I'm baaaack...Did ya miss me? :P

This is by far the longest chapter i have written. Probably cos i have 3 assignments that i am procrastinating against...and i now have a laptop that i can use to work on my chapter with! :)

Anyway, you know i don't own any of this, but i would give the world to own Reepicheep, or even half a centimetre of his tail! or the feather on his hat :P, but unfortunately i don't, so...

anyway, i shall try to update ASAP!

Caspian's POV

You know, sometimes I can't believe how unlucky I am... I have met the perfect girl, but she left me and even now is not what you'd call alive. I have the greatest friends ever, but they must go back to their world, probably never to return. My father was murdered and I was raised by his killer. Everything I have loved I have lost. And now it is happening again.

We were so close! So so so very close, and then that freaking wind had to die down. WHY? She was nearly awake! I swear, even her eyelids were fluttering, and then of course the stupid friggin gusts went away… How unfortunate! "WHY, ASLAN, WHY?" I yelled inside my head…or so I thought until everyone stared at me… See, it's happening again! Is Aslan out to get me or something? I know that Aslan wouldn't be so cruel as to make this kind of thing happen, but surely he could do something to make it, you know, not happen?

Ed's POV

Well, I guess it's all for the best, isn't it…but I don't see what a reason for this not happening could be! We were so close…I was so close… So close to seeing her become conscious, watching her wake, heavy lids covering cerulean-blue eyes fluttering open, revealing pools of kindness with gentle love and care emanating from them…at least that's what she used to be like. Lately she had become cold, distant, ridiculing any chatter of Narnia or magic, her soulful blue orbs hardening to become steely grey walls, never showing any emotion, her smile never reaching her eyes.

Lucy and Peter never seemed to understand how much leaving Narnia for the last time had hurt Susan. She had nothing in England, had left her heart and soul in Narnia. She had been free, able to be herself, and she had been a happy, noble, beautiful, gentle, powerful and wise queen, loved by all of her people, and those who weren't her people, but most of all, she had fallen in love. But when she came back, never to return again, she had changed, and they had grown to fear her, even go far as dislike her, feeling betrayed by the way she had "forgotten" Narnia, an act that she had portrayed so well that they never saw through it.

But I did. I knew it was all a ruse, and I knew what she was trying to do. She was trying to lock the thing she loved most in the world, despite how much pain it had caused her, into the depths of her heart and soul. And she was getting there.

I remember that last time we saw her. She had been getting ready for a party. The red lipstick and the pale white powder she was applying to her already beautiful and pale visage was too bold for Edmund's liking. She said it was purely a matter of fashion and not looking 'washed out', but I knew that wasn't the truth. I knew what she was doing. She was trying to hide her true self from the world, afraid that she'd let someone in, or that someone would see her real self.

I can relate, I guess, but I don't understand why she, Queen Susan the Gentle, would want to hide her inner self. On the outside, she is the most beautiful person I've ever seen, but for every drop of beauty that clings to her on the outside, there are an infinite number of drops of goodness, kindness and beauty on the inside.

I could understand if it was someone like me, the ultimate traitor, was to try to hide themselves, but her, the purest, gentlest, kindest person in any land had nothing to hide, unless you count the fact that she couldn't tell Peter that she liked Caspian until she kissed him and we left. But even that was just another gentle, nurturing, loving aspect of her.

But I guess she'll be waking up soon, and we'll have each other back…She'll have her confidante and I'll have the source of my life…Because she is the reason I'm alive… After Aslan talked to me for the first time, I was feeling pretty horrible, and I sat down with a sword in front of me, and I knew I was going to do it, knew I was going to run the sword through myself, but then she walked in. She took one glance and she walked up, and I felt for sure she was going to scold me, put she put out her strong arms and enveloped me in a hug, her warmth and sunshine bringing hope to my trepid heart, starting to unthaw it from the frozen coldness of the suicidal thoughts and feelings that had inhabited my brain for the while beforehand. We sat there for a while, her holding me and murmuring comforting words to me, rocking me gently, like she used to do when we were little and mum was too preoccupied to notice I was upset…

And then in the third year of our reign, and there was suitor harassing her and I knew that he would try to dishonor her, so I scared him away, pretending that the castle was haunted, and then Susan and I became confidantes, telling each other everything, giving each other advice, comforting each other, playing games and running and swimming and shooting and, believe it or not, sword fighting. Good times, good times.

