Break My Heart And Kill Me Chapter 6: Tonight, a darkest powers fanfic

Authors note: I know I said I wouldn't update in a while, but I didn't think it would be THIS long, my computer broke down, like, three weeks ago and I just got it back, it took 4 days to fix :( but I got it now, and I can write XD

Disclaimer: I don't own DP or the song
P.S. The song belongs to FM Static but in this story Chloe is going to write it.

Chloe POV

I walked around my room, I was in solitary confinement, Andrew had thought it'd be good idea if I wasn't around people, but wouldn't it be better if I was…? I guess not, everyone's a bitch in this house.

It was a few weeks ago that Andrew made me stay in solitary confinement, I haven't cut or purged in that time and I was proud of myself, it just wasn't healthy what I was doing, but every now and again when I think of him I have the urge to cut my wrist so deep I won't feel anything anymore…

I looked out the window, the sky was gray and the world foggy, I watched as the raindrops splattered against the window and then race each other to the bottom; I listened to the pitter patted as it hit the roof, it was quiet calming; wouldn't it be nice if you could just turn off the world? Just for a little bit so you could take a breather and get back on your feet again, I mean sure the world gives you just enough time to get on your feet, but it doesn't wait for you to actually be stable. I haven't been stable in a while now…

I looked at my closet, my guitar rested against the door, I hadn't played it in quite a while; I don't know if I could even play anymore. (Yes she has a guitar) I picked it up and went back to my bed and sat down, I cradled the guitar in the way you were supposed to and strummed a few cords; it was in perfect tune.

I played with my guitar for a while and strummed out a few cords, I thought they would sound better on a piano so I quickly grabbed a piece of paper and pencil and rushed down the stairs, I looked around and noticed a note tapped to the wall next to the door. I walked up to it and peeled it off the wall, it said:

Dear Chloe,

We went to the mall to get new clothes and other necessities, sorry you couldn't come, you still have money over your head and you're not even supposed to leave your room, we'll be back at 10pm, behave and don't purge or cut, I've hidden your blade where you can't find it. Be back soon!

-Andrew

I looked at the clock, it was 6:00. I crinkled the note up and threw it, I wanted my razor back; it was the only thing I had left of Derek! How could he be so cruel to take it away?

Well, I couldn't dwell on that, maybe it was better I didn't have it… oh who was I kidding, I needed it! I ran around the house, looking in every nook and cranny for my beloved razor/necklace, I know this is stupid, I could just go get one from the bathroom, all I had to do was dissemble a razor blade to shave your legs with, but the one on the necklace was once Derek's, and I couldn't let that go…

I finally found it, it was hidden in a vase near the TV, I cleaned it off and made cuts up my arm, god it felt so good!

Oh no… what have I done? I promised Andrew and myself I wouldn't cut or purge anymore! I hung my head in shame; I was doing so good… I threw the necklace across the room and wiped the tears from my eyes. I got up and sat down on the piano bench, we had gotten a grand piano a few weeks ago; Simon would try to play for Kimberly, ugh, but he failed so epically it was almost sad. I played some notes when all of a sudden lyrics popped into my head, I wrote them down and played a few notes, it sounded just right. After I was completely done with my song it was 8:00. I decided to make something to eat and then play my song to see if it was as good as I thought. I made chicken and sat down at the table to eat. When I put a piece of chicken in my mouth I felt sick, this was going to make me fat… No, I am beautiful, I don't care what Simon thinks, I am perfectly skinny and one day he's going to be sorry for letting me go! I finished my chicken and felt proud of myself, I did it, and I wasn't going to purge anytime soon!

I sat down at the piano, and started playing my song, I played the intro and started singing.

"I remember the times we spent together on those drives
We had a million questions all about our lives
And when we got to New York, everything felt right
I wish you were here with me tonight

I remember the days we spent together were not enough
And it used to feel like dreamin' except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now, would hurt so much

Tears started gathering in my eyes, I tried fighting them back.

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up and know the stars are
Holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees and stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me about your Jesus
And how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes not having you here
I sing

I couldn't fight the tears anymore and they ran down my face, falling onto the keys as I played.

I sing, tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up and know the stars are
Holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight."

I played the last note and hunched over the keys and sobbed into my hands.

"Please come back to me Derek…"

Hope you liked the chapter, I know what I'm doing for the next chapter, but I need to figure out what song, so until I find out what song, please stick with this story, you have no idea how happy I get when I get a review! :)