cared about your people in the underworld?" she retorted back.
"i care about them but i don't go around kissing them, right?"
"you did... with that girl." she whispered.
he pulled her away from his embrace a little and looked at her in the eyes.
"look at me." he commanded.
she has her eyes elsewhere and not meeting his like last time.
"sakura, please look at me."
she sighed and slowly turned her head to look at him.
"my feelings for you... are everywhere. everytime i look at you, i just want to keep you close to me. everytime i see you smiling and laughing, i can't help but smile know that you're happy. everytime i see you hurt and scared, i just want to bring you in my arms and chase away all the things that are hurting your feelings. when i was enthralled, i lost sight of you. i was lost. i didn't know what happened until the dragon god gave me something and i realized you were gone. i was scared. i searched for you. i was wrong for not being careful... but... i want you, sakura. i want you."
by this time, sakura's tears were falling even more.
the eldest one... has feelings for her.
the eldest one... wants her.
"i want you, sakura." he wiped her tears and kissed her lips once more.
"stay with me..." he whispered.
sakura looked at him and nodded her head.
she put her head on his chest and wrapped her arms around him.
they stayed like that by the lake as sasuke knows that they are protected from outside eyes as the earth goddess protects the surrounding areas.
when sasuke noticed that the moon was really up in the sky, he looked down on sakura who was in his arms, she was already sleeping.
he softly carried her in his arms back to tsunade's house and laid her down in her bed, tucking her in with the blankets.
he sat down on the floor while putting his head on the side of the bed, while watching her sleep.
his feelings really did took control of him earlier.
he finally told her how he felt. and it felt... right.
for the first time in a lot of centuries, he felt at ease being next to someone.
someone like sakura.
he took his left hand and slowly reached up to sakura's right hand and held it. but as soon as he took her hand, she slowly opened her eyes and realized that she was in her bed and the eldest one was on the floor at the edge of her bed.
"...eldest one? why don't you sleep also in the other room?" she asked.
he shook his head and didn't say anything else.
sakura nodded and closed her eyes again and drifted off to sleep.
sleep where she belongs. where she can dream endlessly.
how she dreams about being in his arms with no worries.
in his arms where he shows her endless emotion and showers of love.
but she doesn't need to dream anymore.
she doesn't need to because the eldest one is right next to her while holding her hand.
that morning, sakura was the one who woke up last and she noticed that all of them were in the kitchen eating except for the eldest one who was drinking his coffee.
sakura greeted everyone and everyone greeted her except for the eldest one.
"sakura since you are here, we need to be extra careful and cautious. you need to stay here in the perimeter under my powers." sakura nodded while eating her ham, eggs, and bread.
"i can still help around with the tending of the flowers right?"
"of course you can, shizune here is helping me with some medicines, you can cut the herbs and tend them." tsuade smiled at her.
the three women all talked and chattered away while sasuke just listened to them and drank his hot beverage to keep him awake.
when they were done eating, sakura and shizune went out and did their jobs while tsunade and sasuke stayed inside.
"why did sakura escaped your realm?" she looked at him with sharp eyes and wanting to get some answer from him.
but sasuke didn't answer her.
"or you're just going to give me the silent treatment like you've always done?" then again, he didn't asnwer her.
"she got scared. someone pretended to be 'her' and threatened sakura."
"...who is this 'her' you speak of?"
"someone was imposing as the girl whom i used to love before. so far they're still investigating who plotted it." tsunade on the other hand was getting furious and clenching her fists.
"so the underworld isn't safe anymore then. should i should take her away from you and bring her to the sea god, kakashi?"
"and do what? that sack of shit doesn't do anything but laze around. she's safer in my realm."
"no she's not! if someone can sneak in and out of the underworld then next thing you know she can disappear on you like that instantly again!" she yelled.
"you need to calm yourself, tsunade." he warned her.
but before tsunade could say something, sakura came in.
"mom? eldest one? are you guys arguing?"
they both turned around and saw sakura standing there looking at them.
"no. your mom and i were just talking about your safety."
"my safety?"
"yes."
sakura walked up to them and hugged tsunade.
"thank you mom, thank you for being worried about me. I'm more worried about you than I am worried about myself."
tsunade on the other hand hugged her also and kept her in her arms while nodding at what sakura told her.
"as long as i am around, she is safe with me, tsunade."
if someone like an impostor can easily go in his realm, then he needs to heightened up his security... unless he has been... deceived, tsunade thought. the more she pounder into it, more wild thoughts and possibilities ran in her mind. but the more she thinks, the more it makes her emotional and powerless against her ex husband.
"oh sakura, my sweet, young one..."
they both stayed in land for a few days before going back to the underworld. when they got back to the underworld, sakura gave every single citizen of the underworld flower crowns from above land.
sasuke on the other hand was greeted by both shikamaru and neji.
"milord, we have news about the intruder."
"what is it?"
"spy from the sky god. we haven't leaked this out to anyone. it might cause a catastrophe in here and more anxiety."
"where is she?"
"detained at the very secured place."
"good. have you made any rounds around the perimeter?"
"yes, i figured after ino told me about someone. i went out with shikamaru to do some scouting every day and night." neji said.
"your byakugan is really helpful in times like this. thank you."
after talking about it more, sasuke instructed them what to do next and both guys left him.
when he turned around to see what sakura was doing, she was talking to karin and both were giggling over something. when sasuke approached them, karin was cheesing and teasing him.
"you sly fucker."
sasuke just ignored her and he offered her his right hand and sakura gladly took it as they walked inside the palace.
"you must be tired from the travelling we just made. i could have just teleported." sakura shook her head and told him that it was alright.
"i wanted to see more of my mom's vicinity since i never wandered that far." she smiled.
when they both reached the her door and he stopped.
"eldest one?"
"when you go inside, wear the yukata i gave you from before. it will be cold soon when night falls."
she nodded in agreement.
when she opened the door, she looked back at him and she saw him looking at her.
she smiled at him and thanking him for walking her back to her room but he didn't say anything.
but before she could close the door, he went in and close it for her.
he reached for her face and touched her cheeks.
"eldest one?" she blushed as she wasn't expecting him to come inside and touch her cheeks like that.
he leaned down again and kissed her lips slowly and sighed when he pulled away.
sakura touched her lips after being kissed and the eldest one's back was on her and left her room.
at that point, sakura realized that the eldest one doesn't really like talking about his feelings that much.
"the sky god was behind it. she was the girl at the summit, remember?"
sasuke said yes.
"yes, she was. keep her on a lock down. we can't let the sky god know that we have been fooled. how's the update and the news on above pertaining sakura?" sasuke asked.
"itachi and lee are investigating on it." sasuke sighed and nodded.
"why cant you just... marry her? make her your legal wife so the sky god can't do anything?" shikamaru gave him some papers that he needed to see.
"the sky god doesn't stop his hands lingering around. look at him. even though he married tsunade, his hands were everywhere."
"well, this is your realm. your rules. and you're the eldest one. so you're absolute."
"if im absolute, i should have gotten the skies as my realm." sasuke said annoyingly while rolling his eyes.
"the last time i check, the absolute one was jiraiya." he said sarcastically while flipping through the papers.
shikamaru shook his head and sighed.
"you might not believe in marriages but it does make a difference. talk to tsunade about it since that's her expertise. then again, its like asking for her daughter's hand in marriage. so i'll do it for you if you want."
"no, i'll give it some thought."
shikamaru shook his head and walked out of sasuke's office and now he's left alone with the pile of papers that he mistreated for the last few weeks.
the sky god, huh. this was interesting, he thought.
"i'm not going to fall into your trap this time, jiraiya."