"SHIT!" I jumped, startled by a sudden tapping on my shoulder, hoping it wasn't Lucy. She didn't need to learn any bad language… I turned around, seeing a tall, very tanned and manly figure standing hunched over behind me, laughter coming out in breathless wheezes. Thank Aslan, it's only Caspian. I raised my eyebrow, only slightly annoyed at being snapped out of my trance. I felt laughter bubbling up inside me, trying it's hardest to force its way out as I watched Caspian staggering about and falling to the ground, breath still only coming to him in short gasps, his bronzed face very obviously red, on the verge of blue from shortage of oxygen. I knew it was almost cruel for me to not assist him, but it was just too funny to see him nearly in hysterics, and possibly choking, though I guess that isn't all that funny…Plus, Su would probably kill me... I knew what would get him to stop.

"Caspian! Susan's waking up!" It worked. He sobered up immediately, the laughter on his faced replaced by an eager look. "What? But we haven't reached the island! Oh this is fantastic! It's fabulous! I know," he said with a grin like a child with a handful of lollies in his hand, "It's Fantabulous! Where is she? Take me to her!"

"I was kidding, Caspian. If Aslan said she wouldn't wake until we reached Ramandu, then she definitely won't wake until we reach Ramandu…"

"But she might! Aslan is always saying that he can't tell exactly what is to happen in the future, surely he could've been wrong about it, she could wake up early!"

"I doubt it… soon we'll be at the island, we can see the buildings and some individual trees! You just have to trust Aslan. If you do, nothing can go wrong…"

"Yes, but maybe there is a chance?..."

"Caspian, Aslan said she won't wake until Ramandu touches her."

"But…But…"

Now he looked like someone had snatched the lollies off him. I had to feel sorry for the guy, but then I remembered that we'd forgotten someone. Lucy.

"Oh Crap…"

Lucy's POV

It's like they've forgotten about me! And I don't think I'm that easy to forget about…I'd go and see what's happening but I have to watch Susan. I'm so excited! My sister is going to come back! And not that pathetic boy and makeup obsessed shadow from before. Well I hope not.

Edmund insisted that she still believed in Narnia, said she was just trying to hide the pain. But we didn't believe him. Peter was hurting too, but I guess now I kind of believe Ed. I mean, it wasn't as if Peter had fallen in love and had to leave his love in Narnia, never to see them again. And we should've believed Ed from the start. It's not as if he's lied since we were kings and queens. None of us really have, except for Susan, if you believe Edmund.

I miss her. Ever since we came back we never had our midnight conversations about this and that, and other things we couldn't talk about with anyone else. Whenever I tried to initiate a conversation she would shy away, or pretend to be asleep.

And then in the group scene, whenever the four of us sat down to talk about Narnia, she always just sat there, not talking, or, towards the end, she would snigger in derision and say "Are you still playing those stupid games from the war? Honestly, it's time for you to all grow up. Especially you, Peter, you shouldn't be encouraging them. None of its real!"

She always said that, but sometimes at night I heard her crying. I'd try to talk to her about it the next day but she'd just yell at me. She was scary.

And she never smiled, either. Well, not a true one. She would just tilt the corners of her mouth upwards, but it never met her eyes. Her eyes, perhaps they changed the most. They had transformed from a laughing crystalline blue colour to a desolate and dead grey. It was like the white witch had turned her eyes to stone.

Wait, I think I hear the boys coming…

No-one's POV

The two kings burst into the room, evidently concerned for the two girls inside. "Are you okay, Lu? We had some, um, business to attend to. Yes, that's it, business. We are sorry." Said Edmund, trying to make it seem like they hadn't forgotten her.

"Of course you had business! You wouldn't forget me, would you, you great buffoons?" She said, grinning as she went up and hugged the two men, administering a slap on the back of the head to both of them.

"Anyway, Susan has calmed down, but did I hear the captain saying something about the wind stopping?"

"Yes, it died down, but we're nearly in the harbour, so we shall be there within the next 2 hours."

They heard an excited, well, let's call it squeal, and turned to face Caspian, who looked as though he had gotten the lollies back.

"Really? Did Captain Drinian say that? How do you know?"

"Caspian, do not be so eager. It still might take hours until we find Ramandu." Said Lucy softly, stealing half of his lollies.

"Well, I guess…"

They all filed out of the room, walking up to the deck. "Captain, where is the telescope? I wish to look for the star, so that we may take Queen Susan to him immediately."

"Yes, your majesty. I shall get it immediately." Replied Drinian, shuffling off to the stern, where a minotaur had been using the telescope, before rushing back and handing it to Caspian, who took it and walked away to the bow of the ship, absorbed in scanning the island for Ramandu.

They were sailing quite quickly now. It appeared that a gale force had started blowing, and storm clouds had come up behind them. They had to get to the island, and fast. They all knew that, with the ship already struck by a leak, a storm would potentially sink them. Caspian hurried below deck to join those in the crew that had begun to row again.

Lucy had gone to Susan's cabin and had tried to see if it was her that was causing the storm. It wasn't. She was laying with her brown hair spread around the pillow, her head sunken into the soft feathers, a small smile on her face exuded an aura of calm.

