Drunk lips speak sober words

Eyes fluttered open, gaze instantly fell to where the girl had lay in his arms the night before. The space was empty and cold, just like she felt. He heard the sound of the shower upstairs running, she must be disgusted in herself for sleeping with him and was trying to wash all traces off him off. He could only sigh and feel sorry for himself. He was so stupid to think all would be fine the next morning. He had practically raped her, he had only been there for his own pleasure.

The look on her face said it all, eyes tight shut, tears that shone like diamonds had run down her cheeks and all he could do was keep fucking her. He was a barbarian and he was disgusted with himself.

She scrubbed at her skin heavy silent sobs shook her body, tears fell from her eyes were instantly mixed in with the water and washed away in a swirl of water, almost as quick as her innocents were taken. Skin red from the constant scrubbing she had to get him off her, she felt dirty and unwanted. A sick feeling in the pit of her stomach, bile threatened to ride. What had she done?. Had sex with someone who did not really care about her. She trusted him and he hurt her.

Severus still lying in the same spot heard the bathroom door creak open, sitting up hopefully he soon heard her bedroom door slam loudly. His heart sank, she was pissed off and he knew it. Should he go up and see her?. His curiosity got the better of him, hurriedly he dressed and climbed the stairs two at a time.
He placed a soft knock on her door, unanswered. Another knock on her door louder this time, still no answer. Pushing the door open she was lying on the bed face down, sobbing. That was not a good sign. Even Severus Snape most heartless bastard in the whole of Hogwarts could not help but feel a little sad for her.
"Hermione?." She left him unanswered.
"Are you ok?." Still nothing.
He walked and sat on the bed next to her, gently he placed a hand on her hair. It was damp and cold to the touch.
"Do you want to talk?."
Silence overcome to room for a few moments, Hermione turned her head to face him, eyes blood shot.
"Leave me alone." The venom in her voice was enough to make him want to run with his proverbial tail between his legs and cower under his own bed.

"I'm sorry," He whispered meekly.
"Sorry? Sorry? You are Sorry?. No I am the one that is sorry, sorry for getting caught up in the lust and want for you. I am truly sorry for that. I was clearly just your play thing for the night."

Her words tore through his heart like the Hogwarts express at full speed. What had he done?. He had only wanted to make love to her, make her feel good and maybe just maybe eventually she would fall in love with him. All that was out the window now. He had royally fucked everything up.
Getting to his feet without another word he stalked out of her room his robes billowing in his trademark fashion.

A sorry from Severus Snape was one thing... He would rather get every tooth in his mouth pulled out with a rusty pair of pliers then admit to being or doing wrong and having to say sorry. And she did not even accept the apology. That really got to him.

But he was stupid to think he could have made love to the girl, he had never made love to anyone, he done to her like he had done to all the other virgins he had been presented with in his life. Fucked them hard for his own gain, raped them. Why he did not rape Hermione he still felt as if he had, he was really going to try hard to make love to her but how was he to when he knew no better?.

SS/HG

Hermione had tipped toed down the stairs later that day when she thought she heard the front door slam shut. She had stood at the foot on the stairs straining to hear anything, once only silence filled the house she knew he had gone and she could come out of hiding.

Famished she headed to the kitchen for something to eat, the kitchen stunk of old Ogden's whiskey, the bottle that was half full the day before now sat empty and alone on the table. Her head began to spin the smell of the whiskey lingering in the air. Locating and grabbing a packet of chocolate biscuits she retreated back up the stairs to her room, in the off chance he would come back sooner rather than later.

She sat on her bed looking longingly out the window. She still felt dirty, she was upset. She was convinced her first time would be a special occasion and all she got was pain, hurt and a man who had not even tried to make her come. Was she being too harsh on him?. She did not think so but his words rang through her ears women over romanticise everything, they think it is one big fairy tale. Was he right?.

SS/HG

Hermione was roused from her sleep late that night. Heavy footsteps heard up the stairs. A crash at the top of the stairs Hermione could only imagine was the small oak table that held a vase of flowers. Not long as she heard it crash she heard his scream out a few obscenities. His speech was slurred and she knew he was drunk.

The heavy footsteps found their way to outside her door. She held her breath and reach for her wand, a sober Snape she could handle, but a drunk one she had never seen before. He knocked on her door, well more like tried to bash it down by pounding his fists against it.

"Heny, Hemy, rmineo, oh shit, fuck. Hermni. Hermione, that's it, Hermione" He slurred.
She left him unanswered. He bashed the door again.

"I kno you don' wana talk to Severus right now." He swayed uneasily on his feet, leaning against

…. the door to balance himself up.

"But I am sor- sorry for what happened. Anyway Hermione, I..I Oh fuck" She heard a thud on the ground and could only assumed he had fallen. He got up and brushed himself off.
"It ok I jus' had a little fall. But I love you, Hermione." The statement was followed by heavy footsteps disappearing down the hall way.

Her heart beating hard in her chest now. Sober Severus Snape would never of said that. But drunk Severus had no inhibitions or qualms about saying anything.
And Hermione, the girl who had only had one glass of champagne in her life knew that drunk lips spoke sober words

A/N: There. He confessed his love for her... Even though he will probably not remember it and Hermione will probably pretend she never heard it.
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