Disclaimer: I do not own Alice Academy and the characters related to it. But the rest, I do.

JUNE 26, 2009

You let me enter your room and sit on your bed. I see my journal in your hands and you hand it to me. I read parts of what you wrote and, honestly, it doesn't make me mad anymore.

I look around and see white and blue stripes painted on the wall. Your bed was covered with blue bed sheets as well. I didn't know you like blue! I guess that there are so many things I don't know about you! You always have this mysterious aura that surrounds you. I can't explain it fully. But it feels like you hide a lot of things from people. Or is it just with me? Come to think of it, you talk to Ruka. He's your best friend, fine. I'll give him that! But you talk to Hotaru! You talk to the others! How come you never talk to me? Natsume, what is it about me that you hate so much?

I feel your stare and I bet you're wondering why I'm here and what I want to talk about. There are so many things I want to say, but I can't say it out loud. I still feel quite dizzy, so I really can't look straight or think straight. But it's not as bad as it was this morning.

I remember what happened last night. Honestly, I'm grateful to you. Well, I'm pretty embarrassed and annoyed at the fact that you saw my underwear, yet again! And besides that, Ruka saw it too! But all in all, I am grateful! Thank you for carrying me to my room and helping me out. Don't take advantage of my kindness because this is rare! And you know it!

You ask me if I'm not tired or if I don't want to rest anymore. I can't help but read that as a sign of concern and I just smile. You shrug it off and you sit on the bed. You look outside the window and you tell me that the weather is starting to calm down. I sit closer and look out the window. The rain is quieter now! I hope the sun comes out soon!

I notice that when I would look at you, you look away or insult me. In this case, you just look away.

I run my fingers on your bed sheets, and I realize how smoother and softer they are than mine! Unfair! I want your bed!

I did not realize how close I am to you already. I slowly move farther away before you could notice. But you're always quicker than I am. You grab my wrist and you look at me in the eyes. Those crimson eyes I use to fear are the eyes that I gaze at with amusement and awe. I have never seen this expression of yours before. Is there something you want to tell me, Natsume?

You come closer and I start to panic. You hold a section of my hair and slide your hands through it. My face starts to heat up. I don't know what runs in your mind at all! It's either you want to embarrass me or you just poke fun at me! You smirk at me and you just tell me that I'm ugly. I should have known! You're really annoying! But all of a sudden, you tell me, "When your hair is up." You let go of my hair and I try to process what you just said. I realize what you meant after a while. I feel your hand on my hair as you slowly tuck some behind my ear. You hook the chrysanthemum flower on my ear and you tell me I should let my hair down more often. The Natsume Hyuuga is trying to compliment me? Well, that's new. Maybe I am still drunk!

You lie back down on your bed and you bury your face on the pillow. Before I could say anything, Hotaru barges in your room. She's mad that I left my room without informing anyone. You groan and you just tell her to take me away. I try to protest but she drags me out anyway! I'm supposed to tell you something, remember? You're such an idiot!

Hotaru continues to drag me back in my room and on my bed. She warns me that if I'm not in my right state of mind, I could've done something I would regret. I don't understand what she is babbling about. Now I understand when you say that she's unreadable! She threatens me that if I leave the room, she will tie me up with ropes and I will never see the light of day. Hotaru can be really scary!

I lie in bed silently when I see you standing outside my door. You come in and ask me what I wanted to talk about. I just look at you. I've never seen you this concerned before! It surprises me!

You tell me that you just pity me because I don't feel good. Thanks for ruining the moment!

I try to think of other ways of telling you what I want to say, but I can't. So, how do I say this to you?

Natsume, I've been annoyed at you lately. You upset me at the wrong times and ignore me at the wrong moments. I don't understand you at all and your actions are strange. But this I'm sure of. Whenever I read what you write in my journal, I see this as a way of knowing you more. Whenever you write here, you give me an opportunity to see what runs through your head. These may be just glimpses, but they're enough for me! Natsume, I want us to be friends. I know we are already, but we never talk the way you and Hotaru do! So, what I really want to say is this. I want you to continue writing on my journal! I know you might find it rather odd, since I would get mad whenever you did, but I changed my mind. I really want to read more from you! And besides, I like how you write! I know that you'll find this stupid, but please? But I don't want to impose, okay?

Do you mind having to share a journal? Do you mind calling this journal ours?

Author's Note:

Hey, guys! Thank you for the support and the love! I'm glad that I'm still able to update in the midst of my busy schedule.

By the way, I have been reading a lot of stories here lately and I want to help you with yours by proof reading for you! I'm not insulting anyone or saying that I am a pro at this. But rather, I just want help those who are struggling! Actually, I ask someone to read my stories for me and remind me of the little things I forget when I write, like the articles and such. So, if you need any help, you know who to contact!

Spread "Letters to You"! And thank you for your continuous support!

~dancedaze