She walked out of the room and hurried down to the oarsmen, urging them to hurry on as this was a sea storm, not one created by Susan. The sea storms in the east were known to be strong, deadly even. They had to dock soon. The storm was getting closer, they could hear faint rumbles of thunder and they still had nearly an hour left until they reached the island, unless the current went with them and decide to give them a helping hand.

Lucy's POV

There's a storm coming, and unless we get to the island before the storm, we may not get there at all! If only there was some way to change the direction of the current or make the wind str- Susan!

I, for want of a better word, tripped down the stairwell to Su's cabin, barging in and sitting next to her.

"Susan," I hissed, "Su, can you hear me? You have to make the weather better, or make the wind stronger or something! There's a storm and without your help we will all surely perish! Please Su, do something!" I pleaded, repeating myself for what seemed like hours, begging her to come to her aid. I had no doubt about her hearing, for her brow seemed to furrow when she heard or registered the concern in my voice. For a second her face wrinkled up in a face that, even in a coma, portrayed concentration, and I heard whoops and shouts from the deck.

I murmured a quick " Thankyou, Su" before running up to the deck to make sure that what I thought had happened had been what had happened and not something bad again. I was right, we could see the wind, and that was when it hit me. It wasn't actual wind. I knew what these were.

Thousands of wind nymphs were flying straight into our sails, propelling us along at top speeds to the island, encouraged by Su. Relief and awe washed over me like one of the crashing waves of the ocean surrounding us. It was such an honour to have the wind nymphs show themselves to us, let alone help us!

By our darling pighead captain's calculations, with the wind nymphs assistance, we will reach the island within thirty minutes! Oh gosh! Oh golly! Oh my! "!" I screeched, excitement buzzing in me so much that it was impossible to contain. I ran to the boys, shouting with glee.

" We are only thirty minutes away from the island! Can you believe it? Susan will be awake in thirty minutes!"

Caspian's POV

"..awake in thirty minutes!" I know that I should be nothing but excited, but I can't help but feel extremely nervous and...well…nauseated. Will she still have feelings for me when she wakes? Will she be the same gentle, intelligent, loving woman she once was? Did she have a suitor? I had so many questions, so many uncertainties that wouldn't be eased until she had awoken to subjugate them.

I guess I won't have to wait long. I don't know what I will do if she doesn't want anything to do with me. I don't know if I could live without her. If she hadn't seen me for a year, chances are she's moved on and doesn't love me.

I know what I will do. When we land I will find Ramandu and send him down to Susan, then I shall leave and not come back until I am sure if she likes me or not. I think I shall ask Edmund to send me a message or give me a sign or something when she says if she likes me or not. Yes, that is what I shall do.

"Edmund, may I ask you something?"

"Of course, Caspian."

"When we arrive, if I leave when Susan wakes up, will you signal me to tell me if she still has feelings for me?" I asked nervously, trying to anticipate and gauge his reaction. His brow furrowed.

"Most certainly not, Caspian. Susan definitely has feelings for you. I can guarantee it. Some nights I could hear her crying your name. And if I know Susan, which I do, she will want you there when she wakes up."

I guess what he said was true. I should've known better.

Drinian's POV

I do wish that Queen Lucy would mind her own business and let the men do their work. She should be sitting with Susan and embroidering and sewing. What are those creatures that were smashing themselves into the sails anyway? Queen Lucy needs to learn her place.

Though I must, of course, admit that those weird creatures are moving us towards the island quicker. I suppose that I should be grateful, as these creatures will probably save our lives, but as captain and a man, I should be able to get us out of this situation anyway.

At any rate, Queen Lucy must be taught that women can't do anything useful.

Edmund's POV

I cannot believe that Caspian would think that Su didn't love him anymore. What kind of person does he think that she is? She left her heart here in Narnia with him, but I guess he doesn't have faith in them. He doesn't deserve her if he can't trust in them.

"Caspian, as Susan's brother, it is my duty to tell you that if you have no faith in you and your love, then you don't deserve her or her love!" I fumed, not sure why I was so upset. I mean, his concerns were legit, but I believe that he should take the risk.

"But Edmu-" Caspian began.

Caspian's POV

"No Caspian. If you want my sister, and if you truly love her, take a chance and be a man. Be someone deserving of her love!" Edmund shouted, storming out and slamming the door, leaving me to contemplate what to do.

Well, obviously i am no good at cliffhangers, but next chapter might feature the big waking up scene!

Do you guys reckon i should do a small fluff chapter between Su and Cas or Su and Ed? Or should i just continue with the story.

I don't mind constructive criticism, so tell me what you think!

xx, Mel