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JULY 06, 2009

I look at those beautiful crimson orbs of yours and I feel your hand that gently touches my face. I slowly pull your hand and lead you to a wooden wall. We sit down and I reach for the journal in your hand and I open it. I read your words – words that I do wish you could say to me. But I know you, Natsume. You would not want to say things that would make you feel uncomfortable. But I still wish that you could tell me.

You look far ahead. Your gaze seeps through the window and the sea that it can see. I bet you're terrified of confessing to me, but I am terrified too. I am terrified to understand the situation, terrified to understand my own heart. I do not know how to process my thoughts and my feelings. My heart beats so fast, I wish it would stop so that I can breathe.

I feel your arm reach over me and you pull me closer by the waist. I don't bother to retaliate. I lay my head on your chest and we stay this way—for who knows how long. I continue to write and keep my thoughts together while you stay silent and look into the distance.

I honestly never thought that you can feel the way you do now towards me. Everything that happened so far feels like a dream. When you confessed to me, my heart literally jumped out of my chest. I was happy—I am happy. I want to tell you everything. I want you to know what I think and feel. But I'm not so sure myself what I do feel. Why is this so hard? I know you can wait for an answer, but I want to tell you now. You were strong enough to admit and here I am, making you wait for an answer that I cannot figure out myself. Really, how stupid can I get?

I have my fears, Natsume. I am afraid as to what will happen after I confess to you. Will we be together? Will we stay the same? What will happen to our friends? How will they react? I feel the confusion dismantling my brain to pieces and I feel the anxiety overtaking my stomach – not a good feeling let me tell you.

My hands start to sweat and they shake. Am I that nervous?

I breathe heavily and I glance at you. Your eyes remain fixated on the small window. The moonlight shines and remains stagnant in our direction. You feel my stare and you look at me. Your lips form a smile, a genuine smile that I have been longing to see. You lean closer and whisper to my ear that I don't need to rush. You tell me that you can wait. You assure me that there is no pressure on me to answer back. You look back at the window and you pull me closer—I'm not sure how close we could possibly get.

We hear the others setting up the fireworks. I wish that we could be down there with them, but I am happier to be here with you.

I smell the scent of oranges and lemons that make me tingle. I love how you smell. My body shifts closer to you and I smell your shirt. I feel your other arm wrap around me. You hold me tighter and you kiss the top of my head. You tell me again that you love me. I feel the heat creep up to my cheeks and I bury my face on your chest. I still do not know how to respond to you.

Or is it more of my fear taking over and I don't want to admit that I do love you?

I look up and focus on your eyes. You look into mine and you release your hold on me. You stroke my cheeks and I feel your fingers move across my cheeks. Your eyes continue to gaze at mine and I feel your finger pass through my lips. I feel my eyes widen and I look away. I know that I cannot continue looking at yours without my cheeks producing more tints of red (I don't know how redder can they get). You pull my chin to make sure that I am looking at you.

Three words, eight letters.

How many times must you tell me? I feel quite guilty not responding to you. I don't know what I'm doing!

Hearing you say those words with so much sincerity makes me happy. I cannot resist your alluring crimson eyes. I cannot contain my heart from jumping around my chest. I cannot say no to you anymore.

I close my eyes and breathe in and out. I feel like butterflies are swiftly flapping their wings around my stomach. Am I nervous? Heck, yeah. But there's no better time than the present. I understand it now. I understand what my heart has been telling me, but I have been stubborn to admit or realize it. I open my eyes and I reach for your face and I gently slide my fingers down your cheeks. I look into your eyes and I know that I have never been this ready and sure before.

Natsume, I love you.

Your eyes widen with my words. I'm not sure if you're in shock because you did not expect me to say it or because you already knew and you didn't think that I would say it yet. But either way, I am happy. I am happy to know that the one I love loves me. You pull me in your arms and you hug me tight. Your strong arms and yet, they are gentle at the same time. I want to be in your arms for as long as possible. I truly wish that you could hold me this way forever.

You hold my face and I feel you coming closer. I close my eyes out of fear because I know what is about to happen. You giggle at my nervousness and you tell me that it's alright with you if I don't want to. I smile at the thought that you're being considerate, but it's not like I don't want it to happen. I'm just letting my fears take over again.

I shake my head and I slowly close my eyes. I feel a smile form on his lips and he descends them to mine. I could feel your soft lips and, surprisingly, you're not the forceful type.

My first kiss is with you – the Natsume Hyuuga. Who would have thought? But I'm glad that it's you.

You slowly let go and you touch my forehead with yours. You tell me that you love me and I could really feel my heart flutter. I respond with the same words and you kiss my forehead.

Fireworks start to fire up as it travels towards the heavens. Reds, blues, greens, and every other color start to explode across the sky. You and I continue to watch the different colored lights that gave more light inside our darkened room.

You turn my head to face you and you kiss me again.

I knew that this is a summer that I won't forget.

Author's Note:

Technically speaking, this is the last chapter. But there's still an epilogue if you're curious to find out about Hatsune!

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